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soobin supposes if a normal person was sent a fleshlight anonymously, their first reaction wouldn’t be to fuck it. 
秀彬猜想，如果一個正常人收到匿名寄來的飛機杯，他們的第一反應應該不會是直接拿來用。

he also supposes that if they found out the fleshlight was supernatural and linked with their best friend’s pussy, they wouldn’t carry on using it.
他也猜想，如果他們發現這個飛機杯具有超自然力量，而且還和自己最好朋友的私處相連，他們應該不會繼續使用它。

soobin’s always prided himself on never being normal.
秀彬一直以自己從不正常為傲。

the day had started out like usual, soobin getting in a round of league before washing up and walking out to the living room to wait for the other members so they can head to the company. he’s catching up on a manga on his phone when beomgyu and huening kai shuffle out to collapse on the couch next to him.
這天開始得一如往常，秀彬先打了一場英雄聯盟，洗漱完後走到客廳等待其他成員，準備一起去公司。他正用手機追漫畫時，范奎和休寧凱拖著腳步走出來，癱在他旁邊的沙發上。

beomgyu’s hair is all ruffled and he still has his sleepy eyes as he groans dramatically and throws his body down so his head is resting on soobin’s leg and his feet on kai’s lap.
範奎的頭髮亂糟糟的，還帶著惺忪睡眼，戲劇化地呻吟著把身體倒下，頭枕在秀彬腿上，腳則擱在凱的膝蓋上。

soobin almost drops his phone on beomgyu’s face, heart starting to beat faster as he looks down. his eyes are closed, long lashes creating shadows on his cheeks, and he keeps moving his head to find a comfier spot on his thigh. soobin’s forcibly reminded of a little puppy sleeping with its head on its owner’s leg.
秀彬差點把手機砸在範奎臉上，當他低頭看時心跳開始加速。範奎閉著眼睛，長睫毛在臉頰投下陰影，還不停轉動腦袋想在他大腿上找到更舒服的位置。秀彬不由得聯想到把頭枕在主人腿上睡覺的小狗。

sometimes he wonders if beomgyu does things like this on purpose, always touching and clinging to him more than the other members, riling him up and then running away as if begging him to give chase.
有時他會懷疑範奎是不是故意這樣做，總是比其他成員更愛碰觸和黏著他，撩撥他之後又逃跑，彷彿在央求他去追趕。

at least that’s what he uses to justify himself when he fantasizes about pinning beomgyu down during his brattier moments and fucking him senseless in front of their members.
至少在他幻想著要在範奎耍任性時把他壓制住，當著成員們的面把他幹到失去理智時，他就是用這個理由來說服自己的。

soobin snaps out of his thoughts when beomgyu raises his head to glare at him and he realizes he’s been shaking his leg, a habit that he knows the other hates. he mourns the loss of his warmth as gyu gets up to cuddle into kai instead until the last two members emerge from their rooms.
秀彬被範奎抬頭瞪視的動作拉回現實，這才發現自己正不自覺抖著腿——這個他明知對方討厭的習慣。當範奎起身轉而窩進杋圭懷裡時，他悵然若失地懷念起那份體溫，直到最後兩位成員也從房間出來。

they all somewhat separate when they get to the company; beomgyu heads into one of the recording rooms while taehyun takes another. yeonjun wanders off while muttering something about meeting with their choreographer and kai decides to get a little snack at the lounge before doing a solo live. soobin’s left to wait on the couch by himself until it’s his turn.
抵達公司後眾人便各自分散：範奎鑽進其中一間錄音室，泰賢則進了另一間。然竣嘀咕著要去找編舞老師便晃走了，杋圭決定先去休息室吃點零食再開個人直播。秀彬獨自坐在沙發上等待輪到自己。

he’s humming his lines under his breath when beomgyu emerges from the studio after a while looking frazzled. he makes eye contact with soobin and pretends to choke himself, giggling as he sits next to him.
當秀彬正低聲哼唱自己的段落時，範奎終於從錄音室出來，一臉疲憊。他與秀彬對上視線，假裝掐住自己脖子咯咯笑著坐到他身旁。

“that bad?”  「有那麼糟嗎？」

“watch out for the producer, he’s on edge today,” beomgyu smirks before standing back up and disappearing down the hallway.
「小心製作人，他今天心情很差，」杋圭咧嘴一笑，隨即起身消失在走廊盡頭。

soobin realizes beomgyu wasn’t lying an hour later when he’s singing the same line over and over while crumpling his papers in a fist. the mood is rapidly souring and he’s tired and frustrated and kind of feeling like he could swing at someone at the slightest provocation. by the time they finish the unsatisfactory recording session, he wears his irritation on his face and he might’ve let the door slam purposely on his way out.
一小時後，修彬意識到杋圭沒說謊——當他反覆唱著同一句歌詞，同時把紙張揉皺在拳頭裡時。錄音室氣氛迅速惡化，他既疲憊又沮喪，甚至覺得只要一點刺激就可能對人揮拳。結束這場不盡人意的錄音後，他滿臉煩躁地離開，關門時或許刻意甩出了聲響。

he gives the room to hyuka who immediately clocks that he’s not in the mood to talk, stalking towards the elevator to head to the parking lot.
他把房間留給煥奎，後者立刻察覺他無意交談，只見修彬徑直走向電梯準備前往停車場。

by the time he gets back to the dorm he’s worked himself up even more and just wants to lay down and maybe punch his pillow for a bit. he opens the door to his room and is greeted by the sight of a small package sitting on his bed. most of his personal mail is left in front of his door, but maybe this is a gift from a member and they left it in his room? soobin picks up the box; it’s fairly small and has no labels that could indicate where it came from. against his better judgment he messily tears open the box with scissors and braces himself in case it’s something like a bomb.
當他回到宿舍時，情緒更加激動，只想躺下來，或許再捶幾下枕頭發洩。他打開房門，映入眼簾的是床上放著的一個小包裹。大部分私人郵件都會放在門前，但這可能是成員送的禮物，所以直接放在他房間？秀彬拿起盒子；它相當小，沒有任何標籤能顯示來源。儘管覺得不妥，他還是用剪刀胡亂拆開盒子，並做好心理準備以防裡面是炸彈之類的東西。

“what…” is this a joke? inside the innocent looking package is a fleshlight. It’s a pinkish color and smooth all over, a tiny button clit nestled at the top of its pussy lips. soobin picks it up and peers inside the box in case there’s a note from whoever sent it. Finding nothing, he turns back to the fleshlight.
「什麼...」這是在開玩笑嗎？看似無害的包裹裡竟是一個自慰器。它是粉紅色的，整體光滑，頂端的小陰唇間還嵌著一顆按鈕般的陰蒂。秀彬拿起它，又往盒子裡瞧了瞧，看是否有寄件人留下的字條。什麼也沒找到，他再次看向那個自慰器。

It really is quite accurate for a silicone toy. he runs a finger over the slit, startled at how soft it is. whoever bought this must’ve paid good money; it’s a well made toy.
這矽膠玩具的觸感還真是逼真。他用手指滑過那道縫隙，驚訝於它的柔軟程度。買這玩意兒的人肯定花了不少錢，做工確實精緻。

all of a sudden soobin realizes he’s half hard.
突然間，秀彬意識到自己已經半硬了。

how long has it been since he’s masturbated that the sight of a fake pussy turns him on? soobin supposes that he is extra sensitive these days, always practicing and losing sleep on top of the stress from the vocal lessons.
他到底有多久沒自慰了，居然看到一個假陰道就興奮起來？秀彬猜想自己最近可能特別敏感，除了聲樂課的壓力外，還得不斷練習又睡眠不足。

honestly, he deserves a jerk off session. there’s a perfectly good new fleshlight literally delivered right to his bed and there aren’t many members in the dorm right now since some are still recording back at the company. this is the best time to do it.
說真的，他確實該好好打一發手槍。現在有個全新的飛機杯就擺在床上，而且宿舍裡沒幾個成員，有些人還在公司錄音。這可是最佳時機。

soobin yanks his clothes off and sits on the bed against the headboard. with one hand he lowers his boxers and with the other he grabs the bottle of lube from his drawer.
秀彬一把扯掉衣服，靠著床頭板坐下。他一隻手拉下內褲，另一隻手從抽屜裡抓出潤滑液。

he prefers to start slow usually, maybe thumb at his tip for a bit before focusing on the shaft, but he’s worked himself up so much that he thinks he might die if he doesn’t have his cock in something right now. he messily lubes himself up, hissing at the coldness against his heated skin, and promptly sinks into the fleshlight.
他通常喜歡慢慢來，也許會先用拇指輕撫頂端一會兒，然後再專注於莖幹，但他現在已經興奮到不行，覺得如果不立刻把老二塞進什麼東西裡，他可能會死掉。他手忙腳亂地給自己塗上潤滑液，冰冷的觸感碰到熾熱的皮膚時讓他倒抽一口氣，隨即立刻沉入那具擬真自慰器中。

he thinks he blacks out for a second, the tightness swallowing him up. it feels so good, so snug, he can’t believe a sex toy is making him feel this much pleasure.
他覺得自己恍惚了一瞬，那股緊緻感將他完全吞噬。感覺如此美妙、如此貼合，他不敢相信一個情趣玩具竟能帶給他如此強烈的快感。

he doesn’t have a lot of experience with fleshlights but he’s definitely using them more if they’re all like this. it feels so real, almost like an actual pussy sucking him inside and squelching whenever he moves his hand. he pulls out to squirt a bit more lube onto his cock before fucking back in.
他對飛機杯的經驗不多，但如果每個都像這樣的話，他肯定會更常使用。感覺太真實了，幾乎就像真正的陰戶在吸吮他，每次移動手時還會發出濕潤的聲響。他抽出來，又在陰莖上擠了些潤滑液，然後再次插入。

“ah!” comes from the wall next to him, quickly cut off as if the sound had been forced out unexpectedly. he stops his movements. that was beomgyu’s voice. could he hear soobin jerking off?
「啊！」從他旁邊的牆壁傳來，聲音很快被切斷，彷彿是意外被擠出來的。他停下動作。那是杋圭的聲音。難道他聽到溱奐在自慰嗎？

he waits for almost a minute, cock twitching in the fleshlight, before he deems that beomgyu was just being beomgyu. he gets another good grip on the sex toy and thrusts his hips hard. he immediately stops when he hears a long choked moan from the room next door.
他等了將近一分鐘，肉棒在飛機杯裡抽動著，最後認定范奎只是在耍性子。他再次緊握住情趣玩具，用力挺腰抽送。當他聽到隔壁房間傳來一聲長長的、壓抑的呻吟時，立刻停了下來。

was beomgyu…jacking off with him? but how was he moaning every time soobin fucked into the fleshlight? he gives an experimental grind and listens as a soft cry floats through the walls.
是範奎...在跟他一起打手槍嗎？但為什麼每次蘇彬抽插那個飛機杯時他都在呻吟？他試探性地磨蹭了一下，聽見一道輕柔的啜泣聲穿透牆壁傳來。

there’s no way. soobin yanks the sex toy off his cock (trying to ignore beomgyu’s yelp) and stares at it. did someone send him…a magic fleshlight connected to beom’s fucking pussy? it sounds so ridiculous but what else could it be? how else would beomgyu’s moans match soobin’s thrusts when they were in different rooms?
不可能。蘇彬猛地將情趣玩具從性器上扯下（試圖忽略範奎的驚叫），死死盯著它。難道有人送了他...一個連接著範奎那該死小穴的魔法飛機杯？聽起來太荒謬了，但除此之外還能是什麼？不然怎麼解釋當他們身處不同房間時，範奎的呻吟卻能與蘇彬的抽插完美同步？

and why was he even more aroused at the idea of that?
而他怎麼會對這個念頭更加興奮？

i’m genuinely a pervert , soobin thinks a minute later while thrusting wildly into the fleshlight. he can hear gyu squealing through the wall, and he feels horrible when he can detect the panic in his voice but it’s not enough to make him stop, not when hes ghost fucking his crush after years of pining. only a freak would enjoy doing this to their best friend.
我真的是個變態，稍晚洙彬一邊瘋狂抽插著飛機杯一邊這麼想著。他能聽見隔壁房間的奎在尖叫，當他聽出對方聲音裡的驚慌時感到一陣罪惡，但這還不足以讓他停下來——尤其是在暗戀多年後用這種方式意淫自己 crush 的時候。只有變態才會對最好的朋友做這種事還樂在其中。

he tries to imagine what beomgyu looks like right now. Is he flat on his back or on all fours with his ass up? maybe he’s crying, drops glittering on his long eyelashes and eyes all glassy.
他試著想像現在的範奎是什麼模樣。是仰躺著還是四肢著地、翹著屁股？或許他正在哭泣，晶瑩的淚珠掛在長睫毛上，雙眼濕潤朦朧。

(they had once watched “your name” together and soobin had to go to the bathroom to rub one out quick after seeing him tear up, definitely one of his lower moments in their friendship.)
（他們曾一起看《你的名字》，當洙彬看見玟奎落淚時，不得不衝去廁所快速解決——這絕對是他們友誼中最不堪的時刻之一。）

soobin’s strokes are getting shorter, more erratic as he draws closer to orgasm. it’s probably the fastest he’s ever come since he was a teenager going through puberty, so horny from the idea of fucking beomgyu that he can barely last. through the wall gyu’s deep voice is pitching higher, signaling his approaching release. 
隨著高潮臨近，洙彬的動作變得短促而凌亂。這大概是他青春期後最快射的一次，光是幻想和玟奎做愛就讓他亢奮到幾乎撐不住。牆那頭玟奎低沉的嗓音逐漸轉為高亢，預示著他也即將到達頂點。

soobin rolls into the fleshlight and thumbs at the neglected clit. he doesn’t know if beomgyu would be able to feel it but he gets his answer a moment later when he hears a sharp cry from next door as beomgyu comes. the fleshlight clamps down impossibly tight around his cock and he groans as he fills it up with ropes of cum.
秀彬滾動著飛機杯，拇指撫弄著被冷落的陰蒂。他不確定範奎是否能感受到，但片刻後當他聽到隔壁傳來範奎高潮時的尖銳叫聲時，他得到了答案。飛機杯難以置信地緊縮著包覆他的陰莖，他呻吟著射出一道道精液。

when the buzzing in his ears finally stops, soobin realizes how quiet the dorm is. he pulls out of the fleshlight and tosses it onto a pile of dirty clothes on the floor to clean later. then he falls back against the pillow.
當耳中的嗡鳴終於停止時，秀彬意識到宿舍有多麼安靜。他從飛機杯中抽身，將它扔到地板上那堆待洗的髒衣服上。然後他倒回枕頭。

how loud was he? he was so wrapped up in his pleasure and beomgyu’s voice that he didn’t even think to control himself. hell, were they even the only ones in the dorm? he can’t remember how many doors were closed when he came into the apartment, god he was stupid.
他剛才叫得有多大聲？他完全沉浸在快感和範奎的聲音中，甚至沒想過要控制自己。該死，宿舍裡難道只有他們兩個人嗎？他記不清進公寓時有多少扇門是關著的，天啊他真是蠢透了。

and what the hell was the deal with that fleshlight? what kind of fucked up person would send him something like that?
那該死的飛機杯到底是怎麼回事？到底是哪個變態會寄這種東西給他？

stop trying to blame someone else when you’re the one who kept going even when you knew what it did . he throws an arm over his eyes and waits for his heart to stop pounding as he tries to ignore the brewing guilt.
別再試圖怪罪他人了，明明是你自己明知後果還繼續下去的。他用手臂遮住眼睛，試圖忽略內心翻騰的罪惡感，等待心跳平復。

he doesn’t know what to do. should he check on beomgyu? he hasn’t made a peep since he came, which by the way, soobin felt some kind of twisted pride at. he had come quickly yes, but he’d made beomgyu come even faster. he smiles to himself before realizing just how strange of a person he is, getting happy over messing with their friend like that.
他不知道該怎麼辦。該去看看范奎嗎？自從范奎進來後就沒發出半點聲響——說起來，這讓秀彬莫名湧起一股扭曲的驕傲感。沒錯，自己是來得很快，但他讓范奎來得更快。他暗自微笑，隨即意識到自己真是個怪人，居然因為這樣捉弄朋友而感到開心。

he lays there until he can’t bear the grimy sensation of drying sweat on his skin any longer, rolling out of bed and tugging a pair of pajama pants back on over his boxers. he walks out of his room and passes the kitchen on the way to the bathroom.
他躺著直到再也無法忍受皮膚上汗水乾涸的黏膩感，翻身下床，把睡褲套在四角褲外。走出房間時，他經過廚房往浴室走去。

taehyun’s there getting a bottle of grape juice out of the fridge. they both pause when they see each other, taehyun eyeing his mussed up hair and red cheeks. he feels like a teenager again getting caught masturbating, the shame almost swallowing him whole.
泰賢正在冰箱前拿葡萄汁。兩人對上視線時都愣住了，泰賢盯著他凌亂的頭髮和泛紅的臉頰。他感覺自己又像個手淫被逮到的青少年，羞恥感幾乎要將他整個吞噬。

even worse, tyun keeps flicking his eyes between him and beomgyu’s closed door. he might not fully understand the situation but he definitely heard them both with all their combined moaning. soobin thinks he might faint from how fast his heart is beating as he speeds past taehyun with his head down. he quietly closes the bathroom door and slides down to kick his feet wildly in embarrassment.
更糟的是，泰煥不斷在他和緊閉的房門之間來回瞟視。他或許不完全明白狀況，但肯定聽到了他們此起彼落的呻吟聲。秀彬低著頭快步掠過泰煥時，感覺自己快因心跳過速而昏厥。他輕輕關上浴室門，滑坐在地，羞恥地瘋狂踢蹬雙腳。

no one likes having others know that they just jerked off, least of all a friend so close that he considers him family. he tells himself to look on the bright side. taehyun is the least likely to go around and blab about this to the others. rather than act impulsively he likes to calmly and quietly observe the situation first, but that’s scary too. soobin has no idea what tyun is thinking right now.
沒有人會喜歡讓別人知道自己剛剛自慰過，尤其是對一個親如家人的朋友來說更是如此。他告訴自己要往好處想。泰賢是最不可能到處向其他人張揚這件事的人。與其衝動行事，他更喜歡先冷靜地觀察情況，但這也很可怕。秀彬完全不知道泰賢現在在想什麼。

he gets up with a sigh and hops into the shower to wash off the tacky sweat on his body. when he leaves the bathroom ten minutes later, taehyun’s nowhere to be found and the dorm is silent aside from the air conditioner blasting. he avoids looking at beomgyu’s door as he walks back to his room and collapses on his bed.
他嘆了口氣起身，跳進淋浴間沖掉身上黏膩的汗水。十分鐘後當他走出浴室時，泰亨已不見蹤影，宿舍裡除了空調運轉聲外一片寂靜。他刻意避開望向玟赫的房門，走回自己房間後直接癱倒在床上。

soobin still can’t believe what just happened. less than an hour ago someone had gifted him some type of voodoo pocket pussy that allowed him to fuck his best friend. he didn’t know why he was so calm about it. he was more stunned at the fact that he’d made beomgyu come so easily, almost like soobin was made to please him.
秀彬仍無法相信剛才發生的事。不到一小時前，有人送了他某種巫毒飛機杯，讓他能和自己最好的朋友做愛。他不明白自己為何如此冷靜。更讓他震驚的是，他居然能如此輕易地讓玟赫高潮，彷彿秀彬生來就是為了取悅他。

his cock stirs in his pants and he groans, slipping a hand past the waistband to rub himself. with the other he reaches for the fleshlight, his new best friend. he feels bad for making beomgyu go through another round so soon, but not bad enough. 
他的褲襠又有了反應，他呻吟著將手滑進褲腰自慰。另一隻手則伸向那個飛機杯——他新交的最佳夥伴。雖然對這麼快又要讓玟赫再經歷一次感到有些愧疚，但還不至於愧疚到停手。

later that day they all gather in the living room for dinner. kai carefully knocks at soobin’s door still mindful about his bad mood from earlier and seems confused at how calm he is.
那天稍晚，他們全聚在客廳吃晚餐。Kai 小心翼翼地敲了敲 Soobin 的房門，仍惦記著他早先的壞心情，對於他此刻的平靜感到困惑。

soobin supposes having three orgasms in a row to the thought of beomgyu can do that to a man.
秀彬猜想，光是想到範奎就能讓一個男人連續高潮三次，這種事也是有可能的。

their chicken is delivered just as taehyun turns on the psg soccer game on the tv, and they all settle on the floor before realizing beomgyu still hasn’t come out of his room. 
他們的炸雞外送剛到，泰賢正好打開電視轉播 PSG 足球賽，大夥兒都盤腿坐在地板上，這才發現範奎還沒從房間出來。

“soobin, tell beomgyu to get his ass out here or there won’t be anything left for him to eat,” yeonjun barks, but soobin knows it's all bluffing. there’s a side of tteokbokki they ordered just for him waiting next to kai’s seat.
「秀彬，叫范奎那小子快點滾出來，不然就沒東西給他吃了啦！」然竣大聲嚷嚷，但秀彬知道這只是在虛張聲勢。他們特地為范奎點的那份辣炒年糕，此刻正安安穩穩地放在杋圭座位旁邊等著呢。

still, soobin obediently heads over to his room and pokes his head in when beomgyu doesn’t answer his knock. he’s curled up under the blankets facing away from the door, stirring when soobin approaches.
儘管如此，秀彬還是乖乖地走向房間，在敲門沒得到回應後探頭進去。范奎背對著門蜷縮在被子裡，當秀彬靠近時微微動了動。

“dinner. yeonjun’s getting antsy, you know he likes when we eat together.” beomgyu nods and sits up to stretch his arms, the blanket falling from his chest. soobin gets one look at the small swell of his breasts through his shirt and balls his hands into fists to stop his cock from fattening up again.
「晚餐時間。然竣已經開始焦躁了，你知道他喜歡大家一起吃飯。」范奎點點頭坐起身伸展手臂，毯子從胸前滑落。秀彬透過他的上衣瞥見那微微隆起的胸部曲線，立刻攥緊拳頭阻止自己下身再次充血。

he forces himself to drag his eyes back up to beomgyu’s face and goes pink when he sees the younger’s already matching his stare with an unreadable look. he steps back as beomgyu slips out of bed and pads to the door with a slight limp in his step.
他強迫自己將視線拉回范奎的臉上，當看到對方早已用難以解讀的眼神回望自己時，臉頰頓時泛起紅暈。他後退一步，看著范奎滑下床鋪，腳步略帶蹣跚地走向房門。

he’s limping because of me . soobin wants to both levitate and sink into the ground. he feels so guilty for pushing gyu to his limits to the point that he’s physically showing the effects, but his inner self, the perverse parts that he always tries to push down, are bursting with pride as he watches beomgyu keep adjusting himself where he’s sitting. he’s constantly moving to rest on his knees, pussy sore from the abuse it received earlier. taehyun wordlessly gives him a cushion to sit on and stares evenly at soobin while he desperately tries to pretend he’s very interested in mbappé on the tv screen celebrating a goal or touchdown or whatever they call it.
他跛腳是因為我。秀彬既想飄浮又想鑽進地底。他感到無比愧疚，把奎逼到極限，甚至讓他的身體顯現出影響，但當他看著範奎不斷調整坐姿時，他內心深處那些總是被壓抑的扭曲部分卻充滿了驕傲。範奎不停地換成跪姿休息，私處因先前的粗暴對待而疼痛不已。泰賢默默遞給他一個坐墊，平靜地盯著秀彬，而秀彬則拼命假裝對電視螢幕上慶祝進球或達陣（管他們叫什麼）的姆巴佩非常感興趣。

they finish dinner before the game ends and gradually disperse to their own rooms. soobin waits until beomgyu hands his leftovers to yeonjun to get up, following the smaller boy towards his room.
他們在比賽結束前吃完晚餐，逐漸各自回房。秀彬等到範奎把剩菜交給然竣後才起身，跟著那個較矮的男孩走向他的房間。

“uh, beomgyu.” soobin darts his hand out to catch his arm. they pause at the doorway of his room, the soft glow of the lamp reflecting little sparkles in his eyes. “are you feeling okay?” that doesn’t sound awkward at all . he prays that his ears don’t start glowing red.
「呃，范奎。」秀彬伸手抓住他的手臂。他們在他房門前停下腳步，檯燈的柔和光線在他眼中映出細小的光芒。「你還好嗎？」這聽起來一點都不尷尬。他祈禱自己的耳朵不會開始發紅。

beomgyu looks down at his hand and presses his lips together tightly. “i’m alright hyung. just want some alone time tonight.” soobin loosens his grip at the clear dismissal and beom pulls his arm away to slip into his room. the lock clicks and soobin’s left to look at the little bear stickers decorated on his door. 
范奎低頭看著他的手，緊緊抿住嘴唇。「我沒事，哥。今晚只是想一個人靜一靜。」秀彬感受到明顯的拒絕後鬆開手，范奎抽回手臂溜進房間。門鎖喀噠一聲，留下秀彬獨自看著門上裝飾的小熊貼紙。

soobin sighs and walks back out to the living room to flop onto the couch next to kai.
秀彬嘆了口氣，走回客廳癱倒在凱伊旁邊的沙發上。

“tough day hyung?” he asks.
「今天很辛苦嗎，哥？」他問道。

“the toughest,” soobin responds. “let me destroy you in street fighter.” he boots up the playstation and tries to push the thought of the fleshlight burning a hole under his bed from his mind.
「最難的那種，」秀彬回答。「讓我用《快打旋風》虐爆你。」他啟動 PlayStation，試圖把床底下那根飛機杯正在燒出一個洞的念頭趕出腦海。

beomgyu’s quiet behavior lasts about a day before he’s back to making fun of him like usual. soobin decides to react how he always does, bickering and chasing him around the dorm whenever the younger teases him. when he’s alone in his room, more likely than not he’s jerking his cock raw with the pocket pussy and thinking about beomgyu on his knees looking up at him, pressed face down on the bed, laying on his side while soobin enters him slow from behind, about any position he can think of.
范奎安靜的狀態大概只維持了一天，就又恢復成平常那樣捉弄他的樣子。秀彬決定像往常一樣回應，每當弟弟調侃他時，就在宿舍裡鬥嘴追著他跑。當他獨自在房間時，十有八九正用飛機杯把自己擼到發疼，腦海裡想著范奎跪著抬頭看他的模樣、臉朝下壓在床上、或是側躺著讓他從後面慢慢進入——任何他能想到的姿勢。

he’s probably masturbated more these past few days alone than he has the entire year.
他這幾天獨處時自慰的次數，可能比一整年加起來還多。

but anyways, soobin’s content for now. beomgyu doesn’t seem to be in a rush to bring up the supernatural ghost fucking him several times a day to the other members, not that soobin blames him, and they still get along swimmingly. he’s satisfied. 
總之，目前就先這樣處理玟錫的內容。範奎看起來並不急著向其他成員提起每天被超自然鬼魂纏上好幾次的事，玟錫也不怪他，而且他們相處得依然非常融洽。他很滿意。

about a week later soobin gets the notification that beomgyu had gone live. he pauses the anime he was watching to switch over to weverse, and a few seconds later gyu’s lovely face fills his laptop screen.
大約一週後，秀彬收到通知說範奎開直播了。他暫停正在看的動畫，切換到 Weverse，幾秒後奎那張可愛的臉就佔滿了他的筆電螢幕。

he’s doing a rare live in his bedroom, sitting in his desk chair with the camera positioned carefully so it only films him above his chest and not the rest of the room. he’s chattering to the viewers about his recent shopping haul and soobin can’t stop staring at how pink his mouth is, how it pouts whenever he thinks about something a little hard. he curses as he feels his dick start to thicken in his sweats; these days the mere thought of beom turns him on.
他難得在臥室開直播，坐在書桌前的椅子上，鏡頭小心翼翼地只拍到胸口以上，不讓房間其他部分入鏡。他正興高采烈地向觀眾分享最近的購物戰利品，而珉奐無法移開視線——那張嘴怎麼能這麼粉嫩，每當認真思考時就會微微噘起。他低聲咒罵，感覺睡褲裡的慾望開始脹痛；這些日子光是想到范模就能讓他硬得發疼。

suddenly soobin gets the most wicked idea. he leans over to pull out the box containing the fleshlight from under his bed and grabs his lube from the nightstand drawer. after a moment of consideration he pulls his shirt off as well and tosses it somewhere onto the floor. 
突然間秀彬冒出個邪惡的念頭。他俯身從床底抽出裝著擬真自慰器的盒子，又從床頭櫃抽屜抓出潤滑液。猶豫片刻後，他索性把上衣也脫掉隨手扔到地板上。

soobin eases his pants and boxers down, tucking the waistband under his balls, and runs his hand down his length. he jerks himself off for a couple seconds, watching beomgyu talk until he’s fully hard, and then clicks open the bottle of lube. pointing the opening towards the fleshlight, he squirts the lube directly onto the folds and watches the screen carefully.
秀彬輕輕拉下褲子和內褲，將褲腰塞在睪丸下方，手順著自己的長度滑下。他自慰了幾秒，看著範奎說話直到完全勃起，然後打開潤滑液的瓶蓋。將瓶口對準飛機杯，他直接將潤滑液擠在皺褶上，同時仔細盯著螢幕。

beomgyu is in the middle of talking when he feels the cold sensation on his pussy lips and his voice catches and falters. he immediately hitches a smile back on his face and the interruption is so quick that almost nobody in the chat notices the change in his behavior, but soobin’s watching for every little detail and he can see how gyu’s grin is strained. 
范奎正說著話，突然感受到下唇傳來一陣涼意，聲音頓時卡住、變得結巴。他立刻擠出笑容，這短暫的停頓快得幾乎沒人發現他行為異常，但守彬緊盯著每個細節，清楚看見范奎的笑容有多勉強。

soobin throws the lube aside to grab his cock, stroking himself while he positions the fleshlight. he doesn’t insert it right away, just pushes the tip through the folds over and over while gazing hungrily at his laptop. beomgyu is biting his lip, trying to pick up from his story of how he bought a new water bottle online. 
守彬隨手丟開潤滑液，握住自己的陰莖開始套弄，同時調整著飛機杯的位置。他沒有馬上插入，只是反覆用龜頭磨蹭著杯口的皺褶，飢渴地盯著筆電螢幕。範奎咬著嘴唇，試圖繼續講述他在網上買新水壺的故事。

“um yes, so i decided to go with the blue ohmygod -” gyu chokes as soobin finally slips the head of his cock past his tight entrance. he takes his time, looking down to see the fleshlight flower around the tip.
「呃對，所以我最後選了藍色的天啊——」當守彬終於將龜頭頂進緊窄入口時，範奎發出窒息般的驚呼。守彬慢慢來，低頭看著飛機杯口如花朵般包裹著自己的頂端。

it’s one thing to fuck gyu through a sex toy, it’s another to see his reactions in real time as he’s doing it. beomgyu is breathing heavily on camera and his cheeks are now sporting a red flush. the chat has finally noticed that something strange is going on and there’s a spam as they rush to ask if he’s okay.
用性玩具幹范奎是一回事，親眼看著他當下的反應又是另一回事。鏡頭前的范奎正急促喘息著，雙頰已泛起紅暈。聊天室終於察覺到異狀，訊息如洪水般湧入，眾人紛紛追問他是否安好。

“i’m fine, just bumped my knee against the desk.” beom straightens up and immediately doubles over again when soobin decides to fuck the rest of his cock inside the fleshlight in one go.
「我沒事，只是膝蓋撞到桌子。」范奎試圖挺直身子，卻在下一秒再度彎腰蜷縮——因為秀彬突然將整根肉棒一口氣頂進飛機杯深處。

the silicone pussy is snug and tight around his length and he groans while grinding deep. beomgyu covers his mouth on the screen but his tiny whimpers keep leaking through his fingers and being picked up by the mic. the chat’s going crazy, asking if he’s hurting anywhere and if any of the members are home in case he needs help.
矽膠陰莖套緊緊包裹著他的長度，他低吼著深深抽送。螢幕上的范奎摀住嘴巴，但細小的嗚咽聲仍從指縫間漏出，被麥克風捕捉。聊天室瞬間炸開鍋，紛紛詢問他是否哪裡受傷，或是成員們有誰在家以防他需要幫忙。

“it, it’s okay! everyone i’m okay, my stomach is just cramping really bad, oh ,” he closes his eyes and tilts his head back when soobin massages his tiny clit while circling his hips repeatedly. he’s writhing in his chair at this point, frantically trying to hump something that isn’t there. 
「沒、沒事！大家我沒事，只是肚子突然抽筋好痛，噢...」當秀彬用手指揉弄他小巧的陰蒂並不斷轉動臀部時，他閉上雙眼向後仰頭。此刻他在椅子上扭動著身子，發狂似地想蹭著根本不存在的東西。

soobin lets up with his fingers and worries that he might’ve gone too far and the fans realized something perverse was going on. but maybe the viewers are more naive than he thought because they seem to think beomgyu’s movements are out of panic instead of insane pleasure.
秀彬鬆開手指，擔心自己可能做得太過火，讓粉絲們察覺到某種變態的事情正在發生。但或許觀眾比他想的還要天真，因為他們似乎認為範奎的動作是出於驚慌，而非瘋狂的快感。

soobin supposes that if he saw somebody as agitated as beomgyu on a livestream, he would also think it was caused by distress instead of being fucked by a ghost cock.
秀彬心想，如果他在直播中看到有人像範奎那樣躁動不安，他大概也會以為那是出於痛苦，而非被鬼魂的陰莖幹到失神。

he decides to stop touching his clit since beomgyu comes almost instantly any time he lavishes it with attention, and he stills his hips to give him time to recover. on screen gyu rouses from his daze and seems to register how he looks, hair messy and cheeks flushed and sweater crumpled from where he was clutching onto it with his fist like a lifeline. he looks ravished and desperate to be fucked.
他決定不再碰自己的陰蒂，因為每次只要稍加撫弄，范奎就會立刻高潮，於是他停下腰部的動作，讓對方有時間恢復。螢幕上的奎從恍惚中回神，似乎意識到自己此刻的模樣——髮絲凌亂、雙頰潮紅，毛衣被他像救命稻草般緊攥的拳頭揉得皺巴巴。他看起來活像被狠狠疼愛過，又渴望更多。

soobin checks how long the live has been on. he’s just hit the 10 minute mark. he can practically hear the gears in beomgyu’s head turning, his baby had always been smart.
秀彬查看直播已進行多久。剛好滿十分鐘。他幾乎能聽見范奎腦中飛轉的思緒，他家寶貝向來聰明。

leaving now would be the best thing for his image. he had no idea if the “ghost” would keep fucking with him, and he was already so undone by just a few minutes of having a cock inside him. on the other hand, leaving so abruptly would cause even more agitation from the fans and would basically all but confirm that something is terribly wrong with his condition today. if there’s one thing beomgyu hates, it’s making the fans worry about him.
現在離開對他的形象來說是最好的選擇。他完全不知道那個「鬼魂」會不會繼續騷擾他，光是幾分鐘內被一根陰莖插入就已經讓他徹底崩潰了。但另一方面，突然離場只會讓粉絲更加躁動，基本上等於間接證實他今天的狀態出了嚴重問題。如果說有件事是范奎最討厭的，那就是讓粉絲為他擔心。

he sets his jaw and soobin knows what he’s chosen. he grins and starts shallowly rocking his hips again, taking it slow since the fans are on high alert.
他咬緊牙關，秀彬立刻明白他做了什麼選擇。秀彬咧嘴一笑，開始緩緩擺動臀部，考慮到粉絲們正高度關注，他刻意放慢動作。

beomgyu does his best to grit his teeth and rid his face of any sign of interruption, smiling weakly at the camera.
範奎努力咬緊牙關，不讓臉上露出任何異樣，對著鏡頭勉強擠出微笑。

“don’t worry everyone, i’ve just been feeling a bit under the weather today. i coincidentally also ate some eggs that huening cooked for lunch, maybe that’s why?” he looks relieved when laughing emojis fill the chat. “what did everyone eat for dinner today?”
「大家別擔心，我只是今天有點不舒服。剛好中午還吃了休寧煮的雞蛋，說不定是因為這樣？」看到聊天室充滿大笑表情符號，他露出鬆了口氣的表情。「各位今晚吃了什麼呢？」

taking the opportunity when everyone is busy writing their answers, soobin pulls out until only the tip of his cock is nestled inside the fleshlight and then slowly buries himself inch by inch. it’s torture, the lazy pace that he sets, but he’s feeling a bit nice and doesn’t actually want beomgyu to get caught. he keeps going until his cock hits the blunt end of the pocket pussy, grinding deep and petting at the folds stretched around himself. then he moves his hand upward to give a light spank to his clit. the beomgyu on his laptop jolts in response and tries to pass off his sudden movement with a cough.
趁著大家都在專心寫答案的空檔，秀彬緩緩抽身，直到只剩龜頭還嵌在名器裡，接著一寸寸重新埋入。這種慵懶的節奏簡直是折磨，但他心情不錯，其實也不想讓杋圭被發現。他持續挺進直到肉棒抵達擬真女體的盡頭，深深碾磨著被撐開的皺褶，手指還輕撫著周圍。然後他抬手輕彈了一下自己的陰蒂，筆電畫面裡的杋圭頓時渾身一顫，試圖用咳嗽掩飾突如其來的動作。

soobin smirks, giving the lightest little tickles to the small bud while slightly increasing the speed of his hips. beomgyu keeps slouching in his desk chair with every brush of his fingers, mouth hanging loosely open and eyes glazed over.
秀彬嘴角微揚，指尖輕撫著那小巧的花蕾，同時微微加快了腰部的律動。每一次指尖的輕觸都讓範奎在辦公椅上越發癱軟，雙唇微張，眼神迷濛。

if it weren’t for the music playing in the background the live would be entirely silent. at least it could pass off as him zoning out and being too focused on the song? beomgyu’s increasingly more distracted, rendered cock dumb with just a few touches to his clit. soobin snorts to himself and taps at his clit again.
若不是背景音樂仍在播放，這場直播恐怕會完全靜默。至少還能假裝他是因為太專注於歌曲而恍神？但範奎顯然越來越分心，僅僅是陰蒂被輕撫幾下就讓他腦袋一片空白。秀彬暗自嗤笑，又輕彈了一下那敏感的小核。

“ah, i’m sorry everyone, i’m all over the place today. i might have to go since hueningie wanted to eat chicken now that he just got back to the dorm,” beomgyu pants. “i know it was a short live but i just wanted to come in quickly to say hi hnn -”
「啊...抱歉各位，我今天有點心不在焉。可能得先下線了，因為休寧剛回宿舍說想吃炸雞...」範奎喘息著說，「雖然直播很短，但就想趕快來打個招呼...嗯...」

his voice wobbles as soobin rolls his clit firmly between his fingers and starts up a brutal pace with his cock, fucking in roughly and carving a space for himself in the fleshlight. beomgyu claps a hand over his mouth and rushes a goodbye, ending the live promptly without the usual capture time and basically sending the thousands of viewers rushing to twitter to discuss his odd behavior.
當秀彬用指腹重重碾壓他的陰蒂，同時以近乎殘暴的節奏抽插著自慰套時，範奎的聲線明顯顫抖。他猛地摀住嘴倉促道別，連慣例的截圖時間都沒留就切斷直播，讓數千名觀眾立刻湧向推特討論他反常的舉動。

soobin watches his screen go dark as he rolls his hips over and over into the pocket pussy. he can hear beomgyu through the thin walls again, little staccato moans punched out of him and reverberating into his own room. he’s pumping his cock so furiously that his hand is red and drenched in sweat from where he’s gripping the pocket pussy tightly.
秀彬看著螢幕轉暗，同時不斷將腰身壓進手中的飛機杯。薄牆那頭又傳來玟奎的動靜，斷續的呻吟聲穿透牆壁，在他房裡迴盪。他瘋狂抽送著自己的陰莖，緊握飛機杯的手掌已泛紅，汗水浸濕了整個掌心。

feeling the same wickedness from earlier that had made him mess with gyu in the first place, he suddenly rips his cock out of the sex toy and listens to beomgyu’s confused cry as his cunt is abruptly left clenching around nothing. grinning, soobin rubs his cock raw until he’s tipping over the edge and wringing hot cum all over the folds of the fleshlight.
感受到先前那股讓他忍不住捉弄玟奎的邪惡念頭再度湧現，他突然將性器從玩具中抽出，聽著玟奎因穴口驟然空虛絞緊而發出的困惑嗚咽。秀彬咧嘴一笑，粗暴地摩擦著自己硬挺的陰莖直到瀕臨高潮，將滾燙精液盡數擠在飛機杯的皺褶間。

he collapses on his side and rolls closer to the wall. he can hear beomgyu whimpering softly, left at the precipice of orgasm by the cruel ghost who didn’t want him to come. even worse, huening kai takes that moment to knock on beom’s door, calling out, “hyung? everyone’s talking about your live online, is something wrong?”
他側身倒下，滾向牆邊更近些。他能聽見范奎輕聲嗚咽，被那個殘忍的、不願讓他高潮的幽靈留在快感的懸崖邊緣。更糟的是，休寧凱偏偏在這時敲響范奎的房門，喊道：「奎哥？大家都在討論你直播的事，發生什麼了嗎？」

when beomgyu doesn’t answer, kai says in a more distressed tone, “i’m coming in hyung.”
見范奎沒有回應，凱用更加擔憂的語氣說：「我要進來了，哥。」

“no! no huening-ah, i’ll come out for the chicken in a bit, just give me a minute and hyung will come,” beomgyu yells frantically.
「不行！休寧啊別進來，我等等就出去吃炸雞，再給我一分鐘，哥馬上出去。」范奎慌亂地大喊。

“okay…yeonjunie hyung said he wants to talk to you too, we’re all worried.” kai finally walks back to the living room and soobin can almost imagine beomgyu sighing in relief.
「好吧…然竣哥說他也想跟你談談，我們都很擔心。」凱終於走回客廳，而秀彬幾乎能想像范奎如釋重負嘆氣的模樣。

laughing, he pictures a dazed looking gyu across the wall trying to collect himself before he leaves his room. he knows he didn’t come yet either, and his pussy was probably soaked in slick and hungry for more cock. he’d have to go out and sit through dinner, as well as a talk with yeonjun while the older tried to figure out what the hell had happened during the livestream. it was gonna be a long night for him. 
他笑著想像牆另一邊的 Gyu 一臉茫然的樣子，正試圖在離開房間前讓自己冷靜下來。他知道對方也還沒達到高潮，而那濕透的小穴肯定正渴望著更多肉棒。他得出去應付晚餐，還得和 Yeonjun 談話，聽年長者試圖搞清楚直播時到底發生了什麼事。今晚對他來說會很漫長。

soobin checks social media at the end of the night, fingers scrolling down twitter on his private account that he uses when he wants to see the fans’ reactions to their content.
深夜時分，秀彬滑著私人帳號的推特，手指不斷向下滑動，想看看粉絲們對他們作品的回饋。

one search of beomgyu’s name results in hundreds of tweets sprawling across his phone screen. the top results are about his live from earlier, many tweets worried about his strange behavior that occurred in the middle. they talk about how he seems stressed and in pain, hoping for a fast recovery.
輸入「beomgyu」搜尋後，數百則推文瞬間佔滿手機螢幕。最上方的結果都是關於他稍早的直播，許多推文都在擔憂直播中途他那反常的舉止。粉絲們討論著他看起來壓力很大且痛苦，希望他能早日恢復。

a few, soobin notes, are a bit braver and say what they really think.
秀彬注意到有幾則推文特別大膽，直接說出了真實想法。

“is it just me or did beomgyu look like he was getting fucking railed here” one tweet asks. it’s buried by dozens of replies ranting about oversexualization and soobin huffs out a laugh at how protective and defensive they are. if only they knew the fan was a lot more accurate than they thought. 
「只有我覺得 beomgyu 那時候看起來像被幹到腿軟嗎」某則推文寫道。這則推文被數十則回覆淹沒，內容全在抨擊過度性化偶像的行為。秀彬看著粉絲們過度保護又防衛心強的模樣忍不住笑出聲。要是他們知道那位粉絲的猜測其實準得驚人就好了。

he lays his phone down beside him and shifts until he’s facing the wall. is beomgyu doing the same on the other side?
他將手機放在身旁，轉身面向牆壁。另一邊的范奎是否也正做著同樣的事？

the increasingly familiar feeling of guilt sweeps over him as he remembers how uncharacteristically subdued the younger had been that night. since the fleshlight thing had started, beomgyu hadn’t really shown any changes in his behavior, bright and bubbly as always while still having a sharp tongue when it came to playfully bullying the other members, but today soobin might’ve gone a bit too far judging by the way beoms had quietly listened to yeonjun hyung’s talk with his head bowed.
當他想起那晚范奎異常安靜的模樣，那股愈發熟悉的愧疚感便席捲而來。自從那件事開始後，范奎的行為其實沒有太大變化，依舊活潑開朗，對成員們的玩笑式欺負也保持著伶牙俐齒。但今天，從范奎低頭聆聽玹峻哥訓話的樣子來看，秀彬可能真的做得太過火了。

“were you just fooling around or what? if you’re not feeling great you should’ve just ended the live instead of continuing when your condition is already poor,” yeonjun scolds.
「你是在胡鬧還是怎樣？如果身體不舒服就該直接結束直播，而不是硬撐著繼續。」玹峻責備道。

“...i didn’t want our fans to think something was wrong. i really thought i could keep going without anyone noticing hyung!” beomgyu looks down at his hands clenched together in his lap, lips twisted in a pout.
「...我不想讓粉絲們覺得有什麼不對勁。我真的以為可以繼續下去，不會有人發現的，哥！」范奎低頭看著自己緊握在膝上的雙手，嘴唇噘起，一臉委屈。

“they already knew something was up from the beginning, now everyone’s spamming the company about you,” yeonjun sighs. he pauses at beomgyu’s crestfallen face and reaches a finger out to nudge him under his chin, prompting him to look up. “if you don’t feel good, that should always be more important than continuing a stupid live, okay?”
「他們從一開始就察覺到不對勁了，現在大家都在瘋狂私訊公司問你的狀況。」然竣嘆了口氣。他看著杋圭沮喪的表情，伸出手指輕抬他的下巴，讓他抬起頭來。「如果你不舒服，永遠比繼續那該死的直播重要，懂嗎？」

beomgyu had nodded in understanding and given yeonjun a small smile to show that he didn’t feel upset about the lecture. still, he had been a little more solemn the rest of the evening and retired to his room without much fuss.
範奎理解地點點頭，並對然竣露出一個小小的微笑，表示他對那番訓話並不感到難過。不過，那天晚上剩下的時間裡，他還是顯得有些嚴肅，沒多說什麼就回自己房間了。

soobin stares at the wall and imagines beomgyu staring at him back. he’s probably still awake, thinking about the live and cursing himself for succumbing to the ghost so easily.
秀彬盯著牆壁，想像著範奎也正盯著他看。範奎可能還醒著，想著直播的事，並咒罵自己這麼輕易就屈服於那個鬼魂。

not the ghost, but soobin.
不是鬼魂，是秀彬。

he sighs and rolls over until he’s laying with his back against the wall.
他嘆了口氣，翻身直到背靠著牆躺著。

logically soobin knows that he can’t continue going on like this forever. while the fleshlight is nice, his conscience always whispers about how he’s a perverted weirdo that enjoys pseudo-fucking his bandmate.
從邏輯上來說，秀彬知道自己不可能永遠這樣下去。雖然飛機杯用起來很舒服，但他的良心總是在耳邊低語，說他是個變態怪胎，竟然享受著假裝和隊友做愛的滋味。

there’s also the fact that he’s head over heels in love with the aforementioned bandmate. the sex toy was fun but soobin can’t go on pretending he’s happy with just that. he thinks he might die if he has to jack off with a fake pussy and pretend it’s beom one more time.
還有一個事實是，他已經徹底愛上了前面提到的那位團員。情趣玩具固然有趣，但秀彬無法繼續假裝自己只滿足於此。他覺得如果再假裝那個假陰道是範模，然後自己打手槍一次，他可能會死掉。

it’s the right thing to do, he tells himself. beomgyu needs to know what he’s been doing, what soobin’s been doing to him for the past month. he vows that he’ll tell him by the end of the week.
這樣做是對的，他告訴自己。范奎必須知道這一個月來他做了什麼，知道秀彬對他做了什麼。他發誓要在這週結束前告訴他。

the only occasion they both have time for a long talk is during one of their rare free days. unfortunately the other members all decide to stay at the dorm that day too, playing games in the living room and generally just causing a ruckus.
他們唯一能長時間談話的機會，是在難得的休息日。不幸的是，那天其他成員也都決定待在宿舍，在客廳打遊戲，鬧哄哄的。

“beomgyu-yah. can i talk to you for a minute? in my room,” soobin adds when yeonjun and taehyun exchange looks from where they’re sitting on the floor.
「范奎啊，可以跟你談一下嗎？到我房間。」秀彬補充道，因為他看到連準和太顯坐在地板上交換眼神。

“ah hyung, i was just about to crush hyuka in a round of mario kart,” beomgyu pouts but gets up from the couch obediently, softly padding to his bedroom.
「啊，哥，我正要在一場瑪利歐賽車中碾壓 Hyuka 的說，」Beomgyu 嘟著嘴，但還是乖乖從沙發上起身，輕輕地走向自己的臥室。

he beelines to soobin’s bed, sprawling himself on the covers while bemoaning how the room smells of odi. soobin follows and squishes himself against the headboard.
他直奔秀彬的床鋪，整個人攤在床單上，一邊抱怨房間裡有歐迪的味道。秀彬跟著爬上床，把自己擠在床頭板旁邊。

beomgyu snorts. “why are you all the way over there? is my handsomeness intimidating you?” he belts out a loud laugh that dies quickly when soobin doesn’t respond. “what’s up with you today?”
範奎嗤笑一聲。「你幹嘛躲那麼遠？是被我的帥氣嚇到了嗎？」他大聲笑出來，但見秀彬沒反應又立刻收住笑聲。「你今天怎麼回事？」

soobin keeps running his hands through his hair, pulling at his bangs and tangling it into knots. he feels like he might throw up, he’s so nervous.
秀彬不斷用手指梳過頭髮，拉扯著瀏海把它們纏成結。他緊張得感覺自己快要吐出來了。

“beomgyu-yah…would you hate me for keeping secrets from you?”
「範奎啊...如果我對你隱瞞秘密，你會討厭我嗎？」

at this point gyu’s sitting up properly, staring at him through his long lashes. like a pretty doll . “you’re gonna have to say more than that hyung. what are you hiding from me?”
此時的圭已經坐直了身子，透過他長長的睫毛盯著他看。就像個漂亮的洋娃娃。「你得說得比那更多才行，哥。你在瞞我什麼？」

soobin opens his mouth, closes it. he knots his fingers together and looks down at the bedsheet. 
秀彬張開嘴，又閉上。他十指交纏，低頭盯著床單。

“i know this is gonna sound so crazy. and you’ll probably hate me at the end of this, and i’m so sorry beomgyu. hyung got a weird package about a month ago and i opened it and it was a fleshlight.” he glances up and immediately looks away when he sees the blank expression on the other’s face.
「我知道這聽起來很瘋狂。聽完你可能會恨我，對不起范奎。哥一個月前收到一個奇怪的包裹，我打開後發現是個飛機杯。」他抬眼瞥了一下又立刻別開視線，因為看見對方臉上茫然的表情。

“i tried it out that same day and then i heard you. moaning in your room matching my movements. and it’s so ridiculous but i sort of realized that i got some kind of magic sex toy connected to you and i kept going even though i figured it out. i’ve been using it almost every day, when you’re showering, when you’re trying to eat dinner with kai, even that time you went live in your room, it was all me. i’m just such a piece of shit doing that to you, scaring you like that and hyung’s so sorry .” he buries his head in his hands, can’t bear to see beomgyu’s disgust as he registers that his best friend has been taking advantage of him like this.
「當天我就試用了，然後聽見你的聲音。你在房間裡呻吟的節奏跟我動作完全同步。雖然很荒謬，但我發現這好像是某種跟你相連的魔法情趣用品，即使知道了還是繼續用。我幾乎每天都會用，趁你洗澡時、跟凱吃飯時，甚至那次你在房間直播的時候，都是我幹的。我真是個爛人，這樣對你、嚇唬你，哥真的很抱歉。」他把臉埋進手掌，不敢面對范奎發現摯友這樣佔他便宜時露出的嫌惡表情。

it’s silent for a few moments. all he can hear is his own ragged breathing and quiet rustling noises until beomgyu finally speaks up.
片刻的靜默中，他只聽見自己粗重的喘息與細碎的窸窣聲，直到范奎終於開口。

“hyung, i knew."  「哥，我早就知道了。」

“ ...what ?” soobin yanks his head up and stares incredulously at beomgyu. he scoffs and smiles wryly as he crosses his arms.
「...啥？」Soobin 猛地抬起頭，難以置信地盯著 Beomgyu。他嗤笑一聲，苦笑著交叉雙臂。

“i knew, hyung. maybe not the fleshlight part right away, but i’ve known you were connected to this weird ghost shit from the very beginning.” he pauses and laughs as soobin continues to gape at him.
「我早就知道了，哥。可能不是一開始就曉得那個飛機杯的部分，但我從一開始就知道你跟這些詭異的鬼東西有關聯。」他停頓了一下，看著秀彬繼續張口結舌的模樣笑了出來。

“hyung, you’re loud . that first day i thought i was going crazy feeling someone invisible fuck me like that, and even when i tried to push it away there was nothing there to push! i almost called yeonjun hyung to come home from the company i was so freaked out.” he stops to scoot closer to where soobin’s huddled at the end of the bed.
「哥，你聲音太大了。第一天我還以為自己瘋了，感覺有個隱形人那樣幹我，就算我想推開也摸不到任何東西！我差點就要打電話叫 Yeonjun 哥從公司回來，真的嚇死我了。」他說著往床尾蜷縮的 Soobin 那邊挪了挪。

“then I heard you moaning in your room every time this invisible cock slammed into me. and when you came, the ghost finally stopped and it didn’t take me long to figure out it was you fucking me.”
「後來我發現每次那根隱形雞巴捅進來時，你房間就會傳出呻吟聲。等你高潮後，那鬼東西就停了，沒多久我就發現原來是你在幹我。」

soobin thinks he might pass out. beomgyu knew from the very beginning? but why didn’t he put a stop to this after the first time? he voices his questions out loud.
Soobin 覺得自己快暈過去了。Beomgyu 從一開始就知道？但為什麼第一次後不阻止這件事？他把疑問大聲說了出來。

beomgyu looks thoughtful as he says, “i was going to talk to you about it but taehyunnie was at the dorm then too and i thought it was an awkward timing. and later that day it happened again and-” he stops talking and bites his lip.
Beomgyu 露出思索的表情說道：「我本來想跟你談，但那時候 Taehyunnie 也在宿舍，覺得時機有點尷尬。結果當天晚上又發生了一次，而且——」他話說到一半咬住嘴唇。

soobin stares. there's a faint blush on his cheeks and he can’t seem to look soobin in the eye. it’s completely different from his playful demeanor a minute ago.
秀彬盯著看。他的臉頰微微泛紅，似乎不敢直視秀彬的眼睛。這與他剛才嬉鬧的模樣截然不同。

“…what made you decide not to say anything?”
「…你為什麼決定不說出來？」

beomgyu huffs. “i liked it, okay? i didn’t know if you knew that i could feel you when you were jacking off, and it felt good and i hadn’t gotten laid in a while. so i thought…maybe it could go on for a little while longer.”
beomgyu 哼了一聲。「我喜歡這樣，行了吧？我不知道你清不清楚我能感覺到你在自慰，而且感覺很好，我已經很久沒做愛了。所以我想…或許可以再持續一陣子。」

he finally looks at soobin and immediately threatens, “get that dumb look off your face right now.”
他終於看向 soobin，立刻威脅道：「馬上把你臉上那蠢表情給我收起來。」

“what look, i’m not doing anything!”
「看什麼看，我又沒幹嘛！」

“that half smug half dazed look! ugh, this is why i didn’t want to tell you,” beomgyu rolls his eyes and makes to get off the bed.
「那種半得意半恍惚的表情！唉，這就是為什麼我不想告訴你，」范奎翻了個白眼，作勢要從床上起身。

“i’m sorry, wait!” soobin finally untucks himself from his hunched position to lunge forward and grab beomgyu’s wrist. “i still need to ask. how’d you figure out it was a fleshlight and not just me jacking off?”
「對不起，等等！」秀彬終於從蜷縮的姿勢中掙脫，撲向前抓住范奎的手腕。「我還得問清楚。你怎麼知道那是飛機杯而不是我在自慰？」

beomgyu settles back onto the bed and adjusts his bangs with his fingers like he always does. he was so cute. “well you’re not the smartest are you? there was that time i was eating ice cream with jjunie hyung at the dining table while you were on the couch and i felt the ghost start to finger me. it was so embarrassing when hyung asked why i kept wiggling around.”
範奎用手指撥了撥瀏海，像平常那樣重新躺回床上。他真是可愛極了。「你也不是最聰明的那個對吧？有次我跟俊哥在餐桌吃冰淇淋，你坐在沙發上，我就感覺到那隻鬼開始用手指弄我。當俊哥問我為什麼一直扭來扭去時，簡直尷尬死了。」

soobin remembers this, a moment of evilness spurred by his irrational jealousy when he had come home to find out beoms and yeonjun had gone out on an ice cream run without him. they barely said hi when he came in, so engrossed were they in their stupid conversation.
秀彬記得這件事，那是他回家發現範奎和然竣沒找他一起去買冰淇淋時，因無理嫉妒而產生的邪惡念頭。他進門時他們連招呼都沒好好打，只顧著聊他們那些愚蠢的話題。

fueled by irritation and pettiness, he’d gone into his room and stuffed the fleshlight into his backpack before trotting back outside to collapse on the couch. while the other two were busy eating their ice cream and giggling about god knows what, soobin had discreetly slipped his hand in his bag and sank a finger deep inside the sex toy.
被煩躁與小心眼驅使，他走進房間把那根自慰套塞進背包，然後蹦蹦跳跳地回到客廳癱在沙發上。當另外兩人忙著吃冰淇淋、為某些天知道的事情咯咯笑時，秀彬已經悄悄把手伸進背包，將一根手指深深插進那根情趣玩具裡。

he watched beomgyu from the corner of his eye while pretending to be engrossed in his phone. beomgyu was finished with his ice cream cone and had been listening to yeonjun tell a cute story about his nephew when he stiffened, wincing at the finger stretching him dry. soobin removed his finger to pet at his clit apologetically, rolling the little bud so that beomgyu’s pussy would get all sticky and wet.
他假裝專注於手機，眼角餘光卻偷瞄著 beomgyu。beomgyu 剛吃完甜筒冰淇淋，正聽著 yeonjun 講述關於他侄子的可愛故事，突然僵住了身子，因那根探入乾澀甬道的手指而皺眉。soobin 抽出手指，歉疚地撫弄他的陰蒂，揉捻那小小的花核，讓 beomgyu 的私處變得濕黏一片。

one glance at beomgyu and it was obvious he wasn’t listening to a word yeonjun was saying. he was staring at him but his mouth was hanging open and his hands were grabbing his thighs tightly.
只看一眼就知道，昶旻根本沒在聽玧峻說的話。他雖然盯著對方，但嘴巴微張，雙手緊緊抓著自己的大腿。

soobin left his clit to slip two fingers into the fleshlight, petting lightly at the walls. it felt a bit odd to finger an inanimate object but it was worth it when he saw beomgyu let out a full body shiver.
秀彬將手指從陰蒂移開，轉而將兩指探入飛機杯內，輕柔地撫弄內壁。雖然撫摸無生命物體感覺有些怪異，但當他看見範奎渾身顫抖時，這一切都值得了。

his hands fell from his thighs to the space between his legs and soobin almost came in his pants right there as he realized beomgyu was softly grinding his own wrist against his cunt. 
範奎的雙手從大腿滑向腿間，當秀彬發現他正用腕部輕輕磨蹭自己的私處時，差點當場射在褲子裡。

soobin silently thanked yeonjun for being so oblivious as he continued to blabber on, this time about a new vinyl that he had received as a present.
秀彬暗自感謝然竣的遲鈍，因為對方仍在喋喋不休地談論收到的新黑膠唱片禮物。

beomgyu was still slightly rocking in his chair and soobin increased the pressure of his fingers. he wasn’t just stroking but actively looking for that patch that would have beomgyu unraveling, and he knew he found it a second later when beomgyu lowered his head and quietly moaned.
範奎仍在椅子上微微晃動，秀彬加重了手指的力道。他不只是單純抽插，而是刻意尋找能讓範奎崩潰的那個點——當範奎低頭發出輕聲呻吟時，他知道自己找到了。

“yah, are you okay?” yeonjun stopped his story to stare at the younger with a concerned look. he lifted a hand and moved to put it on beomgyu’s shoulder and soobin glared. don’t touch him.
「喂，你還好嗎？」然竣停下故事，一臉擔憂地盯著弟弟。他抬起手正要搭上范奎的肩膀，秀彬立刻瞪了過去。別碰他。

he furiously rubbed at beomgyu’s g-spot and he gasped, his hips bucking forward as he collapsed against the table. yeonjun’s hand was knocked away and soobin relaxed, letting up with his fingers.
他憤怒地摩擦著范奎的 G 點，范奎倒抽一口氣，臀部向前挺起，整個人癱軟在桌上。然竣的手被撞開，秀彬這才放鬆下來，抽回了手指。

he didn’t want to make beomgyu cum right now, didn’t want yeonjun to see his face when he orgasmed, and maybe he was a bit upset and wanted to punish beomgyu for barely acknowledging him when he came home.
他現在不想讓范奎高潮，不想讓然竣看到范奎高潮時的表情，或許他還有點生氣，想懲罰范奎剛才回家時幾乎沒正眼看他。

he slipped his fingers out of the fleshlight and went back to playing pokemon go on his phone. beomgyu was panting into the table while yeonjun stared in confusion.
他將手指從飛機杯抽出來，繼續低頭玩手機裡的《Pokemon GO》。范奎趴在桌上喘著氣，然竣則一臉困惑地呆站在原地。

“i’m okay hyung…i think i’m just going through some cramps again.” beomgyu finally lifts his head and waves the older away 
「我沒事，哥…我想我只是又開始有點抽筋了。」范奎終於抬起頭，揮手示意哥哥不用擔心

“jesus, i was about to ask! you kept moving and fidgeting just like that live you did last time when you didn’t feel good. take medicine and get some sleep if you still feel shitty.” yeonjun patted his back and stood up to throw away his trash. “think i’ll go to bed as well. goodnight beomgyu, soobin.”
「天啊，我正想問呢！你剛才一直動來動去，就像上次直播時不舒服的樣子。如果還是不舒服就吃藥睡覺吧。」然竣拍了拍他的背，起身去丟垃圾。「我也該睡了。晚安范奎、秀彬。」

once he had left the room, soobin stood up to follow. “i’m going too. goodnight beomgyu-yah.” he grabbed his bag and zoomed to his bedroom without waiting for a response, applauding himself for getting away with discreetly playing with beom in public.
等然竣離開房間後，秀彬也起身跟上。「我也要睡了。晚安范奎啊。」他抓起包包，沒等回應就衝回自己房間，暗自慶幸能在大夥面前偷偷玩弄范奎還沒被發現。

well, not as discreet as he thought.
好吧，其實沒他想的那麼隱密。

“i could feel you fingering me even though you were right there on the couch! so i realized that it wasn’t just when you were jacking off, you had something that could make me feel things,” beomgyu explained. he kept scooting forward whenever soobin shrank himself back into the headboard. “and when you said goodnight i noticed you were holding your bag so tightly and it just kind of. made me suspicious and i might’ve gone into your room to snoop through your things while you were showering?” he smiles and bats his lashes.
「就算你坐在沙發上，我還是能感覺到你在用手指玩我！所以我發現不只在你自己打手槍時，你還有其他方法能讓我產生感覺。」范奎解釋道。每當秀彬往床頭縮，他就繼續往前蹭。「而且你說晚安時，我注意到你把包包抓得超緊，這就有點...讓我起疑，所以趁你洗澡時，我可能溜進你房間翻了你的東西？」他眨著眼睛露出微笑。

soobin can’t even bring himself to be mad at him. lord knows he’s done way worse to his dongsaeng in this month alone, and how can he get upset when beomgyu’s looking at him like that?
秀彬甚至沒辦法對自己生氣。老天知道光是這個月他就對弟弟做了更過分的事，而且當範奎那樣看著他時，他怎麼可能生氣呢？

“so you went through my room and what did you see?”
「所以你翻了我的房間，看到什麼了？」

beomgyu rolls his eyes. “you know damn well what i saw. the first thing i did when i went into your room was open your backpack and see that stupid fleshlight, and i touched it and felt my pussy tingle!”
beomgyu 翻了個白眼。「你明明知道我看到什麼。我一進你房間就翻你背包，看到那個蠢飛機杯，我還摸了它，結果下面整個發癢！」

“why were you touching my fleshlight?”
「你幹嘛摸我的飛機杯？」

“that’s not the point. the point! is that i immediately knew that you had been using it to fuck me.” beomgyu smiles proudly.
「重點不是這個。重點是！我馬上就知道你用那玩意兒幹我了。」beomgyu 得意地笑著。

soobin swallows. swallows again. “aren’t you mad?”
秀彬嚥了嚥口水。又嚥了一次。「你不生氣嗎？」

“mad about what?” beomgyu looks puzzled. he had somehow moved even more when soobin wasn’t paying attention, and now he’s sitting right in front of him.
「生氣什麼？」杋圭一臉困惑。在秀彬沒注意的時候，他不知怎麼又挪得更近了，現在就坐在他正前方。

“i was…using you, using the fleshlight even when i knew it was connected to you, and! i made you cum on a livestream in front of thousands of people! you’re really not upset about that?”
「我...是在利用你，明明知道那東西連接著你，卻還是用了飛機杯！而且！我還讓你在直播中當著成千上萬人的面高潮了！你真的不生氣嗎？」

he beams and crawls forward and suddenly soobin has a lap full of a soft pretty beomgyu. “well, by that point i knew that it was you using the fleshlight to fuck me, and i kind of really liked it.”
他燦笑著爬向前，突然間秀彬腿上就坐了個柔軟漂亮的范奎。「嗯，那時候我就知道是你用飛機杯幹我，而且我還蠻喜歡的。」

soobin’s died. he really thinks he might be dead because never in his life did he imagine he would ever be able to see beomgyu like this, perched on his lap as he smiles down at him. 
秀彬覺得自己死了。他真心認為自己可能已經死了，因為他這輩子從沒想過能看到范奎這樣，坐在他腿上低頭對他微笑。

soobin vaguely registers that his hands are trembling where they automatically come to rest on beomgyu’s hips. his arms raise to circle soobin’s neck comfortably as he continues, “it was sort of like a public claim, as public as we could ever be as idols. you know, you showing everybody what you alone can do to me, how turned on you make me.”
秀彬隱約注意到自己的手在顫抖，它們自動搭上了范奎的腰際。范奎的手臂舒適地環上秀彬的脖子，繼續說道：「這有點像是公開宣示，作為偶像能做的最大限度的公開。你知道的，你向所有人展示只有你能對我做的事，你讓我多麼興奮。」

soobin can barely breathe. “i turn you on?”
秀彬幾乎無法呼吸。「我讓你興奮？」

“so much, hyung. do you wanna feel it?” he takes one of soobin’s big hands in his own and lowers it down down down until it's pressed against beomgyu’s cunt. 
「太多了，哥。你想感受看看嗎？」他握住秀彬的大手，引導著那隻手緩緩下移，直到貼上範奎的私處。

he almost chokes on his spit, but even though he’s caught off guard his hand immediately starts to rub beomgyu through the material of his baggy pajama shorts. his head falls forward to rest against soobin’s as he whines.
秀彬差點被自己的口水嗆到，儘管措手不及，他的手仍立即隔著寬鬆的睡褲布料開始摩挲範奎。範奎將額頭抵上秀彬的前額，發出嗚咽般的呻吟。

“beomgyu-yah. can hyung kiss you?” beomgyu peers at him with glittery eyes and nods.
「beomgyu 呀。哥可以親你嗎？」beomgyu 用閃閃發亮的眼神望著他，點了點頭。

his lips are plush and full as soobin hesitantly presses against them. he pulls back and beomgyu’s gazing at him, a smile tugging at the corners.
他的唇瓣柔軟飽滿，秀彬猶豫地貼了上去。他退開時，看到範奎正凝視著他，嘴角揚起一抹笑意。

“you can do better than that, hyung.” he slides his fingers through the hair at the scruff of his neck and pulls soobin in to kiss him.
「哥，你可以做得更好。」他將手指滑入對方後頸的髮絲間，一把將秀彬拉近親吻。

this time soobin is hungry, lips moving against beomgyu’s as he cups his jaw. he tilts beomgyu’s face to the side to better slot their mouths together and takes the opportunity to slip his tongue inside when he moans.
這次秀彬顯得飢渴，捧著范奎的下巴激烈索吻。他側過臉調整角度讓雙唇更密合，趁對方呻吟時將舌頭滑了進去。

beomgyu’s tongue is hot and slick when it meets soobin’s in the middle. their lips smack as they push against each other and they separate for a moment to change the angle, deepening the kiss further.
當范奎的舌頭與秀彬交纏時，那濕熱觸感讓兩人唇瓣廝磨出嘖嘖水聲。短暫分開調整姿勢後，這個吻變得更加深入。

“hyung- you’re so pretty i want you so badly- need you-” beomgyu sighs as soobin ducks his head to trail kisses down his neckline. he arches when soobin sucks a fat mark on his adam’s apple and tangles his slender fingers in his hair.
「哥...你好美...我太想要你了...需要你...」范奎喘息著，秀彬已低頭沿著他頸線烙下吻痕。當秀彬在他喉結吮出紅痕時，他仰起脖頸，纖長手指深深陷入對方髮間。

“beomgyu-yah, wait for a second.” soobin tears himself away from the enticing curve of his neck and loops his arms around his waist.
「beomgyu 呀，等一下。」soobin 依依不捨地從他誘人的頸部曲線抽離，雙手環抱住他的腰際。

he continues, “i know i already said i was sorry, but i’m gonna say it again. hyung’s sorry for treating you like that. you- you deserve to be treated prettily, not like a cheap fuck that can be discarded without a second thought. i want to care for you and fuck you right and love you properly- if you’ll have me.”
他繼續說道：「我知道我已經道過歉了，但我還是要再說一次。哥對不起那樣對待你。你——你值得被好好對待，而不是像個可以隨手丟棄的廉價玩物。我想照顧你、好好疼你、用正確的方式愛你——如果你願意的話。」

his hands are trembling again. beomgyu grins and ducks his head to press a soft kiss onto his cheek. “of course hyung- i forgive you. and i’ve waited a long time for you to love me back.”
他的手又在顫抖了。范奎咧嘴一笑，低頭在他臉頰上輕輕一吻。「當然啊哥——我原諒你。而且我等你回應我的愛已經等很久了。」

soobin stares up at him with his big eyes, lips parted, and beomgyu giggles.
秀彬睜著那雙大眼睛仰望著他，嘴唇微張，范奎咯咯笑了起來。

“you really do look like a dumb bunny.”
「你真的好像隻傻兔子。」

“ah, why are you ruining the mood,” soobin complains, but he shuts up a second later when beomgyu licks into his mouth.
「啊，幹嘛破壞氣氛啦，」秀彬抱怨道，但當范奎的舌頭探進他嘴裡時，他立刻安靜了下來。

soobin pushes him back against the bed and he falls with a dramatic yelp that soobin immediately shushes.
秀彬將他推回床上，他伴隨著一聲誇張的驚呼倒下，秀彬立刻示意他安靜。

“everyone’s outside and the walls are so thin, but i really want to fuck you. can i?” beomgyu nods and flushes, any sign of humor wiped from his face as he gazes up at soobin with lidded eyes.
「大家都在外面而且牆壁這麼薄，但我真的好想上你。可以嗎？」杋圭點點頭，臉頰泛紅，所有幽默的神情都從他臉上消失，他用半閉的眼睛仰望著秀彬。

he throws his shirt to the side and stands to pull off his sweats. he settles back down on the bed, making to take off his glasses but beomgyu stops him with a hand on his wrist.
他將上衣甩到一旁，起身脫掉運動褲。他重新坐回床上，正準備摘掉眼鏡時，杋圭卻伸手抓住他的手腕阻止了他。

“keep them on for me? you look so cute.”
「可以幫我繼續戴著嗎？你看起來好可愛。」

soobin gulps and obeys, instead leaning down to kiss him breathless. he unzips his gray hoodie and helps him out of it, running a hand down his stomach and then back up. he looks inquisitively at beomgyu, who nods, and cups a small breast in his hand.
秀彬吞了吞口水，順從地俯身將他吻得喘不過氣。他拉開灰色連帽衫的拉鍊，幫他脫下衣服，手掌沿著腹部滑下又撫回。他詢問似地看向玟琦，得到點頭回應後，便用手掌輕輕捧住一方柔軟。

beomgyu naturally has a slender frame so he barely ever wears a binder at the dorm, and his tits look even smaller when cradled in soobin’s big hands. still, he can’t get enough of them as he eagerly rolls the nipples between his fingers.
玟琦天生骨架纖細，在宿舍幾乎不穿束胸，此刻那對小巧渾圓在秀彬的大掌中更顯玲瓏。但秀彬仍貪戀地以指尖揉捻著挺立的乳尖，怎麼也嚐不夠這份甜美。

breathing a little heavier now, beomgyu runs a hand through soobin’s hair when he bends to suck a nipple into his mouth. he grazes the bud with his teeth and laves at it with his tongue while he continues to fondle the other.
玟琦呼吸漸重，當秀彬低頭將乳尖含入口中時，他手指穿過對方髮絲。秀彬用牙尖輕磨著綻放的蓓蕾，舌尖來回舔舐，同時另一隻手仍持續愛撫著另一側的柔嫩。

“hyung, hyung, hurry please.” beomgyu begs and tugs at his hair with one hand until he comes back up to kiss him. with his other he fumbles for the waistband of soobin’s boxers, shoving it down to grab at his aching cock.
「哥、哥，快點拜託。」范奎哀求著，一手拉扯著自己的頭髮直到對方重新湊上來吻他。另一手則胡亂摸索著玟準的內褲邊緣，急不可耐地扯下後一把抓住那根發燙的硬挺。

soobin hisses into his mouth and wraps his own hand around beomgyu’s as he tries to jerk him off. he looks down to watch their hands move together; beomgyu doesn’t have small hands at all but they look positively tiny under his own while trying to properly rub nine inches of cock.
秀彬嘶嘶地吸著氣，將自己的手覆在範圭的手上，試圖幫他打手槍。他低頭看著他們一起動作的手；範圭的手其實不小，但在試圖好好搓弄那九英寸的肉棒時，在他手下顯得格外嬌小。

“hyung you’re so big,” beomgyu says, staring at his cock with wide eyes. “how did you fit all this into that tiny fleshlight?”
「哥你真的好大，」範圭睜大眼睛盯著他的陰莖說道。「你是怎麼把這全部塞進那個小飛機杯的？」

soobin cocks his head. “i didn’t? there were always a couple inches that weren’t able to fit and i had to rub at it myself.”
秀彬歪了歪頭。「我沒有啊？總是有幾英寸塞不進去，我得自己用手弄。」

“so. you mean you weren’t even fucking me with your entire cock?” beomgyu looks lightheaded. he suddenly gets a determined look on his face as he pushes soobin back to sit on his lap again. “i wanna ride you hyung. you were always the one fucking me, and now i wanna be the one to control the pace.”
「所以...你的意思是，你之前根本沒用整根屌幹我？」范奎看起來頭暈目眩。他突然露出堅定的表情，再次把秀彬推回自己腿上坐好。「哥，這次換我騎你。以前都是你在幹我，現在該輪到我來掌控節奏了。」

there’s a flurry of movement as they both quickly rush to discard the rest of their clothes and suddenly they’re both naked, skin sliding together as they breathe each other’s air. soobin runs his hands down beomgyu’s back to his ass cheeks, grinning as he says, “small and cute. perfect for me.”
兩人手忙腳亂地褪去剩餘衣物，轉眼間便赤裸相貼，肌膚廝磨間交換著彼此的氣息。秀彬的手沿著範奎的背脊滑至臀瓣，咧嘴笑道：「又小又可愛。正合我意。」

beomgyu eyes him. “damn right it is. the best ass you’re ever gonna get.” he lifts himself onto his knees and reaches a hand down to line soobin’s cock up against his opening. his mouth opens into a little “o” as he sinks down slowly.
範奎睨了他一眼。「那當然。這可是你這輩子能遇到最棒的屁股。」他屈膝跪起，伸手將秀彬的性器對準自己入口。當他緩緩沉下身子時，雙唇不禁張成小小的「O」形。

soobin completely forgets his own warning earlier about being quiet and lets out the filthiest moan. the fleshlight is nothing compared to this, the searing sticky heat that sucks him in and swallows him up. he whines as beomgyu slides back up, clenching around the sensitive tip of his cock.
秀彬完全忘了自己先前要對方安靜的警告，發出最為淫靡的呻吟。比起這般熾熱黏膩、將他吞噬吸吮的觸感，飛機杯根本不算什麼。當範奎向上滑動，夾緊他敏感頂端時，他忍不住嗚咽出聲。

“you’re too big hyung, i don’t know if it’ll all fit in me,” beomgyu mewls.
「哥太大了...我不確定能不能全部吃進去...」範奎帶著哭腔呢喃道。

“it’ll fit, don’t worry, it won’t hurt after a bit,” soobin coaxes him to sink back down until half his cock is snug inside his pussy. he brings his hand to his clit, rubbing circles to soothe him while thrusting his hips up gently until finally, finally he’s sliding all nine inches deep into beomgyu.
「會進去的，別擔心，過一會兒就不痛了。」Soobin 輕聲哄著他，讓他慢慢往下坐，直到半根陰莖都舒服地埋進他的小穴裡。Soobin 的手撫上他的陰蒂，畫著圈安撫他，同時輕輕向上頂弄，直到終於——終於將那九英寸全數沒入 Beomgyu 體內。

they stop for a minute. beomgyu’s panting as he tries to get used to the huge cock inside him and soobin is biting his lip raw stopping himself from fucking into that tight wetness.
他們停頓了一會兒。范奎喘著氣，試圖適應體內那根巨大的陽具，而秀彬則咬著嘴唇幾乎要咬出血來，強忍著不讓自己衝進那緊緻濕熱的甬道。

beomgyu finally shifts to roll his hips and they both groan into each other’s mouth. he has his hands propped on soobin’s shoulders, using them for support as he lifts himself up until the head of his cock is barely inside and slams down so soobin’s balls slap against his ass.
範奎終於扭動臀部，兩人同時在彼此的唇間發出呻吟。他雙手撐在秀彬的肩膀上，藉此支撐自己抬起身體，直到性器頂端幾乎滑出，再猛然坐下，讓秀彬的囊袋重重拍打在他的臀瓣上。

“hyung, i fuh- feel so good,” beomgyu whines, small tits bouncing in soobin’s face. he leans forward to capture a nipple in his mouth again, simultaneously snapping his hips up to chase that little rough patch on his pussy walls. a second later beomgyu squeals and clamps his pussy down on soobin’s cock, coming hard with his eyes rolled back. his cunt clenches rhythmically, greedily trying to coax the cum out of him.
「哥，我、我好舒服，」範奎呻吟著，小巧的乳房在秀彬眼前晃動。他傾身再次含住乳頭，同時挺腰追尋著陰道壁那處粗糙的敏感點。下一秒範奎尖叫出聲，陰道緊緊絞住秀彬的陰莖，高潮時雙眼翻白。那處嫩肉貪婪地律動收縮，試圖榨出更多精液。

beomgyu sags against his chest as he comes down from his high, his pussy twitching over and over.
beomgyu 在高潮後癱軟在他胸前，他的小穴不斷抽動著。

“beomgyu-yah, baby, can i roll us over please? i need you, please let me fuck you, please,” soobin begs, bouncing him lightly on his cock when beomgyu nods in affirmation.
「範奎呀，寶貝，可以讓我翻身嗎？我需要你，求求你讓我上你，求你了。」秀彬懇求著，當範奎點頭同意時，輕輕地在他身上起伏。

they switch positions, beomgyu on his back and supported with pillows while soobin settles in between his thighs. he props one leg on his shoulder, holding the other under the knee to the side as he rocks slowly into his cunt.
他們交換了位置，範奎仰躺著，背後墊著枕頭，而秀彬則跪在他的雙腿之間。他將一條腿架在肩上，另一手從膝蓋下方握住另一條腿往旁邊帶，同時緩緩地挺進他的穴裡。

beomgyu keens, sensitive, when he begins to up the pace. he makes grabby hands until soobin lets his legs go to bend down, pressing their mouths together as beomgyu wraps his arms around his shoulders. his legs slide down to hug his waist, trying to pull him closer when they’re already melted together, sweaty skin rubbing against each other.
范奎急切又敏感，當他開始加快節奏時。他會伸出雙手直到秀彬放開雙腿彎下腰，兩人唇齒相接的同時范奎環抱住他的肩膀。他的雙腿滑下來環住秀彬的腰際，即使兩人早已汗濕黏膩地融為一體，仍試圖將他拉得更近。

“it feels so different than when you fucked with me with the fleshlight,” beomgyu gasps out.
「這感覺跟你用飛機杯搞我的時候完全不一樣，」范奎喘息著說道。

“tell me how it’s different,” soobin says while nibbling on his ear lobe.
「告訴我有什麼不同，」秀彬輕咬著他的耳垂說道。

“it’s- i can feel you, whenever your cock is pulsing inside me and splitting me open, and i can see your face when you feel good. i like you so much soobin-ah,” he moans softly.
「就是...我能感覺到你，每當你的陰莖在我體內跳動、將我撐開時，我都能看見你舒服的表情。秀彬啊，我真的好喜歡你...」他輕聲呻吟著。

soobin groans and speeds up, hips jackrabbiting into beom’s pussy over and over. every inch of their skin is touching and he still feels the insane need to be closer. beomgyu digs his heels into his ass to bring him in further, grind in a little deeper. 
秀彬低聲呻吟，加快節奏，臀部像野兔般不斷撞進範的蜜穴。他們每一寸肌膚都緊貼著，他卻仍瘋狂渴望更親密的接觸。範奎用腳跟抵住他的臀部，將他拉得更近，讓交合更加深入。

his thusts start to get more erratic as he approaches climax, eyebrows furrowing and sweat dripping off his neck. he can’t seem to take his eyes off beomgyu, who stares right back even with sweet whimpers continuously dripping from his lips. he lowers himself until his elbows are bracketing gyu’s face, licking into his mouth.
隨著高潮逼近，他的衝刺變得更加凌亂，眉頭緊鎖，汗水從頸間滑落。他無法將視線從珉奎身上移開，而珉奎即使唇間不斷溢出甜膩的嗚咽，仍直勾勾地回望著他。他俯身直到手肘框住珉奎的臉龐，舌尖探入對方口中。

he fucks in extra slow and watches as beomgyu sobs and squirts all over himself.
他緩慢地抽插著，看著範奎哭喊著噴濺在自己身上。

“baby…” soobin says in an awed tone. he lowers a hand down to rub at the clear sticky strings that cover his cock, sucks a finger into his mouth. beomgyu stares at him through bleary eyes and whines when he reaches out for another swipe.
「寶貝…」秀彬用驚嘆的語氣說道。他伸手抹過沾滿自己性器上晶瑩黏稠的液體，將手指含入口中。模糊視線中，範奎盯著他的動作，當對方再次伸手撫摸時發出了嗚咽聲。

“i didn’t know people could actually do that,” soobin sounds amazed.
「我原本不知道人類真的能做到這種事，」秀彬的聲音充滿驚奇。

“didn’t know either, it’s the first time i’ve done it,” beomgyu gasps out. “couldn’t help it when you’re making me feel like this, hyung.”
「我也不知道，這是我第一次這樣，」範奎喘息著說。「但你讓我感覺這麼好，我忍不住啊，哥。」

soobin curses as beomgyu pulls him into a hug, pressing his face into his neck. he breathes in his calming scent that can only be described as just so beomgyu, and his hips stutter until he finally buries himself deep inside his tight pussy and comes.
當範奎將他拉入懷抱，把臉埋進他頸間時，秀彬低聲咒罵。他吸入那股令人安心的氣息——那獨一無二只屬於範奎的味道，胯部顫動著直到最後深深埋入那緊緻的甬道內釋放。

he shudders as his cock explodes ropes of burning hot cum, painting the walls of his burning cunt with white. soobin orgasms for what feels like forever, whimpering into beomgyu’s neck while gripping his hips so tightly that he knows he'll leave little bruises. he gives shallow little thrusts until beomgyu groans in oversensitivity and pulls out slowly.
他顫抖著，陰莖噴射出滾燙的精液，在他熾熱的穴內壁塗抹上一片雪白。秀彬的高潮彷彿永無止境，嗚咽著將臉埋進杋圭的頸窩，雙手緊掐著對方的腰際，他知道肯定會留下淡淡的瘀青。他仍淺淺地抽送著，直到杋圭因過度敏感而呻吟出聲，緩緩退出。

soobin collapses on top of beomgyu, face smushed in between his soft tits. he feels him stroking his hair and goes through a wave of love so intense that he immediately raises his head to kiss him breathless.
秀彬整個人癱倒在范奎身上，臉蛋深陷在他柔軟的胸脯間。感受到范奎正輕撫著自己的髮絲，一股洶湧的愛意瞬間襲來，讓他立刻抬頭吻住對方，直到兩人都喘不過氣。

“i can’t breathe when you’re on me like this, you’re like a big dog,” beomgyu tears his mouth away to complain.
「你這樣壓著我，我快不能呼吸了，你就像隻大狗一樣，」范奎把嘴移開抱怨道。

he thinks about flicking his forehead but holds back. instead, he pushes himself up to grab his discarded shirt from next to the bed and wipes beomgyu down first, then himself, before shifting until they’re flat on their backs next to each other.
他本想彈他的額頭但忍住了。取而代之的是，他撐起身子從床邊抓起被丟棄的襯衫，先幫范奎擦拭，然後才輪到自己，接著挪動身體直到兩人並肩平躺。

it’s quiet for a minute as they regain their breath and their hearts stop pounding so fast.
他們靜默了一會兒，讓呼吸平復，心跳不再那麼劇烈。

“hyung, i’m thirsty,” beomgyu says while staring at the ceiling.
「哥，我口渴，」范奎盯著天花板說道。

“that’s nice to know,” soobin yawns, stretching his arms above his head.
「知道這個還不錯，」秀彬打了個哈欠，把手臂伸到頭頂上方伸展。

beomgyu glares and reaches a hand out to smack his chest. “need i remind you what you’ve put me through this last month alone?”
beomgyu 瞪了一眼，伸手往他胸口拍了一下。「需要我提醒你這一個月來你讓我經歷了什麼嗎？」

soobin rolls out of bed to get his water.
秀彬從床上滾下來去拿他的水。

he pulls on his sweatpants before leaving the room, suddenly remembering that the other members are in the dorm. he sighs inwardly and braces himself for some knowing looks and sly comments as soon as he opens the door but there’s no one in the living room. a quick glance at the open bedroom doors shows that everybody probably left as soon as they heard the first moan.
他套上運動褲離開房間時，突然想起其他成員都在宿舍。他在心裡嘆了口氣，準備好開門後會面對一些了然的目光和揶揄的調侃，但客廳裡空無一人。快速掃過敞開的臥室門後，他猜測大家大概在聽到第一聲呻吟時就全溜走了。

well, maybe not everybody.
嗯，或許不是所有人。

soobin makes eye contact with taehyun in the kitchen and gets a strong sense of deja vu. he feels like he had been in this same situation about a month ago, with the same feeling of being caught doing something naughty.
秀彬在廚房與泰煥四目相對，強烈的既視感襲來。他感覺自己一個月前就經歷過同樣的場景，那種做壞事被抓包的窘迫感如出一轍。

he clears his throat. mumbles a greeting as he walks past him to open the fridge and take out the water filter. he’s filling up beomgyu’s favorite mug when taehyun asks, “so what happened with beomgyu hyung?”
他清了清喉嚨。低聲打招呼的同時快步走過對方身邊，打開冰箱取出濾水壺。正往范奎最愛的馬克杯倒水時，泰煥突然開口：「所以你和范奎哥怎麼了？」

soobin splashes some water on his hands as he turns to look at him. “ah- with beomgyu? i just wanted to talk to him about something, nothing bad so don’t worry about it.”
秀彬一邊洗手一邊轉頭看向他。「啊—跟範奎嗎？我只是想跟他談點事情，不是什麼壞事，別擔心。」

“sounded like more than just talking,” taehyun snorts, putting the last of his dishes away.
「聽起來可不只是聊天那麼簡單。」泰亨哼了一聲，把最後的碗盤收好。

“we didn’t! well…”  「我們才沒有！呃...」

taehyun shoots him an exasperated look. “we all heard it hyung, and i’m letting you know right now that yeonjun hyung’s gonna grill you as soon as he gets back to the dorm with kai. but i’m just happy my gift worked out for you two.” he smiles and pats soobin’s shoulder before walking back to his room with his homerun ball snacks. he’s left frozen standing at the counter.
太顯投給他一個無奈的眼神。「我們都聽到了啦，哥，我現在就告訴你，等然竣哥和凱回宿舍後肯定會好好拷問你。不過我很高興我送的禮物對你們兩個有用。」他笑著拍拍秀彬的肩膀，然後拿著他的全壘打球零食走回房間。留下秀彬一個人僵在原地，呆站在櫃台前。

what did he just say?
他剛剛說了什麼？

soobin shoves the water back into the fridge and returns to beomgyu in a daze. a gift. taehyun’s gift. for him and beomgyu. what else could he be talking about? but how the hell could taehyun get his hands on something like that ? and why would he send it to soobin of all people?
秀彬恍惚地把水塞回冰箱，回到范奎身邊。一份禮物。泰賢的禮物。給他和范奎的。還能是什麼意思？但泰賢到底怎麼弄到那種東西的？又為什麼偏偏要寄給秀彬？

“what’s up with you?” beomgyu asks in between gulps of water. his hair’s a pretty mess around his head and he looks like a puppy. heh, maybe soobin can be the samoyed to his maltese.
「你怎麼了？」范奎邊大口喝水邊問。他的頭髮亂糟糟地散在頭上，看起來像隻小狗。呵，或許秀彬可以當他的薩摩耶，配他這隻馬爾濟斯。

soobin reaches out to cradle his jaw and slot their mouths together. he takes the mug from beomgyu’s hand, placing it on the nightstand before bending down to pepper kisses down his stomach.
秀彬伸手捧住他的下巴，將兩人的唇貼在一起。他從范奎手中接過馬克杯放在床頭櫃上，俯身在他腹部落下細碎的吻。

he’ll talk to taehyun after this maybe, figure out what the hell he meant with his comment. but first-
也許他之後會去找泰賢聊聊，搞清楚那句話到底是什麼意思。但首先——

“i’m thirsty too.” soobin lays down between beomgyu’s thighs and gets to work.
「我也渴了。」秀彬躺在范奎的大腿間，開始動作。