《失落拱极星ABO》作者：翡冷萃
《Lost Polaris ABO》Author: Fei Leng Cu

　　拱极星（Circumpolar stars），是指位于某一特定纬度的观测者所看到的围绕在天极周围永不落下的恒星。
Circumpolar stars are stars that appear to circle the celestial poles and never set in the sky, as seen by an observer at a specific latitude.

　　聿严x松和
Lü Yan x Song He

第1章
Chapter 1

　　“不需要我守门？”松和被这个问题问倒，脑筋转得慢，良久才说，“那应该是战争结束以后了吧，不守门的话，就随便找颗宜居带的小行星，养一群羊，早晨喝羊奶，晚上吃奶酪。”
“Don’t need me to guard?” Song He was taken aback by the question, his mind slow to turn, and only after a long while did he say, “That should be after the war ends. If not guarding, just find a small asteroid in the habitable zone, raise a flock of sheep, drink sheep milk in the morning, and eat cheese at night.”

　　“住哪都行，有羊是最重要的。”松和改口道。
“Anywhere is fine, having sheep is the most important.” Song He changed his tune.

　　43号辅星上，来闲聊的同期扫了眼监控走廊的显示屏，突然叫他：“松和，主帅进来了。”
On 辅星 43 号, a classmate who came to chat glanced at the surveillance screen of the corridor and suddenly called out, “Song He, the commander is here.”

　　话音未落时身后已传来脚步声，犯困但仍正襟危坐的松和快速起立，站姿挺拔，转身后，门被打开。
Before the words even finished, footsteps came from behind. Still sleepy but sitting up straight, Song He quickly stood up, his posture upright, and after turning around, the door was opened.

　　“士兵松和！”
“Soldier Matsuba!”

　　“到！长官！”
“Here,长官！”

　　“报出你的编号！”
“State your designation!”

　　“E000297！守门人松和！”
“E000297! Gatekeeper Matsuba!”

　　“松和。”跟在43号辅星主帅身后的陌生军官上前一步，向松和亮出证件，“我是负责聿严上将在主星事务的秘书长，尤竞。”
“Song He.” A strange officer stepped forward, following behind the commander of 辅星 43, and showed Song He his credentials, “I am You Jing, the secretary in charge of General Yu Yan’s affairs on the main star.”

　　聿严的名字并不陌生，倒不是因为松和与他相熟。
The name Yu Yan was not unfamiliar, not because Song He was acquainted with him.

　　他是这场战争的总将，也是有史以来最年轻的上将，这个月刚刚结束在创世之柱的一场大规模冲突，敌军退到距离创世之柱35光年以外，他才回到主星。
He was the commander of this war, and the youngest general in history. He had just returned to the main star after concluding a large-scale conflict at the Pillar of Creation, where the enemy forces had retreated beyond 35 light-years from the Pillar of Creation.

　　昨天松和还在转播上看到他下飞船的画面，镜头追逐着他冷漠的侧脸，万民拥护，气氛狂热。
Yesterday, Song He had seen him disembarking from his spaceship on the broadcast, the camera tracking his cold side profile as thousands cheered and the atmosphere was fervent.

　　跟松和一样，所有生在这个时代的人，没有人不尊敬聿严。
Like Song He, no one born in this era did not respect Yu Yan.

　　但是短暂的时间里，可能是因为疲惫，所以松和没能把对方话里的“聿严”两个字好好领会和理解，只是又习惯性地对尤竞敬个军礼：“长官好！”
But for a brief moment, perhaps due to fatigue, Song He failed to fully grasp and understand the two characters "Yu Yan" in the other's words, and habitually saluted Jun Jing again: "长官好！"

　　“你好。”
"Hello."

　　尤竞面色严肃，在确认过松和的各项信息之后，转脸对带他来的主帅点点头，主帅便道：“松和，你跟我来。”
Jun Jing's expression was serious. After confirming Song He's various information, he turned to the commander who had brought him and nodded. The commander then said, "Song He, come with me."

　　松和便一路跟出去，穿过由他负责看守的“门”的长长的走廊，经空舱回到地面，上车，下车，进入军部大楼。
Meng and Bian followed him all the way out, through the long corridor guarded by him, back to the ground via an empty cabin, got on the vehicle, got off, and entered the military building.

　　直到房间里再次只剩下他和43号辅星主帅还有尤竞的时候，松和才开始了解对方此行的目的。
It wasn't until the room was left with only him, the Commander of 辅星 43, and You Jing that Meng and Bian began to understand the purpose of the other's visit.

　　毫无疑问，这场在他稍微有些犯困的情况下发生的谈话，应该是特级加密级别。
There was no doubt that this conversation, which took place while he was slightly dozing off, should be at a top-level encryption level.

　　因为尤竞话里的意思是，聿严又发情了。
Because the meaning behind You Jing's words was that Yu Yan had gone into heat again.

　　聿严作为这场已经持续了二十年之久的战争的主脑，他的任何信息，包括但不限于信息素级别、血型、健康时体温甚至饮食偏好等，原本都属于特级加密内容，更别说他的发情期。
As the mastermind behind this war that has already lasted for twenty years, any information about Yu Yan, including but not limited to his pheromone level, blood type, normal body temperature, and even dietary preferences, originally belonged to top-level encrypted content, let alone his heat cycle.

　　还是极热发情期。
Still in the peak heat phase.

　　体格健壮、体力旺盛的alpha们普遍都有发情期，但抑制剂早在百年以前就已经很好地解决了这个问题，无论在人道主义还是社会安定方面，都贡献了它显著的力量。
Alpha males who are physically robust and full of stamina generally have a heat cycle, but suppressants have long since solved this problem a hundred years ago, contributing significantly to both humanitarianism and social stability.

　　但是既然alpha的信息素有强弱之分，那么相对应的，发情期也是如此。
However, since alpha pheromones vary in strength, correspondingly, their heat cycles do as well.

　　现代技术下制造的抑制剂可以完美应对普通alpha的发情期，但信息素为S级的alpha，除了普通、规律、可控的发情期以外，还有另外一种发生频率普遍来说极低，但是无法预测，偶发性强，最重要的，没有任何替代手段可以应对的发情期。
Inhibitors manufactured with modern technology can perfectly handle the estrus period of ordinary alphas, but alphas with S-level pheromones, apart from the ordinary, regular, and controllable estrus period, also have another type of estrus period that occurs with extremely low frequency in general but is unpredictable, highly sporadic, and most importantly, there is no alternative method to deal with it.

　　医学上把它叫做极热发情期。
Medically, it is called the hyperheat estrus period.

　　虽然很大可能终生都不会发作一次，但只要到来，S级alpha的极热发情期就只有在投情型omega（Empathy，E型omega）的安抚下才能得到有效缓解。
Although it is highly likely that it may never occur in a lifetime, as soon as it arrives, the hyperheat estrus period of S-level alphas can only be effectively alleviated by the comfort of a mating-type omega (Empathy, E-type omega).

　　这是生理常识，对松和来说，常识程度等同于便后洗手，睡前刷牙。
This is common physiological knowledge, to Song and, it is equivalent to washing hands after defecation and brushing teeth before sleeping.

　　因为他就是投情型omega，简称E型omega。
Because he is a Relationship-Oriented Omega,简称 RO Omega.

　　松和手里捏着刚才尤竞递还给他的信息卡，上面还显示在尤竞反复检查过的那一页：松和，E型omega，编号000297，性别男，投情唤醒能力98.7，等级：A+++++，婚恋状况：单身。
Song He held the information card that You Jing had just returned to him, still displaying the page that You Jing had repeatedly checked: Song He, RO Omega, ID 000297, Gender: Male, Relationship Awakening Ability: 98.7, Rank: A+++++, Relationship Status: Single.

　　omega的信息素一般不具备作战能力，因此只有跟S级alpha有着密不可分的关系的投情型omega才有评级这一项，用来表明他们投情能力的大小。
Omega's pheromones generally do not possess combat capabilities, so only Relationship-Oriented Omegas with an inseparable relationship with S-Class Alphas have a ranking, used to indicate the strength of their relationship abilities.

　　A级已经罕见，后面的加号越多，就越证明这个E型omega的独一无二。
A-Class is already rare, and the more plus signs that follow, the more it proves the uniqueness of this RO Omega.

　　虽然社会对alpha和omega的偏见早在漫长的争论和革新中被洗刷，但在S级alpha受万人追捧的战争年代，分化成为一个E型omega，仍代表着他属于少数群体，意味着他将注定在某一天被信息素支配，更意味着生来就理所应当要为S级alpha奉献。
Although society's prejudice against alphas and omegas has long been washed away through prolonged debates and reforms, in the war era where S-class alphas are adored by the masses, being classified as an E-type omega still signifies that he belongs to a minority group, meaning he is destined to be dominated by pheromones one day, and more importantly, it means he is inherently supposed to dedicate himself to S-class alphas.

　　上了战场以后的情况要好一些，毕竟人们对战争都是恐惧的，而对那些疲奔在保护他们的第一线上的士兵，人们就理应是尊敬的，即便他是一个E型omega。
The situation on the battlefield is somewhat better, after all, people are afraid of war, and those soldiers who are exhausted fighting on the front lines to protect them should naturally be respected, even if he is an E-type omega.

　　现实确实是这样的，曾经松和的父亲也这么想，所以当他倒在43号辅星的“门”后时，他才把职责传给了松和。
Reality is indeed like this; Gao Song's father once thought the same way, so when he fell behind the "door" of 辅星 No. 43, he passed on his duty to Gao Song.

　　他说：“松和，守门就是你的命，为了门付出性命不可怕，终生做一个投情omega才可怕。”
He said, "Gao Song, guarding the door is your fate. To die for the door is not frightening, but to spend your entire life as a mating omega is truly frightening."

　　说完以后他就死了，如他所愿，作为一个守门人，而不是编号为E000029的omega。
After speaking, he died, as he had wished, as a guardian, not as the omega numbered E000029.

　　“最近上将一直太忙，没有时间做系统的检查，军医就把他身体上的异常归因于常用的抑制剂失效，为他更改了三次处方。可能是上将在克制，没有表现出更多的不适，所以我们才没有过于担心，直到今天早上，在军部的会议室里，上将的信息素突然失控，才被确诊极热发情。”
"The general has been too busy lately to perform system checks, so the military doctor attributed the abnormalities in his body to the failure of his usual suppressants and changed his prescription three times. It may be that the general restrained himself and did not show more discomfort, so we did not worry too much, until this morning in the military department's conference room, when the general's pheromones suddenly went out of control, confirming the diagnosis of hyperthermal estrus."

　　据尤竞所说，聿严的情况应该是很危险，因为战场上长时间的神经高度紧绷和常年使用抑制剂，极热发情期才咬住了他回到主星后稍有松懈的神经不肯松开，来得浩浩汤汤。
According to You Jing, Yu Yan's condition should be very dangerous, because the long-term high level of nervous tension on the battlefield and the chronic use of suppressants allowed the hyperthermal estrus period to grip his nerves that had slightly relaxed after returning to the main star and not let go, coming in full force.

　　聿严赢了星际战役，却输了这场生理上的反扑。
Yu Yan won the interstellar battle, but lost this physiological backlash.

　　聿严是全人类的荣耀，他的安危高于一切，而松和是一个反应敏捷的士兵，也是一个忠诚的士兵，更是一个E型omega，所以他无法问出类似于“所以呢”，或者“需要我做什么吗”的问题。
Yu Yan is the pride of all humanity, his safety above all else, and Song He is an agile soldier, a loyal soldier, and more importantly, an E-type omega, so he couldn't ask questions like "So what?" or "What can I do?".

　　他也在第一时间就已经明白，从未谋面的上将在主星的秘书长远道而来，经过八次空间跳跃，飞船停靠在他们这颗荒凉的43号辅星上，不可能只是为了把聿严在休假时期的身体情况告知一个战场上的无名小卒。
He also understood right away that the general he had never met had traveled all the way from the main star's secretariat, after eight interstellar jumps, landing their ship on their desolate 43rd auxiliary planet. It couldn't have been just to inform a nameless soldier on the battlefield about Yu Yan's physical condition during his vacation.

　　如果不是聿严，其他任何一个情况稍微简单些的S级alpha的极热发情期都不是非要在军中找士兵来应对，而且S级alpha大多出身高贵，成家早，配偶也大多是珍贵的E型omega，极热发情期出现频率又低，而不像聿严这样单身又没有时间谈恋爱，身边一个omega都没有。
If it weren't for Yu Yan, any other slightly simpler situation involving an S-level alpha's extreme heat cycle wouldn't necessarily require soldiers in the military to handle it. Moreover, most S-level alphas come from noble backgrounds, marry early, and their partners are often precious E-type omegas. The frequency of extreme heat cycles is also low, unlike Yu Yan who is single, doesn't have time for relationships, and doesn't have any omegas around him.

　　尤竞赶时间，解释完这些，恳切地向松和表明真的没有轻视他的意思以后，确认松和没有反抗情绪，也真的没有恋人，就将他带上了飞船。
You Jing was in a hurry. After explaining these things and sincerely telling Song He that he wasn't overlooking him, he confirmed that Song He had no objections and really had no lover, then took him aboard the ship.

　　空间跳跃点选得多而密集，不到三个小时的时间，他们穿过了八十光年的距离。
Multiple space jump points were selected, numerous and dense, allowing them to traverse eighty light-years in less than three hours.

　　飞船飞掠高空，剧院高耸的红色屋顶在松和眼前一闪而过，飞船舱门打开、对接，他就到了聿严所在的诊疗舱。
The spaceship flew high above, and the towering red roof of the theater flashed before Song's eyes. The ship's hatch opened and docked, and he was then at the treatment chamber where Yu Yan was located.

　　整个诊疗舱非常大，跟松和平常见到的根本不是一个规模，说是诊疗舱，不如说也是一艘完善的飞船，一栋小型别墅。
The entire treatment chamber was incredibly large, completely unlike the scale of what Song had normally seen. To call it a treatment chamber was an understatement; it was more like a fully-equipped spaceship, akin to a small villa.

　　整座飞船里的气氛安静得几乎称得上压抑，左右两列士兵站姿挺拔，面色严肃，但明显都在为聿严的情况忧心忡忡。
The atmosphere throughout the spaceship was so quiet it was almost suffocating. The soldiers on either side stood tall and straight, their faces serious, but it was evident that they were all deeply concerned about Yu Yan's condition.

　　他们收枪为快步进入的尤竞和他身后的松和让开道路，松和的直觉敏锐，可以清楚感知到探究的目光落在他的脸上，走出一段后，尤竞听不到的声音也刚好被他捕捉。
They moved aside to let the quickly approaching You Jing and Song follow, who were rushing in. Song's intuition was sharp; he could clearly sense the probing gaze fixed on his face. After walking a short distance, the sound that You Jing couldn't hear was exactly what he caught.

　　“是个omega。”
"It's an omega."

　　“难道是E型？”
"Could it be an E-type?"

　　“是吧，说了非E型不可。”
"Yeah, I said it had to be an E-type."

　　“我以为E型的omega都很柔弱，你知道，跟小姑娘一样。”
“I thought E-type omegas were all frail, you know, like little girls.”

　　“他也没有强壮到哪，只是穿了军装……他那把腰比小姑娘还细。”
“He wasn’t particularly strong either, he just wore a military uniform… his waist was even finer than a little girl’s.”

　　“脸长得也漂亮……哎，我还是担心。”
“His face was pretty too… well, I’m still worried.”

　　“没事的，能找到E型omega就没事。”
“It’s fine, as long as we find an E-type omega.”

　　穿过主舱，松和以为还要上楼，毕竟常识来说，很少主人会住在一楼，尤竞却把他带到主舱稍微靠后的一间房间门口，门口还等了四五个其他穿军装的人，每一个人的军衔都够松和喊一声“长官好”。
Through the main cabin, Song Hu thought he still had to go upstairs, after all, according to common sense, few masters would live on the ground floor. However, You Jing led him to the door of a slightly rear room in the main cabin, where four or five other men in military uniforms were waiting. Each of their ranks was high enough for Song Hu to salute and say, "长官好" (长官好).

　　但是尤竞和此时的情况都不再允许那种事情发生。
But neither You Jing nor the current situation allowed for such things to happen.

　　他向众军官简单介绍过松和，E型omega，等级A+++++，投情能力98.7，就在明显变得惊讶的眼神中对松和做最后的叮嘱。
He briefly introduced Song Hu to the officers, an E-type omega, rank A+++++, emotional appeal ability 98.7, as the officers' eyes clearly showed surprise, he gave Song Hu his final instructions.

　　“信息素失控得很严重，上将只坚持到这里，没能等到上楼，他把自己锁了进去。”
"His pheromones have gone out of control very severely. The admiral only insisted until here and couldn't wait to go upstairs. He locked himself in."

　　“这是防咬环，你是军人，但也是一个备受尊敬的omega，应该明白在特殊情况下，阻止上将的行为不算违规。”
“This is a bite inhibitor. You are a soldier, but also a highly respected omega. You should understand that in special circumstances, preventing the actions of a general officer does not constitute a violation.”

　　尤竞其实没有处理过这种局面，聿严回到主星的次数本来就不多，他还没有摸清聿严的作息习惯，只知道这位上将难以接近，所得细节不比帝国日报的记者多多少，就摊上一般的级alpha几十年难遇的极热发情期。
Yao Jing had never handled a situation like this before. Yu Yan rarely returned to the main star, and he hadn’t yet figured out Yu Yan’s routine. He only knew that the general was difficult to approach and had learned no more details than an imperial news reporter. Now, he was caught in the rare and extreme heat of an alpha’s mating season, which only occurs once in decades.

　　凭着一股冲动和几位高级军官的一致建议，在系统里搜寻到目前登记在册投情等级最高的omega并带回来后，他仍感觉自己的职业生涯岌岌可危。
Driven by impulse and the unanimous advice of several senior officers, after searching the system and bringing back the omega currently registered with the highest mating rank, he still felt his career was on the line.

　　毕竟聿严向来刻板冷峻，行事严谨，且从未表现出对美色的任何喜好，在进入这间屏蔽信息素的房间之前，只维持零星清醒的聿严，对尤竞说的最后一句话也还是“去军部拿抑制剂”。
After all, Yu Yan had always been rigid, cold, and meticulous in his actions, never showing any preference for beauty. Before entering this information-blocking room, the only thing Yu Yan said to Yao Jing with a sliver of clarity was, “Go to the military department for suppressants.”

　　可他想不出极热发情期的其他解决办法。
He couldn't think of any other solution for the extreme heat estrus period.

　　松和拿过防咬环，在尤竞担忧又催促的目光中戴上，他才解开了房间的权限。
Song took over the bite prevention collar and put it on, only then did he unlock the room's access, under the worried and urging gaze of You Jing.

　　只打开一条缝隙，松和进去后，门又在他身后“咔哒”锁上。
He only opened a small gap, went in, and the door clicked shut behind him.

　　这样的锁法，只能从外面打开，也就是说，在聿严的极热发情期过去之前，他没有任何方法可以离开这里。
This kind of lock could only be opened from the outside, which meant that before Yu Yan's extreme heat estrus period passed, he had no way to leave here.

　　外面天色还亮着，但是房间里不仅没有自然光线，四周的人造屏也被全部关上，对普通人来说伸手不见五指的黑暗里，松和模糊看到蛰伏在书桌脚边那团信息素的紊乱中心——聿严。
The sky outside was still light, but the room had no natural light, and all the artificial screens around were turned off. In the pitch-black darkness that ordinary people could not see their hands reach out, Song and Hu Lu saw the chaotic center of the pheromone disturbance at the foot of the desk—Yu Yan.

　　他在墙壁上摸索，按下开关后，刚好是聿严附近的一盏小灯。
He felt along the wall and pressed the switch, which happened to be near Yu Yan. A small lamp lit up.

　　暖黄的光打在聿严侧脸，他就在环境的微小变化下猛得抬头来，是靠坐在书桌脚边的姿势，军装外套的扣子打开两颗，黑硬的头发凌乱，肩背和胳臂上的肌肉起伏，浑身的攻击性露出一丝，就已经足够慑人。
The warm yellow light hit Yu Yan's side profile. He snapped his head up at the slightest change in the environment. He was leaning against the foot of the desk, two buttons of his military jacket undone, his black, stiff hair messy. The muscles on his shoulders and arms rose and fell, revealing a hint of his aggressive aura, which was already enough to be intimidating.

　　松和却只注意到他的目光已经浑浊，牙关紧咬，是处在崩溃边缘的信号。
Song and, however, only noticed that his eyes were hazy and his jaw was clenched tight, signaling that he was on the verge of collapse.

　　“滚出去。”
“Get out.”

　　“你怎么了？”松和慢慢走过去，声调平缓，像只是闲聊，“身体不舒服吗？”
“What’s wrong with you?” Song and Meng slowly walked over, their tone calm, as if just chatting, “Are you feeling unwell?”

　　他比清醒时迟钝不少，不再是媒体镜头和笔下那个不苟言笑、满身军功、冷漠却也极致英俊的上将。
He was much duller than when he was sober, no longer the stern, decorated, cold yet exquisitely handsome general seen in the media and in writing.

　　聿严的脸上露出一丝疑惑，但还是很快又重复道，“滚出去。”
A hint of confusion appeared on Yu Yan’s face, but he quickly repeated, “Get out.”

　　松和在他面前蹲下，试着碰了碰他握紧的拳头：“聿严，你不认识我了？”
Sōng Hé crouched down before him, trying to touch his tightly clenched fist: "Yù Yán, don't you recognize me?"

　　聿严双目微瞪，甚至连嘴巴也微微张开，哪还有冷漠的气势，浑身散发出来的情绪从生人勿近到惶恐委屈的转变不到三秒钟。
Yù Yán's eyes widened slightly, his mouth even slightly open, completely devoid of his usual cold demeanor. The emotions he radiated shifted from 'keep away from strangers' to 'fear and grievance' in less than three seconds.

　　他上身前倾，迎着将松和一把拽进怀里的动作，两人胸脯重重撞上，松和痛呼到一半，已经被他用一条手臂圈住腰，将两条腿分别放到他腰侧，成了跨坐在聿严身上的姿势。
He leaned forward, meeting Sōng Hé as he pulled him into his arms with one hand. Their chests collided heavily. Sōng Hé had barely let out a cry of pain when Yù Yán wrapped an arm around his waist, placing both of Sōng Hé's legs on either side of his hips, straddling him.

　　刚才拽松和的那只手反复在松和背部搓动，似乎被松和贴身的军装弄得暴躁又困惑，又游移到松和的后颈和脸颊，五指插进松和头发，掌根紧贴松和的耳朵，将脸埋进松和颈窝。
The hand that had just pulled Sōng Hé repeatedly rubbed his back, seemingly agitated and confused by Sōng Hé's close-fitting military uniform. It then wandered to Sōng Hé's nape and cheek, his fingers tangling in his hair, the base of his palm pressing against Sōng Hé's ear, burying his face in Sōng Hé's neck 窝.

　　又蹭又亲好一会，才分神用脸拱着那个阻止他直接接触松和腺体的防咬环，不满又委屈地低声道：“这个东西，把你的味道锁住了。”
%% After nuzzling and kissing for a good while, he finally managed to divert his attention, pushing against the bite-blocking collar that prevented direct contact with his scent glands, murmuring with dissatisfaction and grievance: "This thing locks away your scent."

　　松和分开腿坐在他身上，腰被紧紧圈向他，上身却又被他拱过来，整个人艰难地后仰，但还不能有一丝不满，因为他已经受过足够多的教训，此时仅仅回答晚了一瞬，加上戴了这个令聿严极度不满的东西，聿严抱他的力气就几乎要折断他的腰。
Songhe sat astride him, his legs spread wide, his waist tightly encircled by him, while his upper body was pushed back by him. He struggled to lean back, but couldn't show the slightest dissatisfaction, because he had already learned his lesson well enough. His response was only delayed by a moment, and with the collar that Yuyeian detested so much on, the force of his hug almost seemed to break his waist.

　　松和努力安抚地摸他后脑，聿严的鼻尖还是一直顶在他颈侧，隔着防咬环不安地乱蹭，但又怕松和生气似的，不敢直接上手去扯，只继续委屈巴巴地低声道：“老婆，老婆，你怎么才来，我快死了，你是不是不要我了老婆？”
Songhe tried to comfort him by stroking the back of his head, but Yuyeian's nose was still pressed against his neck, restless and scratching against the collar, yet afraid of making Songhe angry, he didn't dare to pull it off directly, only continuing to murmur aggrievedly: "Wifey, wifey, why did you come so late? I'm almost dying, do you not want me anymore, wifey?"

　　“你自己说的，战争要结束了，你以后不会再这样了的。”
"You yourself said that the war is going to end, and you won't do this anymore."

　　“好想你，老婆，给我舔一舔好不好？好不好老婆，老婆……”
"I miss you so much, my wife. Can you lick me, please? Please, my wife, my wife……”

　　聿严看似低声下气，实则根本无法有效沟通，对松和的身体也是一贯的完全控制，只是此时被极热发情期强迫降智的他找不出办法去解决那个陌生的颈环，没尝到甜头不敢动粗，才没有跟以前一样，一见面就剥松和的裤子。
Although Lü Yan appeared to be submissive, he couldn't effectively communicate. He had always completely controlled Song He's body, but now, forced to lower his intelligence by the extreme heat of his rut, he couldn't figure out how to remove the unfamiliar collar. Not having tasted any sweetness, he dared not be rough, and thus didn't tear off Song He's pants as he used to do when they first met.

　　松和明白这个道理，但还是经不住他可怜巴巴的哀求，反手去解防咬环时嗓音微颤，商量道：“我们很久没做过，待会你先慢慢来，好不好？”
Song He understood this principle, but he couldn't resist his pitiful begging. As he reached back to undo the bite collar, his voice trembled slightly, suggesting, "We haven't done this in a while. You can start slowly when we get there, okay?"

　　聿严吸着他的舌头不肯放开，什么都肯答应：“好，好好好，慢慢来，老婆慢慢来，给我舔，给我舔。”
Lü Yan sucked on his tongue, refusing to let go, agreeing to anything: "Okay, okay, okay. Slowly, my wife, slowly. Lick me, lick me."

　　颈环刚刚从脖子上脱落，露出遍布咬痕的腺体，松和就一个后仰，被聿严实实摁在地上。
The collar just slipped off his neck, revealing the gland covered in bites, and Song immediately stumbled backward, being pinned down firmly by Yu Yan.

　　他的一侧肩窝被撞得生疼，抬眼撞进聿严野兽般兴奋的浑浊视线，军裤很快四分五裂，裤管还留在腿上，臀后却一片冰凉，过分羞耻的感觉没有停留多久，被聿严咬住腺体狠狠顶进去的时候，松和在压抑成一声闷哼的痛呼中想，他总记不住教训。
His shoulder blade on one side was knocked so hard it hurt, and when he looked up, he met Yu Yan's excited, beastly, hazy gaze. His military pants quickly tore into pieces, with the legs still on his legs, but the backside was left cold. The feeling of extreme shame didn't last long, as when Yu Yan bit down on the gland and pushed hard, Song thought in the stifled groan of pain, he could never seem to remember the lesson.

第2章
Chapter 2

　　聿严的副官刚刚跟着聿严从战场上下来，休假开始不到三天，就被从假期中紧急召回。
Yu Yan's deputy had just come down from the battlefield with him. Less than three days into his leave, he was urgently recalled from his vacation.

　　他到达聿严的诊疗舱时，严阵以待的军官们已经散去，只剩下守卫的士兵和留在主舱的秘书长尤竞。
He arrived at Yu Yan's medical pod when the officers who were on high alert had already dispersed, leaving only the guard soldiers and Secretary You Jing, who remained in the main pod.

　　“omega！”
“Omega!”

　　尤竞伸出的手被握住以后就没放开，聿严的副官一副如临大敌的模样，抓着他的手接连问他：“里面那个omega，你找的？是谁？！”
After You Jing's outstretched hand was grasped, he didn't let go. Yu Yan's deputy officer, looking as if he were preparing for battle, seized his hand and repeatedly asked, "That omega in there, was that the one you looked for? Who is it!?"

　　尤竞抽出自己的手，皱眉道：“43号辅星上的守门人，编号000297，E型omega，投情等级……”
You Jing pulled his hand back, frowning and saying, "The gatekeeper from 辅星 43, designation 000297, E-type omega, affection level..."

　　“是松和？”
“Is it Song?”

　　“……你们认识？”
“…Do you know each other?”

　　“呼……”副官喘出一口气，瘫坐在尤竞刚坐着的地方，扯了把军纪扣，“妈的，差点吓死。”
*Sigh* The adjutant gasped for air, collapsing onto the spot where You Jing had just been sitting, yanking at his military regulation belt. “Damn, nearly scared me to death.”

　　尤竞犹豫道：“什么意思？”
You Jing hesitated, “What do you mean?”

　　“是他就行。”副官道，“我刚从28号星回来，半条命都赶没了，你继续守着，我睡一觉。”
"Having him is fine." The adjutant said, "I just returned from Planet 28, nearly exhausted myself. You keep watch, I'll get some sleep."

　　尤竞不傻，很快道：“上将跟松和……？”
You Jing wasn't stupid; he quickly asked, "The general and Song He...?"

　　副官道：“非松和不可，其他omega送进去只会出人命，要么把上将耗死，要么omega被发狂的上将弄死。”
The adjutant replied, "It absolutely has to be Song He. Any other omega sent in will only result in casualties. Either the general will be worn out, or the omega will be killed by the 狂暴 general."

　　尤竞愣住。
You Jing froze.

　　极热发情期是S级alpha会有的生理现象没错，但它在医学上的定义除了“目前无人工手段可以应对”之外，还包括“发作频率极低”这一条。
The extreme heat estrus is indeed a physiological phenomenon that S-class alphas can experience, but its medical definition, apart from "currently no artificial means can cope with it," also includes "extremely low incidence rate."

　　可在副官的话里，不在主星时的聿严显然已经有过不止一次的极热发情，且共同度过的对象正是松和。
However, in the 副官's words, the severity of the extreme heat estrus that clearly occurred while not on the main star had happened more than once, and the one they had shared with was Song and Yun.

　　这个等级的信息对全权负责聿严在主星上事务的尤竞来说不算机密， 甚至是副官计划之后找时间一点点给他讲清楚的内容。
This level of information is not confidential to You Jing, who is fully responsible for the affairs of severity of the main star, and it is even something the 副官 plans to explain to him bit by bit later.

　　他把一块电子屏幕扔过去：“自己看。”
He tossed over an electronic screen: "Look yourself."

　　尤竞拿着解开权限的电子屏幕，越看脸色越严肃。
You Jing held the electronic screen that unlocked the authorization, his expression grew more serious the longer he looked.

　　资料记录，聿严的极热发情从四年前开始，43号辅星的战争打响不过十天，双方还在互相试探的阶段，他就因极热发情被迫休整了一整周。
The records showed that Yu Yan's extreme heat estrus had begun four years ago. Less than ten days after the war on 辅星 43 号 (Auxiliary Star 43) had erupted, both sides were still in the phase of testing each other, yet Yu Yan was forced to rest for an entire week due to the extreme heat estrus.

　　当然主脑其实不在指挥舰里的事实肯定是不会对外泄漏分毫的，它只存在于聿严的个人信息记录中。
Of course, the fact that the main brain was not actually in the command ship would definitely not be leaked in the slightest. It only existed in Yu Yan's personal information records.

　　资料也详细显示，第一次出现极热发情的聿严精神情况极度紊乱，信息素失控程度要比今天已经吓到尤竞的样子还要严重三分，几乎游离在发狂的边缘。
The records also detailed that when Yu Yan first experienced extreme heat estrus, his mental state was extremely chaotic. The level of pheromonal 失控 (uncontrolled release) was even three times more severe than what had already terrified You Jing, nearly bordering on the brink of insanity.

　　对于处在极热发情期中的alpha来说，发狂不是一个形容词，而是一个阶段，一个除了被人道主义毁灭之外无法挽回的阶段。
For an alpha in the midst of an extreme heat cycle, "insane" is not an adjective but a stage, an irreversible stage beyond humanitarian destruction.

　　但是只用了十天，他就重归战场，成了那个运筹帷幄、冷面沉稳的将军。
But only ten days later, he returned to the battlefield, becoming the master strategist, the cool and composed general.

　　“是松和？”
"It's Song?"

　　“嗯。”
"Mm."

　　就算已经过去四年，现在想起当时的情况，副官仍然头痛，“当时他去辅星的极端，也就是“门”巡视，里面只有他跟松和，被发现的时候，他的信息素已经开始禁止任何人靠近了。”
Even after four years, thinking back to the situation then still gives the deputy adjutant a headache, "He went to the extreme of the auxiliary star, the so-called 'gate' for inspection, there was only him and Song. When he was discovered, his pheromones had already forbidden anyone from getting close."

　　害怕自己的omega被夺走，alpha陷入极端没有安全感的状态，任何进入领地的人都会被高浓度的S级信息素无差别伤害，除了他的omega。
Afraid of losing his omega, the alpha fell into an extreme state of insecurity. Anyone entering his territory would be harmed without discrimination by high-concentration S-level pheromones, except for his omega.

　　聿严是他的alpha，两个人上床也早就不是第一次，松和掌握了一些让自己少受些苦头的经验，尽力放松腰臀，也不试图挣扎，两手平放在身侧，无意识地抓着聿严肌肉坚硬的大腿，微仰着头任由聿严在他颈侧啃咬。
Yu Yan is his alpha, and the two of them have been intimate long before. Song had learned some experience to minimize his own suffering, trying to relax his waist and hips, not resisting, placing his hands flat on both sides, subconsciously gripping Yu Yan's hard thighs, tilting his head slightly, letting Yu Yan bite at his neck.

　　泄欲似的顶撞了不知道多长时间，也感觉到自己身下的omega的顺从，聿严的动作才慢慢没那么急切。
After 顶撞 for what felt like a long time, he also felt the omega beneath him's compliance, and Yu Yan's movements gradually became less urgent.

　　他把自己往深里顶进去，只觉得松和柔软的信息素在一点点抚平他大脑里所有焦虑的神经，让他没那么烦躁和痛苦，松和的身体也对他表现出欢迎，下面逐渐清晰的水声告诉他这个信息。
He pushed himself deeper into Song, feeling how Song's soft pheromones gradually soothed all the anxious nerves in his brain, making him less restless and painful. Song's body also welcomed him, the gradually clearer sound of water below telling him this.

　　他哑声撒娇：“老婆，老婆，你跟我说说话。”
He pouted silently, "Wifey, wifey, can you say something to me?"

　　“你……嗯，你又直接进来。”松和的声音发抖，低声道，“不是说好的，先慢慢来？”
"You... um, you just came in directly." Song He's voice trembled as he whispered, "Didn't we agree to take it slow?"

　　“对不起老婆。”聿严暂时咬够了松和的腺体，爬上去亲他的脸颊和嘴唇，“对不起，老婆对不起，但是忍不住，老婆好香，真的忍不住。”
"Sorry, wifey." Yu Yan temporarily stopped biting Song He's glands, climbing up to kiss his cheeks and lips, "Sorry, wifey, I'm sorry, but I couldn't help it, wifey smells so good, I really couldn't hold back."

　　松和感觉下面被他满满地撑着，一点缝隙没有，涨得他的小腹发酸，接连颤抖，倒是没有一开始那么疼，可能是因为他受到聿严的信息素影响也比较大，开始之前，两个人还说了会话，所以没什么大的伤口。
Song He felt completely filled by him, with no gaps left, his lower abdomen aching from the pressure, trembling continuously, though it wasn't as painful as initially, possibly because he was also heavily influenced by Yu Yan's pheromones. Before they started, they had a conversation, so there weren't any major wounds.

　　“原谅我了吗？老婆有没有原谅我？”
“Have you forgiven me? Did my wife forgive me?”

　　“好，好，原谅你。”他问得可怜，松和很容易就心软，费劲地抬手，摸了摸他侧脸，“还难受吗？”
“Okay, okay, I forgive you.” He asked pitifully, and Song He easily softened, struggling to raise his hand and touch his cheek. “Are you still hurting?”

　　“难受。”聿严语调一转，又委屈起来，下身动作却也一下一下发起狠，“老婆好久都不来。”
“Still hurting.” Yu Yan’s tone shifted, becoming aggrieved once more, while his lower body moved with renewed intensity. “My wife hasn’t been here for a long time.”

　　松和被他顶得说不出话，咬着的下唇发白，额上渗出细汗，刚才聿严把他军装外套和衬衣上的扣子全部撕坏以后脱光了他，胸前是滚烫的聿严，背后直接贴着冰凉的地板。
Song He was pinned speechless by him, his bitten lower lip turning white, beads of sweat forming on his forehead. After Yu Yan had torn all the buttons off his military jacket and shirt before undressing him, he now lay bare against the scorching heat of Yu Yan, with his back pressed directly against the cold floor.

　　聿严的两只手都卡在他腰上，尺寸惊人的性器凿进后穴，操得发软发烫。 重试    错误原因

　　“老婆。”聿严操了一阵，短刺的黑发微湿，黑亮的眼神直直盯住松和，目光已经不再浑浊，但黏人程度有增无减，“老婆怎么不抱我。” 重试    错误原因

　　松和勉强用手捞住他肩背，可是没有力气，挂不住，很快又滑下去。 重试    错误原因

　　聿严不满意，重新伏回他身上，拱在他怀里，跟他皮肉相贴。 重试    错误原因

　　“你别压着我，聿严……”
"You're not going to crush me, Yu Yan..."

　　“老婆，你好香。”
"Darling, you smell so good."

　　“地上很凉，起来做，嗯……好不好？”
"It's cold on the floor, get up and do it, okay...?"

　　聿严胡乱在他身上摸，不肯回答，生怕他起来就会跑掉。
Yu Yan roughly touched him, refusing to answer, afraid that if he got up, he would run away.

　　松和无奈，只好低头吻他，他立刻急切起来，掐着松和腰的手分出一只，牢牢掌控着松和的后脑勺，回吻到他喘不上气，又去吻他后颈，下身更是打桩一般往里操。
Reluctantly, he lowered his head to kiss him, and he immediately became urgent, separating one hand from gripping his waist to firmly control the back of his head, kissing him until he couldn't breathe, then went to kiss his neck, while his lower body moved in rhythm like a piston.

　　松和挨了一阵，知道他射了以后比较好说话，所以抬起腰尽力配合他，又拿小腿去蹭他的后腰，嘴里顺着他一声声叫：“聿严，聿严。”
Song endured for a while, knowing it would be easier to talk after he finished, so he lifted his hips and cooperated his best, then used his calves to rub against his lower back, whispering his name again and again, "Yu Yan, Yu Yan."

　　要射的那两分钟，松和好像真的死了一次，等他缓过神来，聿严正伏在他上方，两张脸挨得很近，眼睛一眨不眨地看着他。
In those two minutes when he was about to shoot, Song He seemed to die for real. By the time he came to his senses, Yu Yan was already crouched above him, their faces very close, his eyes staring at him without blinking.

　　松和的心砰砰跳着，良久才说：“地上很冷，你抱我起来好不好？”
Song He's heart pounded, and after a long while, he said, "It's very cold on the ground, can you pick me up?"

　　他不能说“让我起来”，那样会立刻激怒聿严。
He couldn't say "let me up," because that would immediately anger Yu Yan.

　　聿严下面还没抽出去，堵着量大的精液，松和的小腹更加酸胀。
Yu Yan hadn't pulled out yet, still blocking the large amount of semen, making Song He's lower abdomen even more sore and aching.

　　他软着声音又求了一遍：“你抱我起来，我们到……”
He asked again in a soft voice, "Hold me up, we're going to..."

　　这是间规规矩矩的书房，除了一间简便的浴室，放眼望去，只有书架和书桌。
This was a very proper study room, aside from a simple bathroom, there were only bookshelves and a desk in sight.

　　“我们到椅子上去，这么长时间没有看到你，我好想你，聿严，你想我吗？”
“Let’s go to the chair. I haven’t seen you in so long, I miss you, Yu Yan. Do you miss me?”

　　聿严立刻说：“想你，老婆，每天都想你。你为什么不来看我？你不要我了，你想跑对不对？”
Yu Yan immediately said, “I miss you, wife. I miss you every day. Why don’t you come see me? Have you abandoned me? Are you trying to run away, right?”

　　“我不跑。”松和说，“我陪着你，你先抱我起来，地上这么凉，我没有骗你，你自己摸一下，是不是很凉？”
“I’m not running away,” Song He said. “I’m staying with you. Come on, hug me up first. It’s so cold on the ground. I’m not lying to you. Feel for yourself, isn’t it cold?”

　　聿严正色打量了他很长时间，下面又一点点硬起来，当松和准备放弃的时候，他直起身，把松和抱了起来。
Yu Yan seriously examined him for a long time, then slowly grew hard below. Just as Song He was about to give up, he straightened up and picked Song He up in his arms.

　　松和在椅子上挨了顿操，情况不比在地上好多少，还因为坐在聿严腿上的姿势，总觉得阴茎进得更深，所以大腿抖得不成样子。
松和 got spanked on the chair, not much better than being on the ground, and because of the position on Yu Yan's lap, he always felt deeper penetration, so his thighs trembled uncontrollably.

　　“哦，哦，老婆不哭。”
"Oh, oh, my wife, don't cry."

　　聿严吻他的眼泪，很爱惜地抚摸他在地上蹭红的背部。
Yu Yan kissed his tears, gently caressing the redness on his back from rubbing on the ground.

　　松和因为觉得冷和过于刺激而颤抖的冷白的肩膀在他眼里也成了可爱的其中一项，拿松和没办法似的哄他：“轻轻的好不好？别哭了，老婆，老婆你亲亲我。”
The pale shoulders of Song He, trembling due to the cold and overstimulation, also became one of his cutest traits in Yu Yan's eyes. He cooed at him, as if he couldn't handle Song He: "Gently, okay? Don't cry, my wife, my wife, kiss me."

　　松和就哆嗦着仰头去亲他。
Meng and shook and lifted her head to kiss him.

　　这次极热发情对聿严来说根本不算最激烈的一次，松和陪聿严在书房待了三天，两人洗澡睡觉都在一起，情况混乱，总是突然就做起来，睡觉更是只能在聿严怀里。
This extreme heat estrus wasn't the most intense one for Yu Yan, as Meng and accompanied Yu Yan in the study for three days, bathing and sleeping together, the situation chaotic, always suddenly engaging in activity, and sleeping could only be done in Yu Yan's arms.

　　到第四天，聿严对久不露面的松和的信任就开始重建，肯听松和的话抱着他上楼，去有床的房间。
By the fourth day, Yu Yan's trust in the long-absent Meng and began to rebuild, willing to listen to Meng and and carry her upstairs to a room with a bed.

　　松和的衣服早撕坏了，身上穿着聿严的对他来说过大的军装，被聿严面对面托屁股抱着，脑袋摁进聿严怀里，浑身上下遮得严实。
Meng and's clothes had already been torn to shreds; she wore Yu Yan's oversized military uniform, being carried face-to-face with her buttocks supported by Yu Yan, her head pressed into Yu Yan's arms, her entire body covered.

　　但是期间路过守在主舱的尤竞和副官，两个beta的存在仍令聿严警铃大作，步子迈得飞快。
But during this, the two betas—Yao Jing and the 副官—standing guard in the main cabin still set Yu Yan on high alert, and he quickened his pace.

　　那间经历过混战的充满了alpha信息素的房间门很快就自动关上，但仍叫尤竞皱眉：“说是毒气室也不为过。”
The door of the room, which had experienced fierce fighting and was filled with alpha pheromones, closed automatically shortly after. But Yao Jing frowned: "It could easily be called a gas chamber."

　　“最高等级的毒气室。”副官道。
"The highest level gas chamber," the 副官 said.

　　“omega没事吗？”
"Is the omega alright?"

　　“很多次了。”副官想了想聿严那个暴戾的模样，良久道，“可能他们天生契合吧，一直没出过什么事。”
"Many times." The aide thought for a moment about Yu Yan's fierce demeanor, and after some time said, "Perhaps they are naturally compatible, and nothing bad has ever happened."

　　已经有所了解的尤竞尽量使自己显得不那么外行地又问：“我之后怎么安排他？”
You Jing, who had already gained some understanding, asked again, trying to appear less ignorant: "How should I arrange him from now on?"

　　“你说松和？”
"You mean Song?"

　　“对。”
"Yes."

　　“什么意思？”副官转脸道，“发情热过去，他就会回43号辅星，需要怎么安排？”
"What do you mean?" the aide turned to ask, "Once the mating heat passes, he'll return to 辅星 43, how should we arrange it?"

　　尤竞张了张嘴，最后道：“当然，当然。”
You Jing opened his mouth, then said, "Of course, of course."

　　“你想多了。”过了会，副官看了看尤竞依然有些呆愣的脸道。“这不是爱情。”
"You're overthinking it," the aide looked at You Jing's still somewhat dazed face after a moment. "This isn't love."

　　“这不是爱情。”
"This isn't love."

　　一直需要松和陪伴度过极热发情的第二年，第十六次极热发情之后，面对松和的表白，穿上军装面容严肃的聿严当时也是这么说的。
Always needed Song and company to get through the second year of extreme heat estrus, and after the sixteenth time of extreme heat estrus, when facing Song and's confession, the stern-faced Yu Yan in his military uniform said exactly that.

第3章
Chapter 3

　　回到陌生的主星的第六天早上，松和睁开眼以前，感知到的平静温和的信息素在第一时间告诉他：聿严的极热发情期结束了。
On the sixth morning back on the unfamiliar main star, before Song and opened his eyes, the calm and gentle pheromonal information he sensed immediately told him: Yu Yan's period of extreme heat estrus had ended.

　　房间里很亮，除床以外的部分都很整洁，沾了某种液体的地毯也被收了起来，显然聿严已经起床，并且跟以前一样，做了部分清洁工作。
The room was very bright, the area except for the bed was very tidy, and the carpet stained with some liquid had also been put away, obviously Yu Yan had already gotten up, and just like before, he had done some cleaning work.

　　松和从床上爬起来，很好地掩饰了身体的不适，他下床穿衣，又去浴室洗漱，期间努力忽略坐在沙发上的聿严落在他身上的目光。
Song He climbed out of bed, skillfully masking his physical discomfort. He got up, got dressed, and then went to the bathroom, during which he tried hard to ignore the gaze of Yu Yan that fell upon him while he sat on the sofa.

　　“上将。”
"Admiral."

　　松和走到聿严面前，双手自然垂下，虽然没有敬礼，但姿态依然足够尊敬。
Song He walked up to Yu Yan, his hands naturally hanging down. Although he didn't salute, his posture was still sufficiently respectful.

　　聿严手里拿了份报纸，是流通于军部的内部晨报，他收回视线，没有多看松和隐约露出袖口的手腕上那一道红痕，将报纸换了一面，边看边道：“早餐之后送你回辅星。”
Yu Yan held a newspaper in his hand, an internal morning paper circulated within the military department. He averted his gaze, not looking closely at the faint red mark on the wrist exposed by the hem of Song He's sleeve, and turned the page of the newspaper. As he read, he said, "Take you back to the auxiliary star after breakfast."

　　松和点头，很温顺地说：“是，上将。”
Song nodded, saying obediently, "Yes, General."

　　两人都不去提直到昨晚入睡前，聿严还双手双脚抱着生怕他跑掉的事，聿严也不说让松和走开的话，就一直维持着松和站在他面前，他低头看报纸的状态，直到勤务兵来通知吃早饭。
Neither of them mentioned until last night before going to sleep that Yu Yan had been holding onto Song He with both hands and feet, afraid he would run away. Yu Yan didn't say anything to have Song He leave, and so he just kept Song He standing in front of him, in the state of looking down at the newspaper, until a duty officer came to announce breakfast.

　　早餐桌上静谧无声，聿严的动作很快，但看不出急迫，松和吃到一半，他已经结束用餐，并把松和故意忽视的牛奶杯向他手边推了推：“喝掉。”
At the breakfast table, it was silent. Yu Yan's actions were quick, but there was no sign of urgency. Song He had only eaten half of his meal when Yu Yan had already finished and deliberately pushed the milk cup he had been ignoring toward his hand. "Drink it."

　　松和试图拒绝，聿严语气平和道：“就是因为不喝牛奶，才总是抽筋。”
Song He tried to refuse, but Yu Yan said calmly, "It's because you don't drink milk that you always get cramps."

　　松和只反应了一秒钟，血色就爬上脸颊。
A and only for a second, a blush crept up his cheeks.

　　他在心里大声抗议，那是因为某些时候聿严掰他腿的力气太大，尺度也令人难以接受，而且分明只有两三次，怎么就到了“总是”的地步？
He mentally protested, it was because at times Yu Yan twisted his legs with too much force, the extent was unacceptable, and it was clearly only two or three times, how did it become "always"?

　　可松和一个字都说不出来，他臊得满脸通红，连耳垂也不能幸免，只能端起那一整杯牛奶咕咚咚灌下。
But A couldn't even say a word, he was so embarrassed his face turned bright red, even his earlobes were spared, and could only gulp down the entire glass of milk.

　　这下可好，不用再吃什么了。
Now that's bad, there's no need to eat anything else.

　　两人踏上飞船，聿严即便处于休假时期，仍然忙于军政，松和跟在他身边，也只是个尽量隐形的尾巴。
The two stepped onto the spaceship. Even during his vacation, Yu Yan was still busy with military and political affairs. Song He, who followed him closely, was merely an invisible tail trying to blend in.

　　从书房到指挥室，似乎过了很久，聿严才重新想起他。
It seemed like a long time passed from the study to the command room before Yu Yan finally remembered him.

　　又似乎对松和一直跟着这件事感到不解。
He also seemed puzzled as to why Song He had been following him all this time.

　　“你可以先去休息。”
"You can go rest first."

　　松和实话实说：“我不困。”
Meng and Xue truthfully said, "I'm not sleepy."

　　聿严就垂眼打量他几遍，没再多说，只重新低头看那些文件。
Yu Yan glanced at him a few times with lowered eyes, said no more, and looked back at the documents.

　　松和总是很依赖他，聿严想，跟早上松和守在他身边看报纸一样。
Meng and Xue always relied on him, Yu Yan thought, just like how he had been reading the newspaper beside him in the morning.

　　所以即使他不能接受松和的感情，但两个人毕竟有了这么长时间的接触，偶尔做一些无关紧要的退让，这对他来说还是可行的。
So even though he couldn't accept Meng and Xue's feelings, the two had spent so much time together. Making occasional, inconsequential concessions to him was still something he could manage.

　　“上将。”过了会，松和在他身边蹲下，一手抱着肚子，一手放在膝盖上，侧脸又贴着手背，歪头叫他，也像撒娇的姿态。
"Admiral." After a moment, Song He squatted beside him, one arm around his stomach, the other resting on his knee, his side face pressed against his hand, tilting his head to call him, also like a coquettish manner.

　　聿严转脸看他的时候，顺便发现不知何时，指挥舱内只剩下他们两个人，这解释了松和松懈了点的表现。
When Yu Yan turned to look at him, he noticed that for some reason, only the two of them were left in the command cabin, which explained Song He's slightly relaxed demeanor.

　　“嗯？”
"Hmm?"

　　“我们直接回43辅星吗？”
"Should we head straight back to 辅星 43?"

　　聿严不答反问道：“你有别的事？”
Yu Yan didn't answer and asked instead, "Do you have other business?"

　　“没有。”松和咬了咬嘴唇，眼睛不自然地下垂，声音也低了一度，“我只是想知道，要跳跃多少次。”
"No." Song He bit his lips and his eyes unnaturally dropped, his voice lowered slightly, "I just wanted to know, how many jumps are there."

　　聿严见过他守门时的样子，甚至见的次数不算少，所以知道他跟别人说话时，其实没有这么多不讨人烦的小动作。
Yu Yan had seen him as a gatekeeper before, and not infrequently, so he knew that when he spoke with others, he didn't have so many annoying little habits.

　　在战场上，他是个合格的士兵，守门人最先迎接胜利，但也最先承受攻击和失败，他从没退缩过。
On the battlefield, he was a qualified soldier. The gatekeepers were the first to welcome victory, but also the first to endure attacks and failure. He had never retreated.

　　他只是总喜欢对自己撒娇，聿严又想，也不太舍得离开他身边。
He just always liked to pout at him, and Yu Yan thought, he didn't quite want to leave his side either.

　　“四次。”
"Four times."

　　聿严将计划中的八次改掉，他今天刚刚结束发情期，没有会议需要参加，也没什么非见不可的人，既然松和情绪低落，那么让飞船多飞一会也不是不可以。
Yu Yan changed the eight times in his plan. He had just finished his mating season, there were no meetings to attend, and no one he absolutely had to see. Since Song He was in a low mood, letting the ship fly for a bit longer wasn't out of the question.

　　松和很轻地“啊”了声，聿严已经把目光移回了文件，希望松和明白意思是自己不再接受他的撒娇。
Song He let out a soft "Ah," but Yu Yan had already shifted his gaze back to the documents, hoping Song He understood that he no longer accepted his pouting.

　　“极热症……”过了会，松和又说，“什么时候会好呢？”
“Hyperpyrexia…” After a while, Song added, “When will it be better?”

　　聿严频繁发作的极热发情期显然不正常，当初的随行军医在半年之后才给出“极热症”这么一个说法，说是资料上可查，但病例太少，也没有什么治疗方法，只能寄希望于战争结束之后，聿严的精神得到有效放松。
Lu Yan’s frequent episodes of hyperpyrexia during mating season were clearly abnormal. The accompanying military doctor only gave the term “hyperpyrexia” six months later, stating it could be found in records, but there were too few cases and no effective treatment. All they could hope for was that after the war ended, Lu Yan’s spirit would receive effective relaxation.

　　最近战事到了尾声，按理来说不应该再发作，松和确实已经四个月左右没有见过聿严，但这次突然又来，让他有些不知所措。
The recent warfare had reached its 尾声, and logically speaking, it shouldn’t be erupting anymore. Song had indeed not seen Lu Yan for about four months, but this sudden recurrence left him somewhat at a loss.

　　有一种这件事会永无止尽地纠缠他与聿严的不好的错觉。
There was a unsettling feeling that this matter would endlessly 纠缠 him and Lu Yan.

　　聿严在松和的语气里听出一些失落。
Yan heard a hint of disappointment in Songhe's tone.

　　他想到自己与松和的上一次见面，已经是135天之前，对黏人的松和来说，确实有些久了。
He thought about the last time he had met Songhe, which was already 135 days ago. For the clingy Songhe, it had indeed been quite a while.

　　所以他理解了松和的低落，没有开口批评。
So he understood Songhe's low spirits and didn't open his mouth to criticize.

　　没等来聿严的回答，松和就无聊地看了眼舱外。
Not waiting for Yan's reply, Songhe boredly glanced outside the cabin.

　　星云的柔光跟了他们很久，三分钟都没有离开仙女座，他开始在心里计算，上一次跳跃十次的路程他们走了三个多小时，这次只跳跃四次需要走多久。
The nebula's soft glow followed them for a long time, remaining within 仙女座 for three minutes. He began calculating in his mind that the last jump, which covered ten times the distance, had taken them over three hours. This time, only four jumps would be needed—how long would that take?

　　只是飞船的跳跃次数与旅程时间不是简单的比例关系，再加上空间折叠的影响，算来算去，松和慢慢失去耐心，低头去研究舱内的地板。
However, the number of ship jumps and travel time were not a simple proportional relationship. Adding the effects of spatial folding, after all the calculations, Song and Man gradually lost patience and lowered his head to study the floor of the cabin.

　　聿严看完手中的文件，转头才发现蹲靠在他腿边的松和不知道什么时候睡着了。
After reviewing the document in his hand, 聿严 turned to find that Song and, who had been squatting beside his legs, had fallen asleep without knowing it.

　　他想起刚才松和说的不困，明白松和大概是真的很想跟他待在一起。
He remembered that Song and had said he wasn't sleepy earlier, realizing that Song and probably really wanted to be with him.

　　他把松和抱出指挥舱，进入他休息的房间。
He carried Songhe out of the command cabin and into his resting room.

　　松和很轻，抱在怀里又很柔软，脸蛋过于漂亮，性格过于温顺，意志不够坚定，会被alpha发情期的生理表现迷惑而产生感情，还总是撒娇，即便不那么明显，但聿严觉得自己总能发现。
Songhe was very light, soft to hold, with exceptionally beautiful cheeks and a temperament that was too gentle. His will wasn't strong enough, and he would be easily swayed by the physiological manifestations of an alpha's heat cycle, developing feelings. He also always acted cute, even if it wasn't obvious, but Yuyan felt he could always notice.

　　关于松和对他的依赖，他很聪明地可以全部观察得出来。
He could cleverly observe all of Songhe's dependence on him.

　　他把松和放在床上，微弱的灯光让松和的面孔不那么清晰，却使聿严看到他顶着光的一侧脸上很细的绒毛，显得他整个人非常柔软。
He placed Songhe on the bed. The dim lighting made Songhe's face less clear, but it allowed Yuyan to see the fine fuzz on the side of his face facing the light, making him seem incredibly soft.

　　睫毛很长，翘起一个弧度，在睡梦中一动不动，聿严想起早晨出门时他略显失落的表情，好在他什么都没说，乖乖上了飞船，所以此时聿严当作奖励一般，伸手摸了摸松和的头发。
Long eyelashes curled into an arc, still motionless in sleep. Yun Yan remembered the slightly lost expression he had on his face when leaving in the morning. Fortunately, he hadn't said anything and obediently got onto the spaceship, so now Yun Yan, treating it as a reward, reached out to stroke Song He's hair.

　　有些凉而温软的触感，松和微微动了一下，好像留恋着他的触碰，但是他的掌心也没有停留太久。
The touch was cool yet soft. Song He stirred slightly, as if lingering in his touch, but Yun Yan's palm didn't linger for too long.

　　送松和回到43号辅星之后，聿严随即离开。
After dropping Song He off at 辅星 43, Yun Yan left immediately.

　　飞船以超光速将43号辅星甩在身后，聿严在闭目休息的时候莫名回头，像能想象得到松和在门里向他投来的目光。
The spaceship left 辅星 43 behind at superluminal speed. When Yun Yan closed his eyes to rest, he inexplicably glanced back, as if he could imagine the gaze Song He had thrown at him from inside the door.

　　“你还好吗？”那天来找他闲聊的同期第一次时间来宿舍找松和，“突然走了那么久，又联系不上，我急死了。”
"How are you doing?" The fellow classmate who came to chat with him that day visited his dorm to find Song He for the first time, "I've been gone for so long suddenly, and I can't reach you, I was so worried."

　　松和没精打采地坐在床上，五六天的不规律饮食把他折腾得够呛，觉得肚子又开始一阵阵得疼，也不掩饰，低声说：“孔木，你帮我拿点止痛药。”
Song He was slumped on the bed, his irregular diet for the past five or six days had taken a toll on him, and he felt his stomach starting to ache again, not trying to hide it, he whispered, "Kong Mu, get me some painkillers."

　　孔木正色道：“怎么了？”
Kong Mu asked seriously, "What's wrong?"

　　松和短暂道：“胃疼。”
Song He briefly said, "Stomachache."

　　孔木很快找来了药，松和就着半杯水吞下。
Kongmu quickly fetched the medicine, and Song swallowed it down with half a cup of water.

　　回到辅星后，他才真正的放松，孔木看他没什么事，才继续笑道：“主帅说你可以休息两天。我知道你的任务应该是不能问，所以，主星怎么样？”
Only after returning to the 辅星 did he truly relax. Seeing that Song was unharmed, Kongmu continued to smile, "The commander said you can rest for two days. I know your task is not to ask, so, how is the 主星?"

　　松和想了想国家剧院那个一闪而过的红色屋顶，说：“很漂亮。”
Song thought of the fleeting red roof of the National Theater and said, "It's very beautiful."

　　同期看得出他累，所以没有久留，门关上以后，松和睡了最近第一个安稳的觉。
Noticing his exhaustion, the 同期 did not stay long. After the door closed, Song slept his first sound sleep in recent memory.

　　梦里他好像真的去了国家剧院，看到了曾经聿严抱着他描述过的场景。
In his dream, it seemed like he really went to the National Theatre and saw the scene his former Yuyan had once described while holding him.

　　专门有一个舞台提供给小丑表演，看的大多是小孩，幕布拉开一层，就是不同的内容，小丑会分一些星星给小朋友，长大以后就知道，其实只是会发光的陨石被加工成了五角的形状，但是小时候就是很喜欢。
There was a special stage dedicated to clowns' performances, mostly watched by children. When the curtain was drawn, different scenes would appear. The clowns would distribute some stars to the kids, and when they grew up, they would realize that they were actually just processed meteorites shaped into five-pointed stars, but as children, they loved them very much.

　　他猜测松和也会喜欢，因为松和虽然表面上看起来是个大人，但其实很天真，会相信他着急的时候说的所有保证，每一次都会被骗，下一次却还是相信。
He guessed that Songhe would also like it, because although Songhe appeared to be an adult on the surface, he was actually very innocent and would believe all the promises he made when he was in a hurry. He would be tricked every time, yet still believe the next time.

　　相信不会很疼，不会很快操他，不会让他哭，也不会咬得他流血。
He believed it wouldn't hurt very much, wouldn't happen quickly, wouldn't make him cry, and wouldn't bite him to the point of bleeding.

　　聿严啄吻着松和的肩背，又去嗅被他咬得布满痕迹的腺体，哄小孩一样地说：“老婆，你想不想看小丑表演？发个星星给你好不好？”
Yu Yan nuzzled against Song He's shoulder and back, then sniffed at the glands he had bitten, cooing like a baby: "Wife, do you want to see a clown performance? Will you give me a star if I do?"

　　大概那是聿严为数不多的轻松的童年回忆，所以他经常说起，在极热发情期里不急着纾解情欲的时候，他也愿意给松和一些温柔的时光。
That was probably one of the few carefree memories Yu Yan had from his childhood, so he often mentioned it. During the extreme heat of the mating season, when he wasn't in a rush to relieve his desires, he was also willing to give Song He some gentle moments.

　　松和每次都很开心地答应：“我想看。”
Song He always happily agreed: "I want to see."

　　他还有些苦恼地问过聿严，自己是大人，小丑应该是不会发星星给他的。
He had also asked Yu Yan with some confusion, being an adult, that clowns probably wouldn't give him stars.

　　当时聿严已经又不耐起来了，拱在他颈侧挺着腰顶他，含含糊糊道：“我摘给你。”
At that time, Yu Yan had already grown impatient. Arching his waist against his side, he nudged him and mumbled, "I'll pick one for you."

　　可是松和一直没等到他摘的星星，也没等到看小丑表演的邀约。
But Song He never got the star he was waiting for, nor the invitation to watch the clown's performance.

　　在又一次的发情期结束以后，聿严将要回到前线，松和拿出自己驾驶飞船很难得才找到的拱极星裂解碎片送给聿严。
After another mating season ended, Yu Yan would be returning to the front lines. Song He presented Yu Yan with polaris fragment pieces, which he had rarely found while piloting his spaceship.

　　当时他衣服都没穿好，露着大半胸膛，房间里的气味是个人都知道他们做过什么，还维持着伸手送礼物的姿势，衣着整齐的聿严就叫敲门的副官进来。
At that moment, he wasn't even dressed properly, revealing most of his chest. The scent in the room made it obvious what they had done. Still maintaining the gesture of offering a gift, Yu Yan, fully dressed, called for the aide who was knocking on the door.

　　可能他内心真的无意羞辱松和，只是对松和的表现感到匪夷所思，一边从副官手里接过军帽带上，一边当着除副官以外还等在门外的一小队人的面对他严肃地说：“松和，这不是爱情。”
Perhaps he genuinely had no intention of humiliating Song He, but rather found Song He's performance utterly baffling. As he put on the military cap handed to him by his adjutant, he said sternly to Song He, who was standing outside with a small group of men besides his adjutant, "Song He, this isn't love."

　　作者有话说：
Author's Note:

　　想一口气写完可是好累呀，有点后悔，好像不如乖乖写存稿
Trying to write everything in one go is so tiring. A bit regretful, maybe it would have been better to just stick to writing my drafts.

　　鹅子这么笨不是妈妈的错，也不是鹅子的错，要怪就怪没早恋吧！
Gezi being so stupid isn't the mother's fault, nor is it Gezi's fault. If there's anyone to blame, it's that they didn't start dating earlier!

　　写写写写再写一章加油翠花一大盘
Write write write write and write another chapter, go for it, Cuihua, a big plate

　　手指抽筋了，惹
My fingers are cramping, damn it

第4章
Chapter 4

　　松和没有想到，与聿严的再次见面会是这种情形。
Song didn't expect that meeting Yu Yan again would be like this.

　　他在军方的小行星拍卖场外被聿严的秘书长叫住，然后就被不由分说地带去了聿严所在的休息室。
He was stopped by Secretary-General Yu Yan outside the military's asteroid auction, and then taken away without objection to the waiting room where Yu Yan was.

　　跟聿严一起的还有三四个人，都是军部新闻上常见的面孔，在他们面前，松和连一只小虾米都算不上，硬着头皮去一一打过招呼，聿严也没给他更多注意力，似乎早就知道他在这里，只握住他手把他往身边带了带，示意他到一边等。
Several other people were with Yu Yan, all faces familiar from military news. In their presence, Song felt no more significant than a tiny shrimp, forcing himself to greet them one by one. Yu Yan didn't pay him much attention, as if he already knew he was there, merely grasping his hand and gently guiding him aside, indicating for him to wait over there.

　　距离拍卖开始只剩下十五分钟，松和离心似箭。
Only fifteen minutes remained until the auction began, and Song couldn't wait to get there.

　　“上将。”松和积攒勇气之后开口，“我……”
"Admiral," Song, gathering his courage, said, "I..."

　　“等一会。”聿严抬头看他一眼，松和看出那是责备的眼神，却又似乎并不吓人，带着温柔的尾调。
“Wait a moment.” Yu Yan glanced up at him, and Song He recognized it as a reproachful look, yet it didn’t seem intimidating, tinged with a gentle undertone.

　　他闭上嘴，没再说话。
He closed his mouth and said no more.

　　心里想着，那颗小行星被别人拍走就拍走吧，反正世间小行星千千万，不行还可以换。
Thinking to himself, if someone else took that small planet, let them take it. There were countless small planets in the world anyway, and if it didn’t work out, they could always exchange it.

　　紧接着又泪流满面，实在看上已经很久了，好不容易等到军方清点完毕，是一颗没有人居住过，但已经被敌方开发好了的小行星。
He was soon brought to tears again. He’d wanted it for so long, and after finally waiting until the military completed their inventory, it turned out to be a small planet that had never been inhabited but had already been developed by the enemy.

　　因为是军方拍卖，所以标价低，而且近年来小行星没有那么抢手，就算加几轮价，大概也在松和可以承受的范围内，又可以分期支付，还有军人贷款优惠。
Because it was an auction by the military, the starting bid was low, and in recent years, asteroids weren't as in demand. Even if a few rounds of bidding were added, it would likely be within Song He's affordable range, plus there were installment payments available and military loan discounts.

　　松和打算用一百二十年来慢慢还贷款，那样，就可以用很少的钱，买到一颗只属于他的星星。
Song He planned to pay off the loan over one hundred and twenty years, so he could buy a star that was truly his with very little money.

　　聿严的谈话在松和这里将时间无限拉长，等到那几位军官告辞，拍卖已经开始了二十分钟。
Lü Yan's conversation stretched the time infinitely for Song He. By the time those officers left, the auction had already been going for twenty minutes.

　　他的小行星就排在后两位，注定不会属于他。
His asteroid was in the last two slots, destined never to be his.

　　“谁告诉你我在这里？”聿严突然问他。
“Who told you I was here?” Yu Yan suddenly asked.

　　松和对这个问题展开了无尽的思考。
Song He pondered the question endlessly.

　　他并不知道聿严在这里，那么是谁告诉他的呢？
He didn’t know Yu Yan was here, so who could have told him?

　　他的沉默让聿严决定不再继续追问，毕竟一个小小的士兵也需要面子，何况还是爱慕着他的士兵。
His silence made Yu Yan decide not to press further. After all, even a lowly soldier needed dignity, especially one who was infatuated with him.

　　“请假出来的？”
"Taking a leave?"

　　松和点头：“嗯。”
Song nodded: "Mm."

　　“下次……”聿严想说下次别再做这种傻事，但又觉得松和是一个成年人，在一些无伤大雅的方面，他没必要管得太严，所以他改口道，“下次可以直接问我。”
"Next time..." Yu Yan wanted to say next time don't do such a foolish thing, but he felt Song He was an adult, in some trivial matters, he didn't need to be too strict, so he changed his words, "Next time you can just ask me."

　　松和觉得自己懂了，又好像没懂，于是又点点头，说：“好。”
Song He felt like he understood, but also like he didn't. He nodded again and said, "Okay."

　　聿严紧接着注意到松和落在拍卖册上的眼神，编号Y-521，那是一颗很小的行星，只有地球的三十分之一大，质量是地球的二十分之一。
Yan immediately noticed the gaze of Song and Luo on the auction catalog, item Y-521, which was a very small planet, only one-thirtieth the size of Earth, with a mass one-twentieth of Earth's.

　　敌方为了稳定它的引力而做了不少工作，原本打算将其作为一个提供给中产阶级度假的场所，所以基础设施做得非常不错。
The enemy had done a lot of work to stabilize its gravity and originally planned to use it as a resort for the middle class, so the infrastructure was quite good.

　　“喜欢这个？”
"Do you like this?"

　　松和的眼神没有移开，还在很认真地看，只是点头答应：“嗯。”
Song and Luo's gaze didn't move away; they were still looking very seriously, just nodding in agreement: "Mm."

　　“它上面有很大片的草原，据说是最适合养羊的气候，附近水源也很多，只是不知道上面的生物类群怎么样，拍卖册上没写，我也没打听到。”
“It has a large expanse of grassland, said to be the most suitable climate for raising sheep, and there are plenty of water sources nearby, but I don’t know how the biodiversity is up there. The auction catalog didn’t mention it, and I haven’t been able to find out.”

　　如果需要自己把羊从另一个星球运过去的话，那对松和来说就是天方夜谭。
If he had to transport the sheep himself from another planet, it would be impossible for Song He.

　　尽管星际邮件已经非常普遍，但是运一群羊过去还是掏空他的腰包也不可能做到的事。
Although interstellar mail is very common, sending a herd of sheep would still be beyond his means, no matter how much he spent.

　　聿严本来以为自己会没有耐心听他说那么长一串没有意义的话，但他到最后也没有打断松和。
Yue Yan originally thought he wouldn’t have the patience to listen to him ramble on about such pointless things, but he didn’t interrupt Song He by the end.

　　等松和吧啦吧啦又介绍了两分钟Y-521号小行星，拍卖就轮到了它。
While Song and Bula Bula introduced the Y-521 asteroid for another two minutes, the auction moved on to it.

　　松和自己闭上了嘴，看着转播的屏幕。
Song and himself shut his mouth and watched the broadcast screen.

　　他希望小行星遇到一个懂它的主人，理解它的草原是用来养羊，而不是喂马。
He hoped the asteroid would meet a master who understood it, recognizing that its grassland was for raising sheep, not feeding horses.

　　马很凶，松和虽然是个守门的士兵，承担着战场上非常重要的职责，但他对那种生物仍然有些不好意思说出口的害怕。
Horses were fierce, and although Song and was a gatekeeping soldier holding a very important position on the battlefield, he still had an unspoken fear of those creatures that he wasn't comfortable voicing.

　　四轮叫价后，已经没有人出价，第一锤落下以后，聿严按下手里的竞价器，加了五百万。
After four rounds of bidding, no one else made a bid. After the first hammer fell, Yu Yan pressed the bidding button in his hand and added five million.

　　小行星归他了。
The asteroid was his.

　　返回的一路上，聿严的心情似乎都不错，是跟在他身后的松和有些没精打采，没注意到飞船驶向陌生的方向。
On the way back, Yu Yan seemed in a good mood, but Song, who was following behind him, was somewhat listless and didn't notice the spaceship heading in an unfamiliar direction.

　　那是聿严最近休假的地方，来自他母亲的一颗小行星，同样处于宜居带。
That was where Yu Yan had recently taken a vacation, an asteroid from his mother, also located in the habitable zone.

　　飞船降落的地方温度比较低，是深秋的气候，松和身上是夏末的穿着，但他是个可以控制自己的士兵，不至于因为这点小事就开始哆嗦。
The landing site of the spaceship was quite cold, with the climate of late autumn. Song He was dressed for late summer, but he was a soldier who could control himself, so he didn't tremble over such a small matter.

　　可聿严好像仍不满意，提醒他：“不要总是出神。”
But Sei Genn seemed still unsatisfied, reminding him, "Don't always space out."

　　“对不起，长官。”松和下意识道歉，接着又改口，“上将。”
"Sorry,长官。" Song He subconsciously apologized, then corrected himself, "Admiral."

　　聿严低头看他，觉得他有些委屈，接着反省自己是否对松和太凶，他跑了很远来看自己，好像的确应该温和一些。
Sei Genn lowered his head to look at him, feeling a bit sorry for him, then reflected on whether he had been too harsh on Song He. He had run a long way to see him, and indeed, he should have been gentler.

　　所以聿严把自己的外套脱下来，披在了松和的肩头。
So Yu Yan took off his own coat and draped it over Song He's shoulders.

　　用过晚餐以后，松和才找到机会问聿严：“上将，请问什么时候送我回去？”
After dinner, Song He finally found an opportunity to ask Yu Yan, "Admiral, when will you take me back?"

　　聿严将它理解为松和的不舍，很好心地说：“创世之柱以北的地方你应该没有来过，可以留下来过一夜，明早派人送你回去。”
Yu Yan took it as Song He's reluctance and said kindly, "The area north of the Pillar of Creation, you haven't been there before. You can stay overnight, and we'll send someone to take you back in the morning."

　　“可我只请了一下午的假。”
"But I only took the afternoon off."

　　“没关系。”聿严觉得他又在撒娇，道，“我帮你说。”
“It’s okay.” Yu Yan thought he was being childish again and said, “I’ll help you.”

　　松和于是待在聿严的别墅一楼长达两个小时，这里的日出两小时就有一次，所以他还看了一场完整的日落。
Song He stayed in the first floor of Yu Yan’s villa for two hours. There was a sunrise every two hours there, so he also watched a complete sunset.

　　等恒星的光辉隐没在海平面以下，天空只余橙黄色的光，聿严穿着浴袍出现在了一楼。
When the light of the stars faded below the sea level, and the sky was left with only orange-yellow light, Yu Yan appeared on the first floor in a bathrobe.

　　“不休息吗？”
“ Aren’t you going to rest?”

　　“还不累。”
"Not tired yet."

　　聿严站得有些远，因为日落的原因，松和看不太清他的脸，对长官的尊敬促使他下意识地主动走近几步，对聿严解释：“其实最近辅星上都没什么工作，我只是看看监控数据，所以今天才被准假的。”
Yu Yan stood somewhat far away, as the setting sun made it difficult for Song He to see his face clearly. Driven by respect for his superior, he subconsciously took a few steps closer and explained to Yu Yan, "Actually, there hasn't been much work on the auxiliary star recently. I was just looking at the monitoring data, so I was approved for leave today."

　　聿严听他提起请假，脸上的表情柔和了两分，试着用温和的语气说：“没事多看看书，之前跟你提过的，是不是总也没有上心？”
Hearing him mention taking leave, the expression on Yu Yan's face softened slightly. He tried to say in a gentle tone, "Make sure to read more books. I mentioned this to you before—have you been paying attention?"

　　松和认真道：“我有记得，您给我的都看完了，新买的还没有寄到。43号辅星太偏，每次都要攒足够多数量的邮件，才会一次性送来。”
Song He replied earnestly, "I remember. I've finished all the books you gave me. The newly purchased ones haven't arrived yet. Auxiliary Star 43 is too remote; each time, enough mail must be accumulated before it's sent over in one batch."

　　聿严从松和单纯解释的话里听出别的意思，抱怨离他太远，也抱怨他没有继续送书给他。
From Yun Yan's and Shun Chen's explanations, he sensed something else—complaints about being too far away, and complaints that he hadn't continued sending books to him.

　　他没有再接话，松和等了会，就抬头看他，聿严突然发觉，松和的嘴唇很红，放松谈话的时候抿起一个温柔的弧度，非常适合亲吻。
He didn't respond further, and after a moment, Shun Chen looked up at him. Yun Yan suddenly realized that Shun Chen's lips were very red, forming a gentle curve when he relaxed in conversation—perfect for kissing.

　　在拍卖场的休息室里他就注意到了，当时还让他少见地分了点神。
He had noticed it in the auction house's lounge, something that had briefly distracted him.

　　松和一定也想要他吻他。
Shun Chen must also want him to kiss him.

　　聿严没有考虑多久，就将松和拉进怀里，在日落后开始的黑暗中亲吻松和。
Yu Yan didn't hesitate for long before pulling Song and La into his arms, kissing them in the darkness that began after sunset.

　　他发现松和的嘴唇不止很红，还很软，所以他吻的时间有些长，等到天空布满繁星，松和已经被他推到了墙壁上，裤子半褪，露出半个屁股，被聿严揉在手里，而他的另一只手就穿过衬衣，放在松和的胸前。
He noticed that Song and's lips weren't just red, but also soft, so he kissed them for a while. By the time the sky was filled with stars, Song and had already been pushed against the wall by him, his pants half-drawn down, revealing half of his buttocks, being 揉 in his hands, while his other hand went through his shirt, resting on Song and's chest.

　　两个人的呼吸都有些乱，松和没什么力气地挂在他胳膊上，随着胸口被抚弄的动作发抖，嘴唇被松开以后，才断断续续地发出好像非常舒服的声音。
Both of their breaths were a bit 乱, Song and hanging weakly on his arms, trembling with the movement of his chest being caressed, only emitting broken, seemingly very comfortable sounds after his lips were released.

　　聿严想到他在拍卖场十二层的窗户里看到的松和，自己开了辆军用的越野车，下车以后也跟所有人一样非常帅气地朝后甩上车门，那种高度下，每个人都像蚂蚁，但聿严还是一眼就认出了松和。
Yu Yan thought of Song and he had seen from the window on the twelfth floor of the auction house. He drove a military off-road vehicle, and after getting out of the car, he also swung the door behind him very stylishly, just like everyone else. From that height, everyone looked like ants, but Yu Yan still recognized Song and at a glance.

　　可能是他们之间有过的亲密的信息素联系，也可能只是因为松和的脚步总比别人慢半拍。
Perhaps it was the intimate pheromonal connection they had shared, or maybe it was just because Song and's pace was always half a beat slower than everyone else's.

　　他是个合格的士兵，但在战场之外，他表现出笨拙、稚嫩和天真，容易陷入爱情，喜欢撒娇，特别喜欢聿严。
He was a competent soldier, but outside of battle, he showed clumsiness, immaturity, and innocence, easily falling in love, enjoying being coddled, and especially loving Yu Yan.

　　就像此时松和贴着他的身体， 好像非常渴望与他做爱。
Like now, Song and pressed against his body, as if very eager to have sex with him.

　　聿严把松和抱起来，走上二楼。
Yu Yan picked Song and up and walked upstairs.

　　一开始他的步伐很稳，但可能是松和有些等不了，呼吸加重，信息素的散发也开始不受控制，所以他加快了脚步，到门口的时候，甚至直接用脚踢开了房门。
At first, his steps were steady, but perhaps Song He couldn't wait and his breathing grew heavier, the release of his pheromones becoming uncontrollable, so he quickened his pace, even kicking the door open with his foot when he reached it.

　　松和的背部刚接触到床单，聿严就插了进去，他在楼下时扩张得不算到位，所以松和发出一声低泣，但又好像为自己的声音而感到羞耻，所以偏过脸，用一只手捂住了嘴巴。
As soon as Song He's back touched the sheets, Yu Yan pushed in. He hadn't fully hardened downstairs, so Song He let out a low moan, but then seemed ashamed of his own sound, turning his head aside and covering his mouth with one hand.

　　聿严很快退了出来，他把松和的裤子完全脱掉，手从松和细长的腿部摸上去，一直到有些可怜的穴口，俯下身去，因为松和捂着嘴，所以他只好不太熟练地亲吻松和的下巴和脖颈。
Yu Yan quickly pulled out, completely removing Song He's pants, his hand tracing its way up Song He's slender legs until it reached the rather pitiful opening, bending down because Song He was covering his mouth, so he had to awkwardly kiss Song He's chin and neck instead.

　　还有其他一切松和看起来很想被他吻到的地方。
There were also all the other places on Song He that looked like he really wanted to be kissed.

　　大约十五分钟之后，聿严才重新插了进去。
About fifteen minutes later, Yu Yan reentered.

　　松和的上身因为过于瘦而显得单薄，但腹部上有一层薄薄的肌肉，就让他看上去没那么脆弱。
Song He's upper body appeared thin due to his excessive 瘦, but a layer of thin muscle on his abdomen made him seem less fragile.

　　聿严操了很久，爽和舒服三个字轮番在他大脑中放大加粗飘过，根本不记得是什么时候跟松和吻到了一起——他不是把嘴巴捂住了吗？
Yu Yan lasted for a long time, the words "satisfying" and "comfortable" flashing through his mind, bold and enlarged, making him completely forget when he had kissed Song He—didn't he cover his mouth?

　　后来松和好像哭了，聿严过了会才发现。他把默默流眼泪的松和从床上抱起来，让他面朝着落地窗，看第二次升起来的恒星。
Later, Song He seemed to be crying, and Yu Yan noticed after a while. He picked up Song He, who was quietly crying, from the bed and turned him to face the floor-to-ceiling window, watching the second rising star.

　　他觉得松和待在一楼那么久没有上去找他，只是为了看守在43号辅星上时就最为常见的日升日落，那一定是非常喜欢。
He thought that Song and Dai hadn't come up to look for him after staying on the first floor for so long, just to watch the sunrise and sunset that were most common when they were on the 43rd auxiliary star, which must mean he really liked it.

　　一开始是淡紫色的光，虚虚笼罩在松和身上，松和撑不住自己，向后靠在聿严怀里，还在不可自控地流泪，所以聿严没能再等多久，就重新开始抽插。
At first, a faint purple light hovered over Song and, and he couldn't hold himself, leaning back against Yu Yan's chest, still uncontrollably crying, so Yu Yan couldn't wait any longer and resumed thrusting.

　　等到终于结束，松和侧躺在床上，感觉身后有源源不断流出来的液体，聿严去洗过澡回来了，站在床边看了他一会，又左右看看，最后问了一句：“还是很累？”
When it finally ended, Song lay on his side in bed, feeling a continuous flow of liquid coming out from behind him. Yu Yan had taken a shower and returned, standing by the bedside and looking at him for a while, then glanced left and right before asking, "Are you still very tired?"

　　松和连说话的力气都没有，所以只是点了点头，聿严沉默片刻，说：“那你在战场上怎么办？”
Song didn't even have the strength to speak, so he just nodded. Yu Yan was silent for a moment, then said, "Then what about when you're on the battlefield?"

　　等了会，见松和没有要回答他的意思，聿严思索再思索，道：“我抱你去？”
After waiting a moment, seeing that Song He showed no intention of answering, Yu Yan thought deeply and said, "Shall I carry you?"

　　松和没有说好，也没有说不好，不过聿严没有再问，直接将他抱起，再次进了浴室。
Song He neither said yes nor no, but Yu Yan didn't ask again, directly picked him up and went back into the bathroom.

　　回到床上以后，聿严保持着将松和抱在怀里的姿势，没有把他推开，还擦了擦刚才在浴室又做一次以后他脸上没干的眼泪。
Once back on the bed, Yu Yan maintained the posture of holding Song He in his arms, didn't push him away, and even wiped the tears that hadn't dried on his face from their second time in the bathroom.

　　松和休息了很长时间，期间聿严一直待在床上，没再问他奇怪的问题，过了会，松和说：“我们为什么做爱？”
Song He rested for a very long time, during which Yu Yan stayed on the bed, no longer asking him strange questions. After a while, Song He said, "Why did we have sex?"

　　这不是发情期，除了极热发情以外，他们甚至没有在普通的发情期做过，更不用说只是平常的一天。
This is not the mating season, and besides the extremely hot mating period, they haven't even done it during the regular mating period, let alone just an ordinary day.

　　靠坐在床头的聿严有些奇怪地看了他一眼：“你看起来很想做。”
Sitting back against the head of the bed, Yu Yan looked at him strangely, "You look like you really want to."

　　松和没再说话，把眼睛闭上，很快要睡着了，又被聿严推醒。
Song He didn't say anything more, closed his eyes, and was about to fall asleep when Yu Yan shook him awake.

　　聿严好像找不出什么好说的，裸着上身坐在松和面前，腿上是松软的羽绒被，勉强遮住性器，表情有些绷，最后才说：“下次不会让你再这么累。”
Yu Yan seemed to have nothing else to say, standing naked in front of Song He, his legs covered by a soft down blanket that barely concealed his genitalia, his expression somewhat strained, before finally saying, "Next time, I won't let you be this tired."

　　“这给你。”接着他又说。
“Here you go.” Then he said again.

　　松和仔细辨认，看出递到面前的是那份小行星的产权书。
Song He carefully 辨认, realizing that what was handed to him was the property deed of that asteroid.

　　过了好久，松和才说：“我不要。”
It took a long time before Song He said, “I don’t want it.”

　　“什么？”
“What?”

　　松和抿了抿嘴，下巴戳在羽绒被里，黑白分明的眼睛无害地看着聿严，声音很轻地说：“我没有那么贵。”
Meng Su and Qin Mo pouted, burying her chin in the down comforter, her clearly contrasting black and white eyes looking innocently at Yu Yan, her voice soft as she said, "I'm not that expensive."

第5章
Chapter 5

　　以松和的津贴和购买力来计算，这颗小行星对他来说，的确是一件过于贵重的礼物。
Calculated based on Meng Su's allowance and purchasing power, this small planet was indeed an overly expensive gift for him.

　　所以聿严接着他的话说：“没错。”
So Yu Yan continued where he left off, saying, "That's right."

　　松和的睫毛垂了垂，他太累了，躺在轻而松软的羽绒被下显得非常柔软，脸上的表情跟刚才一模一样，带着困倦，没有变过。
The lashes of Song He fluttered slightly; he was too tired, appearing extremely soft under the light and fluffy down blanket, with the expression on his face remaining exactly the same as before, tired, unchanged.

　　但聿严就是有种自己说错了话的感觉，尤其是当那颗小行星的产权书被松和轻轻推回来以后。
But Yu Yan had a feeling that he had said something wrong, especially after Song He gently pushed the deed of the small planet back.

　　他试图再说些什么，但松和又一次闭上了眼睛，阻断了两个人的交流。
He tried to say something more, but Song He closed his eyes again, cutting off communication between the two.

　　这是松和少见的没有礼貌的表现，聿严却没怎么在意，甚至很快就原谅了松和。
This was a rare display of impoliteness from Song He, but Yu Yan didn't mind much, even quickly forgiving Song He.

　　他觉得松和偶尔的任性也不失为一种在他的许可范围内的可爱。
He thought that Song's occasional stubbornness was also a kind of cuteness within his permissible range.

　　又想，除了极热发情期以外，他们接触的时间其实不长，所以也许这才是松和真正的样子。
He then reflected that apart from the extremely hot estrus period, their time spent together wasn't actually long, so perhaps this was Song's true self.

　　公务以外的相处时间在此时对聿严来说显得弥足珍贵，所以他没再打搅松和，也没试图摆出长官的架子去讲道理。
The time spent together outside of official duties seemed particularly precious to Yu Yan at this moment, so he didn't disturb Song and didn't try to assert his superior status by trying to reason with him.

　　比方说他名下的行星已经够多，留下Y-521只会徒增管理的工作。
For example, the planets under his name were already enough, and leaving Y-521 behind would only add to the management workload.

　　又比方说松和用“贵”或“不贵”来形容自己是不合适的，他是一名合格的士兵，担任守门的职责十多年，大大小小受过二十一次奖励，即便在数量庞大的军队当中，他也根本不算非常平凡。
For example, it's inappropriate for Song He to describe himself as "expensive" or "not expensive." He is a qualified soldier who has served as a gatekeeper for over ten years, receiving twenty-one awards of varying sizes. Even in the vast army, he is far from ordinary.

　　他是一个优秀的E型omega，尽职尽责地陪聿严度过了数不清次数的极热发情期，而除此之外，他还是一个品德端正的公民，个人记录中从未有过违法乱纪行为，定时缴税，垃圾分类。
He is an excellent E-type omega, dutifully accompanying Yu Yan through countless scorching heat cycles. Beyond that, he is an upright citizen with a clean record, never having committed any illegal or disciplinary offenses, paying taxes on schedule, and sorting waste properly.

　　松和是宇宙中非常珍贵的存在。
Song He is a very precious existence in the universe.

　　他会获得每一个上级诚恳的认可，和每一个朋友的喜爱。
He will earn the sincere recognition of every superior and the affection of every friend.

　　这些话聿严都没有说，他只是坐在一边，看着松和入睡后的脸。
These words Yuyan never said; he just sat on the side, watching Song and the face after falling asleep.

　　窗外的恒星落下又升起三次还要多，聿严解决了今天一天积攒下来的全部文件，又回复了五份报告，将仓库出现故障的电路修复，松和才有要醒的预兆。
The stars outside the window set and rose three times, maybe more, before Yuyan finished all the files accumulated for the day, replied to five reports, and repaired the circuit that malfunctioned in the warehouse. Only then did Song show signs of waking up.

　　他太能睡了，聿严开始怀疑自己刚才对松和的评价带了某种滤镜，他想，松和是他见过最能睡的士兵。
He slept too soundly, Yuyan began to doubt whether his previous evaluation of Song had been colored by some filter. He thought, Song was the sleepiest soldier he had ever met.

　　聿严用手在他脸上挡了一下，遮住恒星恼人的光线，松和的脸才没那么皱，舒展表情，继续在被子下面动了动身体，过了会安静下来，好像重新睡着了，但又低声哼了哼，翻身朝床边滚了一圈，又滚回到聿严身边，伸出的手臂碰到靠坐在床头的聿严，下意识搂了搂，将脸贴过去，才突然醒来。
Yuyan used his hand to shield his face, blocking the annoying light of the stars. Song's face wasn't as wrinkled, his expression relaxed, and he continued to move his body under the blanket. After a while, he became quiet, as if falling back asleep, but then he hummed softly, rolled over to the edge of the bed, and then rolled back to Yuyan's side. His outstretched arm brushed against Yuyan, who was sitting against the head of the bed, and he instinctively wrapped his arms around him, bringing his face close. Only then did he suddenly wake up.

　　睁开眼愣愣地看着聿严，似乎反应不过来。
Opened his eyes and stared blankly at Yu Yan, seemingly unable to react.

　　观看了松和一点都不严肃，甚至不像一个成年人的完整的起床流程，聿严很好地控制着自己脸上的表情，不让松和刚醒就看到来自长官的批评。
Watching Song He and Jin Dan's completely non-serious, almost like a child's full morning routine, Yu Yan well-controlled the expression on his face, not wanting Song He, just waking up, to see criticism from his superior.

　　“我睡了多久？”
"How long did I sleep?"

　　“六小时。”
"Six hours."

　　松和很费劲地从床上爬起来：“你怎么没有叫我！”
Song He struggled to get out of bed: "You didn't wake me up!"

　　聿严没有提醒他语气和用词的礼貌问题，一边看着终端，一边回答：“你没说过需要我叫你。”
Yu Yan didn't remind him about the politeness of his tone and wording, answering while looking at the terminal: "You didn't say you needed me to wake you."

　　松和放弃跟聿严探讨这个不再有意义的问题。
Song He gave up trying to discuss this now meaningless issue with Yu Yan.

　　在睡着之前，他们已经做了很长时间，又睡了六个小时，本该在辅星时间的第二天一早到达，现在不止没有，还早过了续假的时间。
Before falling asleep, they had already been awake for a long time, and then slept for another six hours. They were supposed to arrive early the next morning on the auxiliary star's time, but now they hadn't even made it, and were already past the extended leave period.

　　他这个月的奖金无论如何拿不到了。
He won't be able to get his bonus this month no matter what.

　　松和没有给出聿严意料中的与他刚醒时的着急对应的懊恼反应，只是静静地接受了自己睡过头的事实，甚至开始有些走神，眼神落在空中飘来的一大片可能会带来降水的云上。
Song He didn't show the expected regretful reaction that matched his urgency upon waking, but quietly accepted the fact that he had overslept. He even started to daydream, his gaze falling on a large expanse of clouds floating in the air that might bring precipitation.

　　但又好像合乎情理。
But it seemed reasonable.

　　他从来都没什么起伏特别大的情绪，至少在聿严的记忆中没有，而他们相识也已经四年多了。
He had never had emotions with particularly great fluctuations, at least not in Yu Yan's memory, and they had known each other for more than four years.

　　对现代人类的寿命来说不算什么，但对聿严来说，他的身边鲜少有除亲缘关系以外的人像松和这样长时间停留。
Not a big deal for the lifespan of modern humans, but for Yu Yan, it was rare for anyone besides family members like Song to stay by his side for such a long time.

　　在辅星的门里，面对突然发情的聿严的时候，第二次被副官紧急带到前线应付已经保证过不会再有下一次的聿严的极热发情期的时候，得知往后还会有很多次的时候，告白被拒绝的时候。
Inside the auxiliary star's gate, when facing Yu Yan's sudden heat cycle, when being urgently taken to the front line for the second time to deal with the already promised-to-be-never-again extreme heat cycle of Yu Yan, when learning that there would still be many more times in the future, when his confession was rejected.

　　43号辅星受到攻击的时候，聿严驾驶的飞船脱离队伍最先赶到，推开门后，看到的也是他冷静的脸。
When 43rd auxiliary star was attacked, the spaceship piloted by Yu Yan detached from the group and arrived first. After pushing the door open, what he saw was also his calm face.

　　聿严问他：“你怎么样？”
Yu Yan asked him, "How are you?"

　　他在聿严有些紧绷的表情下敬了个标准的军礼，然后边看表边说：“没事，只有三个空间站坠落，里面没有我们的人。你们比预计早到了一个小时。”
He gave a standard military salute beneath the slightly strained expression of Yun Yan, then glanced at his watch and said, "It's nothing. Only three space stations have collapsed, and there are no people of ours inside. You arrived an hour earlier than expected."

　　聿严想说我问的是你怎么样，不是辅星怎么样，也不是战况怎么样。
Yun Yan wanted to say, "I'm asking about you, not about the auxiliary star, and not about the battle situation."

　　还想说你作为一个守门的士兵，理解能力这样差，是怎么把工作做好的。
He also wanted to say, "As a soldier guarding the gate, with such poor understanding, how were you able to do your job well."

　　但他只是看了他很久，因为松和的确看上去很好，没有受伤，没有惊吓，不需要再亲口回答。
But he just looked at him for a long time, because Song He indeed looked fine, unharmed, and not frightened, and didn't need to answer with his own words.

　　在松和又问了一次军队在哪里停靠以后，聿严说：“他们在后面。”
After asking where the army had stopped again, Yun Yan said, "They're behind."

　　等军队在一个多小时之后抵达，聿严已经指挥43号辅星上的士兵掌控了局面，松和才明白聿严说的“后面”究竟有多后。
By the time the army arrived over an hour later, Yun Yan had already directed the soldiers on 辅星 43 to take control of the situation. Song He then realized just how far "behind" Yun Yan had meant.

　　他对聿严说：“您太冲动，辅星的情况没有那么紧急，反而是飞船为了赶时间而跳跃太多次才很可能出现问题。”
He said to Yun Yan, "You were too hasty. The situation on 辅星 wasn't that urgent; rather, it was more likely that the spaceship would encounter problems from jumping too many times in a rush."

　　一场规模不大不小的冲突正在做扫尾工作，即便聿严待的地方，也人来人往，松和说话时的神情总是很认真，无论身边有多少人，他都可以让对方十足地感受到他的专注。
A conflict of moderate scale was in the process of wrap-up work. Even where Yun Yan was, the place was bustling with people. Song He always spoke with great seriousness, and no matter how many people were around, he could make them fully sense his focus.

　　他很关心自己，聿严明白，但他还是不能抱抱他，尽管他看上去很需要。
He is very self-conscious, Yuye knows that, but he still can't hug him, even though he looks like he needs one.

　　“什么时候回去？”
"When are you coming back?"

　　松和回神，不再去研究那一片组成成分不明的降水云，道：“十小时之内，都是可以的。”
Song He snapped back to reality and stopped studying the precipitation clouds with unknown composition, saying, "Within ten hours, it's fine."

　　他讲话很慢，声线也比平时要软。大约是刚醒来的缘故，也有可能只是因为在对自己撒娇。
He spoke slowly, his voice softer than usual. It was probably because he had just woken up, or maybe just because he was being cute.

　　聿严有一些想说的话，比方批评他不足的体力、太长的睡眠和不够雅观的起床过程，但他却没能开口，只是在不明原因的驱使下靠近松和，在松和转脸看过来的时候吻住了他。
Yu Yan had some things he wanted to say, like criticizing his insufficient stamina, too long sleep, and unrefined morning routine, but he couldn't bring himself to speak. Instead, driven by an unknown impulse, he moved closer to Song He and kissed him when Song He turned to look.

　　为了帮助他稳住身体，还伸出一只手按着他的后颈。
To help steady him, he also reached out and pressed his hand against Song He's nape.

　　时间很宽裕，松和看上去也很想要，所以聿严又做了一次。
There was plenty of time, and Song He looked like he wanted more, so Yu Yan did it again.

　　松和表现得比睡前那一次好，没说什么求饶的话，可能跟聿严温柔了一些也有关系，但还是哭了，搂着聿严的脖子掉眼泪。
Song He performed better than the first time before sleep, not saying anything pleading, possibly because Yu Yan was gentler this time. But he still cried, hugging Yu Yan's neck and shedding tears.

　　被加快动作的聿严擦掉眼泪的时候，松和迷迷糊糊地想，也许聿严会说，“守门的士兵怎么会这么容易就掉眼泪”。
As Yu Yan wiped away his tears with accelerated movements, Song and Mi were drowsily thinking that perhaps Yu Yan would say, "How could a guard soldier be so easily moved to tears."

　　然而聿严没有，他什么都没说，只是不间断地擦去松和流出来的泪水，也并没有表现出不耐和厌烦。
However, Yu Yan didn't say anything. He didn't utter a word, merely continuously wiping away the tears that flowed from Song and Mi, without showing any impatience or annoyance.

　　这一次做完，松和没再休息。
This time, after finishing, Song didn't rest.

　　他整理好自己，上了飞船。
He tidied himself up and boarded the spaceship.

　　送他回辅星的队伍由五名聿严的护卫队成员组成，他在舱门合上之前对聿严挥了挥手，感觉有些傻，就又把手收了回来。
The team sending him back to the auxiliary star consisted of five stern guards. Before the hatch closed, he waved at Yu Yan, feeling a bit foolish, and then withdrew his hand.

　　聿严站在霞光中，身后是那栋漂亮的别墅，站姿挺拔，随便放到哪个检阅场面中也足够规范，只是面上的表情柔和了几分，也或许只是霞光的作用。
Yu Yan stood in the glow of the dawn, with the beautiful villa behind him. His posture was upright, sufficient to meet any inspection standards, though his expression softened slightly—or perhaps it was just the effect of the dawn light.

　　聿严的飞船有最高许可，在距离43号辅星的“门”最近的准停区降落，松和准备离开前，五名护卫队成员已经先行准备好，从飞船的后舱中调出三艘迷你双人飞船。
Yu Yan's spaceship had top-level clearance, landing in the nearest authorized zone to the "gate" of the 43rd auxiliary star. Before Song He was ready to leave, the five guards had already prepared, retrieving three mini two-person spacecrafts from the rear compartment of the ship.

　　“接聿严上将的调令，从今天开始，L-0297太空舰由您驾驶，您的信息将军已经提前录入完毕，我们离开之后，除您以外的所有准驾人信息将被自动删除。”
"Receiving the order from General Yu Yan. Starting today, the L-0297 spaceship is assigned to you. Your information has already been pre-entered by the general. After we leave, all authorized pilot information except yours will be automatically deleted."

　　飞来横船，松和说：“我不需要这么大的太空舰。”
A ship appeared out of nowhere, and Song He said, "I don't need a spaceship this big."

　　“是很大。”聿严的指令代达以后，看起来像是领头的那一个护卫队成员冲松和笑了一下，语气也没那么客气，更亲近了一些，“但是也很酷，是吧？”
"It's very big," said Yu Yan after giving the order. The lead guard member, who seemed to be in charge, smiled at Song He, his tone less formal and more familiar, "But it's also cool, right?"

　　“我们在军校的时候，所有人都超级喜欢这个系列的太空舰，配置顶级，主要颜值还高，上将那里本来还算多，但战损太严重，它造价又高，军方就停了生产线，这几年过来，也就只剩下上将自己买来用作代步的这几艘啦。”
"When we were at the military academy, everyone was obsessed with this series of spaceships. They were top-of-the-line in configuration and had great aesthetics. There were originally quite a few in the fleet, but due to heavy battle damage and their high cost, the military stopped production. In the years since, only these few that the General himself bought for personal use remain."

　　另一个护卫队员忍住叫松和“夫人”的冲动，顿了顿才继续说：“开上它，您就是银河系里最靓的崽！”
Another guard member suppressed the urge to call Song He 'Lady' and paused before continuing, "If you drive it, you'll be the shiniest star in the galaxy!"

　　“上将这边的报销走得最快，所以我们特意在来之前去帮您加满了燃料，只要您不是天天去逛创世之柱，开两年没有问题。”那名队员又补了一句，“不用客气！这些都是应该的！但薅羊毛的事情私底下知道就可以了，不用特意到上将面前夸我们！”
"The commander's side has the fastest reimbursement process, so we specifically refueled it for you before you came. As long as you don't visit the Pillar of Creation every day, it should be fine to drive for two years." The team member added, "Don't be polite! This is all part of the job! But when it comes to taking advantage of things, it's enough to know about it privately. There's no need to specifically praise us in front of the commander!"

　　护卫队在叽叽喳喳之后很快离开，松和又在飞船里待了会。
After some chatter, the guard team quickly left, and Song waited a bit longer inside the spaceship.

　　它的确很酷，至今保持着飞行器速度的最高纪录，不考虑会让他倾家荡产的罚单的话，从主星到创世之柱，全速之下只需要2.5小时，是看一眼都会使所有士兵肾上腺素升高的座驾，更不用说暂时得到了它的使用权。
It was indeed cool, still holding the highest speed record for any vehicle. Ignoring the hefty fine it would incur, traveling from the main star to the Pillar of Creation at full speed would only take 2.5 hours. It was a ride that would make all soldiers' adrenaline surge just by looking at it, let alone temporarily having the opportunity to drive it.

　　松和坐在指挥室的驾驶位上，想出三种将它退还给聿严的理由，也在同时想出了一百条驾驶它闲逛的路线。
Song sat in the command room's cockpit, thinking of three reasons to return it to Yu Yan, while simultaneously coming up with a hundred routes to drive it around for fun.

　　好吧，聿严抢了他的小行星，那么他借他的飞船来开一段时间，好像也并不算过分。
Alright, since Yu Yan took his asteroid, it doesn't seem too unreasonable for him to borrow his spaceship for a while.

　　漂浮在创世之柱以北的某颗不起眼的小行星上的聿严在松和离开三小时后收到一条提醒，通知他名下一艘编号为L-0297的太空舰被更名为“羊驼全速冲刺一号”。
Three hours after Song He left, Yu Yan, floating on an inconspicuous asteroid north of the Pillar of Creation, received a notification informing him that one of his spaceships, numbered L-0297, had been renamed "Alpaca Full Speed Ahead No. 1."

第6章
Chapter 6

　　时间过了二十六天，聿严送出的太空舰已经在太空中留下了相当凌乱的足迹，航线乱七八糟，目的地千奇百怪，所以聿严很容易就可以在松和的印象板上增添一个新玩具到手就会化身熊孩子的标签。
Twenty-six days passed, and the spaceship Yu Yan sent out had left quite a messy trail in space—chaotic routes, bizarre destinations. Therefore, it was easy for Yu Yan to add a new tag to Song He's impression board: "Turns into a 熊孩子 upon receiving a new toy."

　　但是其中五次经过创世之柱的出行里，甚至有两次靠近创世之柱以北的方向，却没有一次，曾经抱怨43号辅星离聿严太远的松和露出要驾驶着那艘“羊驼全速冲刺一号”降落在他休假的小行星上的意图。
But out of the five trips through the Pillar of Creation, and even on two occasions when they were close to the northern side of the Pillar of Creation, there was never a time that Song He, who had always complained that the 43rd satellite was too far from Yu Yan, showed any intention of piloting that "Alpaca Full Speed Sprint No. 1" to land on his vacation asteroid.

　　所以他还是觉得松和成熟了一些，明白很多时候想念需要忍耐，而不是像在拍卖会上那样，打听到他的去向，就兴冲冲地赶来。
So he still felt that Song He had matured somewhat, understanding that sometimes longing needed to be endured rather than, like at the auction, finding out his location and rushing over excitedly.

　　所以当第六次，飞船拐着弯靠近创世之柱以北，最终降落在R-26星上时，聿严没有训斥松和，也没有摆出严厉的表情。
So when the sixth time came, and the ship curved its path towards the northern side of the Pillar of Creation before finally landing on R-26, Yu Yan did not scold Song He or make a stern expression.

　　刚到的时候，聿严在书房开会，松和就按照护卫队成员的示意，等在一楼的客厅。
When they first arrived, Yu Yan was in his study having a meeting, so Song He, following the 示意 of the guard team members, waited in the living room on the first floor.

　　他身上穿的是便装，但是坐姿很端正，目光落在自己膝盖上，眼神没有乱飘，眼睛也没有四处看。
He was dressed in casual clothes, but his posture was upright, his gaze fixed on his own knees, his eyes not wandering or looking around.

　　在聿严出来之前，护卫队成员一直在试图跟他讲话。
Before Yu Yan came out, the guards had been trying to talk to him.

　　“43号辅星这个月的津贴发了吗？”
"Has the allowance for Sub-Stellar 43 been issued this month?"

　　“这才月初。”松和说，“你们已经发了？”
"It's only the beginning of the month," said Song He. "Have you already received yours?"

　　队员挠头道：“……没有。”
The team member scratched his head and said, "……No."

　　另一个队员凑过来问：“35号星附近的漂浮物还多不多？上次出去不小心被刮了下屁股，还没来得及去修理。”
Another team member came over and asked, "Are there still many floating objects near Planet 35? Last time we went out, I accidentally got my butt scratched and haven't had a chance to fix it yet."

　　松和有些担心地说：“一直都很多，要开慢点。”
Song He said with some concern, "They've always been plenty. You need to go slow."

　　队员很费劲才把“谢谢夫人关心”憋了回去，用松和看不懂的欣喜语调道：“好！好！我记住了！”
The team member struggled to hold back "Thank you for your concern, Madam," and said in a joyful tone that Song He didn't understand, "Okay! Okay! I got it!"

　　“您最近都没来，是不是特别忙？”
"You haven't been around recently, have you been especially busy?"

　　另外一人反驳道：“其实是从打架没那么多开始就很少见，还不如在前线的时候呢，您一来，我们吃的都比平常好，诶，我也不是只为了吃，您没事就经常来串门，我们还可以抽空带您去找拱极星。”
The other person 反驳道, "It's actually been rare to see you since we didn't fight as much, it was even better during the frontline days. Ever since you came, we've been eating better than usual. Hey, I'm not just here for the food. You often drop by to visit, and we can even take some time to show you the North Star."

　　松和习惯了他们把打仗简化为打架的讲话方式，也知道他说的“抽空”是偷溜。
Song He was used to them simplifying battles to fights and knew that the "free time" he mentioned was actually sneaking around.

　　“上将出来了。”
"The General has arrived."

　　几个人四下逃窜。
A few people scrambled to escape.

　　松和站起来说：“上将，我今天把飞船还回来。”
Song and stood up, saying, "Admiral, I returned the ship today."

　　“坐下说。”聿严没管他的护卫队，走近道，“今天轮休？”
"Sit down and talk," Yu Yan said, walking closer without bothering with his guard team. "Today's your day off?"

　　这是会让松和开心的事，他说：“嗯，休五天。”
This would make Song and happy; he said, "Mm, five days off."

　　聿严暂时没有说话，在他对面坐下，又说了遍“坐”，松和才也坐下，表现得倒不是很拘谨，因为他们确实早就不算陌生人了。
Yan temporarily didn't speak, sat down opposite him, and said "sit" again. Song He also sat down, not showing much 拘谨, because they were indeed no longer strangers.

　　“飞船里的东西我没怎么乱动过，昨天又整理了一遍，应该没有不合适的地方。”松和说，“太好玩了，门里太落后，以前都没机会接触这个系列的战机，一不小心开了这么久，谢谢您。”
"I didn't move much in the spaceship, I organized it again yesterday, there shouldn't be anything inappropriate." Song He said, "It's too fun, it's too outdated inside the door, I didn't have a chance to get in touch with this series of fighters before, I accidentally flew for so long, thank you."

　　他负责守门，意思其实是要时刻关注辅星极端的情况，因为极端是一颗星球的命脉，如果敌方以此作为主要进攻点，而自己没有完好的防备的话，那就会是致命的一击。
He was in charge of guarding the gate, which actually meant he had to constantly monitor the extreme conditions of the auxiliary star, because the extreme was the lifeblood of a planet. If the enemy used it as the main point of attack and they didn't have perfect defenses, it would be a fatal blow.

　　所以松和其实有些自谦了，他虽然不属于驾驶战机作战的士兵，但相比新型武器，他更多的是要接触各式各样庞大的数据计算，以便提供给靠近极端的士兵及时而准确的航线，两者之间没有孰轻孰重之分。
So Song He was actually a bit humble. Although he didn't belong to the soldiers who fought in the fighters, compared to new weapons, he was more in touch with all kinds of huge data calculations, so as to provide the soldiers approaching the extreme with timely and accurate routes. There was no distinction between the two in terms of importance.

　　危急关头中，他的职责不光是守护极端，作出的微小判断和选择，也会关乎数以万计的士兵的生命。
In moments of crisis, his duty was not just to guard the extreme; even the smallest judgments and choices he made would affect the lives of tens of thousands of soldiers.

　　聿严仍没说话，喝了口老老实实的护卫队端过来的热水，过了会突然道：“楼上空房间很多，自己去选一间整理。”
Yu Yan still didn't speak, drinking a cup of hot water honestly offered by the guard team, and after a while, suddenly said, "There are many empty rooms upstairs, pick one and get it ready yourself."

　　松和有些愣。
Song was slightly stunned.

　　聿严却好像已经定了他是来这里度过五天的休假，边起身边道：“会没开完，这里没有不能动的东西，你自己随意。”
But Yu Yan seemed to have already decided that he would spend five days of leave here, as he stood up and said, "The meeting isn't over yet, there's nothing in here that you can't touch, do as you please."

　　那个会议的确很长，重点讨论战后重建和兵将安置，遗属问题前几天刚拟出草稿，这些事涉及的范围太广，不是几天可以决定下来的，具体还要等战争彻底结束以后才能在试行的过程中最终确定。
That meeting was indeed very long, focusing on post-war reconstruction and military personnel 安置, the issue of dependents having just been drafted a draft a few days ago. These matters cover such a broad scope that they cannot be decided in just a few days; specifics will have to wait until the war is completely over to be finally determined through a trial process.

　　松和被欢呼的护卫队成员围拢，纷纷献计，最终为他挑选了一个绝佳的房间，所以聿严开完会出来，逐个房间找过去，最后才在他自己的房间看到洗完澡以后睡在他床上的松和。
surrounded by the cheering members of the guard, they gathered around, offering various suggestions, ultimately selecting an excellent room for him. So when Yu Yan came out after the meeting, he searched room by room, finally finding Song He asleep in his bed after his bath.

　　聿严心里没有产生奇怪的感觉，也没有领地被入侵的排斥，他只是单纯地想：“松和真的很能睡。”
Yu Yan did not feel any strange sensations or the rejection of his territory being invaded; he simply thought, "Song He really is a great sleeper."

　　不是休息的时间，但可能是松和睡得太香，让看的人也犯困，所以聿严也上了床。
It was not time for rest, but perhaps Song He was sleeping so soundly that those watching also felt drowsy, so Yu Yan also got into bed.

　　没过多久，松和被热醒的时候，聿严的信息素已经从头到脚将他包围。
In no time, when Song was woken up by the heat, Yu Yan's pheromones had surrounded him from head to toe.

　　他被聿严从背后抱着，只动了下手指，就被捏着下巴吻住。
He was held from behind by Yu Yan, and the moment he moved a finger, his chin was pinched and he was kissed.

　　聿严侧着身体支起上身，低下头亲得很慢，松和陷入一种少见的温柔中，在困意里没有挣扎的意识，很快被聿严剥光。
Yu Yan leaned to his side, propping himself up, lowered his head, and kissed very slowly. Song was lost in a rare tenderness, without the consciousness to struggle in his drowsiness, and was soon stripped bare by Yu Yan.

　　他全程都处于迷糊的状态，耳边是聿严压抑过的低喘，偶尔睁开被一点眼泪糊住的眼睛，也只看到聿严布满整齐而漂亮的肌肉的肩背在恒星的光辉下起伏。
He remained dazed throughout, the sound of Yu Yan's suppressed heavy breathing in his ear. Occasionally, he opened his eyes, blurred by a little tear, and only saw Yu Yan's neatly and beautifully muscled back rising and falling under the starlight.

　　聿严只做了两次，但松和根本不记得，因为时间太长了，长到他自然而然地开始想，即便不是发情期，是不是也需要定时让聿严泄欲，因为隔月做这么一次，他也是真的吃不消。
Lü Yan only did it twice, but Song He didn't remember at all, because it had been too long—long enough that he naturally started to think, even if it wasn't the mating season, whether he needed to schedule Lü Yan to release his urges regularly. Because doing it even once a month was really too much for him.

　　“好了。”聿严的嗓音有些发哑，把软唧唧的松和拨拉了一下，拿掌心贴着他的脸说，“结束了。”
"Alright," Lü Yan's voice was a bit hoarse as he pushed the soft and pliable Song He aside, placing his palm against his face and saying, "It's over."

　　松和很轻地“嗯”了声，额发微湿，侧躺在那里，还是没有动。
Song He softly hummed, his bangs slightly damp, lying on his side there without moving.

　　这一次聿严没有预备他能自己去洗澡，也没指望他还有力气再配合着做一次，直接把他抱去洗干净，然后塞进干净的被窝。
This time, Lü Yan didn't prepare for the possibility that Song He could go wash himself, nor did he expect him to have the strength to 配合 another round. He simply carried him to get cleaned up and then tucked him into the clean sheets.

　　六小时后，他叫醒松和，惹来疑惑又委屈的质问：“干嘛？”
Six hours later, he woke up Song He, who asked with suspicion and grievance, "Why?"

　　“上次你怪我没叫你。”
"Last time you blamed me for not waking you up."

　　“……”松和很艰难地动了动身体，重新闭上眼睛，困又无可奈何地说，“现在在休假啊……我两天没睡觉了，求求你，求求求求你。”
"..." Song He moved his body very reluctantly, closed his eyes again, and said with sleepiness but no helplessness, "I'm on vacation now... I haven't slept for two days, please, please, please, I'm begging you."

　　过了会，松和马上要睡着，聿严又碰了他一下，好在没问他还需不需要叫醒他，聿严说：“起来吃东西。”
After a while, when Song He was about to fall asleep, Yu Yan tapped him again. Fortunately, he didn't ask if he still needed to be woken up. Yu Yan said, "Get up and eat something."

　　松和确实很困，但聿严知道他也很听话，果然，他没有让聿严再重复一遍，虽然眼睛睁不开，但还是从床上爬了起来。
Song He was indeed very tired, but Yu Yan knew he was also very obedient. As expected, he didn't make Yu Yan repeat himself, even though his eyes were too heavy to keep open, he still climbed out of bed.

　　吃完东西，松和的睡意也消失了大半。
After eating, most of Song He's drowsiness also disappeared.

　　他在别墅附近逛了一圈，护卫队告诉他，三百公里外有一大片野生玫瑰田，面积大到在这颗行星的大气之外都能看到红色。
He wandered around the vicinity of the villa. The guard team told him that three hundred kilometers away there was a large wild rose field, so vast that it could be seen from beyond the planet's atmosphere as a red expanse.

　　虽然松和自认不是个浪漫的人，但还是被亲眼所见的景象震住。他像个没见过世面的傻瓜，保持着嘴张成小o的状态十秒钟。
Although Song He considered himself not a very romantic person, he was still stunned by the sight before his eyes. He stood there like an ignorant fool, his mouth forming an O for ten seconds.

　　“我以前听人说过，R-26星上有玫瑰田，但没想到，竟然这么多。”松和又重复了一遍，“这么多。”
"I've heard people say there are rose fields on Planet R-26, but I never expected there to be so many," Shu He repeated, "so many."

　　“它应该叫玫瑰星。”松和说，“没有哪个地方比它更适合这个名字。”
"It should be called Rose Planet," Shu He said, "no place is more suitable for this name."

　　“太漂亮了吧。”
"Too beautiful."

　　“它们什么时候凋谢？”
"When do they wither?"

　　“太漂亮了。”
“Too beautiful.”

　　“我的天。”
“Wow.”

　　松和的给面子程度令本意就是显摆的护卫队也有些出乎意料。
The extent to which Song He was being generous even surprised the guard team, who were initially just there to show off.

　　毕竟大家都是常飞在太空里的人，每个人的里程数加起来几百万光年都是少的，见过的东西太多了。
After all, everyone spent most of their time flying in space, and the combined mileage of all of them was several million light-years—far too little to have seen everything.

　　护卫队还记得有一次有松和在场的出行，途径星环形成，被撕扯的小行星裂解喷发间歇泉，冲起几千米高度的内容物都是经简单加工就可以变成钻石的东西，松和来了一句：“不如喷点水，我们的飞船太脏了。”
The guard team still remembers one trip where Song was present, passing through a star ring formation where asteroids were torn apart, erupting geysers of material that could be turned into diamonds with simple processing. Song said, "How about spraying some water? Our ship is too dirty."

　　所以此时大家一致地谦虚起来。
So everyone humbly agreed at this point.

　　“还好吧。”
"It's okay, I guess."

　　“其实比较一般。”
"It's actually quite average."

　　“别的星球上也有好看的花田。”
“Other planets also have beautiful flower fields.”

　　大家又一致地努力带松和找其他更多有意思的东西去看。
Everyone made a collective effort to take Song and find other more interesting things to see.

　　松和被带着来了个R-26星环游。
Song was taken to orbit around the R-26 star.

　　等回到聿严的别墅，将近五个日升日落过去了。
By the time they returned to Yu Yan's villa, nearly five sunrises and sunsets had passed.

　　之后的两天大概也是这种模式，松和跟聿严一起吃饭，但除此之外的时间都在外面玩。
The next two days roughly followed the same pattern: Song He ate with Yu Yan, but aside from that, they spent their time outside playing.

　　他们越跑越远，第三天，松和打电话跟他商量晚饭不回去的事，又说：“听说两千米以下会有很多发光的鱼，我想下去看看，可以用一下您的潜水设备吗？”
They ran farther and farther apart. On the third day, Song He called Yu Yan to discuss not going back for dinner, adding, "I heard there are many glowing fish below two kilometers. I'd like to go take a look. Can I use your diving equipment?"

　　在松和过来以前，聿严的休假内容就是开会，保持一定量的体能训练，除此之外，不用考虑指挥和战况，对他来说就是优质的休息。
Before Song He arrived, Yu Yan's vacation consisted of meetings, maintaining a certain amount of physical training, and nothing else—no command or battle situations to consider. For him, it was excellent rest.

　　但松和显然不是这样，他前一天还睡在自己床上，接着就越跑越远，跟以前在前线的时候对他寸步不离的样子大相径庭。
But Song He wasn't like that at all. He had just slept in his own bed the previous day, then kept running farther and farther away, quite unlike how he used to shadow him step for step when they were on the front lines.

　　没有得到回复的松和很快返回了别墅，观察着聿严的表情用完了按照主星时间差制定的晚餐。
The unresponsive Song quickly returned to the villa, observing Yu Yan's expression as he finished the dinner prepared according to the main star time difference.

　　直到被摁在床上插入的时候，他还有些怵，回来路上已经反思过自己最近过于调皮的表现，聿严又不怎么说话，他就更老实了。
Even when he was pinned down on the bed and penetrated, he still felt a bit hesitant. On the way back, he had already reflected on his recent overly mischievous behavior. Since Yu Yan didn't talk much, he became even more subdued.

　　持续了很长时间，聿严的动作都算得上很温柔，松和的两条腿被他扛在肩上，俯身跟松和接着吻操他，一下一下地深入浅出，频率却不快，松和几乎以为聿严在故意惩罚他的时候，聿严耐心地问他：“这样受得了吗？”
It went on for a long time, and Yu Yan's actions were quite gentle, carrying Song He's two legs on his shoulders as he leaned down to kiss and caress him. He went in and out, deep and shallow, at a slow pace. When Song He almost thought Yu Yan was deliberately punishing him, Yu Yan asked patiently, "Can you handle this?"

　　聿严以为自己前两天被他操怕了，松和想。
Yu Yan thought he had been scared into submission by him two days ago, Song He thought.

　　他自己没有这样想过，但聿严这样说了，就给他一种被戳穿的感觉。
He himself hadn't thought that way, but since Yu Yan said it, he felt as if he had been exposed.

　　像聿严每一次表达“你看起来想要”、“你很爱我”、“你失落”、“你开心”……“你看起来想留”。
Like every time Yu Yan expressed "You look like you want," "You love me so much," "You're lost," "You're happy"... "You look like you want to stay."

　　他每一次都被说中。
He was always hit right on the mark.

　　“你的拱极星呢？”松和觉得自己马上要射的时候，聿严突然放慢了动作，又开始一下下地磨蹭，好整以暇地问他。
"What about your North Star?" As Song He felt he was about to cum, Yu Yan suddenly slowed down, started rubbing again slowly, and asked him calmly.

　　松和被弄到离高潮只差一点又停下，声音难免带着哭腔：“做什么？”
Meng and was brought to the brink of climax but stopped, his voice inevitably filled with a sobbing tone: "What are you doing?"

　　聿严擦了擦他的眼泪，似乎对他脸上太高的温度而感到惊奇，眼角散发出微弱的笑意。
Yu Yan wiped away his tears, seemingly surprised by the high temperature on his face, a faint smile emanating from the corners of his eyes.

　　聿严想过，松和起先说不要小行星，前几天又说把飞船还回来，连续两次拒绝他的礼物，只能是因为他最开始没有接受松和的礼物。
Yu Yan had thought that Meng and initially said he didn't want the asteroid, and a few days ago he said he wanted the spaceship back; rejecting his gifts twice in a row could only be because he hadn't accepted Meng and's gift at the very beginning.

　　松和是个固执而简单的人，有些时候少不了他也要配合，所以他说：“除了你的喜欢，作为一个单纯的礼物，我同意收下它。”
Meng and was a stubborn and simple person, and sometimes he couldn't help but cooperate, so he said, "Aside from your affection, as a simple gift, I agree to accept it."

第7章
Chapter 7

　　松和在轮休期间多了一个任务，那就是寻找到一块形状好看、大小适中、可以作为礼物送出去的拱极星碎片。
During his off-duty time, Song was given an additional task: to find a fragment of a polaris star that was aesthetically pleasing, appropriately sized, and suitable as a gift.

　　小行星很好找，现代计算机通过单纯运算就可以得出人类未曾涉足的地方有多少宜居小行星，并且精准确定其轨道、质量、重力等各类信息。
Asteroids were relatively easy to find. Modern computers could calculate, through simple computations, how many habitable asteroids had been unexplored by humans, and precisely determine their orbits, mass, gravity, and other various information.

　　但拱极星并不算太常见，更不用说它的碎片，还要形状好看、大小适中、可以作为礼物。
However, polaris stars were not particularly common, let alone their fragments, which also had to be aesthetically pleasing, appropriately sized, and suitable as gifts.

　　松和打算飘在太空中不回来了。
Song He planned to float in space and not come back.

　　好在护卫队悄悄出动一半，在他假期结束之前帮他找到了这个东西。
Fortunately, half of the guard team quietly moved in and helped him find this before his leave ended.

　　“您过来吧，我把位置发给您。”
"Come over, I'll send you the coordinates."

　　松和想让他们直接拿上，回到R26星再汇合，但是护卫队说：“这是您送给上将的礼物，这里碎片很多，您可以慢慢挑选”
Song He wanted them to take it directly and meet up back on R26, but the guard team said, "This is a gift you gave to the General. There are many fragments here, you can take your time picking."

　　他把拱极星的碎片送给聿严的时候，并不是一个恰当的时机，首先，他们在做爱，或说准备做爱，不过这不能怪松和，因为他刚回到房间，聿严就把他弄上了床。
When he gave the fragment of the Polar Star to Yu Yan, it wasn't an appropriate time. First, they were having sex, or rather, about to have sex, but this couldn't be blamed on Song He, because as soon as he returned to the room, Yu Yan had him in bed.

　　其次，聿严的通讯器响了，还是视讯。
Second, Yu Yan's communicator rang—it was a video call.

　　最后，聿严接起了那个视讯。
Finally, Yu Yan answered the video call.

　　这些事情全都发生在松和艰难地从扔在他脑袋旁边的裤子口袋里拿出拱极星碎片的同时。
All of these things happened while Song He struggled to take the fragment of the Polar Star out of the pants pocket beside his head.

　　从理论上讲，聿严身上的衣服非常整齐，除了狠狠吻过松和的嘴唇看上去比平时要红那么一点，但聿严一向严肃，他的下属对他又敬又怕，没什么人会长时间观察他脸上的细节，所以一般来说不会太惹人注目，也应该不会令视讯那边的人感到奇怪。
Theoretically speaking, the clothes on Yu Yan were very neat, except that the lips he had fiercely kissed Song He were slightly redder than usual. But Yu Yan was always stern, and his subordinates respected and feared him, so no one would observe the details of his face for a long time, so generally, it wouldn't be too noticeable, and it should also not make the people on the video call feel strange.

　　可是这似乎并不是一个公务视讯。
But this doesn't seem to be a business video call.

　　聿严叫出那声“爸”的时候，松和还想了想，聿严好像的确没在床上接过工作电话。
When Yu Yan called out "Dad," Song He hesitated for a moment. It seemed that Yu Yan really didn't take work calls in bed.

　　对面似乎并不只有聿严的爸爸，很多道声音，有男有女，更像家庭聚会中间突然想到在外打仗哦不休假的儿子，然后众人发来问候。
It seemed that there wasn't just Yu Yan's dad on the other side. There were many voices, both male and female, more like a family gathering where someone suddenly thought of their son who was fighting a war and never took vacations, and then everyone sent greetings.

　　聿严还是撑在松和身上的姿势，分出一点注意力观察有点害怕不敢出声的松和，话不多，但是很耐心，间隔回答“什么时候回家”、“上次寄的按摩仪收到没有”等问题，倒是没有问工作。
Lian still leaned against Song and, diverting some attention to observe Song and who was a bit scared and didn't dare to speak. He wasn't talkative, but very patient, occasionally replying to questions like "When are you coming home?" and "Did you receive the massage device I sent last time?" He didn't ask about work.

　　过了会，松和才慢慢从聿严身下爬走，扯过被子盖住自己赤裸的身体，聿严也顺势坐起，松和就突然听到跟自己有关的话题：“小松最近是不是不在43号辅星？送羊奶的人今天早上说这几天都没有人出来取。”
After a while, Song slowly climbed off Lian, pulled the blanket over his naked body, and Lian 顺势 sat up. Suddenly, Song heard a topic related to him: "Xiao Song hasn't been on 辅星 43 recently, has he? The person who delivers goat milk said this morning that no one has come out to collect it these days."

　　原本松和还在想这个“小松”和“43号辅星”可不可以推论出说的人就是松和，又震惊一直以来的羊奶竟然不是食物补贴的福利之一，而是出于某种奇特的力量，由远在主星上的聿严的母亲订给他的，聿严就说：“他在我这里。”
Originally, Song was still thinking whether the "Xiao Song" and "辅星 43" could imply that the person speaking was Song himself. He was shocked to learn that the goat milk he had been receiving all this time wasn't part of the food subsidy benefits, but rather was assigned to him by Lian's mother on the main star, driven by some strange power. Lian then said, "He's with me."

　　“！”
"!"

　　松和来不及做什么表达情绪的反应，聿严就把视线投向他，说：“怎么不一样？”
Song He didn't have time to react with any expression, and Yu Yan immediately turned his gaze to him, saying, "How is it different?"

　　松和不知道自己该不该出声，聿严看了眼他捏在手里的碎片，又问了一遍：“跟之前的不一样。”
Song He didn't know whether he should speak up, and Yu Yan glanced at the piece in his hand before asking again, "It's different from before."

　　“因为是新找的啊。”松和没工夫再去注意视讯对面的人在说什么，磕磕绊绊地回答聿严，“但这个长得也很漂亮。”
"It's because I found this new one," Song He didn't have the time to pay attention to what the person on the video call was saying, stammering his answer to Yu Yan, "But this one is also very pretty."

　　聿严沉默了会，没发表什么意见，只是又说了一遍：“跟那个不一样。”
Yu Yan was silent for a moment, not offering any opinion, but repeated, "It's different from that one."

　　电话对面的人已经知道松和就在旁边，松和被吓个半死，幸好聿严没像以前松和没穿好衣服就叫别人进入房间一样让他光着身体包在被窝里跟他的家里人打招呼，而是三两句结束了通话。
The person on the other end of the phone already knew that Song He was right there, and Song He was terrified half to death. Fortunately, Yu Yan didn’t make him strip down like he used to when Song He wasn’t dressed properly and then have him wrapped in the blankets to greet his family, but instead ended the call after just a few sentences.

　　前戏被打断，通话也结束了，房间里陷入一种奇异的沉默。
The foreplay was interrupted, and the call ended too, leaving the room in a strange silence.

　　沉默是因为两个人都没有说话，奇异是因为这样的沉默没有让松和感到尴尬。
The silence was because neither of them was speaking, and it was strange because this silence didn’t make Song He feel awkward.

　　他在外面飞了挺久，还多走了段路去护卫队发现拱极星碎片的地方把它拿回来，其实有些累了，躺在聿严身边，慢慢就有些想睡。
He had been flying outside for quite a while and had even gone an extra distance to the guard team to find where the polar star fragment was and bring it back. He was actually a bit tired, lying beside Yu Yan, and gradually started to feel sleepy.

　　“松和。”可是聿严又在叫他，声音非常严肃，“你不要敷衍我。”
“Song He.” But Yu Yan called him again, his voice very serious, “Don’t be evasive with me.”

　　松和认真地说：“我没有敷衍你，这是我找了好久才找到的。”
Song He said earnestly, “I’m not being evasive with you, I found this after looking for a long time.”

　　聿严说：“我没有要你重新找。”
Yu Yan said, “I didn’t ask you to find it again.”

　　松和说：“以前那个在43号辅星，我的飞行器飞不快，回去拿更不方便。”
Song He said, “The old one was on 辅星 43 号, my spacecraft can’t fly fast, it would be even more inconvenient to go back and get it.”

　　聿严看了他一会，好像终于接受了这个解释，因为理论上讲，他本来也不该有什么接受不了的，所以最终没有再说话。
Yu Yan looked at him for a while, as if he had finally accepted the explanation, because theoretically speaking, there was nothing he shouldn't have been able to accept, so he ultimately didn't say anything more.

　　等松和睡了一觉，准备离开的时候，聿严对他说：“太空舰是提前送给你的生日礼物，我看到你把名字改回来了，但无论是编号0297，还是羊驼冲刺，都是你的自由，只要记住以后不要随便把别人的礼物还回去，那样很不礼貌。”
After waiting and sleeping, when it was time to leave, Yu Yan said to Song He, "The spaceship was given to you as an early birthday gift. I saw you changed your name back, but whether it's the serial number 0297 or the alpaca sprint, it's your freedom. Just remember not to casually return other people's gifts in the future, that's very impolite."

　　他很少这么直接地批评松和，所以松和下意识道歉：“对不起，上将。”
He rarely criticized Song He so directly, so Song He apologized subconsciously, "I'm sorry, General."

　　“下不为例。”聿严说。
"Don't do it again," Yu Yan said.

　　“谢谢您母亲的羊奶。”松和小声说。
“Thank you for your mother’s goat milk,” said Song softly.

　　聿严道：“我帮你转达。”
“Let me relay that for you,” said Yu Yan.

　　松和保持严肃地上了太空舰，保持严肃地说了再见，保持严肃地驶离了R26星。
Song maintained a serious demeanor as he boarded the spaceship, said goodbye with a serious expression, and departed from Planet R26 with a serious countenance.

　　最近一直在休战，所以哪里都很悠闲，军方到处在传敌方准备投降的小道消息，甚至具体到宣布时间。
Lately, there had been a ceasefire, so everything was quite relaxed. Whispers of the enemy preparing to surrender had spread throughout the military, even with specific details about the announcement time.

　　辅星上更加没有多少工作，同期都开始到处游玩，孔木到门里找松和闲聊，两个人说到战后的计划。
There's even less work to be done on the auxiliary star, as everyone of the same generation has already started traveling around for fun. Kongmu went to the gate to look for Songhe and chat with him. The two talked about their plans after the war.

　　“我觉得养羊和羊驼可能没有想象中那么简单。”松和说，“只有小羊长得比较可爱，而且羊驼会吐口水，脾气很臭。”
"Taking care of sheep and alpacas might be more difficult than we imagined," Songhe said. "Only the little lambs are cute, and alpacas spit, and they have very bad tempers."

　　孔木说：“上面一定会想方设法鼓励婚育，毕竟死了那么多人。”
Kongmu said, "The higher-ups will definitely find ways to encourage marriage and reproduction, after all, so many people have died."

　　松和说：“但是不可能一直养小羊吧？它总会长大，然后变得超级难管，我会累死的。”
Songhe said, "But we can't keep raising little lambs forever, can we? They'll grow up, and then they'll become extremely hard to manage. I'll die from exhaustion."

　　孔木说：“不知道我们最终能拿到多少钱，说真的，我现在只关心这个问题，我们肯定是赢了，能拿多少钱才是最重要的。”
Kongmu said, "I don't know how much money we'll ultimately get, to be honest, that's the only thing I care about right now. We're definitely winning, what's most important is how much money we can get."

　　松和说：“你知道什么时候会有下一次小行星拍卖会吗？我打算买一颗上面原本有羊的小行星。”
Songhe said, "Do you know when the next asteroid auction will be? I plan to buy an asteroid that originally had sheep on it."

　　孔木看了眼监控走廊的屏幕，对他说：“松和，主帅来了。”
Kongmu glanced at the screen of the surveillance corridor and said to him, "Songhe, the commander is here."

　　松和大声报出自己的编号以后，主帅很恭敬地对聿严说：“门里的情况一直很稳定，您有问题都可以问松和，他守了十多年，从来没出过事。”
Songhe announced his designation loudly, and the commander said respectfully to Yu Yan, "The situation inside has always been stable. You can ask Songhe about anything, he's guarded for over ten years and has never caused any trouble."

　　这里也曾经作为前线存在过，那时聿严还在这里待过一段时间，只不过这个时候的主帅跟那时不是同一个人，并不太了解松和跟聿严之间除了上一次极热发情期以外的联系。
This place was also a front at one time. Back then, Yu Yan had stayed here for a while, but the commander-in-chief now is not the same as the one back then, and doesn't know much about the connection between Song He and Yu Yan, except for their last extremely hot estrus period.

　　不过这也足够他在心里把松和独特看待了，尤其是需要接待聿严这尊大佛的时候。
However, this was enough for him to regard Song He as unique in his heart, especially when it was necessary to host this great Buddha, Yu Yan.

　　聿严确实问了一些问题，松和一一回答，又把一些记录调出来给他们看。
Yu Yan did ask some questions, and Song He answered them one by one, then pulled up some records for them to see.

　　按理说，43号辅星的巡视就该到此结束，聿严接着赶往下一颗辅星，但主帅留他用晚饭，他只考虑了半分钟，就说：“也可以。”
According to reason, the inspection of 辅星 43 should end here, and Yu Yan was supposed to head to the next 辅星, but the commander-in-chief invited him for dinner, and he only considered for half a minute before saying, "I can."

　　他选定的休息地点也非常朴素，是士兵E000297的宿舍。
The rest stop he chose was also very simple, being the dormitory of soldier E000297.

　　松和喜迎半天就下班，任务是向聿严介绍43号辅星的建设情况。
Song and Xi met their off-duty time halfway through the day, their task being to introduce the construction status of 辅星 43 号 to Yu Yan.

　　就介绍到了床上。
The introduction only went as far as the bed.

　　聿严的耐心显然没有以前多，进门没多久，松和还站在冰箱门前迟疑该拿什么喝的给聿严，就被力气很大地掳走。
Yu Yan's patience seemed less than before; not long after entering, Song and Xi was still hesitating at the refrigerator door about what to drink for Yu Yan, when he was forcefully grabbed away.

　　甚至没来得及上床，聿严坐在床沿就开始吻他，脱他的衣服，托着他的屁股的姿势很快地上下颠动。
Even before he had a chance to get into bed, Yu Yan started kissing him while sitting on the edge of the bed, undressing him, and quickly bouncing up and down on his hips.

　　快感比潮水还多，松和叫不出来，话也说不出来，只能没力气地伏在聿严肩上默默地流眼泪。
The pleasure was more overwhelming than a tide. Song He couldn't cry out or speak, only weakly leaning on Yu Yan's shoulder and silently shedding tears.

　　聿严终于射了的时候，他几乎是感恩戴德地抱住了聿严。
When Yu Yan finally came, Song He almost embraced him with gratitude.

　　但聿严很快又做了第二次。松和因为床会响而表达了一句抗议，就被他抱起来站在地上做。
But Yu Yan quickly did it again. Song He protested because the bed was making noise, and Yu Yan picked him up and continued on the floor.

　　结束以后，松和一点力气都没有了，可能是聿严进得太深，所以他觉得肚子有一些痛，在床上蜷缩起来，看聿严在他房间的地上走来走去，把他们俩的脏衣服扔进洗衣机，把松和有些凌乱的桌子收拾整齐，最后单膝跪在地上，擦不知道属于他们两个人谁的不明液体。
After it was over, Song had no strength left at all. It might be because Yu Yan had gone too deep, so he felt a bit of pain in his stomach. He curled up in bed, watching Yu Yan walk around the floor of his room, throwing their dirty clothes into the washing machine, tidying up Song’s somewhat messy desk, and finally kneeling on the ground, wiping an unknown liquid that didn’t belong to either of them.

　　这个场景有些熟悉，聿严在43号辅星的时候，那几次极热发情期一来，他的副官就把他塞进松和的房间。
This scene felt somewhat familiar. When Yu Yan was on 辅星 43 号辅星辅星, during those few periods of extreme heat and mating season, his aide would always lock him in Song’s room.

　　“战争要结束了吗？”
“Is the war going to end?”

　　聿严的强迫症犯了，还在跟其实已经擦干净的地板较劲，随口说：“应该是。”
Yu Yan’s OCD kicked in again, still fighting with the floor that had already been cleaned, and casually said, “Probably.”

　　“我们能拿到多少钱？”
"How much money can we get?"

　　“不一定。”聿严想了想，道，“还要看你们的去向，留在军部的就少一些，退役多一些。”
"It's not certain," Yu Yan thought for a moment and said, "It depends on where you go. Those who stay in the military department will get less, while those who retire will get more."

　　这话相当于白说，松和刚打算不再继续问，聿严就估量着说了一个数字。
That was equivalent to saying nothing; Song and Gang were about to stop asking, when Yu Yan estimated a number.

　　“真的吗？！”松和下意识从床上坐起来，很快又躺回去，捂着肚子缩了缩，忍过闷闷的痛，才有些尴尬地说，“好多。”
"Really?!" Song and sat up unconsciously from the bed, but soon lay back down, clutching their stomachs and shrinking, enduring the dull pain before saying somewhat awkwardly, "So much."

　　聿严看了他一眼，认真道：“这不算多。”
Yu Yan glanced at him and said seriously, "That's not much."

　　松和做出的贡献，或说每个守门人做出的贡献，兑换成货币都比他说的那个数字多很多倍。也可以说其实是无法估量的。死去的士兵和活着的士兵，每一个参与这场战争的人的勇气都无价。
The contribution made by Song He, or rather, the contribution made by every guardian, is worth many times more in currency than the number he mentioned. It can also be said that it is actually immeasurable. The courage of every soldier who died and every soldier who is alive, the courage of every person who participated in this war, is priceless.

　　他倒了杯水给松和，松和喝了两口，表示不要了，赤身裸体站在床边的聿严就把剩下的喝光。
He poured a cup of water for Song He. Song He took a couple of sips and indicated that he didn't want any more. Yu Yan, standing naked by the bedside, finished the rest.

　　松和想，以前好像只有极热发情期的聿严会愿意用他喝过的杯子喝水。
Song He thought that in the past, it seemed that only Yu Yan during his extremely hot mating season would be willing to drink from the cup he had used.

　　不过也有可能是他们在清醒的时间相处的不够久。
However, it's also possible that they didn't spend enough time together when they were awake.

　　可是他们之间和谐的气氛最终也没能持续多久。
But the harmonious atmosphere between them ultimately didn't last long.

　　很一致的，不欢而散之后，聿严离开松和的房间时，脑子里的想法也是这个。
Consistently, after the unpleasant separation, when Yu Yan left Song He's room, the thoughts in his mind were the same.

　　“你的拱极星呢？”当时聿严又问了一遍。
"Where is your North Star?" Yu Yan asked again at that time.

　　松和记得自己听过这个问题没有多久。
Song He remembered he hadn't heard that question for long.

　　聿严问的是松和以前试着送他的那块，上次他对聿严说不能给他的理由是它在43号辅星。
Yu Yan was asking about the one Song He had tried to give him before. The reason he couldn't give it to Yu Yan last time was because it was on 辅星 43 号.

　　今天聿严就在这里，而且很明显，如果不把话说清楚，他就非得到它不可。
Yu Yan was right here today, and it was obvious that if they didn't make things clear, he would definitely have to get it.

　　松和知道自己没办法再找什么借口，继而又看了看聿严平静而自然的表情，过了好一会，他还是闭上了眼睛，因为觉得非常羞耻，也感觉到自己的卑微。
Song He knew he couldn't find any more excuses. He looked at Yu Yan's calm and natural expression again, and after a long while, he still closed his eyes because he felt extremely ashamed and also sensed his own meekness.

　　“我不想给你。”
"I don't want to give it to you."

　　聿严问：“为什么？”
Yu Yan asked, "Why?"

　　松和暂时没说话，他觉得自己没有生气，也不算伤心，只是想起了一个有些傻的士兵，曾经试图用一块裂解碎片向军队的最高统帅表白。
Song He didn't speak for a moment. He didn't feel angry, nor particularly sad, just thinking of a somewhat foolish soldier who had once tried to confess his love to the supreme commander of the army using a fragment of a shattered crystal.

　　聿严又问了一遍为什么，松和却想不出自己应该说什么。
Yu Yan asked again why, but Song He couldn't think of what he should say.

　　因为我还爱你，因为你说你不要我的爱，因为你说我们之间不是爱情，因为你说我一直是在犯傻，因为就算你否认一切，我还是爱你。
Because I still love you, because you said you don't want my love, because you said there's no love between us, because you said I've always been foolish, because even if you deny everything, I still love you.

　　他应该说这些吗？
Should he have said these things?

　　他曾经短暂地恨过聿严抽身事外的本事，可还是很快就被爱意覆盖。
He had once briefly hated Yuye's ability to stand aside, but love quickly covered it up.

　　聿严观察到松和的嘴唇有些白，紧接着想到他刚才捂着肚子的动作，伸手碰了下松和露出来的肩膀，话没问出口，松和突然睁开了眼睛，没有看他，半垂着，嘴唇动了动，声音却过了会才发出来：“聿严，你为什么跟我上床？”
Yuye noticed that Song He's lips were a bit pale, then he thought of Song He's action of covering his stomach earlier, reached out and touched Song He's exposed shoulder, without saying anything, Song He suddenly opened his eyes, not looking at him, half-lidded, his lips moved, but his voice only came out after a while: "Yuye, why did you sleep with me?"

　　“因为我看起来很想要。”没有等聿严说话，这次松和自己回答。
"I look like I want it." This time, it was Songhe who answered before Yuyan could speak.

　　他的语气怎么会那么温柔，聿严觉得自己应该明白松和此时可能是在跟自己闹别扭，但实在是松和的语气太温柔，甚至表现得好像该责怪的人是松和而非聿严。
How could his tone be so gentle? Yuyan felt he should understand that Songhe was probably just being difficult, but Songhe's tone was genuinely too gentle, as if it was Songhe who should be blamed rather than Yuyan.

　　松和很慢地说：“其实有时候我会想，你会……”
Songhe said slowly, "Actually, sometimes I wonder, you would..."

　　你会跟每一个想要的人上床吗？如果他表现得……表现得跟我一样不知廉耻，主动又不计较回应，你会跟每一个这样的松和上床吗？
Would you sleep with every person who wants you? If he acted... acted as shamelessly as me,主动 and uncaring of response, would you sleep with every such Songhe?

　　他的话只说到一半，然后用力闭了一下眼睛，似乎非常懊恼，因为他觉得这样想是对聿严的侮辱。他紧接着拉起被子，遮住大半张脸，对站在原地的聿严说：“你走吧，我要休息了。”
His words were only halfway out when he squeezed his eyes shut firmly, seemingly very annoyed, because he felt that way of thinking was an insult to Yu Yan. He immediately pulled the blanket up, covering most of his face, and said to Yu Yan, who was still standing there, "You can leave now. I need to rest."

　　聿严没有拿到拱极星，也知道了他不会再得到，因为松和说不想给他，而不是其他原因。他也不想打扰松和休息，所以他安静地穿上衣服，帮松和关好门以后走了。
Yu Yan didn't get the Polar Star, and he also knew he wouldn't get it anymore, because Song said he didn't want to give it to him, not for any other reason. He didn't want to disturb Song's rest either, so he quietly got dressed and left after helping Song close the door.

第8章
Chapter 8

　　聿严离开十分钟以后，松和的电话就短暂地响了两声，但他没来得及接，就又被挂断，随之进来一条消息：睡了没有？
Ten minutes after Yu Yan left, Song's phone rang briefly twice, but he didn't have a chance to answer before it was hung up again. Shortly after, a message came in: Asleep yet?

　　松和回拨过去，聿严接得很快，问他：“是不是肚子疼？”
Song and Hui called back, Yu Yan answered quickly and asked, "Is it your stomach ache?"

　　松和说：“刚才有一点，现在没事了。”
Song said, "It was a bit earlier, but it's fine now."

　　聿严沉默了一会，道：“我带你去看医生。”
Yu Yan was silent for a moment, then said, "I'll take you to see a doctor."

　　松和说：“真的没事，我想休息。”
Song said, "It's really nothing, I just want to rest."

　　“你能照顾好自己吗？”聿严问。
“Can you take care of yourself?” Yu Yan asked.

　　松和说：“可以。”
Songhe said, “Yes.”

　　聿严说：“好。”然后挂了电话。
Yu Yan said, “Alright.” Then he hung up the phone.

　　然后一直到在创世之柱举行受降仪式之前，他们都没再见面。
After that, they didn’t see each other again until the surrender ceremony was held at the Pillar of Creation.

　　仪式分为两部分，前半段在创世之柱进行，后半程要回主星。
The ceremony is divided into two parts, with the first half taking place at the Pillar of Creation, and the second half requiring a return to the main star.

　　松和被选为43号辅星的代表参加，跟他一起的还有另外三个人，不过没有一个同期，创世之柱的会场也没什么认识的人，所以他全程都比较无聊。
Ren and the representative chosen for 辅星 43 participated, accompanied by three other people, though none were from the same cohort. The venue at the Pillar of Creation had few acquaintances, so Ren found the entire event rather boring.

　　等全员转移回主星后，才是仪式的重头戏，几乎所有的上级都在那里，会场也比创世之柱匆忙之下搭建起来的要庄重几倍。
It wasn't until everyone had transferred back to the main star that the main event of the ceremony began. Almost all the superiors were present, and the venue was far more solemn than the hastily constructed one at the Pillar of Creation.

　　松和遇到了聿严的副官，他是一个不苟言笑的人，所以松和在他面前也习惯严肃。
Ren encountered Yu Yan's deputy, who was a stern and unsmiling individual. Therefore, Ren was accustomed to maintaining a serious demeanor in his presence.

　　两人简短地打了个招呼，紧接着又遇到了聿严的护卫队。
The two exchanged a brief greeting, then encountered Yu Yan's guard team.

　　这说明聿严就在附近，松和说不清心里的感觉，等他自己反应过来的时候，他已经离开了那片场地。
This meant Yu Yan was nearby, and Song couldn't quite articulate the feeling in his heart. By the time he realized what was happening, he had already left the area.

　　仪式按时间准时开始，聿严作为代表签字受降的时候，闪光灯几乎使所有人都睁不开眼。
The ceremony began exactly on schedule. When Yu Yan, as the representative, signed the surrender, the flashes of light almost made everyone unable to keep their eyes open.

　　那个瞬间在往后漫长的时间里都被称为银河荣耀，但也有人将其当作银河系的伤疤。
That moment came to be known as the "Galactic Glory" in the long years that followed, but some also regarded it as a scar on the galaxy.

　　因为二十年的战争带来的不仅是科技的止步不前和大规模的行星损毁，还有无可挽回的庞大数量的战士的牺牲。
Because twenty years of war brought not only technological stagnation and large-scale planetary destruction, but also an irrecoverable number of soldiers' sacrifices.

　　仪式结束后，说聿严两个月内的行程被精确到分钟地安排好都不算夸张，更不用讲刚结束的那几个小时。
After the ceremony, it wasn't an exaggeration to say that Say Yu's itinerary for the next two months was scheduled down to the minute, let alone the hours that had just ended.

　　但松和走出会场，在停车场找到自己的车以后，却还是被应该周旋于各种采访中的聿严抓住手腕。
But after Song and Wu left the venue and found their car in the parking lot, they were still caught by Say Yu, who should have been busy with various interviews, grabbing their wrist.

　　“一个人来的？”聿严似乎忘了两个人之前的不欢而散，只是在怪他乱跑，“刚看见你，转眼就又不见了。”
"Did you come alone?" Say Yu seemed to have forgotten their previous unpleasant separation, just blaming him for running around, "I just saw you, and then you were gone again."

　　松和叫了声：“上将。”
Song called out, "Admiral."

　　聿严的确不清闲，没有跟他说更多的话，匆匆走另一条路带他回会场，上了二十几层楼，把他安排进一间房里：“在这等我。”
Yu Yan was indeed quite busy; he didn't say more and quickly took him another way to the venue, going up twenty or so floors, and arranged him in a room: "Wait for me here."

　　松和一直等到晚上。
Song waited until nightfall.

　　幸好他最近食欲不是很好，不然这会应该已经被饿到前胸贴后背。
Luckily, he hadn't been eating well recently, or he should have been starving by now.

　　聿严推门进来的时候，他趴在桌子上睡着了，但没有睡得特别沉，所以几乎是门一开，他就跟着醒了。
When Yu Yan walked in through the door, he was sleeping on the table, but he wasn't sleeping deeply, so almost as soon as the door opened, he woke up.

　　聿严看到他坐起来，就没有开灯，说：“走吧。”
When Yu Yan saw him sit up, he didn't turn on the light and said, "Let's go."

　　松和很听话地跟在他后面走，才发现除了护卫队以外，明面上跟着聿严的人竟然比以前还多。
Song He followed him obediently, only then noticing that besides the guard team, there were actually more people openly accompanying Yu Yan than before.

　　松和意识到，对民众来说，战争确实结束了，但在聿严身上表现出来的气氛却更紧张，爱他的人很多，恨他的人也不少。
Song He realized that for the public, the war had indeed ended, but the atmosphere Yu Yan exuded was even more tense. Many loved him, but quite a few also hated him.

　　松和本来有些困，所以稍微低着头，但慢慢因为为聿严感到担心，就又忘了犯困。
Soong was originally a bit drowsy, so he lowered his head slightly, but gradually forgot about the drowsiness as he grew worried for Yu Yan.

　　上了电梯，聿严按的楼层是负三，他们没有开车，乘飞行器回到了聿严在主星的住所。
Once in the elevator, Yu Yan pressed for the basement level (-3). They hadn’t driven; instead, they returned to Yu Yan’s residence on the main planet via a flying vehicle.

　　松和以为他们要回的是聿严的住所。
Soong had assumed they were heading back to Yu Yan’s place.

　　但其实是聿严的父母家。
But in reality, it was Yu Yan’s parents’ home.

　　松和意识到，今晚每家每户都在庆祝，聿严家里也不例外。
Meng Huo realized that every household was celebrating tonight, and Yu Yan's family was no exception.

　　他家里的氛围很好，从聿严绷着脸接受他母亲给他套上的花环就可以看得出来。
The atmosphere in his home was very warm, which could be seen from the fact that Yu Yan accepted the flower crown his mother placed on his head with a stern expression.

　　一下飞行器，聿严就被亲属包围，松和原本和其他跟着他的护卫一样等在后面，但很快就有人把目光投向他。
Upon landing, Yu Yan was surrounded by relatives. Meng Huo, who had originally been waiting behind like the guards accompanying him, soon had attention directed towards him.

　　“松和！”看起来是聿严母亲的人松开聿严，快步走到松和面前，她脸上的笑容很大，看了松和好一会，才握住他的手说，“你是小松，对吧？我见过你的照片。”
"Song He!" It appeared to be Yu Yan's mother who released Yu Yan, quickly walking up to Song He. Her smile was very wide as she looked at Song He for a while before taking his hand and saying, "You're Xiao Song, right? I've seen your picture."

　　松和说：“我是，阿姨您好。”
Song He said, "I am, hello Auntie."

　　被包围的人换成了松和。
The person surrounded changed to Song He.

　　踏进家门的一路上，他就经受了一大波来自陌生人的嘘寒问暖，关心他在战场上吃了太多的苦，又细问生活细节，埋冤聿严少有的几次回家都没有带着他一起。
As he entered the house, he endured a wave of inquiries from strangers, concerned about the hardships he faced on the battlefield, and asked about his daily life in detail, complaining that he had never taken him along on the few rare times he had come home.

　　松和招架得很勉强，站在窗边的聿严却没有捞他出去的意图，好像挺愉快，单手插兜，还悠闲地拿了杯香槟。
Song He struggled to defend himself, but Yu Yan, standing by the window, showed no intention of letting him go, as if he was quite pleased, with his hands in his pockets and even leisurely holding a glass of champagne.

　　松和的福利待遇，松和之后的军衔，松和的战后安置方案。
The benefits and treatment of Song He, Song He's subsequent military rank, Song He's post-war resettlement plan.

　　这些都不是松和告诉对方，而是由聿严的家人七嘴八舌告诉他。
None of these were told to Song He by Song He himself, but rather by the chattering family members of Yu Yan.

　　“大部分都是我去打听来的。”聿严的表弟说，“您的表现太优秀啦，负责这一块的办公室的人说，现在只等辅星那边彻底扫尾，这边好几个部门都在抢着要您过去呢，您怎么打算呀？”
"The majority of this was gathered by me," said Yu Yan's cousin. "Your performance has been outstanding, the person in charge of this office said that now all that's left is for the 辅星 (Fuxing) side to wrap things up, and several departments here are fighting to get you there. What are your plans?"

　　松和先说不用这么客气地用“您”，然后说：“我都听上面安排。”
Song He first said he didn't need to be so formal with the "you," then replied, "I'll follow the arrangements from above."

　　接着就有人夸他稳重。
Someone then praised him for being steady.

　　听到他打算分期购买一颗低价小行星，又赞他经济实力雄厚，因为毕竟更多的人还在为买一栋楼而奔波。
When they heard about his plan to buy a cheap asteroid in installments, they complimented his strong financial resources, because after all, more people were still struggling to buy a house.

　　松和：似乎有理有据。
Song He: It seems reasonable.

　　“烦人的事终于都结束了，你和聿严接下来是怎么打算的？”聿严的母亲笑着问。
"Finally, all the troublesome things are over. What are your plans next, you and Yu Yan?" Yu Yan's mother asked with a smile.

　　她确实没有催促的意思，反而更像是在逗松和，想看他不好意思的样子居多。
She didn't really mean to rush him; instead, she seemed more like she was teasing Song He, mostly wanting to see his shy expression.

　　松和当然听得懂，他也冲她笑了一下，然后说：“我们……”
Song He understood, of course. He smiled at her and then said, "We..."

　　“松和。”聿严突然叫他，“过来。”
"Song He," Yu Yan suddenly called him, "come here."

　　松和跟他妈妈的谈话还没有结束，觉得这样走开不太礼貌，但是聿严的妈妈笑着推了他一下，说：“去吧，去吧。”
Song He hadn't finished talking with his mother and felt it wouldn't be very polite to just leave, but Yu Yan's mother smiled and pushed him, saying, "Go on, go on."

　　聿严没有在一楼跟他说什么，把他叫过去之后，只是带着他去吃了点东西，准备的大多是冷盘，松和胃口不太好，很快就说：“上将，我吃好了。”
Yan did not say anything to him on the first floor; after calling him over, he simply took him out for some food, most of which were cold dishes. Song had little appetite and soon said, "Admiral, I'm done eating."

　　“在家里叫名字。”
"Call me by my name at home."

　　聿严没有回头看他，听他不说话，就又重复了一遍：“叫名字。”
Yan did not turn to look at him; hearing him not speak, he repeated, "Call me by my name."

　　“聿严。”
"Yan."

　　“嗯。”
"Mm."

　　时间不早了，松和没有急着道别，是因为他知道他和聿严之间还有事情没说清楚。
It was late, and Song He didn't hurry to say goodbye because he knew there were still things left unsaid between him and Yu Yan.

　　等聿严提出上楼以后，他们两个人前后走向楼梯口，松和就感觉到暧昧又善意的目光从客厅投在他身上。
After Yu Yan suggested going upstairs, they walked towards the staircase entrance together, and Song He felt a 暧昧 yet kind gaze from the living room directed at him.

　　聿严应该是把他带到了自己的卧室，常年没有人住，就有些冷清，但打扫得很干净。
Yu Yan must have taken him to his bedroom; it had been unoccupied for years, so it felt a bit cold and desolate, but it was very clean.

　　聿严回身关门，松和在他身后，两个人就面对面站在了门边上。
Yu Yan turned back to close the door, and behind him, Song He stood facing him, both of them positioned at the edge of the doorway.

　　松和的嘴唇很漂亮，他想，也很软，因为他吻过。
The lips of Song He were very pretty, he thought, and also very soft, because he had kissed them.

　　他们很久没接吻了，聿严又想。
They hadn't kissed in a long time, Yu Yan thought again.

　　已经到了喉咙口的话被咽回去，他握着松和的腰，跟他接了一个很长的吻。
The words that had reached his throat were swallowed back; he held Song He's waist and gave him a long kiss.

　　松和觉得嘴唇上的皮都要破了的时候，聿严才把他放开，眼神落在他脸上，很专注地看着他，过了会，说：“最近，我一直都在想。”
Only when Song He felt like his lips were about to break did Yu Yan let him go. His gaze fell on his face, looking at him intently for a moment, then he said, "Recently, I've been thinking about you."

　　“什么？”
"What?"

　　“你上次没说完的话。”
"The thing you didn't finish saying last time."

　　“其实我有时候会想，你会……”当时松和说了一半的话是这一句。
"In fact, sometimes I wonder, you would..." The half-finished sentence that Song He had said was this one.

　　“你想问我，我会不会喜欢你。”聿严顿了顿，低声问，“是吗？”
"You want to ask me if I'll like you." Yun Yan paused, then asked softly, "Is that right?"

　　松和有些说不出话。
Meng felt speechless.

　　一直以来，聿严都教导他忠诚、服从、严肃，所以他应该否认，而不应该撒谎。
Yuye had always taught him loyalty, obedience, and seriousness, so he should deny rather than lie.

　　可刚才聿严又说过，现在在家里，要叫他的名字。跟战场上不一样，他不是长官，是聿严。
But just now, Yuye had said that at home, he should be called by his name. It was different from the battlefield; he wasn't a superior, he was Yuye.

　　两个人挨得那么近，还是聿严低一低头就又可以接吻的距离，松和似是而非地“嗯”了声。
The two were so close that Yuye had only to lower his head slightly to kiss him. Meng ambiguously murmured, "Mm."

　　聿严接下来很长时间都没说话，似乎主动提起这个问题的人并不是他。
Yan didn't speak for a long time afterward, as if the one who had brought up the question wasn't him.

　　他只是看着松和，带着任何一个普通人面对感情问题时都会有的困惑，好像想从松和的脸上得到答案。
He just looked at Song He, with the confusion any ordinary person would feel when dealing with emotional issues, as if he wanted to find an answer on Song He's face.

　　他回忆自己学过的所有科目，从逻辑计算到战斗机驾驶，从天文物理到帝国史，没有一门学科说过从极热发情期开始的信息素纠缠和身体熟稔叫做爱情。
He recalled all the subjects he had studied, from logical computation to fighter jet piloting, from astrophysics to imperial history, and not a single subject had called the information entanglement of pheromones during the extreme heat estrus period and physical familiarity love.

　　可是名叫松和的士兵却总是向他索求。
But the soldier named Song He always asked him for it.

　　又因为某种不知名的原因，他总对松和有着异于常人的宽容，所以他才愿意分神去思考。
%% For some unknown reason, he always showed an extraordinary tolerance toward Song He, which was why he was willing to divert his attention to think about it.

　　明明已经把这个问题想了两个月，但是面对松和，他还是费了很长一段时间，把眼神从松和脸上移开，才将答案成功说出口：“我不确定。”
Although he had already thought about this problem for two months, when facing Song He, he still took a long time to avert his gaze from Song He's face before successfully managing to say the answer: "I'm not sure."

　　聿严感觉这四个字说出来之前的一秒钟，他自己也不知道自己要说什么。
Yue Yan felt that in the second before he said those four words, he himself didn't know what he wanted to say.

　　最后他说了“我不确定”，松和在同时好像松了口气似的动了下肩膀。
In the end, when he said "I'm not sure," Song He seemed to sigh in relief as he moved his shoulders.

　　可感觉却像很不对劲。至少他自己没有松一口气。
It can be felt, yet something felt terribly off. At least he didn't breathe a sigh of relief.

　　聿严没来得及仔细辨认自己内心复杂混乱的情绪，松和就从他怀里退出一步，然后抬起头对他很轻地笑了一下。
Before Yujian could fully discern the complex and chaotic emotions within him, Songhe stepped back slightly from his embrace, then looked up at him and gave a soft smile.

　　“我知道了。”松和感觉到有一点想吐，说，“时间不早，我先走了。”
"I understand," Songhe said, feeling a bit queasy. "It's getting late, I should go."

　　聿严先说送他，又说留一晚，松和听着他的说法变来变去，最后说：“你家里人好像都有些误会。你应该解释清楚，才不会给你带来更多的困扰。”
Yujian first offered to escort him, then suggested he stay the night. Songhe listened to his wavering words, and finally said, "It seems your family has some misunderstandings. You should clarify things so you won't cause yourself more trouble."

　　聿严想说我没有觉得困扰，松和就又说：“我很容易就可以放弃，所以你不用太担心。”
Lian wanted to say he didn't feel troubled, but Song then added, "I can give up easily, so you don't need to worry too much."

　　聿严的表情似乎是没有听懂。
Lian's expression seemed as if he didn't understand.

　　松和的目光向下垂，聿严能看到他的长睫毛微微地扇动。
Song's gaze dropped, and Lian could see his long eyelashes flutter slightly.

　　他轻声解释道：“我做事都不太能坚持，现在既然你已经对我把话说清楚，我很快就会放弃的。”
He explained softly, "I'm not very good at sticking to things, and now that you've made things clear to me, I'll give up quickly."

　　聿严在有些疑惑自己为什么没有感觉到轻松的同时顺着松和的话说：“是吗？”
Yu Yan, while still slightly puzzled as to why he didn't feel relieved, went along with Song He's words and said, "Really?"

　　“是。”松和说。
"Is that so," Song He replied.

第9章
Chapter 9

　　应松和的要求，在松和离开以后，聿严就应该向家人解释清楚他们之间的关系。
As per Song He's request, after Song He left, Yu Yan was supposed to clarify their relationship to his family.

　　但是他送松和回到军部安排给他们的住所重新返回家里之后，亲戚们都还在，从很远的地方就可以感觉到灯光的热闹，其中不包括他的妈妈，一个人站在门廊上等他，有些担心地问他是不是跟松和吵架了，他却什么都没说。
But after he returned to the residence assigned to him at the military headquarters with Song He, all his relatives were still there. From far away, he could feel the warmth of the lights, except for his mother, who stood alone on the porch waiting for him, a little worried asking if he had argued with Song He. But he said nothing.

　　“那怎么好好的就突然走了？松和年纪小，你不要总是这么严肃。”她试着说，“而且下了战场，他就不是你的下级，和蔼一些总是没错的。”
"Why did you leave suddenly like that? Song He is young, you shouldn't be so serious all the time," she tried to say. "Moreover, once he's off the battlefield, he's not your subordinate anymore. It's always better to be kinder."

　　聿严道：“我们没有吵架。”
Lü Yan said, "We didn't argue."

　　她把两只手交握在一起，说“那就好”，听起来却像是“真的吗”。
She clasped her hands together and said, "That's good," but it sounded more like, "Really?"

　　聿严低头看她，耐心道：“真没吵架。”
Yu Yan lowered his head to look at her and said patiently, "We didn't argue."

　　可能是聿严从不说没有必要的谎，他的语气非常具有可信度，不过还有可能是因为从某种意义上来讲，他跟松和确实没有吵架。
Perhaps it was because Yu Yan never told unnecessary lies, his tone was very convincing. However, it was also possible that in a certain sense, he and Song He really hadn't argued.

　　他们甚至不算分开，因为没有在一起过。
They hadn't even been apart, as they had never been together.

　　所以没有人能对聿严解释，为什么半个小时之前，从松和的房间离开的过程中，他的每一步都走得那样慢。
So no one could explain to Yu Yan why, half an hour ago, as he left Song He's room, every step he took was so slow.

　　留给聿严跟家人待在一起的时间少得可怜，他回到客厅之后，回答了两个有关松和早退的问题：“他累了”，“是的，他明天一早还需要返回43号辅星”，喝下半杯白兰地，和父亲跟叔叔们谈话将近四十分钟，上楼简单整理随身物品。
The time left for Yu Yan to be with his family was pitifully scarce. After returning to the living room, he answered two questions about Song and leaving early: "He's tired," "Yes, he needs to return to 辅星 43 early tomorrow morning." He drank half a glass of brandy, talked with his father and uncles for nearly forty minutes, and then went upstairs to briefly pack his personal belongings.

　　短暂的休息之后，凌晨五点，他就上了飞行器，去参加三千公里以外的战争结束后的第一场追悼会。
After a short rest, at 5 a.m., he boarded a spacecraft to attend the first memorial service after the war, which was three thousand kilometers away.

　　许多人需要见他，许多细节需要他确认，归他管和不归他管的事情都堆在眼前，有整整一个大办公室的人负责将其整理归类，但他还是要付出大量的时间去审批。
Many people needed to see him, and many details needed his confirmation. Matters under his jurisdiction and those not under his jurisdiction were piling up before him, with a whole office of people responsible for sorting and categorizing them, but he still had to spend a significant amount of time reviewing them.

　　他感觉自己忙了很久很久，做了非常多的工作，日历上，距离他给出松和“我不确定”四个字却才过去了五天。
He felt as if he had been busy for a very long time, having done a tremendous amount of work. On the calendar, it had only been five days since he had given Song and the words "I'm not sure."

　　不是五周，也不是五个月，聿严惊讶地意识到，只有五天。
It wasn't five weeks, nor five months—Yu Yan was shocked to realize it was only five days.

　　他跟松和不是没有长时间不见面过，极热发情期把松和带到他身边，当战况紧急的时候，为了确定他的安全，副官会以来去麻烦而要求松和持续一个多月待在聿严身边，但也不可否认，他们之间聚少离多才是常态。
He and Song He hadn't been apart for long periods of time, but the extreme heat rut had brought Song He to his side. When the situation was urgent, to ensure his safety, the adjutant would request that Song He stay by Yu Yan's side for over a month, causing trouble back and forth, but it couldn't be denied that their frequent separations were the norm between them.

　　比方说他刚回到主星开始休假的那次极热发情期，在那之前，他已经有135天没见过松和。
For example, during the extreme heat rut when he just returned to the main planet for leave, he hadn't seen Song He for 135 days before that.

　　五天，聿严又想。
Five days, Yu Yan thought again.

　　他没有让自己去回忆松和说的那句“很快就会放弃”。
He didn't let himself recall the words "I'll give up soon" that Song had said.

　　五天算不算快？
Was five days considered soon?

　　时间缓慢地向前爬，一个月后，聿严登上帝国新闻的频率越来越低，也代表国民情绪的逐渐稳定，和战后善后工作最艰难部分的结束。
Time crawled slowly forward. A month later, Yu Yan's appearance on the Empire News decreased in frequency, which also represented the gradual stabilization of public sentiment and the end of the most difficult part of post-war recovery efforts.

　　冬天终于到了尾声，春天到来之后，在各级部门有心营造欢快氛围的努力下，军部联合各办公室计划了一次几乎算是全国性的联谊活动。
Winter finally came to a close, and with spring's arrival, under the concerted efforts of various departments to create a cheerful atmosphere, the military jointly planned a nationwide matchmaking event with offices at all levels.

　　上至军方，下至私企，都兴致高昂地响应，几乎囊括了所有适婚的单身青年。
From the military to private companies, they all responded with great enthusiasm, nearly encompassing all eligible single young adults.

　　聿严回家的次数越来越多，因为长时间的战争，近十年来，他在家的时间加起来都不超过一个月，所以跟家里人的关系亲而不密，所以他妈妈只是偶尔问起松和，还是在实在忍不住的情况下，还算好应付。
Yu Yan's visits home became more frequent, as due to the long war, he had spent no more than a month at home in the past decade, so his relationship with his family was close but not intimate. Therefore, his mother only occasionally asked about Song, and only when she couldn't stand it anymore, which was still manageable.

　　“最近小松都没有来家里。”
"Song hasn't come home recently."

　　聿严照例说：“他很忙。”
Yu Yan, as usual, said, "He's very busy."

　　以前问题就该在这里结束，但是聿严的妈妈接着说：“不是说肯定会把他调回主星？那为什么到现在还在辅星？”
Where the issue should have ended before, but Yu Yan's mother continued to say, "Didn't they say he would definitely be transferred back to the main star? Then why is he still on the auxiliary star?"

　　“我问过，是他自己要求的，因为这个，办事处还为他申请了很多津贴，在那边的职位也比主星高，现在43号基本是他说了算，所以也不是太坏的主意。”
"I asked, it was something he requested himself. Because of this, the office even applied for many allowances for him, and his position there is higher than on the main star. Now, 43rd is basically up to him, so it's not a bad idea either."

　　悦敏微顿了顿，似乎不太在意聿严认真数出的几条理由，只问：“你问了谁，办事处的人，还是松和？”
Yue Minwei paused for a moment, seemingly not caring much about the several reasons Yu Yan had seriously listed, only asking, "Who did you ask? The people at the office, or Song He?"

　　聿严没有说话，悦敏就拿出一封聿严不在家的时候寄来的邀请函。
Yu Yan didn't speak, and Yue Minwei took out an invitation letter that had been sent when Yu Yan wasn't home.

　　是军部组织的又一场座谈，说是座谈，其实是给军部军衔较高的单身汉们一个除了驳斥对方政见以外的相处机会。
It was another round of discussions organized by the military department, but it was more of an opportunity for the single high-ranking military officers to interact beyond debating political views.

　　名单里有聿严，在靠中后的地方，松和的名字非常显眼，因为他是这场见面会中唯一一个没有结婚的E型omega。
The list included Yu Yan. In the middle 靠后 section, Song's name stood out prominently because he was the only unmarried E-type omega at this meeting.

　　悦敏轻声说：“你们有多久没讲过话？”
Yue Min whispered, "How long has it been since you last talked?"

　　“是那次来家里……你们分手了？”
"It was that time when you came to my place... Did you break up?"

　　聿严还是没有说话，她就在原地站了会，摆弄了下刚浇过水的花，然后默默走开了。
Yu Yan still didn't speak. She stood in place for a moment, fiddling with the newly watered flowers, then quietly walked away.

　　悦敏曾经到前线看过聿严一次。
Yu Min had once visited Yu Yan at the front lines.

　　当时他已经超过一年没有回家，家里人不再买他“忙”的账，叫他务必在一个月内选出一段时间，接受普通士兵都有的探亲。
At that time, he had already been away from home for more than a year. His family no longer bought his "busy" excuse, telling him he must choose a period within a month to accept the leave that regular soldiers were entitled to.

　　可是悦敏出发的那天，聿严的极热发情期来得猝不及防。
However, on the day Yu Min set off, Yu Yan's sudden onset of an extremely high heat phase was unavoidable.

　　松和几乎是跟悦敏同时到达，但他甚至没时间跟悦敏好好打个招呼，就被聿严的副官塞进了聿严房里。
Song and arrived almost at the same time as Yue Min, but he didn't even have time to properly greet Yue Min before his aide shoved him into Yu Yan's room.

　　那一次不算严重，松和来得也快，又熟悉安抚聿严的方法，他们一起度过七天，除了不能长时间离开松和身边以外，聿严已经可以大致正常地工作。
That time wasn't serious, Song arrived quickly and was also familiar with calming Yu Yan down, so they spent seven days together. Except for not being able to leave Song's side for long periods, Yu Yan was already able to mostly function normally.

　　七天刚好是规定中探亲结束的时间，可谁都知道规定没那么严格，甚至士兵的探亲都有两到三天的宽容，如果聿严愿意，悦敏一直住下来都可以。
Seven days were exactly the end of the 规定的探亲 time, but everyone knew the 规定 wasn't that strict. In fact, soldiers'探亲 even had a two to three day tolerance. If Yu Yan wanted, Yue Min could have stayed there indefinitely.

　　但是悦敏坚决不同意，必须按照规章办事。
But Yue Min refused firmly, insisting on following the regulations.

　　她只跟聿严吃了顿午饭，晚上就要离开，当时松和体力耗尽，一直在休息，聿严临时出去一下的时候，她推开房门，就看见缩在行军床上睡得很熟的松和的半张脸。
She only had lunch with Yu Yan, and she had to leave that evening. At the time, Song He was exhausted and had been resting continuously. When Yu Yan left temporarily, she pushed open the room door and saw the half of Song He's face, who was sleeping soundly on the military cot.

　　除了家里人主动问的问题之外，聿严几乎从不说多余的事情，所以那是她第一次见松和，也是第一次知道聿严不规律的极热发情期。
Aside from questions 主动 asked by her family, Yu Yan rarely spoke of anything else, so it was her first time seeing Song He and her first time learning about his irregular, extremely high heat cycle.

　　但有关于松和的事，这七天里，却已经听聿严的护卫队队员们说了很多。
But regarding Song He, over the seven days, his guards had already told her a lot about him.

　　他每次都会带很多43号辅星的特产过来，自己吃的很少，据说是不喜欢，全都分给别人；弄坏聿严的小型激光炮急的哭鼻子；帮聿严洗内裤和袜子被护卫队看到以后脸红了一下午。
He would always bring over many specialties from 辅星 43, eating very little himself, reportedly because he didn't like them, and gave everything to others; he would cry when he accidentally broke Yu Yan's small laser gun; and after helping Yu Yan wash his underwear and socks was seen by the guards, he was embarrassed for the rest of the afternoon.

　　他待在前线的时候，聿严就很少增加不属于自己职责内的巡游，结束工作的时间很有规律，几乎每天的晚饭都会在自己的房间吃。
When he was at the front lines, Yu Yan rarely added patrols outside his duties. His work hours were very regular, and almost every dinner was eaten in his own room.

　　一名队员说：“我觉得上将应该会等战争结束就立刻结婚。”
One team member said, "I think the General will get married as soon as the war ends."

　　另一名队员说：“那也说不准，有可能明年不那么忙就会结。起码求婚肯定很快了。”
Another team member said, "That's not certain either. It's possible he'll get married if things aren't as busy next year. At least the proposal will definitely be soon."

　　第三名队员说：“松和也很喜欢上将，他先求婚也有可能。”
The third team member said, "Song also likes the General, so it's possible he might propose first."

　　“上将不是主动的人。”
"The General isn't the proactive one."

　　“的确不是。”
"Indeed not."

　　“他比较沉得住气。”
"He has more patience."

　　确定了送悦敏回去的时间，她又一次上楼去整理行李，却在楼梯转角处停下。
Having determined the time to send Yue Min back, she went upstairs again to pack her luggage, but stopped at the turn of the stairs.

　　这边没有开灯，楼梯口的人又太专注，所以都没注意到脚步本来就很轻的悦敏。
The area wasn't lit, and the person at the staircase entrance was too focused, so neither noticed Yue Min, who was already walking very lightly.

　　不知什么时候回来的聿严把刚起床准备下楼的松和堵在楼梯口，几下把他推到墙上，两个人很低地说了几句话，聿严显然有些急迫，松和的声音却也不像拒绝。
Some time unknown when Yu Yan came back, he blocked Song He, who had just woken up and was about to go downstairs, at the staircase entrance. In a few moments, he pushed him against the wall, and the two spoke in low voices. Yu Yan was clearly in a hurry, but Song He's voice didn't sound like refusal.

　　他比聿严低一些，身量也显而易见的单薄，却在吻了几下以后，就很包容地将躬身的聿严抱着，仰头让他的脸埋在颈边蹭，发出一点闷闷的笑声，说：“痒。”
He was a bit shorter than Yu Yan and visibly slender, yet after a few kisses, he embraced the bowing Yu Yan with great 包容性, tilted his head to bury his face against Yu Yan's neck and rubbed, letting out a muffled laugh, saying, "It's ticklish."

　　“别动。”聿严说，“我闻闻。”
"Don't move," Yu Yan said. "Let me smell."

　　“那你别用牙咬。”松和跟他商量，“早上咬的还疼呢。”
“Then don’t bite with your teeth.” Song He negotiated with him, “It still hurts from this morning.”

　　“我看。”聿严不知道怎么弄了他一下，他就吸着气又笑，说：“别，别。”
“I’ll wait.” Yu Yan didn’t know how to handle it, but he puffed out his cheeks and laughed again, saying, “No, no.”

　　悦敏慢慢地退下去，走到客厅另一边的会客室坐着，她觉得自己的心跳得有些快，却又说不出什么感觉。
Yue Min slowly backed down and walked to the sitting room on the other side of the living room to sit, feeling her heart beat a bit fast, but she couldn’t put into words what she felt.

　　过了好一会，聿严才过来，手里拿着军帽，问她怎么坐在这里，等走到她面前，看了眼她，神采奕奕的脸上也给出个笑，说：“怎么了，这么高兴？”
After a while, Yu Yan came over, holding a military cap, asking her why she was sitting here. When he walked up to her and looked at her, a bright expression on his face softened into a smile, saying, “What’s wrong? So happy?”

　　悦敏说：“没什么，接我的太空舰什么时候来？”
Yu Min said, "It's nothing, when is my spaceship arriving?"

　　“五分钟左右。”聿严说。
"In about five minutes," Yu Yan said.

　　剩下的时间，他一直陪悦敏在会客室等着，直到太空舰停在门后，聿严没有用士兵动手，自己帮悦敏把行李拎出去，跟她说：“放心吧，我没事。”
For the rest of the time, he stayed with Yu Min in the reception room, waiting until the spaceship parked behind the door. Yu Yan didn't have the soldiers intervene; he helped Yu Min carry her luggage out and told her, "Don't worry, I'm fine."

　　“松和……”悦敏第一次说出这个名字。
"Song He..." Yu Min said the name for the first time.

　　“他有些发烧，今天气温太低，我就没让他出来。”聿严的表情很正常，似乎谈论松和是一件非常平常的事情，“下次有机会再见吧。”
"He's running a slight fever, and it's too cold today, so I didn't let him come out." Yu Yan's expression was perfectly normal, as if talking about Song He was something completely ordinary. "We'll see each other again next time."

　　而且他脖子上没办法遮住的痕迹和过于红的嘴唇都让他不适合见别人，聿严没说，但悦敏是经历过发情期的人，所以她也明白。
Moreover, the unavoidable marks on his neck and his overly red lips made him unsuitable for seeing others, though Yu Yan didn't say it, but Yue Min, who had experienced the mating season, understood.

　　后来的家庭电话中，松和就成了必不可少的一项话题，聿严一向给足这通电话耐心，几乎有问必答。
Later, during a family call, Song He became an indispensable topic, and Yu Yan always gave the call his full attention, answering almost every question.

　　悦敏等着战争结束后的婚礼，却怎么都没想到，最后她等来的，会是聿严跟松和分手的消息。
Yue Min was waiting for the wedding after the 'war' ended, but she never imagined that what she would ultimately wait for was the news of Yu Yan and Song He breaking up.

第10章
Chapter 10

　　聿严没有在见面会上看到松和，但显然除了他以外，关心参与这场见面会中唯一一个E型omega的还大有人在。
Lü Yan did not see Song He at the meeting, but it was clear that besides him, there were many others who were concerned about the only E-type omega participating in this meeting.

　　他跟三两个熟人站在一边谈话的一小会工夫，耳边就听到几次“松和少将来了没有”的低声询问。
While he was standing and talking with a few acquaintances for a short while, he heard several low whispers asking, "Has General Song He arrived yet?"

　　参与名单并非经过自己报名形成，而是由办公室的负责人根据系统信息拟出，然后发送邀请函，是否出席也全看自愿，所以聿严的出现使很多人惊讶。
The list of participants was not formed through self-registration but was drafted by the office 负责人 based on system information, and then invitations were sent. Attendance was entirely voluntary, so Lü Yan's presence surprised many people.

　　虽然这片草坪上基本都是军部的青年才俊，大多矜持，没有出现围观的状况，但聿严还是用了一点耐心，才成功离开。
Although most of the young talents from the military department were on the lawn, mostly reserved, and no one gathered to watch, Yu Yan still had to use a bit of patience to leave successfully.

　　松和没来，聿严在飞行器上不太留神地想，应该是43号辅星上的工作太忙。
Song didn't come, Yu Yan thought absentmindedly on the aircraft, probably too busy with work on 辅星 43.

　　他踏进家门，悦敏坐在沙发上织毛衣，他爸也在。悦敏短暂地抬了下头，看到他身后没人，就低下头继续打毛衣，嘴里说：“这么快？”
He stepped into his home, Yue Min was knitting a sweater on the sofa, and his dad was also there. Yue Min briefly lifted her head, saw no one behind him, and lowered her head to continue knitting, saying, "So soon?"

　　“没什么事。”
"It's nothing."

　　他爸爸问：“也没有认识新朋友？”
He asked, "Did you make any new friends?"

　　聿严说“没有”，隔了点距离，也在沙发上坐下。因为悦敏抱怨过他陪她的时间太少。
Yu Yan said, "No," and sat down on the sofa from a short distance away. Because Yue Min had complained that he spent too little time with her.

　　听聿严跟他爸爸闲聊了一阵军部的小事，悦敏终于问：“松和呢，他也走了？有没有……”
After listening to Yu Yan chat with his father about some minor military matters, Yue Min finally asked, "What about Song? Did he leave too? Has he……"

　　聿严道：“他没来。”
Yu Yan replied, "He didn't come."

　　悦敏挑了挑眉，意外又不意外似的说：“他是不用着急，军部不会放着他一个单身的E型omega不管，年纪又还小，合适他的多着呢。”
Yu Min raised his eyebrows, saying with a shrug, "He doesn't need to hurry, the military won't let them just leave a single E-type omega like him alone. He's still young, there are plenty of suitable matches for him."

　　聿严坐得笔直，过了会问：“谁合适他？”
Yu Yan sat up straight and asked after a while, "Who is suitable for him?"

　　悦敏随口数了几个人的名字，聿严道：“林琅有交往对象，刚打了结婚报告，秦鸣家里关系乱七八糟，方照又比他大那么多。”
Yu Min casually named a few people, and Yu Yan said, "Lin Lang has someone he's dating, just filed a marriage report. Qin Ming's family situation is a mess, and Fang Zhao is so much older than him."

　　他在悦敏的带着点不明笑意的眼神中几乎是讪讪闭上了嘴。
He almost mumbled shut his mouth under Yu Min's gaze, which held a hint of amusement.

　　过了会，聿严的爸爸突然说：“我想了一下，你好像比方照还大八岁。”
After a while, Yu Yan's father suddenly said, "I thought about it, you're about eight years older than Fang Zhao."

　　聿严起身，边走边说：“还有工作，我上楼了。”
Yu Yan got up and said while walking, "I still have work, I'm going upstairs."

　　聿严处理文件到天黑，直到家里的佣人来叫他吃晚饭。
Yu Yan worked on documents until dark, until the household staff came to call him for dinner.

　　晚餐的背景音是军部新闻，43号辅星的画面占了一点不会太引人注意的时长，和其他辅星一样，被报道了下战后的重建工作。
The background during dinner was military news, with a brief segment on 辅星 43, not too noticeable among the coverage of other 辅星, reporting on post-war reconstruction efforts.

　　吃到一半，聿严突然起身。
Halfway through eating, Yu Yan suddenly stood up.

　　悦敏道：“干什么去？”
Yue Min asked, "Where are you going?"

　　聿严道：“有个工作，我……”
Yu Yan said, "There's some work I need to..."

　　“这么急？”悦敏惊讶地看了看他没吃多少的碗，但听说是工作，就没有阻止，只说，“早点回来。”
"So urgent?" Yue Min looked at him in surprise, seeing that he hadn't eaten much, but since it was work, she didn't stop him, just said, "Come back soon."

　　聿严急匆匆地出门，一个护卫都没带地在43号辅星上降落的时候，惊动了一大片人。
Yu Yan hurriedly left, landing on 辅星 43 without a guard, causing a large crowd to stir.

　　面对突如其来的临检，被推选出来接待他的士兵紧张得话都说不利索，更加没有任何头绪，不知该先带聿严看什么，又在脑子里疯狂回想有什么工作没有做好。
Facing the sudden inspection, the soldier chosen to greet him was so nervous he couldn't speak coherently, with no idea what to show Yu Yan first, while frantically recalling if he had missed any tasks.

　　聿严看了一遍门里的情况，新的守门士兵非常局促，不过他问了些问题，都答上来了。松和把他带的不错，聿严想。
Yu Yan glanced at the situation inside the gate. The new guard soldiers were very awkward, but he asked some questions, and they answered them all. He did well to bring them, Yu Yan thought.

　　但是松和迟迟不来，这群把他当阎王的士兵也绝口不提，好像辅星主帅不亲自接待上将是一件天经地义的事情。
However, Song He didn't come, and these soldiers who treated him like a king kept silent, as if it was only natural for the 辅星 commander to personally greet a marshal.

　　直到聿严问松和在哪里，才恍然大悟地回答：“刚去了医院，很快就回来。”
Only until Yu Yan asked where Song He was did he suddenly realize and answer, "I just went to the hospital and will be back soon."

　　不比主星正在迎接春天，43号辅星因为轨道和自转速度的原因，气候一直都比较干冷，温度常年维持在零下十摄氏度左右。
Unlike the main star, which is welcoming spring, Planet 43, due to its orbital and rotational speed, has always maintained a relatively dry and cold climate, with temperatures averaging around minus ten degrees Celsius year-round.

　　松和套着长长的军装羽绒服打开宿舍的门的时候，先发现门没锁，紧接着就看到等在沙发上的聿严，和战战兢兢守在一边的几个士兵。
When Song He opened the dormitory door wearing a long military-style down jacket, he first noticed that the door wasn't locked, then saw Yu Yan waiting on the sofa, along with a few soldiers standing warily on the side.

　　因为室内明显的温差，他的睫毛上起了点水汽，所以在士兵向他汇报聿严上将在43号辅星的检查情况的同时，松和不得不伸手揉了揉眼睛。
Due to the noticeable temperature difference indoors, moisture formed on his eyelashes, so while soldiers were reporting on General Yu Yan's inspection status on Planet 43, Song He had to reach out and rub his eyes.

　　他不像士兵那么惶恐，很快就注意点很歪地感觉到这场临检的不正式，没有检查函，也没有评测书，临检成员更是只有聿严上将一个，还不待在临检领导的休息室，反而来了他的宿舍。
He wasn't as nervous as the soldiers, and quickly noticed the informality of this inspection—there was no inspection letter, no evaluation report, and there was only one member of the inspection team, General Yu Yan, who wasn't even in the inspection leader's rest room but had come to his dormitory.

　　士兵被松和打发走，他放下手里的袋子，先帮聿严倒了杯水。
The soldiers were sent away by Song He, who put down the bag in his hand and first poured a cup of water for Yu Yan.

　　两个人都没提什么临检不临检，但其实松和也只是不因为承接临检而紧张了，除此之外，他也不太懂聿严此行的含义。
The two didn't mention the inspection or not, but in reality, Song He was only not nervous because he was handling the inspection, and besides that, he didn't quite understand the meaning of Yu Yan's visit.

　　或许像在主星的那一晚，聿严送他回去以后说的那句话，以后还可以做朋友。
Perhaps like that night on the main star, after Yu Yan took him back, he said those words, that they could still be friends in the future.

　　但其实在43号辅星聿严跟他要拱极星不成最后生气离开的那一天以后，他们就不再有任何联络的必要了。
But in reality, after the day when 辅助星 43 号's Yuyan couldn't get the Polaris Star from him and left angrily, they no longer had any need to contact each other.

　　在知道自己怀孕之前，松和一直是这样想的。他跟聿严和平结束是最好的结果，直到最后，双方都没有对对方的埋怨和厌恶，反而带着曾经亲密过的记忆和也许可以做朋友的心意分开，这的确是最好的结果。
Before knowing he was pregnant, Song had always thought this way. Peaceful separation with Yuyan was the best outcome, until the very end, neither party harbored resentment or disgust towards each other, but rather parted with memories of their once-close bond and perhaps the intention of becoming friends—this truly was the best outcome.

　　可是他几年前检查还被判定未发育完好的生殖腔里突然多了一枚胚胎，在被粗心的omega父亲发现之前，已经安安静静地发育了三个多月。
But a few years ago, during a check-up, Song was suddenly found to have an embryo in his underdeveloped reproductive cavity, which had quietly developed for over three months before his careless omega father discovered it.

　　松和坐在辅星医院的走廊上等待产检的时候，想象过一个光着屁股的小崽子追着小羊跑的画面。
While waiting for his prenatal check-up in the auxiliary star hospital, Song imagined a scene of a bare-bottomed little one chasing a sheep.

　　孔木没想到他把自己的小孩也当成羊去放。
Kongmu never expected him to treat his own child like a sheep to be herded.

　　“你不能让他光着屁股到羊群里去。”当时孔木痛心疾首地说，“你知道羊身上有多少细菌吗？”
"You can't let him run around naked in the sheep herd," Kongmu said, heartbroken at the time. "Do you know how many bacteria are on sheep?"

　　仅有的几个知道松和怀孕的人都默契地没问他孩子的alpha父亲是谁，这让他没那么紧张，把大多数时间都放在学习养胎知识和工作上。
The few people who knew that Song and was pregnant tacitly avoided asking who the alpha father of her child was, which made him less anxious and allowed him to focus most of his time on studying pregnancy care and work.

　　他好像注定要做被聿严讨厌的事，不过这与聿严不带套做爱也有很大的关系，松和想，一个巴掌拍不响，聿严的胯骨撞在他屁股上的声音倒是很响。
He seemed destined to do things that Yuye 讨厌, but it was also greatly related to Yuye having unprotected sex. Song thought, one 巴掌拍不响, the sound of Yuye's hip colliding with his buttocks was quite loud.

　　松和穿着羽绒服在聿严有些奇怪的眼神下擦了擦汗，一边思索自己的肚子有没有很明显，一边犹豫着脱掉了外套。
Song wiped the sweat off his face under the slightly strange gazes of Yu Yan, while hesitating whether to take off his down jacket, wondering if his stomach was noticeably thin.

　　但是等他去把羽绒服挂好回来以后，聿严上下扫视一遍，评价道：“瘦了。”
But after he went to hang up the down jacket and came back, Yu Yan scanned him from top to bottom and commented, "You've lost weight."

　　等着他问“你肚子怎么这么大”然后顺势交代罪行的松和：“……”
Song, waiting for him to ask, "Why's your stomach so big," and then conveniently confess his sins, was left speechless.

　　他低头看了眼自己不脱光根本没有存在感的小腹，深觉这孩子的沉得住气。
He lowered his head to look at his small, almost non-existent abdomen, which required being completely unclothed to be noticed, and deeply felt that the kid had remarkable patience.

　　不知道遗传了谁。
Don't know who it was inherited from.

　　怀着他的前两三个月，松和能想得起来的比较激烈的做爱就有好几次，但除了肚子疼了一点之外，什么症状都没有，现在更好，马上四个月，穿着衣服还是不太能看得出来显怀。
In the past two or three months of being pregnant, Song and Neng could remember having several intense sexual encounters, but apart from a slight stomachache, there were no other symptoms. Now it's even better, almost four months along, and even when wearing clothes, it's not very noticeable that she's pregnant.

　　“天气冷，我就吃得少。”松和说。
"It's cold outside, so I eat less," Song said.

　　他有些心神不宁，想着怎么跟聿严开口，在这里说总比他追回主星找聿严要抚养费来得好，他不能再拖过去，就没注意到聿严也同样明显的心神不宁。
He was a bit restless, thinking about how to bring it up with Yu Yan. It was better to say it here than for him to go back to the main star to demand child support from Yu Yan. He couldn't delay it any longer, and didn't notice that Yu Yan was equally visibly restless.

　　“见面会。”聿严说，“你没去。”
"Meet-and-greet event," Yuyeian said, "You didn't go."

　　松和想，我怀着孕怎么去，虽然现代社会AO平等，但是热爱喜当爹的alpha估计还是少数。
Song thought, "How could I go when I'm pregnant? Although modern society is AO-equal, I doubt many alphas are actually into being accidentally impregnated."

　　嘴里说：“哦，有点忙。”
She said, "Oh, I've been a bit busy."

　　忙不会成为他交男朋友的绊脚石，聿严想，像悦敏说过的，适合他的人不少。
Being busy wouldn't be an obstacle for him to date, Yuyeian thought. Like Yueshen had said, there were plenty of people suitable for him.

　　这个“不少”令他头痛、烦躁、想原地打转一百圈。
This "quite a bit" made his head ache, made him restless, and made him want to spin around on the spot a hundred times.

　　他意识到自己远不是一个洒脱的前任，会给帮助他度过四年极热发情期的omega真心的祝福。
He realized he wasn't a carefree ex at all, and couldn't offer a sincere blessing to the omega who had helped him through his four-year extreme heat rut.

　　松和离开以后，他自慰时脑袋里的画面还仍是松和各种赤裸的模样，甚至被他射到脸上时呆愣的表情也会持续而激烈地激发他的欲望。
Even after Song He left, the images of Song in various states of nudity still lingered in his mind during masturbation, and the expression of blank surprise on Song's face when he was shot with cum continued to intensely arouse his desire.

　　他意淫被他拒绝的omega，这几年来都是这样。
He had been fantasizing about the omega he had rejected for these past few years.

　　松和首先注意到聿严不太正常的信息素浓度，被默不作声地盯了半分钟以后，他身体先于理智地从聿严身边退开，一只手下意识护住肚子，却被反应明显更加敏捷的alpha牢牢攥住小臂拖进怀里，强迫松和双腿分开坐在他腿上。
First, Song noticed the abnormal concentration of Yu Yan's pheromones, and after staring silently at him for half a minute, his body moved away from Yu Yan before his reason could catch up. One hand instinctively protected his stomach, but was firmly gripped by the alpha, who was clearly more agile, pulling him into his arms and forcing Song to sit astride his legs with his legs spread.

　　身体接近的同时，聿严的鼻尖饥渴地顶在松和后颈的腺体上磨蹭，吸进他温软的信息素。
As their bodies drew closer, Yu Yan's nose tip greedily rubbed against the gland at the back of Song's neck, inhaling his soft pheromones.

　　松和在一瞬间就被吓出一身冷汗，比四年前第一次在门里面对突然陷入极热发情期的聿严时还要惊慌。比军医告诉他是他匹配度极高的信息素才引发了神经高度紧绷的聿严的极热发情期，所以以后这种情况只能由他应付的时候还要绝望。
Song was instantly drenched in cold sweat, more panicked than the first time four years ago when he faced Yu Yan suddenly entering a high-heat estrus period inside the door. More desperate than when the military doctor told him that it was his highly compatible pheromones that triggered Yu Yan's high-heat estrus period, and that in the future, he would have to handle such situations himself.

　　他不能自控地想到每一次极热发情期的聿严野兽一样不要命的做法，那个小小的孩子能挺过他们频率低而且勉强算是正常强度的做爱，却毫无疑问没法承受alpha凶恶的极热发情期。
He uncontrollably thought of every time the high-heat estrus period Yu Yan acted like a beast, reckless and untamed. That little child could endure their low-frequency, barely normal-intensity sex, but there was no doubt that he couldn't handle the alpha's fierce high-heat estrus period.

　　他冰凉的指尖打着颤伸进聿严发间，磕磕绊绊地说：“聿、聿严，你听我说，你不能，我……”
His icy fingertips trembled as he reached into Yu Yan's hair, stammering, "Yu, Yu Yan, listen to me, you can't, I..."

　　“别动。”聿严在他颈上啄吻，似威胁又似爱抚地用牙尖轻咬，听出松和语气中的拒绝，就不由分说地将他吻住，“别动。”
"Don't move." Yu Yan pecked a kiss on his neck, lightly nibbling with his fangs, as if threatening yet caressing. Noticing the refusal in the relaxed tone, he insisted on kissing him, "Don't move."

　　深入骨髓的护崽本能让松和在无尽的惶恐中冷静下来，他顺从地安抚着聿严，跟他亲密地接吻，在圈着他腰身的手臂放松的瞬间起身逃跑，却没能跑出几步，就被追过来的聿严压到床上，刚拿在手里的通讯器也被聿严轻易夺走，摔到地上。
The instinct to protect his young, deep to the bone, calmed Song He down amidst endless panic. He obediently soothed Yu Yan, kissing him intimately. In the moment the arms circling his waist relaxed, he tried to escape, but couldn't get far before Yu Yan pinned him down on the bed. The communicator he was holding was also easily snatched away by Yu Yan and thrown to the ground.

　　啪，四分五裂。
Snap. It shattered into pieces.

　　松和流着泪缩起身体求他，身上的衣服还是很快就被剥光，像个水煮蛋一样缩在床中央，从轻松到绝望的转变只需要两分钟。
Shan and Liu, tears streaming down his face, curled his body and pleaded with him, but his clothes were quickly stripped away. He shrank in the center of the bed like a boiled egg, the transition from ease to despair taking only two minutes.

　　聿严迷恋的亲吻一刻不停地落在他身上，高热的身体将他圈在怀里，对他不肯放松的敌意困惑又愤怒。
Yu Yan's passionate kisses fell endlessly upon him, his hot body enclosing him in a embrace, confused and angry at his unwilling hostility.

　　“老婆，老婆。”聿严想方设法地想要他舒展身体，“你抱我，我什么都没做，老婆不哭，不哭好不好？”
"Sweetheart, sweetheart," Yu Yan tried every way to get him to relax his body. "Hug me, I've done nothing, sweetheart, don't cry, please don't, okay?"

　　松和只是发着抖做出防备的姿态，没注意到聿严贴着他很明显没怎么硬的阴茎：“你放开我，求求你聿严，我怀孕了，求你了，给医生打电话想办法好不好，你会弄死他的。”
Shan and trembled, adopting a defensive posture, failing to notice Yu Yan's penis, which was clearly not hard, pressing close to him: "Let me go, please Yu Yan, I'm pregnant, please, call the doctor and figure something out, okay? You'll kill him."

　　“哦，哦，怀孕了。”聿严把手从他缩起来的身体里插进去，掌心贴上鼓起的小腹，顺着松和的话说，“老婆怀孕了，给我看看好不好？你抱抱我，老婆抱抱我。”
"Oh, oh, you're pregnant." Yu Yan inserted his hand into his hunched body, palm pressing against the swollen abdomen, and went along with Song He's words, "My wife is pregnant, let me see, okay? Hold me, my wife, hold me."

　　松和用了很久才反应过来，聿严没有要跟他做。
Song He took a long time to realize that Yu Yan didn't want to have sex with him.

　　平常的这个时候，不管他怎么说，怎么哭，聿严早已经插进去做了一个来回。但现在聿严硬都没怎么硬。
At this usual time, no matter what he said or cried, Yu Yan would have already inserted himself in and out. But now, Yu Yan wasn't even hard.

　　他只是固执的想要亲密的接触，要求松和跟以前一样对他有求必应，要松和的信息素，要松和吻他、摸他的后脑勺和肩背，要松和对他说爱他，永远不离开他。
He just stubbornly wanted intimate contact, demanding that Song He be as responsive as always, wanting Song He's pheromones, wanting Song He to kiss him, stroke the back of his head and shoulders, wanting Song He to tell him he loved him and never leave him.

　　松和的眼泪还没能止住，他犹豫着抽抽嗒嗒地回身去搂聿严的时候，分神想着可能是孕期信息素的缘故，就被已经非常委屈了的聿严一把揉进怀里，双手双脚将他缠住，两个人赤身裸体地抱在一起。
The tears in Song He's eyes couldn't stop as he hesitated,抽抽嗒嗒地 turning back to hug Yu Yan. His mind wandered, wondering if it was due to the pregnancy pheromones, when a already very aggrieved Yu Yan grabbed him and shoved him into his arms, wrapping his hands and feet around him. The two embraced, naked and intertwined.

　　聿严黏着他四五天，从头至尾都没有要求做爱，甚至比以前的任何一次都能听得进去松和的话。
Yu Yan clung to him for four or five days, never once demanding sex, and was even more receptive to Song He's words than any of their previous encounters.

　　除了只知道老婆，没太在意松和小腹上那个平缓的隆起之外，松和说腰困了，他就立刻乖乖地把松和松开，委屈巴巴地守在一边，等着松和下一次“可以抱”的指令，更不存在松和喝水和吃饭的需求被他突如其来的性欲粗暴打断的情况。
Aside from only knowing his wife and not paying much attention to the gentle swelling in Song He's abdomen, as soon as Song He said his lower back was sore, Yu Yan immediately obediently let him go, pouting and waiting by the side, anticipating the next "you can hug me" command. There was absolutely no possibility of his sudden sexual desire rudely interrupting Song He's need to drink or eat.

　　“好了……聿严。”松和被他亲的很痒，缩着脖子往后躲，聿严把他拽回来，但没有用很大的力气。他一直都很小心，虽然不太明白松和怀孕的事情，但本能地跟着保护松和的肚子。
"Okay... Yu Yan." Song He was being tickled by the kisses, shrinking his neck to move away. Yu Yan pulled him back, but didn't use much force. He had always been very careful, though he didn't fully understand the pregnancy, his instincts told him to protect Song He's stomach.

　　亲吻腺体的动作被迫终止，聿严像一只闻得到肉香吃不到肉的大狗，两只手胡乱在松和身上呼噜。
The act of kissing the glands was forcibly stopped. Yu Yan acted like a big dog who could smell meat but couldn't eat it, rubbing his hands randomly over Song He's body.

　　松和抿着嘴笑，突发奇想地抓着他一只手放在自己肚子上，说：“聿严，你知道这里面有什么。”
Song He smiled, playfully grabbing his hand and placing it on his stomach, saying, "Yu Yan, do you know what's in here."

　　聿严已经听他说了一百次，当然知道，有些嫉妒地说：“小宝宝。”
Yu Yan had already heard him say it a hundred times, of course he knew, and said with some jealousy, "Little baby."

　　“不是我一个人的。”
"It's not just mine."

　　聿严重复他说过的话：“是我跟你的。”
Yu severely retorted, "It was me and you."

　　“对。”松和说，“那你要不要负责。”
"That's right," Songhe said. "So, are you going to take responsibility?"

　　聿严不想聊天，只想接吻，在哄骗松和开心这件事上，智商又没那么低了，从松和的语气里心领神会，很快就得出正确答案道：“要负责。”
Yu didn't want to talk; he just wanted a kiss. On the matter of cheering Songhe up, his intelligence wasn't that low, and he quickly grasped the correct answer from Songhe's tone: "I'll take responsibility."

　　“那你要给我这么多钱。”松和爬起来，找出自己算的养大一个小孩起码需要多少的账单，递到聿严面前，有理有据道，“你的钱很多，又是养自己的孩子，还不用自己费心，这不算亏，对不对？”
"Then you have to give me this much money," Songhe got up, found the bill he had calculated on how much it would take to raise a child, and handed it to Yu in front of him, arguing logically, "You have a lot of money, and it's your own child you're raising. You don't have to worry about it yourself. It's not a loss, right?"

　　聿严说：“对。”
Yi Yan said, "Yes."

　　“那你给不给？”
"Then will you give it to me?"

　　聿严盯着他凑近的红嘴唇不放，已经忘了在聊什么，终于失去所有耐心，不再等同意，低头亲了上去，粘粘乎乎地不停叫：“老婆，你好香，好爱老婆，老婆老婆。”
Yi Yan stared at the red lips that had moved close, already forgetting what they were talking about. Finally losing all patience, he no longer waited for consent, lowered his head, and kissed them. He kept murmuring, "Wifey, you smell so good, I love wifey, wifey wifey."

第11章
Chapter 11

　　松和逐渐意识到，聿严的这场……勉强可以称之为极热发情期的突发性事件持续的时间意外漫长。
Meng and gradually realized that this... sudden event that could barely be called a high-heat estrus period, which was triggered by Yu Yan, had unexpectedly lasted for a long time.

　　在心情平缓、作息稳定的生活条件下发作的极热发情对他来说本就不正常，因为此前军医一直将其解释为聿严在战场上缓解焦虑的生理本能选择。
For him, the high-heat estrus occurring under the condition of a calm mood and stable routine was already abnormal, because the military doctor had always explained it as Yu Yan's physiological instinct to alleviate anxiety on the battlefield.

　　而且过了八天，他仍黏着松和，散发出来的信息素里也充斥着不安的讯号。
Moreover, eight days had passed, and he was still clinging to Meng, with the pheromones he emitted filled with signs of unease.

　　从未有过的极热发情期的相处模式也让松和担心他，这天傍晚，刚吃完饭，两个人在松和的小阳台上坐着，松和纵容地给他一只手让他亲着玩的同时试探地问：“叫医生来看看，好不好？”
The never-before-seen pattern of behavior during the high-heat estrus also made Meng worry about him. That evening, after finishing dinner, the two sat on Meng's small balcony. Meng indulgently let him take one hand to play with while 试探 ly asking, "Should we have the doctor come take a look?"

　　聿严垂眼闷声道：“不好。”
Yun Yan lowered his gaze and murmured, "That's bad."

　　说完又怕松和生气，飞快地撩起眼皮看了眼松和，狡猾地加了句：“好不好？”
Afraid of making Song He angry, he quickly lifted his eyelids to glance at Song He and added cunningly, "Is it bad or not?"

　　简直是个幼稚园小朋友。
He was like a kindergartener.

　　“你工作那么多，难道要一直这样吗？”松和用哄着他的语气道，“我陪着你，医生检查一下下就走。”
"You work so much, do you have to keep doing this?" Song He said in a coaxing tone, "I'll be with you, the doctor will just check and be on their way."

　　聿严盯着他看了会，突然低头道：“不要工作，要老婆。”
Yun stared at him for a moment, then lowered his head and said, "Don't work, get a wife."

　　他情绪显然低了点，因为敏感地从松和话里听出要他去见别人和要他离开的意思。
His mood seemed to dim slightly, as he keenly sensed from Yun's words that he was being told to see someone else and to leave.

　　松和立刻不忍心再说什么，一条胳膊搭在他肩上，绕到另一边，手指抚摸着他的脸颊，看他慢慢靠过来，好一会，才贴着松和的颈侧说：“老婆。”
Yun immediately felt too guilty to say anything more, resting an arm on his shoulder, moving to the other side, and gently stroking his cheek as he leaned in. After a while, he finally pressed close to Yun's side and whispered, "Wife."

　　松和轻声应道：“怎么啦。”
Yun replied softly, "What's wrong?"

　　“要老婆。”
“I want a wife.”

　　“好。”
“Okay.”

　　不过聿严的好日子还是没能再维持多久。
However, Yu Yan’s good days didn’t last long.

　　他明显已经清醒了很多，可以处理中等难度的工作，又拖了一天，副官敲响松和的房门，他就不得不像在战场上情况紧急时那样开始应付文件。
He had clearly sobered up significantly and could handle medium-difficulty tasks, but it dragged on for another day. When the adjutant knocked on Song He’s door, he had no choice but to start dealing with documents as if in a state of emergency on the battlefield.

　　原本进出房间送饭的人都令他烦躁，更不用说又多了个讨人厌的副官。
Originally, the people who came in and out of his room to deliver meals already annoyed him, let alone the addition of another irritating adjutant.

　　松和被他像个抱枕一样搂在怀里，他才勉强愿意去看一沓又一沓的报告。
Song He was held in his arms like a pillow, and only then was he reluctantly willing to look at stack after stack of reports.

　　“专心。”每隔五分钟，松和就要这样提醒他一次，把他靠近自己的脸摆正，使他的视线投向桌面，“听话。”
"Focus." Every five minutes, Song He had to remind him like this, adjusting his face closer to his own so that his gaze turned toward the desk, "Obey."

　　其实松和也有工作要处理，不过保持专心不仅是他对聿严的要求，更是聿严对他的全部要求。
In truth, Song He also had work to handle, but maintaining focus was not only the requirement of Yu Yan towards him but also the entirety of Yu Yan's demands for him.

　　“陪聿严”是一件非常严肃的事情，他必不能在同时干别的活。
"Being with Yu Yan is a very serious matter; he cannot do anything else at the same time."

　　“时间到。”表盘转过半个小时，一秒钟都没差，聿严立刻收紧手臂把松和搂住，低下头跟他贴着额头蹭来蹭去，急切道，“老婆，亲一下老婆。”
"The time is up." The clock turned exactly half an hour, not a second off, and Yu Yan immediately tightened his arms to hug Song He, lowering his head to nudge his forehead against Song He's, eager to say, "Wife, kiss me, wife."

　　松和说话很算话，仰起脸乖乖地给他亲，一只手又去揉他后颈，让聿严冒粉红泡泡地主动回吻几下，在他嘴唇上亲出响亮的声音。
Song He kept his word, lifting his face obediently to let him kiss, while using his other hand to rub his nape. This made Yu Yan blush and blush, prompting him to kiss back a few times, making loud sounds against his lips.

　　聿严自己多不要脸都可以，但松和主动亲他，他就会脸红，不太好意思看人了，装着板起脸的样子。
Yu Yan himself could be as shameless as he wanted, but when Song He kissed him first, he would blush and feel too embarrassed to look at people, pretending to have a stern face.

　　他抱着松和办公的第三天，午后的43号辅星上迎来最大面积的恒星光照，松和靠在他怀里，两个人的两只手交叠着放在松和肚子上，松和已经微微打起了瞌睡，突然感觉聿严的怀抱逐渐僵硬起来。
He had been holding Song and working for the third day when the largest area of stellar light arrived on 辅星 43 in the afternoon. Song leaned against his chest, their two hands intertwined over Song's stomach. Song was already starting to yawn, when suddenly he felt Lü Yan's embrace gradually stiffen.

　　松和回了回神，主动从他腿上下来，看他罕见的有些不知所措的样子，挠了挠后脑勺道：“好了吗？”
Song snapped back to reality and climbed off his legs, seeing him look unusually flustered. He scratched the back of his head and asked, "Are you done?"

　　聿严就在43号辅星的军事基地接受了基本也保密的检查，结果显示他信息素水平稳定、身体机能一切正常，甚至在情绪检测中得到了优的评价，可以说心理十分健康。
Lü Yan had received a basic but confidential check at the military base on 辅星 43. The results showed his pheromone levels were stable, his physical functions were normal, and he even received an excellent rating in emotional testing, meaning his mental health was excellent.

　　松和在心里做完了摸摸自己鼻尖的动作，不去想作为陪聿严度过极热发情期的伙伴，医生对他投来的好像他该与有荣焉的眼神是怎么回事。
Song mentally performed the action of touching his own nose, not thinking about how the doctor looked at him with an expression as if he should feel honored to be the partner who helped Lü Yan through his extremely hot mating season.

　　聿严拒绝了立刻回主星的提议，脱离极热发情期以后，他说的话没人敢反驳，于是众人散去，他跟在松和后面，再一次回了松和的宿舍。
Yan refused the proposal to return to the home planet immediately. After emerging from the extreme heat estrus period, no one dared to contradict his words, so the crowd dispersed. He followed Song and back to Song's dormitory again.

　　那栋楼建于战前，经过战争的洗礼之后，已经趋向破败，虽然内里还算完好，但仍和大多数军官的住宿条件有着天壤之别。
The building was constructed before the war. After being 洗礼 by the war, it had become dilapidated. Although the interior was still intact, it was vastly different from the living conditions of most officers.

　　进门后，松和一边招呼他在沙发上坐下，一边脱了军装羽绒服。
After entering, Song greeted him to sit on the sofa while taking off his military-style down jacket.

　　四五月份的肚子开始显怀后，变化就会很快，松和生殖腔里那个沉得住气的小alpha在这半个月内集中力量生长发育，脱掉外套后，他薄毛衣下的小腹上那个圆润的隆起已经无法被人忽视了。
After the stomach began to show in April and May, changes would be rapid. The calm alpha in Song's reproductive tract had focused on growth and development during these two weeks. After taking off his coat, the rounded protrusion on his small abdomen under the thin sweater could no longer be ignored.

　　聿严的目光在上面短暂停留，随即便认真地看着松和的眼睛，对他说：“你先跟我回主星，申调的报告之后再慢慢打，松和，这件事是我……”
Lian's gaze lingered briefly on the top, then he turned his serious eyes to Song He and said, "You go back to the main star with me first, and we can slowly deal with the report of Shen Diao later. Song He, this matter is my..."

　　松和说：“为什么？”
Song He said, "Why?"

　　聿严顿住，松和像是不解似的，眉头微皱了皱，又轻声问了一遍：“回主星……为什么？”
Lian paused. Song He, looking puzzled, frowned slightly and then asked again in a soft voice, "Back to the main star... why?"

　　“你怀孕了。”
"You're pregnant."

　　“对，四个半月。”松和说，“可是辅星上的辐射比主星还要少百分之九，也没有数据显示这里不适合怀孕人群……除了有些冷，但我早就习惯了。我哪也不用去，在这里就可以好好的。”
"Exactly, four and a half months," said Songhe. "But the radiation on the auxiliary star is nine percent less than on the main star, and there's no data showing it's unsuitable for pregnant women... apart from being a bit cold, but I've gotten used to it. I don't need to go anywhere else; I can be perfectly fine right here."

　　聿严没有在他脸上看到闹别扭的表情，也完全没往那个方向想。
Yu Yan didn't see any hint of pouting on his face, nor did he even consider that possibility.

　　松和说出来的也一向是自己最真实的想法，他很少有口是心非的时候。
Whatever Songhe said was always his most genuine thoughts; he rarely spoke insincerely.

　　此时聿严倒真希望他是口是心非，可明显他不是。
At this moment, Yu Yan genuinely hoped he was speaking insincerely, but it was clearly not the case.

　　聿严在距离松和两三步的沙发上坐着，听完以后，过了好一会，才说：“你打算自己生下他？”
Yu Yan sat on the sofa a few steps away from Song He, listened for a long while before saying, "Are you planning to give birth to him yourself?"

　　松和没说话，但表情明显是“不然呢”。
Song He didn't speak, but his expression clearly meant "Otherwise, what?"

　　他没期盼过聿严参与他的孕期，不管从哪个方面来说，更没想过真要聿严“负责”。
He hadn't expected Yu Yan to be involved in his pregnancy in any way, let alone expected Yu Yan to "take responsibility."

　　“聿严，我不想瞒着你，也做不出跑到一个你找不到的地方偷偷生下他的事，这件事对你来说的确不公平，但是每个人都得为自己做过的事负责，我们都一样。”
"Yu Yan, I don't want to hide this from you, nor could I possibly run off to some place where you can't find me to secretly give birth to him. This is indeed unfair to you, but everyone must take responsibility for their actions, and we're no different."

　　“我保证会尽自己最大的能力抚养他，让他接受教育，给他需要的关心，也会努力为他提供尽量好的物质条件，如果你有见他、为他的成长提供帮助和跟他培养感情的需要，我会配合，如果你不想见他，我也相信我们有足够多的理由不再碰面，甚至可以保证永远不会有人从我这里知道他的alpha父亲是谁。但是如果你不同意我生下他，”松和不缓不急地说，“那就去告我。”
"I promise to do my utmost to raise him, educate him, give him the care he needs, and also work hard to provide the best material conditions possible. If you need to see him, help with his growth, or develop a relationship with him, I will cooperate. If you don't want to see him, I also believe we have enough reasons not to meet anymore, and I can even guarantee that no one will ever find out from me who his alpha father is. But if you don't agree with me having him," Ren said calmly, "then take me to court."

　　这是半个月之前，聿严不请自来的那天，他就鼓起勇气想说的话。
This was the courage he had mustered up to say half a month ago, the day Yu Yan came uninvited.

　　其他所有都不重要，让他胆怯却又非得说的一句，其实只有“如果你不同意我生下他，去告我”。
None of the other things mattered; the sentence that made him timid yet felt necessary to say was actually only, "If you don't agree with me having him, take me to court."

　　松和对聿严没有表情的样子感到陌生，说完这一长段话对他来说已经足够大胆，为了表达平等，他甚至强迫自己没有用“您”。
Ren found Ren's expressionless demeanor toward him strange. Saying all that was already bold enough for him, and to express equality, he even forced himself not to use the honorific "you."

　　聿严眼神平静地看了他好一会，突然用手拍了拍身边的沙发：“坐下说。”
Yu Yan calmly looked at him for a while, then suddenly tapped the sofa beside him. "Sit down and talk."

　　松和依言坐过去，但是跟聿严隔了两个身位。
Song did as he was told but stayed two seats away from Yu Yan.

　　两个人都没再说话，气压一降再降。
The two fell silent, the atmosphere dropping lower and lower.

　　松和心中九曲十八弯地回忆自己刚才那句“告我”的语气中挑衅的意味是否太重，又想如果聿严真的告他，会有几成胜算。
Song inwardly replayed the tone of his earlier "accuse me" with nine twists and eighteen turns, wondering if he'd gone too far with the provocation, while also calculating his chances of winning if Yu Yan really did press charges.

　　在逐个分析搜集过的案例的同时，他突然想起，自己不应该把聿严跟他摆在真正平等的地位上。
While analyzing each of the collected cases, he suddenly realized that he shouldn't place Yu Yan on an equal footing with him.

　　因为就算在他和聿严的心中是这样，但现实生活显然不是的。
Because even if it was the case in his and Yu Yan's hearts, reality was clearly not the same.

　　如果真的上了法庭，也许法官都是聿严曾经的下属，又是这种说不清道不明，怎么判都有道理的案子，聿严怎么会跟他平等？
If it really went to court, maybe the judges were all former subordinates of Yu Yan, and it was this kind of case that was hard to define and had justification no matter how it was judged—how could Yu Yan be equal to him?

　　从聿严在门里第一次突然发情，等同于将他强暴之后所有人却都没当回事，甚至默认由他负责这“非他不可”的工作的时候起，他和聿严就从没平等过。
From the first time Yu Yan suddenly went into heat inside the door, equivalent to being violently assaulted, and yet everyone didn't take it seriously, even tacitly accepting that he was responsible for this "necessity-only" work, he and Yu Yan had never been equal.

　　松和坐姿标准，脊背挺直，上身一如既往的单薄，所以更加显出他肚子上那个凸起平缓的小山包的可爱。
Song He sat with perfect posture, his spine straight, his upper body as gaunt as ever, which only made the gentle, rounded hill on his stomach cuter.

　　聿严也在思索松和刚才那一番话，不过他想的是，不到两个月前，受降的那天晚上，在他家里，松和还忍着满脸的期待等他“会不会喜欢”的答案，到了今天，就变成了“有足够多的理由不再碰面”，和“告我”。
Yu Yan was also pondering Song He's earlier words, but what he was thinking was that less than two months ago, on the night of the surrender, at his home, Song He had still been enduring a look full of anticipation, waiting for his answer of "whether he would like it," but now it had turned into "there are enough reasons not to meet anymore" and "report me."

　　他觉得手痒，一定是松和欠收拾。
He felt a urge to tidy up Song He.

　　“但是……”坐在一边的松和突然幽幽开口，“如果你告我，那不就给所有人都知道我肚子里是你的孩子？所以你还是好好考虑一下……别太冲动。”
"But..." Song He suddenly spoke in a low voice from the side, "if you report me, wouldn't that let everyone know that the child in my stomach is yours? So you should think it over carefully... don't be too hasty."

　　“……”

　　“拿过来。”聿严道，“那天你说的那个账单。”
“Here it is.” Yu Yan said, “The bill you mentioned that day.”

　　松和很好地理解了这句跳跃度极大的回答，起身去找了找他无聊时候半认真半夸张地列出来的那页清单。
Song He understood the extremely abrupt response well and got up to find the page he had half-seriously, half-exaggeratingly listed while bored one day.

　　他走回聿严身边，把翻开的笔记本递给聿严，因为上面的金额夸张，所以脸有些红，没注意到自己微鼓的肚子就在聿严面前。
He returned to Yu Yan’s side, handing over the open notebook, slightly blushing because the amounts listed were exaggerated, unaware that his slightly rounded stomach was right in front of Yu Yan.

　　他穿了件质地看上去很柔软的毛衣，轻轻地包裹在软嫩的肚皮上面，聿严怕自己会吓到他，几乎是非常用力地克制着，才没有伸手去摸。
He wore a sweater that looked very soft in texture, gently wrapping around his soft and tender belly. Yu Yan was afraid he might be scared, almost exerting great restraint not to reach out and touch him.

　　列了账单的那页纸上，松和考虑的内容非常详细。
On the page where the bill was listed, Song considered everything in great detail.

　　甚至用小字沉痛万分地写了小孩长到几岁就必须得搬到繁荣一些的辅星上去读书、在那之前，他得把自己的羊卖掉的话。
Even writing in small print with deep sorrow that children must move to more prosperous auxiliary stars to study at a certain age, and before that, he would have to sell his sheep.

　　而分明他现在还没有拥有羊。
Yet it was clear that he didn't own any sheep yet.

　　也没有拥有小行星。
Doesn't own any asteroids.

　　“告你偷精未必会胜诉，但要是告你敲诈。”聿严说，“你说告不告得准？”
"Accusing you of stealing essence might not hold up in court, but if you accuse me of extortion." Yuye said, "Do you think you can win the lawsuit?"

　　松和没意识到自己撇了撇嘴，伸手从聿严手里拿回自己的笔记本，垂眼看他道：“小气。”
Song He didn't realize he had smirked, reached out to take back his notebook from Yuye, looked down at him and said, "Greedy."

　　聿严就没能好好忍住，一只手按在松和后腰，另一只手贴上了他隆起的肚子。
Yuye couldn't hold it in any longer, one hand rested on Song He's lower back, the other hand pressed against his swollen stomach.

　　松和立刻愣了愣，脸比刚才还要红，眼神飘忽，不再试图瞪着聿严，偏过脸似乎在受刑，几秒钟后，就问聿严：“你，你好了没。”
Song He froze for a moment, his face even redder than before, his gaze wandering, no longer trying to glare at Yu Yan, turning his head as if enduring torture. After a few seconds, he asked Yu Yan, "You, are you done?"

　　“还没。”聿严认真道。
"Not yet," Yu Yan said seriously.

　　“里面是我跟你的孩子。”聿严说。
"The child inside is ours," Yu Yan said.

　　松和只能“嗯”了声，聿严又说：“孕十八周，你是什么时候知道的？”
Song He could only nod, and Yu Yan added, "Eighteen weeks pregnant, when did you find out?"

　　松和讷讷道：“受降之后。”
Song and Nene said, "After accepting the surrender."

　　聿严顿了顿，没再说话。
Yu Yan paused for a moment and didn't say anything more.

　　松和觉得自己挺着肚子乖乖站着给聿严摸的样子真的窘到发晕，但又好像被捏住了七寸的小蛇，分明聿严的两只手都没用太大的力气，他就是没办法走开。
Song felt quite embarrassed standing there with his belly exposed, letting Yu Yan stroke him, but he also felt like a small snake whose vital spot had been grasped. It was clear that Yu Yan hadn't used much force with both his hands, yet he couldn't move away.

　　聿严一直在他房间里停留到晚上，才搭太空舰离开，只让他跟到门口，就说自己去准停区。
Yu Yan stayed in his room until night before boarding the spaceship to leave, only letting him follow to the door before saying he was going to the designated parking area.

　　松和没来得及说“我送你”，就被他圈着腰低头在脸上亲了一下，一只手扶着他腰侧，掌根碰着他没长得太大还发软的肚子，蹭了蹭，说：“好了。”
Song hadn't had time to say "I'll see you," before he was pulled into a hug and lowered his head to kiss her cheek. One hand rested on the side of his waist, the heel of his palm brushing against his still slightly small and soft stomach, rubbing gently as he murmured, "Alright."

　　脸红了一层，松和磕磕绊绊道：“注意安全。”
Blushing slightly, Song and Ke stumbled and said, "Be careful."

　　接下来的时间，聿严保持着一天一趟的辅星之行。
For the following time, Yu Yan maintained a trip to the auxiliary star once a day.

　　43号辅星上的士兵从时刻严阵以待到做好自己本职工作就好的心态转变也相当之快，主要是聿严表现出来完全是私人行程，连一次装样子的巡查都没再有过。
The soldiers on 辅星 43 号's mindset shift from being on high alert to just doing their jobs properly was quite fast, mainly because 聿严 made it clear it was entirely a personal trip and even skipped a ceremonial inspection without any pretense.

　　松和只能照着他的时间准时下班，回宿舍定点提供摸肚服务。
Song He could only leave work on time according to his schedule and return to the dorm to provide the stomach-rubbing service at the designated time.

　　“是不是大了点？”聿严的表情很严肃，似乎跟松和讨论的是什么军部大事，但他其实只是在经历第一次被松和同意把手伸进衣服里摸摸肚子的要求，“我觉得又大了点。”
"Is it a bit big?" Yu Yan's expression was very serious, as if he were discussing some military matter with Song He, but he was actually just going through the experience of being the first to agree to Song He's request to put his hand inside his clothes and rub his stomach. "I think it's a bit big."

　　松和是坐在椅子上被他从身后俯身环住的姿势，两个人没有面对面，但松和还是把两只眼睛都闭得很紧。
Song He was sitting in a chair while Yu Yan leaned over from behind, wrapping his arms around him. The two were not facing each other, but Song He still closed both his eyes tightly.

　　聿严离得近，能看到他耳后连着脖颈的那一片都红了，腾着热气。
Being close, Yu Yan could see the area behind his ear, connecting to his neck, was red and steaming.

　　但他仍还在问：“是不是？”
But he still asked, "Is it really?"

　　松和说：“我不知道。”
Song He said, "I don't know."

　　聿严就教育他：“这怎么行？”
Yu Yan scolded him, "How can that be?"

　　松和隔着衣服推他的手：“好了，三秒钟早就到了。”
Song He pushed his hand through the clothes, "Alright, three seconds have long passed."

　　聿严把手拿出去，垂在身侧，随着松和起身的动作退后两步，过了会，他捻了捻指尖。
Yu Yan held his hand out, letting it dangle by his side, and took two steps back as Song He rose. After a moment, he rubbed his fingertips.

　　主星时间的晚上八点半，松和开始催他离开，聿严心里憋着一股气，又发不出来。
At half past eight on main star time, Song He started urging him to leave. Yu Yan felt a simmering anger inside him but couldn't bring himself to express it.

　　他不想懂松和说的“很晚”到底是什么意思，明明前几天他照着松和的意思离开以后，松和房间的灯光还一直亮到十点多才关。
He didn't want to understand what "late" meant to Song He.明明 just a few days ago, after leaving according to Song He's instructions, the lights in Song He's room had stayed on until after ten.

　　可他又知道自己没有留下来的理由，即便omega是他钟意的，肚子里的孩子是他的，他还是没有留下来的理由。
But he knew he had no reason to stay. Even if the omega was the one he wanted, and the child in his belly was his, he still had no reason to stay.

　　因为他迟到太久的醒悟，丢下晚饭急匆匆冲过来却被戏剧性的极热发情期打断的告白，已经让松和的拱极星失落了太久。
His realization of being too late for too long, the confession interrupted dramatically by the extreme heat estrus period, had already made the North Star of Song He lose too much.

　　而他又觉得自己没办法在此时对松和说出“合适你的人的确很多，但还是请你试着重新考虑我一次吧”的话。
And he felt he couldn't say "There are indeed many suitable people for you, but I still ask you to reconsider me once more" at this moment.

　　这句话什么时候说都很好，只有当他知道松和怀孕的事以后再说不好。
It was fine to say this at any time, but it was not good to say it after he knew that Song He was pregnant.

第12章
Chapter 12

　　接下来的两周时间，松和在聿严的陪同下做了两次产检。
Over the next two weeks, Song accompanied Yu Yan for two prenatal check-ups.

　　第一次当作巧合，但是时隔一周，聿严再一次赶在他出门前到了他的宿舍门口，松和就明白这根本不是巧。
The first time, he thought it was a coincidence, but a week later, when Yu Yan arrived at his dormitory door just as he was about to leave, Song realized it was definitely no coincidence.

　　医院不算远，他们坐车去，设置好自动驾驶的路线后，松和跟聿严一起坐进后座，路面平稳，他捧着手机在备忘录里一个个打字：什么意思呢……
The hospital wasn't far away, so they took a car. After setting up the autonomous driving route, Song sat in the back seat with Yu Yan. The road was smooth, and he held his phone, typing in his notes: What does this mean...

　　“陪你去医院的意思。”
"It means taking you to the hospital."

　　聿严刚好侧身去帮他拿一瓶温水，一点没有自己偷看了别人屏幕的自觉，还怪好心的光明正大地把答案讲出来。
Yue Yan just leaned over to help him get a bottle of lukewarm water, showing no sense of propriety about peeking at others' screens, and even faulted the kind-hearted person for openly revealing the answer.

　　松和发出干巴巴的一声“啊”，随后坐直，动作别扭地把手机屏幕翻到下面，捂在肚子上。
Song He let out a dry "Ah," then sat up straight, awkwardly flipping his phone screen down and covering it with his stomach.

　　聿严就从他手里拿走手机，随手搁在冷藏箱的台面上，接着又说：“不想我陪你去？”
Yue Yan took the phone from his hand, casually placing it on the counter of the refrigeration unit, then added, "Don't want me to go with you?"

　　松和沉默了一会，说：“不是。”
Song He was silent for a moment, then said, "No."

　　聿严觉得他的样子有些过于的乖，最近又时常露出那种像是哑口无言的表情，上身微微倾向他，靠得近了些，道：“今天忙不忙？”
Yu Yan found his demeanor a bit too docile, and he had recently often been wearing that expression as if speechless. His upper body leaned slightly toward him, getting a bit closer, and said, "Are you busy today?"

　　松和想了想说：“不太忙。”
Song He thought for a moment and said, "Not too busy."

　　“那请一天假。”聿严道，“下午休息。”
"Then take the day off," Yu Yan said. "Rest in the afternoon."

　　显然聿严一直记着上周检查完以后他就一直打瞌睡的事，松和答应了声“好”。
Clearly, Yu Yan had been keeping in mind how Song He kept dozing off after the check-up last week, and Song He readily agreed with a "Okay."

　　聿严已经把身体转了回去，对着前方，没再说话，但是松和答应以后，就看到了他嘴角那个温和的弧度。
Yu Yan had already changed his body back and faced forward, no longer speaking, but after Song He promised, he saw the gentle curve of his lips.

　　经过一次磨合，两个人的配合已经默契了很多，聿严拿着单子等叫号，还提前准备了一个包，里面装着水、松和的证件跟产检档案。
After some practice, their coordination had improved significantly. Yu Yan held a slip of paper, waiting for his number, and had even prepared a bag containing water, Song He's identification, and the prenatal records.

　　离开医院后，他先带松和在附近吃了点东西，两个人回到松和的宿舍，聿严边进门边道：“听到没有，说你缺铁。”
After leaving the hospital, he took Song He for a bite nearby, and the two returned to Song He's dormitory. As Yu Yan entered, he said, "Did you hear? They said you're lacking iron."

　　松和站在原地，像个挨骂的小学生一样严肃认真地点头：“听到了，拿的药我都会按时吃。”
Song He stood his ground, nodding seriously as if scolded, "I heard. I'll take all the medication on time."

　　聿严把东西分类在不同的地方放下，几乎已经在房间里走了一圈，回头却见松和还站着，身上套着长长的羽绒服，围巾也围得整齐，头顶一缕头发微乱，显得很呆，不免笑了一下，走过去帮他解下围巾。
Yi Yan sorted the items into different places, having nearly walked around the room, only to find Song He still standing there. He was wearing a long down jacket and had his scarf tied neatly. A strand of hair on his head was slightly messy, making him look rather foolish, and Yi Yan couldn't help but smile as he walked over to help him take off the scarf.

　　松和也在同时不再发愣，手忙脚乱地脱掉外套。
At the same moment, Song He stopped being dazed and fumbled to take off his coat.

　　回来的路上又用了将近半小时，聿严叫他先去睡一会，松和的确犯困，最近也在慢慢习惯在聿严没离开的时候休息，没多说什么，进了卧室。
It took nearly half an hour to get back. Yi Yan told Song He to rest for a while, and Song He was indeed feeling sleepy. He had been gradually getting used to resting when Yi Yan wasn't around recently. He didn't say much and entered the bedroom.

　　聿严就熟门熟路地去开冰箱，但是运算速度快到惊人的大脑一如既往地在面对这间被他塞得有些过于满的冰箱时开始减速，用了两分钟，想着今天的检查结果，他终于决定做一份猪肝粥。
Yi Yan went to the fridge with ease, but his astonishingly fast brain, as usual, slowed down when faced with the fridge, which he had packed a bit too full. It took him two minutes, thinking about today's check-up results, before finally deciding to make some pig liver congee.

　　军队餐点简便，辅星上的各种待遇甚至高过主星，不会存在物资缺乏的情况，但追求速度与效率，惯例吃得都很简单，就连聿严在军队时也是一样。
Meals in the military are simple, and the treatment on the auxiliary star is even better than on the main star, so there's no shortage of supplies. However, the emphasis is on speed and efficiency, so meals are usually very basic—even when Yu Yan was in the military, it was the same.

　　最近变着花样做给松和的零食，无论是菌菇汤、鸡肉粥还是红枣米糊，对聿严来说，只要跟厨房沾边，就算前所未有。
Lately, Yu Yan has been experimenting with different snacks for Song He, whether it's mushroom soup, chicken congee, or jujube rice porridge. For Yu Yan, anything kitchen-related is unprecedented.

　　但好在悦敏提供的食谱用量精确，步骤详细，从松和的反应上看，都还算及格。
But thankfully, the recipes provided by Yue Min are precise in measurements and detailed in steps, and from Song He's reactions, they're considered acceptable.

　　松和醒来时，不例外的是在聿严坐在他的床边。
When Song He wakes up, as usual, Yu Yan is sitting by his bedside.

　　他打了个小小的哈欠，聿严就回身低声道：“煮了粥，现在吃？”
He yawned slightly, and Yu Yan turned around and whispered, "The porridge is cooked, shall we eat now?"

　　将近一个月养成的习惯，让松和开始固定在这个被投喂的时间产生饥饿感。
The habit formed in nearly a month had made Song begin to feel hunger at this regularly fed time.

　　他慢慢从床上坐起，碍于又长大一些的肚子，和刚醒时迟钝的四肢，动作不很连贯，聿严在他胳膊肘上扶了一下，才顺利下了床。
He slowly sat up from the bed. Due to the slightly larger stomach and the still sluggish limbs upon waking, his movements were not very coordinated. Yu Yan supported his elbow, and only then did he smoothly get off the bed.

　　聿严没有立刻松手，等到确认他站稳，才跟在他身后，前后脚离开卧室。
Yu Yan did not let go immediately, waiting to confirm he was steady on his feet before following him out of the bedroom, stepping out just ahead of him.

　　松和就因为他过于小心的动作，也想起了今天医生随口说过的，胎儿越来越大，omega要注意放慢走路速度和保持平衡的话。
Jun and Su remembered the doctor's casual remark today—that the fetus was getting bigger, and omegas should slow down their walking pace and maintain balance—because of his overly cautious movements.

　　但是面对聿严的粥，一向很给面子的松和这次在闻到味道以后就露出了点微妙的表情，强作镇定地吃了两口，前三个月都没有过孕吐症状的omega就“冲”进卫生间里，差点呕出胃酸。
But when faced with Yu Yan's congee, Jun and Su, who had always been considerate, showed a subtle expression after smelling the aroma. He forced himself to take a couple of bites, but the omega, who had had no morning sickness symptoms for the first three months, rushed into the bathroom and nearly vomited stomach acid.

　　聿严紧张得要命，在终于搞清楚松和呕吐单纯只因为猪肝的味道时又黑了脸，松和憋不住笑，紧抿着嘴看他，双眼弯弯，下巴上还挂着漱口后没擦干净的水珠，没多久，聿严也笑了。
Yu Yan was extremely nervous. When he finally realized that Jun and Su's vomiting was simply due to the flavor of the liver, his face darkened again. Jun and Su couldn't hold back his laughter, his mouth pressed tightly together as he watched him, his eyes curved, a water droplet still hanging from his chin after rinsing his mouth. Soon, Yu Yan laughed too.

　　“这不行。”他说了遍最近的口头禅，又说，“医生说你缺铁，就应该吃这个。”
"It's not okay," he said, repeating his recent catchphrase, then added, "The doctor said you're iron-deficient, so you should eat this."

　　松和少见坚持地连连拒绝道：“吃医生开的药就可以，她没说要吃肝脏……”
Sōng and Shǎo persistently refused, "Just take the medicine the doctor prescribed, she didn't say anything about eating liver..."

　　他想，真是太可怕太可怕了，宇宙中怎么会有这种味道的存在！
He thought, it was truly terrifying, how could such a smell exist in the universe!

　　那碗粥已经在第一时间被聿严毁尸灭迹，在房间里喷了去味的清洁剂后，松和顺手洗掉自己那个碗的同时，聿严开始思考下一份零食的制作。
The bowl of congee had already been thoroughly disposed of by Yù Yán. After spraying deodorizing cleaner in the room, Sōng and casually washed his own bowl while Yù Yán began thinking about making the next snack.

　　松和不用去上班，一下子闲下来，就开始在清醒的时候感觉到百无聊赖。
Since Sōng and didn't have to go to work, he suddenly had a lot of free time and started feeling extremely bored when he was 清醒.

　　他试着让自己做一些严肃的思考，但数年如一日的，他的生活中恰恰只缺少严肃的问题，所以他立刻向蛀虫模式倒戈，脑袋空空地仰在靠椅上，等着聿严上将的投喂。
He tried to force himself to think seriously, but year after year, his life lacked nothing more than serious problems, so he immediately switched back to his pest mode, his head empty as he leaned back in the armchair, waiting for General Yu's feeding.

　　虽然嘴上说着不行，但聿严还是在松和的坚持下摒弃了猪肝，转而做了一种全新的尝试。
Although he said he couldn't, General Yu still gave in to Song He's persistence and abandoned the pig liver, opting for a completely new attempt instead.

　　主星时间的晚上九点钟，第一份称得上成功的拔丝香蕉才上桌。
At nine o'clock in the main star time, the first truly successful 拔丝香蕉 (拔丝香蕉 is a type of Chinese dessert) was served.

　　它的卖相相当微妙，但在枪林弹雨中啃着压缩饼干过来的松和并没注意到这点细节，吸着气吃了一小块，被烫得说不出话，只能握着叉子弯着眼睛对聿严比大拇指。
Its appearance was quite subtle, but Song He, who had been through a hail of gunfire and had been eating compressed biscuits, didn't notice this detail. He inhaled and took a small piece, scalded and unable to speak, only able to hold the fork and squint while giving General Yu a thumbs-up.

　　不过聿严认为，只要是他做的东西，松和就无一例外都很喜欢。
But Yu Yan believed that as long as it was something he made, Song He would like it without exception.

　　他将让松和大吐特吐的猪肝粥选择性忘记。
He would make Song He forget the liver porridge that would make him puke his guts out.

　　等到43号辅星上也迎来夜晚，松和才发觉聿严还留在他这里。
It wasn't until night fell on 辅星 43 号 that Song He realized Yu Yan was still staying at his place.

　　“今天不走。”聿严背对着他打扫“战场”，对那些黏糊糊的糖浆有些束手无策，正在等悦敏回消息，一边说，“你门口总会结冰，得铺一块草坪，明天弄好我再回去。”
"Not leaving today," Yu Yan said, his back to him while cleaning up the "battlefield." He was at a loss with the sticky syrup, waiting for Yue Min's message, "Your doorstep always freezes, you need to lay down some grass. I'll get it done tomorrow and then I'll go back."

　　松和理智上觉得这个逻辑有问题，更不能作为聿严留在单身omega宿舍的充要条件，但实际上又找不出拒绝的理由，一时没话可说。
Rationally, Song felt there was something off about this logic and that it couldn't serve as a sufficient condition for Yu Yan to stay in the single omega dormitory, yet he couldn't actually find a reason to refuse, leaving him momentarily speechless.

　　聿严也没再说什么，就当这件事已经定下来。
Yu Yan didn't say anything more, treating the matter as settled.

　　过了会，有夜间巡逻的士兵来向松和做汇报，他也毫不避讳地留在客厅。
A short while later, a soldier on night patrol came to report to Song, who remained unafraid in the living room.

　　士兵在短暂犹豫之后决定先对他敬礼，聿严却头都不抬，一身便装靠在松和的懒人沙发里，专注地研究着悦敏发来的新食谱道：“不用管我。”
After a brief hesitation, the soldier decided to salute first, but Yu Yan didn't even raise his head. Dressed in casual clothes, he leaned in Song's lazy sofa, intently studying a new recipe sent by Yue Min, saying, "Don't bother me."

　　到了松和的休息时间，聿严把他送到卧室门口，松和又迈一步时，被他轻轻拽住手腕。
At Songhe's rest time, Yu Yan took him to the bedroom door. As Songhe took one more step, he was gently grabbed by his wrist.

　　松和下意识回头，卧室的灯还没开，他的一半身影藏在黑暗中，但是面孔非常清晰，聿严看到两只漂亮的眼睛，和红红的嘴唇。
Songhe instinctively turned back. The bedroom light hadn't been turned on yet, so half of his body was hidden in the darkness, but his face was very clear. Yu Yan saw two beautiful eyes and red lips.

　　聿严把他更拉近一些，低声叫他名字。
Yu Yan pulled him closer still, calling his name softly.

　　“松和。”
"Songhe."

　　“嗯？”
“Hmm?”

　　松和看上去只是有些迷茫，但实际上已经开始紧张，他垂在身侧的手虚握起来，感觉到聿严搂着他腰的手贴着衣服移动，最后盖在了他五个多月的肚子上。
Song He appeared to be just a bit confused, but in reality, he had already started to feel nervous. The hand hanging by his side tensed slightly, and he felt Yu Yan's hand that was holding his waist move against his clothes, finally settling on his five-month-old stomach.

　　“还没说晚安。”聿严微微低头，过了会，才用低到温柔的语气，不知是对松和，还是对他肚子里的小alpha说，“晚安。”
“I haven't said goodnight.” Yu Yan lowered his head slightly. After a moment, he spoke in a low, gentle tone, unsure if it was directed at Song He or the little alpha inside him, “Goodnight.”

　　松和偏了下脸，双目下垂，视线也落在自己肚子上，长睫毛动了动，良久道：“喔。”
Song He tilted his head, his eyes looking down, his gaze also falling on his stomach. His long eyelashes fluttered, and after a long while, he said, “Oh.”

　　聿严睡在松和客厅的沙发上，一大早起床给他的门口换上防滑的草坪，就赶回主星办公，然后在松和的加餐时间赶回43号辅星，晚上又睡在松和的沙发上。
Yu Yan slept on the sofa in the living room of Songhe, woke up early in the morning to replace the anti-slip lawn mat at his door, and then rushed back to the main star to work. Then, during Songhe's snack time, he returned to 辅星 43, and slept on the sofa in Songhe again at night.

　　这一次他没有找别的理由，因为松和没再问。
This time, he didn't find any other excuse, because Songhe didn't ask anymore.

　　他好像就那么默默接受了聿严的靠近，没提告白那天聿严说的“不是爱情”，也没有提受降那天晚上的“我不确定”。
It seemed like he just silently accepted Yu Yan's closeness, not mentioning the "it's not love" Yu Yan said on the day he confessed, nor mentioning the "I'm not sure" from that night when he accepted the surrender.

　　聿严察觉到这些不对劲，但也知道这并不算发生在松和身上的反常。
Yu Yan noticed these incongruities, but also knew that this wasn't unusual for Songhe.

　　从他第一次极热发情期发作，在门里将松和强暴，主动提出会配合松和上军事法庭却被摆着手否定，甚至拒绝任何“补偿”之后，他就知道松和是一个攻击性为零的人。
From the first time he experienced an extreme heat rut and forcibly took Song and Qiang, proactively offering to cooperate with Song and in a military court but being waved off and denied, even refusing any "compensation," he knew that Song and was a person with zero aggression.

　　从某些方面来说，松和甚至不太有自保的能力。
In some aspects, Song and was barely even capable of self-preservation.

　　与体能和作战能力全都无关，脱离战场以外，日常生活中的松和其实是一个“随波逐流”的人。
It had nothing to do with physical fitness or combat ability; outside of the battlefield, Song and was actually a "go with the flow" person in daily life.

　　聿严很认真地想，从他们认识至今，松和做过的唯一一件有明确意志的事情，好像就是“喜欢聿严”。
Yue Yan thought very seriously that since they had known each other, the only thing Song and had done with clear intention was "liking Yue Yan."

　　他收集拱极星碎片，把它送给即将上前线的聿严当作表白，是他在“好”、“可以”和“这也不错”的生活中唯一有过的主动出击。
He collected the Circumpolar Star fragments and gave them to Yu Yan, who was about to go to the front, as a declaration of love. It was the only time he had ever taken the initiative in his life of "fine," "okay," and "that's also nice."

　　随后的两次被拒绝，还有怀着孕守在终年寒冷的43号辅星上，对他来说都不算什么特别凄惨的事情。
The two subsequent rejections, as well as staying on the perpetually cold Starlet 43 while pregnant, weren't particularly tragic events for him.

　　如果是以前，聿严可能会这样想，这些对迟钝的松和来说，都不算什么特别凄惨的事情。
If it were in the past, Yu Yan might have thought so. But for the dull-sensing Song, none of these were particularly tragic events.

　　可是现在他才有些晚地明白，对于松和这样永远不会有太大的情绪起伏的人来说，告白那天早上匆忙扯紧被子遮住身体的动作，用“不用了”回答他的那句“还可以做朋友”，和笨拙认真地在笔记本上计算独自抚养一个alpha到成年到底要多少钱，其实全都代表他已经受到了非常非常深的伤害。
But now, he belatedly realized that for someone like Song, who never experienced significant emotional fluctuations, the hurriedly pulling the covers over his body on the morning of the confession, the reply "We can still be friends" with "No, it's okay," and the clumsy yet earnest calculations on his notebook about how much it would cost to raise an alpha alone to adulthood—all actually represented that he had been deeply, deeply hurt.

　　松和用“很快就会放弃”来表达的痛苦，不会比其他人更易引发共情的痛哭流涕要少。
The pain expressed by Song He as "they will give up soon" is no less likely to evoke empathetic tears than the sorrow felt by others.

　　又过了一段时间，43号辅星即将结束一个周期的公转，留守士兵迎来假期，除守门人以外，只有少数几队巡逻兵留在辅星上。
After some more time passed, the 43rd auxiliary star was about to complete a cycle of its orbit, and the garrison soldiers were on leave. Except for the gatekeepers, only a few patrol teams remained on the auxiliary star.

　　一大早，来接聿严的飞船就降落在辅星的准停区。
Early in the morning, the spaceship that was to pick up Yu Yan landed in the designated landing zone of the auxiliary star.

　　闲来无聊的士兵们非常八卦，一群准备回家的士兵围住了从飞船上下来的聿严的护卫队，向他们打听聿严跟松和的婚期。
Bored soldiers were very gossipy. A group of soldiers who were preparing to go home surrounded Yu Yan's escort team as they got off the spaceship, asking them about the wedding date of Yu Yan and Song He.

　　曾经预测过“战争结束就会结婚”的那名队员道：“快了吧！”
The team member who once predicted "marriage after the war ends" said, "It's almost here!"

　　另一名队员道：“没准就是下个月！”
Another team member said, "Maybe next month!"

　　第三名队员道：“上将求婚了吗？”
The third team member asked, "Did the general propose?"

　　第四名队员道：“应该求了吧，而且肯定成功了，不然我们上将为什么搬家这么突然？”
The fourth team member said, "He probably did, and he definitely succeeded, otherwise why would our general move suddenly?"

　　吃了一嘴假瓜的辅星士兵们：“哇……”
The auxiliary star soldiers, who had been tricked into eating fake melon, exclaimed: "Wow..."

　　“只是诈一诈想知道他们是不是真的搞对象，没想到真要结婚。”
"Just wanted to see if they were really dating, didn't expect them to actually get married."

　　“世事难料。”
"The world is unpredictable."

　　“深不可测。”
"Unfathomable."

　　“玄学玄学。”
"Occult, occult."

　　也准备出门度假的松和还不知道自己已经“被”求婚成功，更不知道这被求婚成功的消息即将随着一整个星球上的守卫士兵一窝蜂地扑向银河系而传遍各大行星。
Even Song, who was about to go on vacation, didn't know he had already "been" successfully proposed to, nor did he know that the news of this successful proposal would soon spread across the entire planet's guard soldiers, rushing to the Milky Way and reaching all the major planets.

　　他刚醒没多久，但其实走得很稳，可聿严还是用一只手虚虚护着他的腰。
He had just woken up 不久, but he was actually walking very steadily, yet Yu Yan still used one hand to loosely shield his waist.

　　前两天聿严已经跟他说好，这次假期会在R26星，也就是那颗拥有大片玫瑰田的行星上度过。
Two days ago, Yu Yan had already told him that this vacation would be spent on Planet R26, the one with the vast rose fields.

　　松和没有什么意见，本来也没什么去向，很自然就答应下来。
Meng He had no objections; he didn't really have anywhere else to go, so he naturally agreed.

　　飞船在航线上行驶了大半个钟头，松和突然在无意间发现，大屏幕上早已定位好的R26星的坐标对应的名字不再是R26，也不是别的任何字母与数字的简单组合。
The spaceship had been traveling along its route for more than half an hour when Meng He suddenly noticed, without meaning to, that the coordinates for the R26 star, which had been pre-set on the large screen, no longer corresponded to the name R26, nor was it a simple combination of any other letters and numbers.

　　经过手续齐全的申请与批准，不知何时，它被主人更名为“玫瑰星”。
After a complete application and approval process, it was renamed "Rose Star" by its owner at some point.

　　这样的名字普通而多见，一般都会在后面加一个用以区分的数字或字母，但聿严的这颗行星没有，它就叫玫瑰星。
Such a name was ordinary and common, usually followed by a number or letter to distinguish it, but this planet of Yu Yan had no such addition—it was simply called Rose Star.

　　特权阶级的便利，松和以为自己对此不屑一顾，站在他身边的护卫队员却捕捉到他一闪而过的表情，追问道：“您在开心什么？”
The convenience of the privileged class, Song He thought he despised it, but the guard 队员 beside him caught the fleeting expression on his face and asked, "What are you happy about?"

　　松和指着窗外被引力撕扯正在裂解的星体道：“间歇泉，你看，喷出来的全是钻石。”
Song He pointed out the window at the celestial body being torn apart by gravity and disintegrating, saying, "A geyser, look, it's all spewing diamonds."

　　护卫们就乖乖扒着屏幕向外看。
The guards obediently peered at the screen out the window.

　　独特的星体环境形成了大量的金伯利岩，随着冷却的岩浆和大量液态水喷发出来，夹杂着极度不稳定的氢气和各类有毒气体，景观一来有些吓人，他们的飞船要躲着走，二来非常常见，但所有人还是都很给面子地哇哇大叫。
The unique planetary environment had formed a large amount of kimberlite, which, with the eruption of cooling magma and a significant amount of liquid water, mixed with extremely unstable hydrogen and various toxic gases. The scenery was somewhat frightening, so their spaceship had to navigate around it, and it was also very common, but everyone still made a big fuss.

　　飞船做完最后一次跳跃，开始减速靠近玫瑰星，已经可以从外太空中看到那片面积惊人的玫瑰田的红色。
The ship completed its final jump and began to decelerate, approaching the Rose Star. From outer space, the vast red expanse of the rose fields could already be seen.

　　聿严不知什么时候走到了松和身后，他边站定边随手摸了摸松和的额头，说：“出去会冷，加件衣服。”
Yu Yan didn't know when he had walked up behind Song He. As he stood still, he casually touched Song He's forehead and said, "It will be cold outside, add a layer of clothing."

　　松和从他手里接过一件防风衣，依言穿上，聿严上下打量一遍，又帮他带上了帽子。
Song He took a windbreaker from his hand and put it on as instructed. Yu Yan glanced him over from top to bottom, then helped him put on a hat.

　　走下飞船时，松和因为聿严握着他的手上好像有些过于大了的力气而转过脸，聿严给他一个“怎么了”的眼神，他看了看聿严，说：“没事。”
As they stepped off the ship, Song He turned his head because Yu Yan's grip on his hand seemed a bit too tight. Yu Yan gave him a "What's wrong?" look, and he looked at him and said, "It's nothing."

　　但事实证明，并不是没事。
But it turned out that wasn't the case.

　　他们降落的地方松和没有来过，跟以前聿严住的那栋别墅所在地更是两种气候。
The place where they landed was unfamiliar to Song He, and it had a completely different climate compared to the villa where Yu Yan had previously lived.

　　是一片平原，有大面积的草场，比已经报废的人类前居住地地球上的任何一片草原都大。
It was a vast plain with extensive grasslands, larger than any grassland on Earth, which had already been abandoned by humans.

　　这里光照更强，少山脉，气温不够高，风还很大，吹得聿严的西服裤向后贴在腿上，耳边都是呼呼作响的风声。
Here, the sunlight was stronger, there were fewer mountains, the temperature wasn't high enough, and the wind was very strong, blowing Yu Yan's suit pants back against his legs and filling his ears with the sound of whistling wind.

　　松和突然注意到，聿严的穿着似乎格外正式。
Sōng suddenly noticed that Yù Yán's attire seemed particularly formal.

　　但他没能再多想些什么，神秘失踪的护卫队成员就开始在远方若隐若现地露出身体。
But he couldn't think any further than that, as the members of the mysterious missing guard team began to appear faintly in the distance.

　　草长得太高，他们所在的位置地势又低，所以费了些力气，才靠近到松和勉强能看清的地方，然后才发现——他们赶了一群羊。
The grass was too tall, and their location was in a low-lying area, so it took some effort to get close enough for Sōng to barely make them out, whereupon he discovered—they were herding a flock of sheep.

　　“松和。”聿严的声音里好像带点笑意，但又不太分明，“我知道你醒了。”
"Sōng," Yù Yán's voice seemed to hold a hint of laughter, though it wasn't very clear, "I know you're awake."

　　“没有，我还要睡。”
"No, I still need to sleep."

　　“真的吗？可你已经睡了两小时，平时……”
"Really? But you've already been asleep for two hours, usually……"

　　“没有可是。”因为圆滚滚的肚子所以没法面朝下将自己藏进床里的松和只能侧躺，但他把被子拉得很高，又背对聿严，十分没礼貌地拒绝沟通，“不要吵我。”
"No, but." Due to his round belly, the plump fox, Song, couldn't curl up in bed facing down and could only lie on his side. However, he pulled the blanket up high and turned his back to Yu Yan, rudely refusing communication, "Don't bother me."

　　没再听到聿严说话，但很快就感觉到身后的床垫下陷，伴随着一阵窸窣声，聿严上床了。
He didn't hear any more of Yu Yan's words, but soon felt the mattress sink down behind him, accompanied by a rustling sound, as Yu Yan got into bed.

　　他钻进松和的被窝，慢慢靠过来，用胸膛贴上松和的后背，伸出一只手探到被子下面，摸了摸松和的脸，才道：“你要是想在秋天中暑，就只管这么捂着。”
He burrowed into Songhe's warmth, slowly leaning in, pressing his chest against Songhe's back, reaching one hand under the covers to touch Songhe's face, before saying, "If you want to get heatstroke in autumn, just keep doing this."

　　被摸到口鼻时，松和憋了口气，过了会忍不住，又慢慢吐出去，打在聿严掌心，弄得他有些痒，从掌心痒到了心尖。
When he touched his mouth and nose, Songhe held his breath, but after a while, he couldn't help but slowly exhale, releasing the air onto Yuyan's palm, making him feel a bit itchy, the itch spreading from his palm to the tip of his heart.

　　松和没有说话，聿严就试着把被子拽下去一些，松和也没有拒绝，只是还是不肯回头。
Songhe didn't speak, so Yuyan tried to pull the blanket down a bit. Songhe didn't refuse, but he still wouldn't turn around.

　　聿严撑起上身，低头看他紧闭的眼睛，不知是不是记忆先入为主，他总觉得还能看出松和的眼皮发红。
Yuyan lifted his upper body, looking down at his tightly closed eyes. He didn't know if it was because of preconceived notions from memory, but he always thought he could see the redness in Songhe's eyelids.

　　紧接着想起松和被一群羊吓得哇哇大叫的场面。
Then she remembered the scene where Song and was screeching in fear when surrounded by a herd of sheep.

　　“有那么好笑吗？”松和立刻重新把脸藏起来，闷闷不乐地问，“就有那么好笑？”
"Is that funny?" Song and immediately hid her face again, asking sullenly, "Is that really so funny?"

　　“也没有特别好笑。”好一会，聿严才说。
"It's not particularly funny either," Yu Yan said after a while.

　　但可能他还是没有把笑意隐藏得特别好，所以松和才没有理他。
But perhaps he hadn't hidden his amusement particularly well, so Song and ignored him.

　　一直装在西服裤兜里没机会被掏出来的戒指也感觉很冤枉，聿严再一次把松和蒙在脸上的被子扯下来一点，捏着他下巴让他转过脸来，看着他因为眼睛闭得太紧而颤动的睫毛轻声说：“我永远不再提这件事。”
The ring that had been kept in the pocket of his suit pants and never had a chance to be taken out also felt quite wronged. Yu Yan pulled the blanket covering Song He’s face down a bit again, pinched his chin, making him turn his head around, and whispered, looking at his trembling eyelashes because his eyes were squeezed shut, “I will never mention this again.”

　　“真的？”松和迟疑地睁开眼睛，观察着他脸上的表情说，“你保证。”
“Really?” Song He hesitantly opened his eyes, observing the expression on his face, “You promise.”

　　“我保证永远不提松和被喜欢的羊吓哭的事。”
“I promise to never mention how Song He was scared to tears by the sheep he liked.”

　　松和的脸迅速变回板着的样子，还用怒瞪来表达愤怒。
Song He’s face quickly returned to a stern expression, even using angry glares to express his anger.

　　只是当事人也没看出有多愤怒就是了。
Just that the person involved didn't seem that angry, that's all.

　　在此之前并没有开玩笑这项兴趣的聿严翻来覆去逗了松和两个来回，松和彻底不理他了，扭过脸一句话都不说。
Before this, Yu Yan had never shown any interest in joking around, and he had gone back and forth with Song He for two rounds, but Song He completely ignored him, turning his head and not saying a word.

　　没多久，聿严发现他哭了。
After not long, Yu Yan noticed he was crying.

　　松和哭了，聿严想了一遍又一遍，松和哭了，脑中警铃大作，却又没有任何应对方案。
Song He was crying, Yu Yan thought over and over again, Song He was crying, his mind went off 警报, yet he had no solution at all.

　　可能是omega孕期激素的影响，也可能就是聿严太恶劣。
It could be the effect of pregnancy hormones for an omega, or perhaps Yu Yan is just too harsh.

　　但无论原因是什么，他就是弄哭了自己打算求婚的omega，而且是一个从来没有哭过的omega。
But whatever the reason, he had made the omega he planned to propose to cry, and it was an omega who had never cried before.

　　松和的眼泪流得不多，掉进枕头里就没多少痕迹，但是他轻轻抽泣的声音仍然使他的alpha足够手足无措。
Song He's tears didn't fall much; they were mostly absorbed into the pillow, leaving little trace, but his soft sniffles still made his alpha enough to feel flustered.

　　聿严语序颠倒的道歉，他的任何一次糟糕的公开发言口才都好过此刻，过了好一会，松和才终于回过头来，脸上还有泪痕，带着忍耐过的哭腔说：“我真不想原谅你。”
Yu Yan's apology was in reverse order, any of his poor public speaking skills were better than this moment. After a while, Song He finally turned around, still with tear tracks on his face, his voice thick with suppressed emotion as he said, "I really don't want to forgive you."

　　“那些羊本来就很可怕，长得那么高，还那么多，一大群冲我跑过来。”
“Those sheep were already scary, so tall and so many, a whole herd rushing towards me.”

　　“而且本来我哭就不是因为害怕，是因为我叫你，你还在笑。”
“And to begin with, I wasn’t crying out of fear; I was calling you, and you were still laughing.”

　　“我又没有说养很大的羊，我只想买小羊，你什么都不懂。”
“I didn’t say I wanted to keep big sheep, I just wanted to buy little sheep, you don’t understand anything.”

　　“对，是我不懂。”聿严终于能接上他的话，将错误一概揽下，又说，“今天吓到你是我没把握好，别哭了。”
“Yes, it’s my fault. I finally got a chance to respond, taking all the blame, and then I said, ‘I scared you today, it was my fault, stop crying.’”

　　“我没有被羊吓哭。”松和抓着他的话柄又重复了一遍，“是你一直笑我。”
"I wasn't scared of the sheep," Song He repeated, holding onto his words, "It was you who kept laughing at me."

　　“对，是我的错。”
"Yes, it was my fault."

　　松和擦了擦脸，因为过于的白，眼睛周围就红得很厉害，但其实的确没怎么哭。
Song He wiped his face, and because it was so pale, the area around his eyes was very red, but in reality, he hadn't cried much.

　　“真不想原谅你。”他又咕哝了一遍。
"I really don't want to forgive you," he mumbled again.

　　可能是因为休假，或只是因为在最近一直都陪着他的聿严身边，他比平时要更情绪化，一手抓着被角，另一只手的手背反复贴在眼睛上。
Perhaps because of the vacation, or just because he had been spending time with Yun Yan recently, he was more emotional than usual, holding one corner of the blanket with one hand and repeatedly rubbing the back of his other hand against his eyes.

　　恒星升起的光适时又洒满房间，也落在松和身上，让他看起来非常柔软。
The light of the rising star filled the room in time, also falling on Song He, making him look very soft.

　　在松和懊恼的同时，聿严突然下了床，单膝跪下，将一枚戒指捧到了松和面前，摆在床上的还有几份小行星的产权书。
As Song He felt frustrated, Yun Yan suddenly got off the bed, knelt on one knee, and held a ring out to Song He, placing several asteroid property deeds on the bed as well.

　　他的状态看上去并不是一个完美的求婚者——衬衣领口略微凌乱，在刚才的一番拥抱中，头发也变得不够整齐。
He didn't seem like a perfect suitor in his current state—his shirt collar was slightly disheveled, and his hair had become messy from the recent embrace.

　　可他腰板挺得很直，捧着戒指的手用力到有些发抖，还有脸上紧张又用全力去试着镇定的表情，都在全数凸显他的认真。
His back was straight as a 箭, his hand holding the ring trembling slightly from the force, and the expression on his face—tense yet straining to appear composed—all starkly highlighted his sincerity.

　　不会有完美的求婚时机。
There's no such thing as a perfect moment for a proposal.

　　聿严想，其实他应该在匆匆忙忙赶到辅星那天的第一时间就下跪。
Lü Yan thought that perhaps he should have knelt the very moment he rushed to the satellite.

　　松和又哭了，他用一只手捂住脸，眼泪冲手指缝里流出来。
Song He cried again, covering his face with one hand as tears streamed through his fingers.

　　在那片风很大的草场上，他就意识到了聿严要求婚，所以才会被紧随其后的乌龙气到哭鼻子。
On that very windy grassland, he realized Yu Yan was proposing, which was why he was so upset and crying about the mix-up that followed.

　　“松和。”聿严把他的手拉开，控制不住地很大力地握住，不太流畅地叙述了一遍个人情况，包括感情和财务，最后看着他的眼睛紧张地说，“跟我结婚，好不好？”
"Song He." Yu Yan pulled his hand away, gripping it tightly uncontrollably, and narrated his personal situation—both emotional and financial—in a somewhat awkward manner. Finally, looking into his eyes with nervousness, he said, "Will you marry me, okay?"

　　松和红着眼睛说：“为什么？”
Song He, his eyes red, asked, "Why?"

　　“因为我爱你，你也爱我。”
"Because I love you, and you love me."

　　松和转了转眼睛，抿了下红红的嘴唇，出发点奇特地提出一个问题：“你最近对我和以前一样好，如果你现在爱我，是不是说明以前也爱我。”
Song turned his eyes and pursed his red lips, strangely asking, "You've been as kind to me recently as before. If you love me now, does that mean you loved me then too?"

　　聿严喉头发堵，良久才说：“是。”
Yu Yan cleared his throat and said after a long while, "Yes."

　　其实聿严脑袋里还装着许多更加难以回答的问题的答案，当松和问到不是爱情和我不确定时该说什么，当松和怀疑是不是因为孩子时又该说什么。
In truth, Yu Yan's mind was still filled with answers to even more difficult questions, such as what to say when Song He asked what to say when he wasn't sure about love, and what to say when Song He suspected it was because of the child.

　　但松和接受了这个答案，就理所应当地丢弃了其他所有的顾虑。
But once Song He accepted this answer, he naturally discarded all other concerns.

　　他相信，聿严要他跟他结婚，只因为聿严爱他，而他也爱聿严。
He believed that Yu Yan wanted him to marry him only because Yu Yan loved him, and he also loved Yu Yan.

　　他只在聿严帮他戴上戒指的时候小声说：“你以后不许再笑我。”
When Yu Yan helped him put on the ring, he whispered softly, "You're not allowed to laugh at me anymore from now on."

　　聿严把手伸给他，这一次，聿严很好地管理好了自己的表情，严肃道：“好。”
Yu Yan reached out his hand to him this time. This time, Yu Yan managed his expression well and said sternly, "Alright."

　　戴好戒指以后，松和没有马上松开聿严的手。
After putting on the ring, Song He didn't let go of Yu Yan's hand immediately.

　　他把自己戴了戒指的那只手跟聿严的摆在一起，掌心靠近他的肚子，已经六个多月，胎动频繁，需要补充的营养也增多的月份，所以松和在他的账单上将抚养费增多了一倍。
He placed the hand wearing the ring next to Yu Yan's, with the palm close to his stomach. It had been more than six months, a period with frequent fetal movements and increased need for nutrition, so Song He had doubled the child support on Yu Yan's bill.

　　想到这里，一起看戒指的时光就即刻结束。
At that thought, the moment of looking at the rings together came to an immediate end.

　　松和回手摸到自己的手机，从里面找出账单摆到聿严面前：“我要是去起诉，法官肯定会判你给我这么多钱。”
Song He reached back to touch his phone, took out the bill, and placed it in front of Yu Yan. "If I were to sue, the judge would definitely award me this much money," he said.

　　聿严状似认真地扫了一眼，道：“可我手头没那么多钱。”
Yu Yan feigned serious attention as he glanced at it and said, "But I don't have that much money on hand."

　　松和又把一则新闻调出来给他看：“可你在富豪榜上排名前十，而且你刚才，刚才自己也说你很有钱。”
Meng He pulled up another news article to show him: "But you're ranked in the top ten on the rich list, and just now, just now you yourself said you're very rich."

　　“现在也是你的。”聿严道，“而且债务也不少。”
"It's also yours now," Yu Yan said. "And you have quite a bit of debt."

　　结果聿严不光被松和拒绝分期支付，还开始进一步怀疑他的财务问题是否会影响跟他结婚的自己。
As a result, Yu Yan not only rejected Meng He's offer to pay in installments but also began to further doubt whether his financial problems would affect his own marriage to him.

　　纠缠了一个来回，似乎松和确定聿严已经暂时忘记了他被羊吓哭的事，几个小时之内发生了几桩转折强烈的事，他就开始犯困。
After some back and forth, it seemed Meng He was sure Yu Yan had temporarily forgotten about being scared by the sheep, and within a few hours of several major turns of events, he started to feel sleepy.

　　聿严终于可以光明正大地将他搂在怀里，让他靠着自己的肩窝打瞌睡，也可以顺着心意去碰松和身上任何他想碰的地方，脸蛋、眼皮和耳垂，还有那个孕育着他们两个人共同的小孩的小山包一样可爱的肚子。
Yan finally could openly hold him in his arms, letting him doze against the hollow of his shoulder, and could touch Song and any place he wanted to touch according to his desires—the cheeks, eyelids, and earlobes, and that adorable belly, like a little hill nurturing their child together.

　　他想，松和其实不是个不容易坚持的人，他长时间地向往一个人的小行星、叶公好龙一样地迷恋纸片化小羊、天真勇敢地喜欢聿严，虽然他有些时候表现出笨拙和迟钝，但他的确是个不会轻易放弃的人。
He thought that Song actually wasn't an easily discouraged person. He had long yearned for a small planet of one person, liked paper-cut sheep like Ye Gong who loved dragons, and loved Yan with innocent courage. Although he sometimes showed clumsiness and dullness, he was indeed a person who wouldn't give up easily.

　　而幸好，在爱情里同样笨拙的聿严也终于不算非常晚地发觉，原来自己从很早以前就开始也想给松和同样单纯的喜欢，并且心愿强烈地试图让自己成为他的观测点上，永不坠落的拱极星。
And fortunately, Yan, who was also clumsy in love, finally didn't realize too late that he had wanted to give Song the same simple affection since long ago, and strongly wished to make himself his observation point, an unsetting polar star.

　　——The End

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