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When Beomgyu and Soobin were roommates, it never occurred to them (read: Beomgyu) that they would one day have separate rooms. 
當范奎和秀彬還是室友的時候，他們（準確來說是范奎）從沒想過有一天會分房睡。

And even though Beomgyu begged and pleaded for things to stay the same, they eventually had to separate. 
儘管范奎苦苦哀求希望能維持現狀，他們最終還是得分開。

Thankfully, Beomgyu and Soobin got rooms right beside each other (either by luck or by design. Beomgyu doesn’t know which). 
幸好，范奎和秀彬的房間就在彼此隔壁（不知是巧合還是刻意安排，范奎自己也搞不清楚）。

Even more thankfully, they won’t be moving dorms anytime soon (or so they were told). 
更值得慶幸的是，短期內他們不用再搬宿舍了（至少管理層是這麼說的）。

Otherwise, they’d be in a lot of trouble. Because there’s a rather permanent alteration to their dorm that would be a costly fix to repair. 
否則他們可就麻煩大了。因為宿舍裡有個相當「永久性」的改動，要修復可得花上一大筆錢。

The day they moved into their new dorm, Beomgyu whined and whined and whined, screaming at the top of his lungs to be heard through the wall “Soobin hyung! If you just shared a room with me, I wouldn't have to yell through the wall to talk to you!”
搬進新宿舍那天，范奎一直哀嚎個不停，隔著牆壁扯開嗓子大喊：「秀彬哥！要是你跟我同房，我就不用隔著牆壁吼著跟你說話了！」

“Ahh!! So noisy!!” Came Soobin’s reply, even louder than Beomgyu’s initial complaint. 
「啊！！吵死了！！」秀彬的回應甚至比范奎最初的抱怨還要大聲。

“If you two don’t shut up, I’m going to kick you both out.” Came Yeonjun with his loudest yell, punctuated by a door slam. 
「你們兩個再不閉嘴，我就把你們都踢出去。」然竣用最大的音量吼道，還伴隨著甩門的巨響。

Yeonjun’s efforts at getting them to shut up were futile. Beomgyu knocked obnoxiously on Soobin’s walls and pressed his face against the wall to make unintelligible noises at the top of his lungs. 
延俊試圖讓他們閉嘴的努力完全徒勞無功。範圭煩人地敲著秀彬的牆壁，還把臉貼在牆上，用盡全力發出含糊不清的噪音。

He even refused to answer any of Soobin’s phone calls, insisting that they talk through the wall instead just to prove “how much more difficult it is now that they aren’t rooming together”.
他甚至拒絕接聽秀彬的任何電話，堅持要隔著牆壁對話，只為了證明「現在他們沒住在一起有多不方便」。

“It’d be so much better if there’s wasn’t this stupid wall in the way.” Beomgyu threw his hands in the air as he gave a defeated huff to punctuate the sentence. 
「要是沒有這面該死的牆擋在中間就好了。」範圭雙手一攤，挫敗地嘆了口氣作為這句話的結尾。

To which Soobin responded with an elegant solution (that was born because he moved in his nightstand and made a dent in the wall). Instead of trying to fix the new dent in the brand-new dorm, he just decided to take care of two problems at once. He pulled his fist back and punched just as quickly, clearly not putting in any effort. The wall groaned with a harsh crack and gave way. 
對此秀彬提出了一個優雅的解決方案（起因是他移動床頭櫃時在牆上撞出了凹痕）。與其試圖修復嶄新宿舍牆上的新凹痕，他決定一舉解決兩個問題。他收回拳頭然後迅速出擊，明顯沒使什麼力氣。牆壁發出刺耳的碎裂聲後便應聲破開。

Beomgyu could only stare in shock with his mouth ajar. After all, there’s something sexy about Soobin using little effort to make a break in the wall that went through both Soobin’s wall and his own.  
范奎只能目瞪口呆地盯著看。畢竟，看到玟爀不費吹灰之力就在牆上打出一個貫穿兩人房間的洞，實在有種莫名的性感。

And now there’s a hole in the wall that connects their rooms. It’s only about 12 centimeters wide, and it’s an eerily perfect circle. 
現在牆上多了個連接兩人房間的洞。直徑大約 12 公分，圓得詭異又完美。

Beomgyu pokes his face through the hole and smiles like he’s Jack Nicholson in The Shining . He can’t fit his entire head, but his small face has perks since he can fit his eyes, nose, and mouth through. 
范奎把臉湊近洞口，笑得像《鬼店》裡的傑克·尼克遜。雖然塞不進整顆頭，但他小巧的臉蛋正好能讓眼睛、鼻子和嘴巴都穿過洞口。

Soobin giggles at Beomgyu’s silly antics and pokes his nose repeatedly until Beomgyu grimaces and pulls back, scratching his now-ticklish nose. 
玟爀被范奎的滑稽動作逗笑，不停地戳他的鼻子，直到范奎皺著臉縮回去，抓著發癢的鼻頭。

“Soobin hyung…” Beomgyu’s voice is more audible than it was before, probably because of the absence of two layers of drywall. “How are you going to explain this?” He vaguely gestures to the gaping hole in the wall, which is quite close to the floor but still prominent. 
「秀彬哥…」范奎的聲音比之前更清晰了，大概是因為少了兩層石膏板的阻隔。「你打算怎麼解釋這個？」他模糊地比劃著牆上那個靠近地板卻依然顯眼的破洞。

“I won’t. If they have a problem with it, I’ll pay someone to fix it.” Soobin speaks with certainty, though it’s entirely likely that he’ll catch an earful for it if it’s found.
「我不解釋。如果他們有意見，我就花錢請人來修。」秀彬說得斬釘截鐵，儘管這破洞要是被發現，他很可能會被狠狠訓斥一頓。

Sometimes, when Beomgyu is bored, he likes to peek in and see what Soobin is doing. 
有時候，當范奎感到無聊時，他喜歡偷瞄一眼，看看秀彬正在做什麼。

Realistically, it’s a little stalkerish. Beomgyu’s guilt nags at him a little when he spends hours watching Soobin do mindless tasks like playing video games at 4am or feeding Odi. 
說實話，這行為有點跟蹤狂的傾向。當范奎花上好幾個小時偷看秀彬做些無意義的事情，比如凌晨四點打電動或餵食 Odi 時，罪惡感總會隱隱作祟。

Nothing excessively creepy, just peeking in and being intertwined in Soobin’s life the way he’s used to. When they were roommates, Beomgyu always had a front row view of domestic Soobin, and he feels unsettled without that domesticity. 
沒有什麼過度詭異的舉動，只是像往常那樣窺探並融入玟其的生活。當他們還是室友時，範奎總能近距離觀察居家狀態的玟其，而現在少了那份日常感讓他感到不安。

Currently, Soobin is watching Violet Evergaren, because of course he’s watching anime instead of talking to his members (Beomgyu, the only one left in the house). Yeonjun and Taehyun have gone out for the night, and Huening Kai is eating dinner with his sister to celebrate the announcement of plans for their next comeback. 
目前，Soobin 正在看《紫羅蘭永恆花園》，因為他當然寧可看動畫也不願和團員們聊天（Beomgyu 是唯一還待在宿舍的人）。Yeonjun 和 Taehyun 今晚外出，而 Huening Kai 則和妹妹共進晚餐，慶祝他們下次回歸計畫的公布。

Which means it’s just Beomgyu and Soobin at the dorms. Beomgyu asked Soobin to play video games with him, but Soobin brushed him off, requesting alone time. Back when they roomed together, Soobin would eagerly say yes, and they would play video games well into the night, giggling about how bad Soobin is and how much better Beomgyu is.
這意味著宿舍裡只剩下范奎和秀彬。范奎邀秀彬一起打電動，卻被對方以想獨處為由婉拒。以前同寢時，秀彬總會爽快答應，兩人常玩到深夜，邊笑鬧著秀彬技術多爛、范奎有多厲害。

Soft moments of domesticity are what Beomgyu misses most about their old dorm. The new dorm is nicer in every way, but he’d give almost anything to have Soobin back as his roommate. Because he’s sentimental like that. 
最讓范奎懷念舊宿舍的，就是那些溫馨的日常片段。新宿舍各方面都更好，但他幾乎願意付出一切換回和秀彬同寢的日子。因為他就是這麼念舊的人。

Since that’s not happening any time soon, he’ll settle for stalking Soobin through the hole. Like now, where he’s reading the subtitles on Soobin’s TV. It’s almost like he’s there, sitting on the bed, cuddling with him while watching. 
既然短期內不可能如願，他只好滿足於透過牆洞偷看秀彬。就像現在，他正讀著秀彬電視上的字幕。幾乎就像他也在房裡，坐在床上依偎著對方一起看節目。

Almost , but not quite. Because he doesn’t get to experience the warmth of Soobin directly. 
幾乎像而已，終究還是不一樣。因為他無法直接感受秀彬的體溫。

He does , however, get an influx of hoodies from Soobin after whining about missing his presence. Soobin always gives him a hoodie that’s been worn for an extended period of time, and when Beomgyu lifts the too-large sleeves to his face and inhales, it smells exactly like Soobin. A mix of fruity shampoo, Old Spice deodorant, sweat, and something distinctly Soobin that he can’t put his finger on.
不過，在抱怨想念秀彬後，他確實收到了對方源源不絕的連帽衫。秀彬總會給他一件穿過很久的連帽衫，當范奎把過大的袖口湊到臉前深吸一口氣時，那氣味完全就是秀彬的味道——混合著水果香洗髮精、Old Spice 體香劑、汗水，還有某種他無法具體形容、但專屬於秀彬的氣息。

And every morning, he returns the hoodie to Soobin and gets another one in return. Passing the hoodie back and forth.
每天早晨，他都會把連帽衫還給秀彬，再換回另一件。就這樣來回傳遞著那件連帽衫。

One night, when Beomgyu was feeling burnt out, he came back to his room and saw two hoodies that were haphazardly pushed through the hole in the wall, sitting in a tangled heap on the floor.
某天晚上，范奎感到精疲力竭時回到房間，看見兩件連帽外套被人隨意從牆洞塞進來，凌亂地堆疊在地板上。

Distinctly Soobin in the fact that the hoodies were too large for Beomgyu and in the fact that they’re sitting on the floor in a discarded heap when they could’ve been neatly placed next to his door.
那絕對是秀彬的風格——因為外套尺寸對范奎來說太大件，而且明明可以整齊放在門邊，卻被隨手扔在地上堆成一團。

But the gesture is enough to make Beomgyu cry into the sleeves of Soobin’s hoodie. Hugging himself and shrinking into a ball so he can drown in the swimming fabric. He’s greeted with a wave of comfort and calm that he would’ve gotten if he were cuddling with Soobin himself. 
但這個舉動已足以讓范奎把臉埋進秀彬外套的袖口哭泣。他環抱自己蜷縮成球，讓整個人淹沒在寬大衣物裡。此刻湧現的安心與平靜，就像直接擁抱著秀彬本人時會感受到的一樣。

The next morning, Beomgyu only returns one dry hoodie and keeps the other. Soobin doesn’t ask about the other one, though. 
隔天早晨，范奎只歸還了一件乾爽的外套，另一件則自己留著。不過秀彬並沒有追問另一件的下落。

And it sits in a precious corner of his closet, hidden but never forgotten.
它被珍藏在他衣櫥的一角，隱藏卻從未被遺忘。

Honestly, the hole in the wall was the best thing to ever happen to Beomgyu. For a few main reasons. 
老實說，牆上的那個洞對范奎來說是發生過最棒的事。主要有幾個原因。

One, Soobin’s back is always turned to the hole, but Beomgyu’s bed and desk face the hole, so he can always see what Soobin’s doing. 
第一，秀彬的背總是對著那個洞，但范奎的床和書桌正對著洞，所以他總能看到秀彬在做什麼。

And, since Soobin is a scaredy cat, he can scare Soobin at the most auspicious moments.
而且，因為秀彬是個膽小鬼，他總能在最吉利的時刻嚇到秀彬。

Such as now. When Soobin has earbuds in, wearing nothing but a loose T-shirt and shorts, leaning against the wall near the hole, painfully focused on reading the notes about the upcoming schedule. Typically, Soobin’s door is locked during serious moments like these. 
比如現在。當秀彬戴著耳機，只穿著寬鬆的 T 恤和短褲，靠在牆邊的洞口旁，全神貫注地閱讀著關於即將到來的行程的筆記時。通常，在這種嚴肅的時刻，秀彬的門都是鎖著的。

But since they have an unclosable hole in the wall…and he’s standing right there…there’s nothing stopping him from scaring him. 
但既然牆上有個關不上的洞…而且他就站在那裡…根本沒什麼能阻止他嚇唬他。

Beomgyu stalks across the room, taking extra care not to step on the squeaky wood boards on the way. He crouches achingly slow, holding his knees so they don’t pop. 
范奎躡手躡腳地穿過房間，特別小心避開那些會吱呀作響的木地板。他緩慢得令人發疼地蹲下，雙手撐著膝蓋避免發出喀嚓聲。

Once he’s settled onto the floor, he steadily snakes his hand through the hole towards Soobin’s exposed leg. Once his hand is right next to Soobin’s ankle, he lets out a scream and grabs him, exclaiming “Got ya!”
當他終於在地板上安頓好姿勢，便穩穩地將手從牆洞伸向露出腿的秀彬。就在手掌貼近秀彬腳踝的瞬間，他突然放聲尖叫並抓住對方，大喊「抓到你了！」

Soobin’s reaction is more than worth the tedious task of sneaking across the room, because he literally jumps so high that he smacks his head on the ceiling, letting a loud and high-pitched scream.
秀彬的反應完全值得這番費心潛行的功夫——他嚇得整個人彈跳起來，腦袋直接撞上天花板，發出尖銳又高亢的慘叫聲。

“SHIT! What the fuck was that!!!” Soobin breaths border on hyperventilation as he tries to calm his racing heartbeat. He looks around and notices the hole…more specifically, the sounds of cackling emanating from across the wall. 
「幹！他媽的什麼鬼東西！！！」秀彬喘得幾乎要過度換氣，拼命想平復狂跳的心臟。他環顧四周發現了那個牆洞...更準確地說，是聽見牆對面傳來的猖狂笑聲。

Beomgyu. That fucker. 
范奎。那個混蛋。

Soobin barges out the door and storms into Beomgyu’s room, where Beomgyu is clutching his stomach and doubling over with laughter. The tears are pooling at the corners of his eyes from how hard he’s laughing.
秀彬衝出門，闖進范奎的房間，只見范奎正捧著肚子笑到直不起腰。他笑得實在太誇張，眼角都擠出了淚花。

“H-hyung. Oh hyung, you’re so funny.” Beomgyu’s voice comes out in a breathy choke, clearly unable to speak from the intensity of his laughter. 
「哈...哈...哥。噢哥，你太好笑了啦。」范奎氣音中帶著笑嗆，顯然因為笑得太厲害而說不出完整句子。

Soobin wants to be pissed. He really does. But the way Beomgyu’s giggling and laughing is so adorable that Soobin’s lips wobble without permission. His dimple pokes out from tensing his muscles to bite back the smile. 
秀彬真的很想發火。真的。但范奎咯咯笑的模樣實在太可愛，讓秀彬的嘴角不聽使喚地顫動。他繃緊肌肉想憋住笑意，卻讓酒窩不小心跑了出來。

“You…Beomgyu-ah you…” That’s all he can say before he breaks out into a big grin, dimples on display and pearly whites flashing. 
「你...範奎啊你...」他話還沒說完就綻開燦爛笑容，酒窩深陷，潔白牙齒閃閃發亮。

He really shouldn’t enable this behavior. But if it means Beomgyu looks so cute then so be it. He’ll return the favor one day. Maybe he’ll put tomatoes in Beomgyu’s food or something. 
他真不該縱容這種行為。但既然能讓範奎看起來這麼可愛，那也值得。總有一天他會報復回去的。或許他會在範奎的食物裡偷加番茄之類的。

Soobin retreats to his room, accepting defeat and sitting next to the hole again while precariously watching it. When he sees Beomgyu’s hand snaking through it again , he grabs an ice cube and shoves it into his hand, causing Beomgyu to withdraw his hand quickly and slamming it into the wall as a result. He hisses and holds his throbbing hand, calling a silent truce while retreating back to his bed. 
秀彬退回自己房間認輸，再度坐在牆洞旁警戒地盯著看。當他看見範奎的手又從洞口鬼鬼祟祟伸過來時，立刻抓起冰塊塞進對方掌心，嚇得範奎迅速抽手卻不慎重重撞上牆壁。範奎吃痛地倒抽氣，揉著發紅的手掌默默休戰，灰溜溜地縮回自己床上。

Even though Beomgyu has an easy view of the hole, he doesn’t always look at it. Which means Soobin can have stolen glances of Beomgyu being comfortable and cozy without worrying about being caught (because if he were caught, Beomgyu would tease him forever).
儘管范奎能輕易看見那個牆洞，但他並不總是盯著它看。這意味著秀彬可以偷偷瞥見范奎舒適自在的模樣，而不用擔心被抓包（因為要是被發現，范奎肯定會嘲笑他一輩子）。

Beomgyu usually uses the hole in the wall to pester Soobin. It’s easy to do, he becomes an easy target, and is always rewarded with Beomie-Binnie time (usually relentless teasing and banter. But Beomgyu wouldn’t trade it for the world).
范奎通常會利用牆上的洞來煩秀彬。這招很管用，秀彬總會輕易上鉤，而范奎總能如願獲得「范咪彬尼」時間（通常是無情的捉弄和鬥嘴。但范奎死也不會拿這段時光交換任何東西）。

This time, Beomgyu uses the hole for a serious purpose. Because Beomgyu, the frustrated artist, has writer’s block. Specifically, with the song that he’s producing and writing. He’s finally granted the opportunity to make a song for the comeback, and despite a notebook filled with ideas, he can’t seem to write anything down. 
這次，范奎要用這個洞來辦正經事。因為這位受挫的藝術家范奎遇到了創作瓶頸。具體來說，是他正在製作和寫作的那首歌。他終於獲得機會為回歸專輯創作歌曲，儘管筆記本裡寫滿了點子，卻怎麼也寫不出完整的內容。

He taps his pen in frustration on the desk, a rhythmic tap tap tap with represents the only progress he’s made on his song—the beat. The blank page taunts him and he can hear Soobin’s soft footsteps as he shuffles about in the room next door. 
他煩躁地用筆敲打桌面，規律的叩叩聲成了這首歌唯一的進展——節拍。空白頁面彷彿在嘲弄他，此時他聽見隔壁房間傳來秀彬輕柔的腳步聲。

Beomgyu picks up his phone to check the time. 02:13 . It’s too early in the morning on a Thursday and really, he should be asleep. But he doesn’t want to sleep until he’s made a draft. He has a long way to go. He sees a text on the screen from 2 hours ago and skims its contents. 
Beomgyu 拿起手機查看時間。02:13。星期四的凌晨時分實在太早，他其實應該要睡覺的。但在完成草稿前他不想睡。還有很長的路要走。他看到螢幕上兩小時前的訊息，快速瀏覽了內容。

“Beomgyu-ya” it reads. “You don’t have to work so hard alone. Let hyung help you.” 
「範奎呀」上面寫著。「你不用一個人這麼辛苦。讓哥哥幫你。」

It’s from Soobin. 
這是來自秀彬的。

Of course, Beomgyu wants to ask for help. Really, he does. But he doesn’t even have anything to show for the hours of holing himself in his room. 
當然，范奎很想求救。真的，他確實這麼想。但他把自己關在房裡好幾個小時，卻什麼成果也沒拿出來。

Except…Beomgyu has an idea. Breakups, today is Thursday, he has a long way to go. Perfect.
只不過...范奎有個主意。分手，今天是星期四，他還有很長的路要走。完美。

Born to be a Thursday’s child
天生就是星期四的孩子

A child has far to go
孩子還有很遠的路要走

The days that will stop for me
那些會為我停下來的日子

To the beat of your feet, go (Woah-oh-oh, Woah)
跟著你的腳步節奏，出發（哇喔－喔－喔，哇喔）

The sheet starts to fill with lyrics and before Beomgyu knows it, the sheet is filled with coherent lyrics. Finally, after hours of laboring. 
歌詞開始填滿整張紙，在范奎還沒意識到之前，紙上已佈滿連貫的歌詞。終於，經過數小時的努力。

Really, he could just submit this for revision. But he wants Soobin to take the first look, because he trusts his opinion more than anyone else in the world. 
其實，他大可直接提交這份歌詞進行修改。但他希望秀彬能第一個看到，因為在這個世界上，他比任何人都更信任秀彬的意見。

Carefully so as not to mar the words, Beomgyu folds the lyrics sheet into a neat paper airplane. He angles it towards the hole in the wall and sets it loose. 
范奎小心翼翼地將歌詞紙折成整齊的紙飛機，生怕弄皺上面的文字。他對準牆上的洞口，輕輕地將它放飛。

The airplane glides smoothly through the hole and taps Soobin gently on the back of his head. He picks up the airplane and gingerly unfolds it; Beomgyu must’ve taken great care to fold it so neatly and Soobin doesn’t want to accidentally tear it. 
飛機平穩地滑過洞口，輕輕碰了下秀彬的後腦勺。他拾起紙飛機，小心翼翼地展開；範奎肯定花了很多心思才能折得這麼工整，秀彬可不想不小心把它撕破。

It’s…a set of lyrics. Beomgyu’s lyrics. For his song! On the bottom of the page, a small note is scribbled in. Hyung, can you proofread this for me? Be honest and critical :P
這是...一首歌詞。範奎寫的歌詞。為他的歌寫的！在頁面底部還潦草地寫了一行小字：哥，可以幫我看看這個嗎？要誠實且嚴格喔 :P

Soobin reads the lyrics and can't help but think that they’re so cute and so soft and so Beomgyu. 
秀彬讀著歌詞，忍不住覺得它們好可愛、好溫柔，完全就是範奎的風格。

Soobin writes small notes beside the lines he has problems with. 
秀彬在他有問題的台詞旁邊寫下小筆記。

Born to be a Thursday’s child 
天生就是個星期四的孩子

A child has far to go
孩子還有很長的路要走

The days that will stop wait for me
那些終將停止的日子正等待著我

To the beat of tune in with your feet, go (Woah-oh-oh, Woah)
跟著節奏踏出步伐，出發吧（哇喔-喔-喔，哇喔）

After his careful revisions, he writes undulating praise on the margins of the paper. Then, he refolds the paper airplane and tosses it back to Beomgyu. 
經過仔細修改後，他在紙張邊緣寫下起伏的讚美。然後，他重新摺好紙飛機，扔回給范奎。

They continue writing and throwing back and forth until the lyrics are finalized, ready to be sent for revision. 
他們持續書寫並互相投遞，直到歌詞最終定稿，準備送去修改。

The notes, however, don't stop there. Like two high schoolers that have a crush on each other, they pass secretive notes with random information, ranging from gossip to insults to worries about the future. 
然而，這些紙條並未就此停止。就像兩個互相暗戀的高中生，他們傳遞著充滿隨機資訊的秘密紙條，內容從八卦、互相調侃到對未來的擔憂應有盡有。

And Beomgyu treasures every note, saving the completed pages in a folder titled “for us <3”.
而范奎珍視每一張紙條，將完成的頁面保存在一個標題為「給我們<3」的資料夾裡。

And Soobin makes it a point to write the sweetest, most articulate sentences he can muster because he knows that Beomgyu will treasure it. 
所以玟準會刻意寫下他能想到最甜蜜、最清晰的句子，因為他知道范奎會珍惜這些話。

The wall has become some sort of ritual for Beomgyu and Soobin. Instead of talking to each other on a bunk bed, they sit next to the hole and talk to each other. Beomgyu even bought a picture frame, removed the glass, and put it over the hole for decor. 
這面牆已成為范奎和玟準之間某種儀式。他們不再在上鋪交談，而是坐在牆洞旁對話。范奎甚至買了個相框，拆掉玻璃後罩在牆洞上當裝飾。

Sometimes, on particularly hard days, Soobin just sits next to the hole and Beomgyu just knows that something is wrong and just sits there too, letting their soft breathing fill up the silence. 
有時候，在特別難熬的日子裡，秀彬會靜靜坐在牆洞旁，而范奎總能察覺到不對勁，也會默默坐在另一側，讓彼此輕柔的呼吸聲填滿沉默。

Today, Soobin came back from practice and plopped right next to the hole, waiting. And no more than 15 seconds later, he hears a soft thud on the opposite side and hears the soft breathing. The breathing he’s etched into his memories from years in the old dorm. 
今天練習結束後，秀彬直接癱坐在牆洞邊等待。不到十五秒，對面就傳來輕微的碰撞聲，接著是那熟悉的輕柔呼吸——那個他在舊宿舍住了多年，早已深深刻進記憶裡的呼吸節奏。

Beomgyu’s breathing.   是范奎的呼吸聲。

Soobin bottles up his emotions an unhealthy amount, mostly because of his personality, but partly because he feels it’s his duty as a leader. At least he has Yeonjun to lean on—perhaps that’s why they made it a point not to choose the oldest member as the leader so that the leader can have someone to lean on. 
秀彬習慣過度壓抑情緒，這多半源於他的性格，但部分也是因為他覺得這是隊長的責任。幸好他還有然竣可以依靠——或許這就是為什麼公司刻意不選最年長的成員當隊長，這樣隊長才能有個依靠的對象。

Lately, though, Yeonjun has slowly been replaced by someone else. Beomgyu. Because with Beomgyu, he doesn’t have to talk to him face-to-face to still talk to him. It’s hard to make eye contact with someone while baring your soul to them. With the hole, they can talk and feel each other’s presence without seeing each other. In the old dorm, Soobin would talk to Beomgyu sometimes, but only when Beomgyu was too tired to crawl down from the top bunk and cuddle with him. That way, Beomgyu wouldn’t see his soft tears or his saddened features. 
最近，然俊卻逐漸被另一個人取代。范奎。因為和范奎相處時，他不必面對面也能交談。要一邊袒露心聲一邊直視對方實在太難了。透過牆上那個洞，他們能交談、感受彼此存在，卻不必看見對方。在舊宿舍時，秀彬偶爾會和范奎說話，但僅限於范奎累到無法從上鋪爬下來抱抱他的時候。這樣一來，范奎就看不見他悄悄滑落的淚水，或他憂傷的神情。

Beomgyu is the perfect person to listen to Soobin. He’s patient, knows exactly what to ask, and always gives reassuring responses that don’t feel generic. Right now, Beomgyu’s leaning his head against the wall and listening to Soobin’s stuttering breathing. He can feel the wall shake when Soobin inhales deeply or exhales a hiccup. He’s clearly crying, and Beomgyu has a box of tissues beside him to slip through the hole when the moment calls for it. 
范奎是最適合傾聽秀彬心事的人。他既耐心又懂得何時該提問，總能給予恰到好處的安慰回應，絕非制式敷衍。此刻范奎正將後腦勺抵著牆面，聽著秀彬斷續的抽氣聲。每當秀彬深深吸氣或打著哭嗝呼氣時，他都能感受到牆面傳來的震動。顯然對方正在哭泣，范奎手邊備著整盒面紙，隨時準備從牆洞遞過去。

He hears Soobin sniffle in increasing frequency and decides that now is the perfect moment. He slowly removes a tissue and cards it through the hole, holding it delicately. As soon as it crosses the invisible barrier, Beomgyu can feel a gentle pressure tugging the tissue, after which he promptly lets go. 
他聽見秀彬抽鼻子的頻率越來越高，決定此刻正是最佳時機。他緩緩抽出一張面紙，小心翼翼地從洞口遞過去，輕柔地捏著紙角。當面紙越過那道無形界線的瞬間，范奎能感覺到一股輕柔的力道正拉扯著紙巾，於是他立刻鬆開了手。

After carding more than a few tissues, Beomgyu opts to squeeze the box through the hole instead. Knowing Soobin, he’d need to go through at least half the box before he’s calm enough to speak. 
在抽了好幾張衛生紙後，范奎決定直接把整盒從洞口塞進去。以他對秀彬的了解，這傢伙至少要用掉半盒才能冷靜到開口說話。

Eventually, Soobin’s sniffling ceases and he shakily inhales before softly whispering, “Beomgyu-ya?” Beomgyu hums in response, wordlessly telling Soobin that he’s attentively listening. 
最終，秀彬的啜泣聲停了下來，他顫抖地深吸一口氣後輕聲喚道：「範奎啊？」範奎用鼻音應了一聲，無聲地告訴秀彬自己正專注傾聽。

“I just…” Soobin starts, then falters. But he feels Beomgyu’s hand lightly squeezing his leg through the hole, and the gesture provides much-needed comfort. “I just don’t know why it’s so hard for me to grasp the choreography.”
「我只是...」秀彬開口又遲疑了。但透過牆洞，他感受到範奎的手輕輕捏了捏他的腿，這個舉動帶來了亟需的安慰。「我只是不明白為什麼我就是抓不住舞步。」

Ah. So that’s the problem. During practice, the dance instructor harshly critiqued Soobin’s dancing, and although it was obvious that she said it out of frustration, the words cut deeply when she exclaimed, “Soobin-ah, why are you doing so much worse than everyone else? You’re holding everyone back.”
啊。原來是這個問題。練習時舞蹈老師嚴厲批評了秀彬的表現，雖然很明顯她是出於挫敗感才這麼說，但當她喊道「秀彬啊，你怎麼跳得比所有人都差？你在拖累大家」時，那些話語還是深深刺痛了他。

Soobin’s jaw could only clench in response, no words escaping, a grimace on his face. Beomgyu watched and desperately ached to hold him, to comfort him, but he—like all the other members—could only stand limply and watch as Soobin was berated for the third time that hour. 
秀彬只能咬緊牙關，一句話也說不出來，臉上露出痛苦的表情。範奎看著這一幕，內心迫切渴望能擁抱他、安慰他，但就像其他成員一樣，在那個小時裡第三次看著秀彬被訓斥時，他只能無力地站在原地。

Practice dragged on slowly, painfully, miserably. After an eternity, they were finally released. The walk back to their dorm was a silent, awkward one. Soobin walked with a slouch, clearly exhausted physically and emotionally. Taehyun and Yeonjun decided to get dinner early so that they could replenish some much needed energy. Huening Kai accompanied Beomgyu to the dorm, both of them exchanging glances and walking on either side of Soobin, giving him silent support.
練習緩慢、痛苦又煎熬地進行著。經過彷彿永恆的時間，他們終於被放行了。回宿舍的路上，大家沉默而尷尬地走著。秀彬駝著背走路，顯然身心俱疲。泰賢和然竣決定提早去吃晚餐，好補充急需的體力。休寧凱陪著范奎回宿舍，兩人交換眼神，一左一右走在秀彬身旁，默默給予他支持。

As soon as they got back to the dorm, Huening Kai ran to his room and grabbed his favorite plushie, then placed it gently in front of Soobin’s door. Then he promptly left the dorm, presumably to give Soobin some space to emote alone. 
一回到宿舍，休寧凱就衝進自己的房間，抓著他最愛的絨毛玩偶，然後輕輕地放在秀彬的門前。接著他立刻離開了宿舍，大概是為了給秀彬一些獨自宣洩情緒的空間。

Which is why Beomgyu and Soobin are able to talk like this without worrying about interruptions. Soobin hugs Kai’s plushie a little tighter, which gives a soft squeak in return. 
正因如此，范奎和秀彬才能這樣毫無顧忌地聊天。秀彬把凱的絨毛玩偶抱得更緊了些，玩偶發出輕微的吱吱聲作為回應。

“Beomgyu-ya…” Beomgyu’s ears perk up at the sound of his name and he angles his head so that his ear is right next to the hole. “What if…what if…” Soobin doesn’t have to finish his sentence for Beomgyu to know what he’s thinking; he can tell that Soobin is catastrophizing.
「范奎呀…」聽到自己的名字，范奎的耳朵立刻豎了起來，他把頭側向牆洞，讓耳朵緊貼著洞口。「如果…萬一…」秀彬話還沒說完，范奎就已經明白他的心思；他能感覺到秀彬正在陷入災難性思考。

“What if I fuck up our comeback? What if we have to scrap the entire choreography because of me?” The likelihood of that is close to 0, and Beomgyu knows it. Soobin knows it too. But he’s catastrophizing, and Beomgyu’s going to give him leeway to feel all his feelings—good, bad, and ugly.
「萬一我搞砸了回歸舞台怎麼辦？萬一因為我害得整支舞蹈都要重排呢？」這種可能性幾乎為零，范奎心知肚明。秀彬其實也明白。但他現在就是鑽牛角尖，而范奎打算給他空間去消化所有情緒——無論是好是壞，甚至是那些不堪的念頭。

“I mean, how did you grasp it so quickly? I’ve been sacrificing so much more time and energy into perfecting this choreography, but I've been yielding no results. It’s to the point where Yeonjun hyung offered to spend extra time to teach me the choreography. But I can't ask him to do that. I can’t be a burden like that.” 
「我是說，你怎麼能這麼快就掌握動作？我投入那麼多時間精力練習這支舞，卻完全沒進步。現在連玧竣哥都說要額外抽時間教我。但我不能這樣麻煩他，不能當這種累贅。」

Both Beomgyu and Soobin know that it wouldn’t be a burden on Yeonjun, and that Yeonjun loves to teach choreographies to them any time they need it. But telling him that is just going to make him clam up again. 
范奎和秀彬都知道這不會對延俊造成負擔，而且延俊隨時都樂意教他們舞蹈動作。但直接告訴他這件事只會讓他再次閉口不談。

“Soobin hyung…” Beomgyu chooses his words carefully. “Why don’t we practice together? I’ve been staying up practicing too, but it’s a lot easier to do that when I have a friend with me. Plus, we both have the same killing part since we both do the pre-chorus.”
「秀彬哥…」範奎謹慎地挑選著用詞。「我們要不要一起練習？我也一直熬夜練習，但有朋友在身邊會輕鬆很多。而且我們都有相同的 killing part，畢竟我們都負責前副歌部分。」

He can hear the gears turning in Soobin’s brain as he mulls over the suggestion. He doesn’t hear so much as see Soobin’s answer, because Soobin has shoved his face in the hole to gaze at Beomgyu’s expression.
他能聽見秀彬腦中思考這個提議時齒輪轉動的聲音。與其說是聽見，不如說是看見了秀彬的回答，因為秀彬已經把臉塞進牆洞裡，直盯著範奎的表情瞧。

“Really? You’ll do that for me? Right now? Aren’t you tired?” Soobin looks up at him with puffy, pink eyes. His face is stained with tear tracks and snot, and his nose is an ugly shade of red. But still, Beomgyu finds him to be extraordinarily pretty anyways. 
「真的嗎？你願意為我這麼做？現在？你不累嗎？」秀彬抬起頭，用那雙紅腫的粉色眼睛望著他。淚痕和鼻涕弄髒了他的臉，鼻子還泛著難看的紅色。但即便如此，範奎依然覺得他格外漂亮。

Beomgyu is very tired. But he can down an iced americano and muster enough energy to dance for a few more hours, so he lies through his teeth with a grin on his face. “No hyung. I was going to go practice anyway, and I’d rather practice with you instead of by myself.”
范奎累得要命。但他還是能灌下一杯冰美式，硬撐著再跳幾個小時的舞，所以他咧嘴笑著扯謊：「才沒有呢，哥。我本來就打算去練習，而且與其自己練，我更想跟你一起練。」

“Ok, let me go wash my face, and then we can go.” Soobin gingerly stands up, his bones making aching popping noises that pull a giggle out of him. 
「好吧，讓我去洗個臉，然後我們就可以出發了。」秀彬小心翼翼地站起身，骨頭發出痠痛的喀喀聲，讓他忍不住笑出聲來。

Beomgyu hears the click of the bathroom door lock and runs to the kitchen to sneak a cup of poorly made coffee. 
范奎聽到浴室門鎖的咔噠聲，立刻衝到廚房偷喝一杯難喝的手沖咖啡。

Preparations for the comeback were improving drastically, with auspicious practices and recording sessions. For once, TXT were ahead of schedule, which means extra time off before the hectic promotions schedule. 
回歸準備進度大幅超前，無論是彩排還是錄音都相當順利。這是 TXT 第一次比預定進度還快，意味著在緊鑼密鼓的宣傳期前能多放幾天假。

Soobin could finally relax. The stress of the comeback manifested into outbursts of anger and irritation, mostly directed to himself and occasionally Yeonjun (who thankfully understood his rash behavior). 
秀彬終於可以鬆一口氣了。回歸的壓力化為憤怒與煩躁的情緒爆發，大多衝著自己來，偶爾也會波及到然竣（幸好他理解這種衝動行為）。

After taking Yeonjun out for ramen to express his gratitude at his hyung’s patience, he could finally have a stolen moment alone. 
在請了 Yeonjun 吃拉麵表達對哥哥耐心的感謝後，他終於能偷得片刻獨處時光。

In the past, Soobin would have to wait until his roommate was gone or preoccupied with other activities to have the opportunity to be alone. Or he’d have to hide in the bathroom. Now he can just…lock his door and be alone (save for Odi). 
過去，秀彬必須等到室友離開或忙於其他活動時，才有機會獨處。不然他就得躲進浴室裡。現在他只要...鎖上房門就能獨處了（除了 Odi 之外）。

And Soobin was going to do exactly that. He practically ran to his dorm, immediately locked the door with a resounding click , then pulled out his laptop to find a video.
而秀彬正打算這麼做。他幾乎是用跑的回到宿舍，立刻「喀嚓」一聲鎖上門，然後拿出筆電找影片。

Despite the omnipresence of the hole in their daily lives, Soobin somehow forgot about it in this particularly damning moment. 
儘管那個洞在他們日常生活中無所不在，但在這個特別要命的時刻，秀彬不知怎地竟忘了它的存在。

He puts in earbuds so as not to disturb other members, queues up a fine selection of fancams (of a certain member who may or may not be next door), and yanks his pants down.
他戴上耳機以免打擾其他成員，精選了幾段粉絲直拍（某位可能或不可能就在隔壁的成員），然後一把扯下褲子。

He can finally jerk off. 
他終於可以打手槍了。

This much needed stress relief has been a long time coming, since he’s had not a single moment to spare (literally: he was either practicing, eating, or maybe sleeping).
這種迫切需要的壓力釋放已經等待許久，因為他連一刻空閒都沒有（真的：他不是在練習、吃飯，就是可能在睡覺）。

Now? He can take his sweet time, although he probably won’t last long since he hasn’t touched himself in weeks. 
現在？他可以慢慢來，不過大概撐不了多久，畢竟他已經好幾週沒碰自己了。

He starts by gripping the base of his aching cock and stroking slowly up and down, getting a rhythm that matches the video he’s watching. The progression is the most important part, and for the first time in years, Soobin can take as long as he wants.
他從握住自己疼痛的陰莖根部開始，緩慢地上下擼動，逐漸跟上正在觀看影片的節奏。循序漸進是最重要的部分，而這是多年來，秀彬第一次能隨心所欲地慢慢來。

He builds himself up to an almost-orgasm, his breaths accelerating as he rapidly feels his high approaching. But instead of speeding up, he just lets go, feeling the high slowly dissipate into nothingness. 
他讓自己幾乎達到高潮，呼吸隨著快感迅速逼近而加速。但與其加快動作，他選擇放手，感受那股快感緩緩消散於無形。

This is the best part. Feeling the buildup grow in intensity until he finally decides to release. It’s been 10 minutes, but he doesn’t care. 
這是最棒的時刻。感受快感逐漸累積到極致，直到他終於決定釋放。已經過了十分鐘，但他毫不在意。

After edging for the third time, he decides that he’s given himself a sufficient buildup and increases the speed of his strokes. When he feels his orgasm approach, he tightens his fist and gives two hard, thorough strokes before he’s cumming all over his hand in heavy white pools. The orgasmic rush is high intensity, drowning him in waves of pleasure. His toes curl, his head lolls forward, his eyes roll back, and his lips are parted in a ‘O’, a soft cry escaping his lips. 
在第三次邊緣控制後，他判斷累積的快感已足夠，於是加快了擼動的速度。當高潮來臨時，他握緊拳頭用力前後擼動兩下，濃稠的白濁液體便噴濺在手上。高潮的衝擊強烈得令人暈眩，將他淹沒在愉悅的浪潮中。他的腳趾蜷曲，頭部向前垂落，眼球上翻，嘴唇微張成 O 形，發出一聲輕柔的呻吟。

Once he comes down from his high, he looks around the room for a box of tissues that he forgot to place next to him before he started jerking off.
當高潮餘韻褪去後，他環顧房間尋找那盒在自慰前忘記放在身旁的衛生紙。

And he sees one. The one that Beomgyu gave him when he cried after practice. On the floor. Right next to the hole. 
而他看見了一個。就是那個在練習後他哭泣時，范奎給他的那個。就在地板上。就在那個洞旁邊。

The hole. The hole that he shares with Beomgyu. The hole that Beomgyu can easily see and hear through. The hole. The hole. The hole.
那個洞。那個他和范奎共用的洞。那個范奎可以輕易看穿和聽透的洞。那個洞。那個洞。那個洞。

Soobin just rubbed one out shamelessly…while Beomgyu was at the dorm…and he didn’t even bother to warn him. 
秀彬就這樣不知羞恥地自慰了...當范奎還在宿舍的時候...他甚至連警告都沒給。

The blissful, post-orgasm feeling is quickly replaced with dread and guilt. The blood leaves his face and settles in an ugly pool at the base of his stomach. Soobin covers his mouth with his clean hand and gingerly picks up the box so as not to make a sound. 
高潮後的愉悅感很快被恐懼與愧疚取代。血色從他臉上褪去，在胃底凝結成醜陋的一灘。秀彬用乾淨的那隻手摀住嘴，小心翼翼地拿起盒子以免發出聲響。

How could he forget about the fucking hole in between their rooms?
他怎麼能忘記他們房間之間該死的洞？

Wordlessly, Soobin cleans his hand, shuts his laptop in shame, and tucks himself in bed. Hoping to sleep away the humiliation from the night. 
Soobin 默默地擦乾淨手，羞愧地關上筆電，把自己埋進被窩裡。希望睡一覺就能忘掉今晚的難堪。

Perhaps Beomgyu should’ve been more mindful of his bad habits. 
或許 Beomgyu 該多注意自己那些壞習慣。

Why? Because making a routine of spying on your best friend surely yields poor consequences. 
為什麼？因為養成偷窺最好朋友的日常習慣，肯定會招致糟糕的後果。

Usually, it doesn’t. Usually, Beomgyu gets to watch guilt-free as his best friend peacefully lives his daily life, and he gets to feel like an integral part of it, too. The hole offers a new perspective—it demonstrates Soobin’s daily habits when he’s genuinely alone. Different from before when Soobin was always mindful of Beomgyu’s presence. 
通常不會這樣的。通常 Beomgyu 可以毫無罪惡感地看著摯友平靜地過日子，甚至覺得自己也是其中重要的一部分。那個牆洞提供了全新視角——它展現了 Soobin 真正獨處時的日常習慣。不同於以往 Soobin 總會顧慮 Beomgyu 在場的時候。

When Soobin is engrossed in the moment, he forgets about the hole and gives Beomgyu the priceless glimpse into the real Soobin. The best Soobin, he thinks. 
當秀彬沉浸在當下時，他完全忘記了那個破洞，讓範奎得以窺見真實的秀彬。他心想，這才是最棒的秀彬。

But peeking through the hole on their first day off was a horrible mistake. 
但在他們休假的第一天從洞口偷看是個可怕的錯誤。

All Beomgyu wanted to do was see the first thing Soobin would do on their day off. 
范奎只是想看看秀彬在休假第一天會做些什麼。

He expected him to watch anime or sing obnoxiously or play video games. 
他原本以為秀彬會看動畫、大聲唱歌或打電動。

What he didn’t expect was for Soobin to lock the door, queue videos, and tug his pants off.
但他萬萬沒想到，秀彬會鎖上門、排好影片，然後一把扯下自己的褲子。

What he expected even less is that he’d be glued to the spot, watching Soobin like a pervert. Even though it’s very obvious what he’s doing. Even though he can see Soobin’s cock from where he’s sitting.  
更出乎意料的是，自己竟像個變態般僵在原地盯著秀彬看。即使秀彬的意圖再明顯不過。即使從他坐著的位置就能看見秀彬勃起的陰莖。

Beomgyu can see the scrunch of his brows. The speed of his strokes. The concentration on his face when he stares at the laptop. All of it. Beomgyu can see all of it. 
范奎能看見他皺起的眉頭。他敲擊鍵盤的速度。他盯著筆電時臉上的專注神情。這一切。范奎全都看得一清二楚。

The respectful thing to do would be to immediately retreat and give him the privacy he deserves. But he can’t bring himself to move. So he just…closes his eyes. 
禮貌的做法應該是立刻退開，給他應有的隱私。但他就是無法讓自己移動。所以他只是……閉上了眼睛。

Though, that doesn’t help much. Because he can still hear the obscene squelch of Soobin’s hand moving up and down, the breathy whimpers that escape through his slightly parted lips, the occasional stuttered “A-ah…” when he nears his orgasm. 
不過，這也沒多大幫助。因為他還是能聽見秀彬的手上下抽動時那淫靡的水聲，從微張的唇間逸出的喘息嗚咽，以及偶爾在接近高潮時斷斷續續的「啊、啊…」。

Beomgyu’s growing embarrassingly hard at the prospect of his best friend jerking off. It takes all his willpower not to yank his own pants down and jerk off at the same time. Because if he does, he’ll definitely get caught. 
Beomgyu 一想到他最好的朋友正在自慰，就尷尬地硬了起來。他費盡全力才忍住不跟著脫下褲子一起來。因為要是他這麼做，肯定會被發現。

He subconsciously palms at his erection though, trying to build a subtle friction to take the edge off. It’s not as good as straight up masturbating, but it’ll have to do.
他下意識地用手掌按壓著勃起，試圖製造些微摩擦來緩解慾望。雖然比不上直接自慰來得痛快，但眼下也只能將就了。

Then Soobin cums. And the face he makes is so pretty. The sound he makes is even prettier. Beomgyu has half a mind to think about recording it and putting it in a song.
然後秀彬就射了。他臉上的表情美極了。他發出的聲音更是美妙。范奎差點想錄下來放進歌裡。

When Soobin comes down from his high, he looks around, searching for something. Then Soobin’s looking towards the hole and starts walking towards it with purpose.
當秀彬從他的亢奮中回過神來，他環顧四周，像是在尋找什麼。接著秀彬的目光轉向那個破洞，開始有目的地朝它走去。

Oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck he saw me I’ve been caught he’s going to move his furniture to block the hole so this never happens again . Beomgyu doesn’t have enough time to move away so he turns away, back pressed against the wall, hand pressed forcefully over his mouth and nose so as to muffle any sounds of life. 
噢幹噢幹噢幹他看到我了 我被抓包了他一定會把家具挪過來堵住那個洞 這樣的事再也不會發生了。范奎來不及躲開 只好轉過身去 背緊貼著牆 手用力摀住口鼻 好壓抑任何活著的聲息。

Soobin’s hand creates a shadow that looms over, and Beomgyu’s shaking from nervousness at the fear of getting caught. 
秀彬的手投下一片陰影籠罩著，範奎因為害怕被抓到而緊張得發抖。

The hand veers to the left, and Beomgyu can hear the ruffle of a tissue leaving the box. Then the shadow stills. Soobin is clearly frozen in place and Beomgyu is 95% sure he’s been caught. 
那隻手向左偏去，範奎能聽到面紙被抽離盒子的窸窣聲。接著陰影靜止不動。秀彬顯然僵在原地，而範奎有 95%的把握自己被抓包了。

Then he leaves. Soobin doesn’t say anything, doesn’t make any noises to indicate that he’s angry. He just closes his laptop and crawls in bed. 
然後他離開了。秀彬什麼也沒說，沒有發出任何顯示他生氣的聲響。他只是闔上筆電，爬上了床。

Beomgyu’s heart is racing at 200 bpm. His chest heaves up and down from the force of his labored breathing. His eyes flit around the room nervously, and his back is glued to the wall. He doesn’t dare move, not until he can hear Soobin’s soft snoring.
Beomgyu 的心跳飆到每分鐘 200 下。他費力地喘息著，胸口劇烈起伏。雙眼緊張地在房間裡四處游移，背脊緊貼著牆壁。他不敢輕舉妄動，直到聽見 Soobin 平穩的鼾聲為止。

And even though Beomgyu is hard, he crawls in bed and goes to sleep. 
儘管范奎很辛苦，他還是爬上了床入睡。

If he’s seen carrying a handful of soiled sheets, nobody needs to know it’s because he dreamt about Soobin.
如果他被人看見抱著一堆弄髒的床單，沒人需要知道那是因為他夢見了秀彬。

Both Beomgyu and Soobin go back to their normal routines, pretending that nothing is wrong for the sake of normalcy and peace.
范奎和秀彬都回到了日常的作息，為了維持表面的平靜與正常，假裝什麼事都沒發生。

Although, it’s immediately obvious to everyone else that there’s a new tension lingering in the air between them, and they refuse to be left alone together. 
不過，對其他人來說，他們之間瀰漫的新緊張感顯而易見，而且他們拒絕單獨相處。

Yet, they still gravitate towards the hole. Talking until 3am, or sharing snacks, or playing video games together and then throwing a wad of paper in frustration at each other. 
然而，他們仍舊被那個洞口吸引。聊到凌晨三點，分享零食，一起打電動然後氣得互丟紙團。

Their shared rituals remained practically untouched by the unspoken events that transpired two weeks prior. 
兩週前發生的那些心照不宣的事件，幾乎沒能改變他們共有的日常儀式。

But, not completely untouched. 
但，並非完全沒有影響。

The first time Beomgyu listened to Soobin’s late-night activities, he excused it as shock and fear. I was frozen to the spot by nerves, he rationalized. And perhaps that’s true to enough of an extent that he can be forgiven for his actions.
當范奎第一次聽見守彬深夜的動靜時，他將自己的行為歸咎於震驚與恐懼。我是因為緊張才僵在原地，他這樣合理化。或許這個理由足夠真實，足以讓人原諒他的所作所為。

Now? Now, he doesn't have an excuse. Beomgyu’s just a pervert. There’s no way he can come up with an acceptable justification for this new habit.
現在？現在，他沒有任何藉口。范奎就是個變態。他根本找不出任何合理的理由來解釋這個新癖好。

Every time he hears Soobin go to his room and lock the door, Beomgyu actually scurries over to the wall and presses his ear next to the hole. 
每當他聽到秀彬走進房間並鎖上門時，范奎就會立刻躡手躡腳地溜到牆邊，把耳朵貼在那個洞上。

Just so he can hear Soobin jack off. 
就為了聽秀彬自慰的聲音。

This is their newest ritual—well, it’s not really their ritual. It’s Beomgyu’s ritual. Eagerly waiting for another opportunity to hear his lovely best friend rub one out. 
這是他們最新的儀式——好吧，其實算不上是"他們"的儀式。這是范奎專屬的儀式。滿心期待著能再次聽見他可愛的最佳摯友自我安慰的聲響。

He should feel bad. He should feel guilty. But he doesn’t. 
他應該感到難過。他應該感到愧疚。但他沒有。

Rather, he feels a thrill. Maybe it’s the thrill of getting away with it time and time again. Or maybe it’s the adrenaline rush he gets when he hears Soobin approach his orgasm and then willingly deny himself just to build up to a more powerful rush. 
相反地，他感到一陣興奮。或許是因為一次次得逞的快感，又或許是當他聽見秀彬瀕臨高潮卻又自願壓抑時，那股腎上腺素飆升的刺激。

Today, though, he takes the cake for perversion. Because when he hears Soobin’s moans and whimpers seeping through the hole, he comes up with a brilliant idea.
但今天，他的變態程度簡直登峰造極。因為當他聽見秀彬的呻吟與啜泣聲從牆洞傳來時，突然靈光一閃。

He rushes to his closet and grabs the hoodie. The stolen hoodie that Soobin never asked Beomgyu to return. It still smells like Soobin, although the scent has faded considerably. 
他衝向衣櫃抓起那件連帽外套——那件秀彬從未開口要範奎歸還的贓物。雖然氣味已淡去許多，但外套上仍殘留著秀彬的味道。

He’ll see if he can get Soobin to wear it again. 
他會看看能不能再讓秀彬穿上它。

For now, it’ll do. He strips down to nothing and puts on the hoodie and only the hoodie. His hard cock rubs on the inside, smearing precum on the soft fabric. 
暫時這樣就行了。他脫得一絲不掛，只套上那件連帽衫。硬挺的陰莖在布料內側摩擦，將前液沾在柔軟的織物上。

Then he palms himself over the hoodie, seeing the growing damp patch on the front. 
接著他隔著連帽衫撫弄自己，看著前方逐漸擴大的濕痕。

He settles back down against the wall next to the hole, attentively listening to Soobin’ soft noises and stroking himself in response. 
他重新靠回牆邊的洞口旁，專注聆聽秀彬的細微呻吟，並隨之自慰。

Beomgyu cums first, mostly because he doesn’t edge the way Soobin does. He cums with a deep groan, shoving his collar into his mouth to muffle any noise. But he makes his first mistake because he lolls his head back and smacks it into the wall. Hard. 
範奎先射了，主要是因為他沒像秀彬那樣刻意延遲高潮。他發出一聲低沉的呻吟達到頂點，把衣領塞進嘴裡壓抑聲響。但他犯了第一個錯誤——向後仰頭時重重撞上了牆壁。

When he comes down from his shortened orgasmic high, he’s suffocated with complete silence. Soobin had stopped jerking off. Because Beomgyu idiotically slammed his head into the wall and made a resounding thud that most certainly would be heard. 
當他從短暫的高潮餘韻中回過神來，四周的寂靜幾乎令人窒息。秀彬已經停止自慰。因為范奎這個白痴一頭撞上牆壁，發出足以驚動整層樓的巨響。

He tenses his muscles and squeezes his eyes shut, praying that Soobin would ignore that. Hoping that Soobin would continue and pretend like nothing happened.
他繃緊肌肉，緊閉雙眼，祈禱秀彬會忽略那件事。希望秀彬能繼續下去，假裝什麼都沒發生。

But it seems that Beomgyu’s luck ran out, because Soobin’s tentative voice calls out his name.
看來範奎的運氣用盡了，因為秀彬試探性的聲音叫了他的名字。

“Beomgyu?” Soobin’s voice is barely above a whisper, and theoretically, Beomgyu could ignore it. But when you’re caught, you’re caught. So he sighs and replies with an unsure, “Yeah?”
「範奎？」秀彬的聲音幾乎是氣音，理論上範奎可以假裝沒聽見。但被抓包就是被抓包。所以他嘆了口氣，不確定地回應：「嗯？」

“Were you…” Soobin doesn’t even know what to ask. Were you listening to me jerk off? No, that would be too crass and accusatory. Plus, it’s entirely possible that Beomgyu didn’t know what he was doing. 
「你剛剛…」秀彬甚至不知道該問什麼。你是在聽我打手槍嗎？不，這樣問太粗魯又像在指責。更何況，範奎很可能根本不知道他在做什麼。

“Are you okay? Did you hurt yourself?” Soobin bites his lip in anticipation before asking the next question. “Did you…did you hear anything weird?”
「你還好嗎？有受傷嗎？」秀彬咬著嘴唇，猶豫了一下才問出下一個問題。「你…有聽到什麼奇怪的聲音嗎？」

Beomgyu’s not only a filthy pervert, but he’s a filthy liar too. 
范奎不僅是個骯髒的變態，還是個骯髒的騙子。

“I’m okay hyung. I just smacked my toe into the wall.” It’s such an obvious lie that Beomgyu doubts that Soobin will buy it. “I had my earbuds in and I was dancing, and I wasn’t paying attention, so of course I stubbed my toe.” He punctuates his sentence with a short huff that was supposed to be a laugh. 
「我沒事啦，哥。只是腳趾頭撞到牆壁而已。」這謊言明顯到連范奎自己都懷疑秀彬會不會買帳。「我戴著耳機在跳舞，沒注意看路，當然會踢到腳趾啊。」他說完還刻意短促地哼了一聲，假裝是在笑。

“Okay Beomgyu-ya.” Soobin’s voice doesn’t sound unconvinced. If anything, he sounds relieved. So Beomgyu will take it.
「好吧，範奎啊。」秀彬的語氣聽起來並非不相信，反而像是鬆了一口氣。所以範奎就接受了。

The worst part of this whole situation is that a growing part of Beomgyu wanted Soobin to catch him. He wanted Soobin to find him sitting pathetically in Soobin’s hoodie after cumming to the sound of Soobin jerking off. 
整件事最糟的部分是，范奎內心逐漸希望秀彬能抓到他。他想讓秀彬發現自己可悲地穿著秀彬的連帽衫，聽著秀彬自慰的聲音達到高潮後癱坐著的模樣。

More than anything, he wanted to get Soobin off. He wanted to feel Soobin’s dick on his lips, hot and heavy. Maybe Soobin would punish him, though he doubted that because Soobin was too nice to do that. 
比起其他任何事，他只想讓秀彬射出來。他想感受秀彬那根又熱又沉的傢伙抵在自己唇上的觸感。或許秀彬會懲罰他，雖然他覺得不太可能，畢竟秀彬人太好做不出這種事。

Maybe Soobin would fuck him mercilessly into the mattress. 
或許秀彬會毫不留情地把他壓在床墊上操。

Perhaps that’s a gamble Beomgyu’s willing to take. Damn, now he’s getting hard again.
或許這是范奎願意冒的風險。該死，現在他又硬了。

Beomgyu lasted one more week before getting caught. But to be fair, Soobin laid an elaborate trap for him. 
范奎又撐了一週才被抓包。但公平地說，秀彬精心設計了陷阱等他上鉤。

Soobin suspected that maybe Beomgyu was spying on him. The first time he suspected it was when he went to grab the box of tissues next to the hole. He quickly peered in to see if Beomgyu was watching him, only to see the complete absence of Beomgyu. Which is strange, because he knows that Beomgyu is in his room.
秀彬懷疑范奎可能在偷窺他。第一次起疑是當他去拿牆洞旁的衛生紙盒時，他迅速往洞裡瞥了一眼想確認范奎是否在偷看，卻發現范奎根本不在那。這很奇怪，因為他知道范奎明明就在房間裡。

That was just a small hunch though, born out of anxiety and nervousness.
不過這只是個出於焦慮和緊張的小直覺。

But then he quickly noticed a pattern. Every time he would get off and look through the hole to see if Beomgyu was there, Beomgyu was nowhere to be seen. There are only a couple of blind spots: the empty corner along the wall on the other side, and the areas immediately adjacent to the hole. 
但很快他就發現了一個規律。每次他下車透過洞口查看范奎是否在場時，范奎總是消失得無影無蹤。只有幾個視線死角：對面牆邊的空蕩角落，以及緊鄰洞口的區域。

The likelihood that Beomgyu was in the abandoned corner was slim to none. Which means he’s sitting next to the hole and peeping on him. 
范奎出現在廢棄角落的機率微乎其微。這意味著他正坐在洞口旁邊偷窺。

Which normally wouldn’t bother him, except for the fact that it only happens when Soobin is jerking off. 
這本不會困擾他，但問題在於這種情況只發生在秀彬自慰的時候。

Soobin decides to put his brain to good work and try to catch him in the act. He knows that Beomgyu isn’t stupid enough to look through the hole, which means that he’s only able to hear Soobin jerk off. 
秀彬決定好好動動腦筋，試著當場逮住他。他知道範奎沒蠢到會從洞裡偷看，這意味著他只能聽到秀彬自慰的聲音。

So the first time that Soobin jerks off that week, he records the audio of it on his phone. He adds extra lube to make obscene squelching noises that Beomgyu can surely hear. Then he whimpers louder than normal, only slightly though. 
所以那個禮拜當秀彬第一次打手槍時，他用手機錄下了聲音。他加了更多潤滑液，製造出那種淫靡的嘖嘖水聲，好讓範奎一定能聽見。然後他比平常更用力地呻吟，雖然只稍微大聲一點。

But the increasing volume wasn’t on purpose. When Soobin really thinks about it, it’s very fucking hot that the subject of his sexual fantasies is sitting and listening to him jerk off. Hell, Beomgyu’s probably aroused at the idea of Soobin jerking off. He absentmindedly wonders if Beomgyu knows that he jerks off to his fancams.
但音量越來越大並非刻意為之。當秀彬認真思考時，發現自己性幻想的對象正坐在那裡聽他自慰，這他媽的實在太刺激了。該死，範奎搞不好光是想到秀彬在打手槍就硬了。他心不在焉地想著，範奎是否知道自己看著他的粉絲直拍影片自慰。

There’s something so perverted about the entire situation, and it’s that perversion that brings Soobin to a rushing orgasm. He didn’t even edge this time, yet it was one of his more powerful orgasms. He moans a broken string of curses and uses his clean hand to stop the recording. 
整件事有種變態的意味，正是這種變態感讓玟準達到了猛烈的高潮。這次他甚至沒刻意延遲，卻迎來了更強烈的射精。他斷斷續續地呻吟著髒話，用乾淨的那隻手關掉了錄影。

His right hand is covered in thick, dripping cum. Some of it lands on his lap, the sheer amount of it is too much for Soobin’s hand to hold. 
他的右手沾滿濃稠精液，有些甚至滴到大腿上——份量多到玟準根本接不住。

Instead of cleaning up, he just stares at the pooling cum in his lap and can’t help but think about Beomgyu again.
他沒有立刻清理，只是盯著腿間那灘白濁液體，忍不住又想起了范奎。

Perhaps he can go for a round two, just for himself. He uses the still damp cum as a makeshift lubricant before stroking up and down for the second time. Phone tucked away in a drawer, focusing on the thought of Beomgyu sitting right there and watching him.
或許該來第二回合，就為自己。他直接用半乾的精液當潤滑，再次上下擼動。手機被塞進抽屜，此刻他只想著范奎正坐在那裡注視自己的畫面。

A couple of days later, Soobin finds the perfect opportunity to launch his plan into action. Taehyun, Yeonjun, and Huening Kai wanted to spend the day doing something fun, so they left the dorm all day, not expecting to return until late at night. 
幾天後，秀彬找到了實施計劃的完美時機。太顯、然竣和休寧凱想出去玩一整天，他們離開宿舍時就打算玩到深夜才回來。

Beomgyu had asked Soobin to play video games with him. It had been a while (by design—Soobin wanted to bait him into thinking he was jerking off). 
范奎曾邀請秀彬一起打電動（這當然是秀彬刻意安排的——他想讓范奎以為自己在打手槍）。

Unsurprisingly, Soobin turned Beomgyu down despite Beomgyu’s rampant whining. He rushed to his dorm room and locked the door with a loud click . Then he listened carefully for the sounds of Beomgyu retreating to his room.
不出所料，儘管范奎拼命哀嚎，秀彬還是拒絕了他。秀彬衝回自己房間，喀嚓一聲鎖上門，仔細聽著范奎退回自己房間的動靜。

Which comes almost immediately after the lock settles in place. Way to be predictable, Beomgyu, Soobin thought amusedly. 
幾乎就在門鎖卡到位的那一刻。還真是老套啊，范奎，秀彬覺得好笑地想。

Then he lays out the trap. Grabbing his laptop, queueing his usual selection of videos, opening and closing the lube bottle with a loud click , then he turns up the volume on his phone and starts playing the recording. Right next to the hole.
然後他佈下陷阱。抓起筆電，排好平常看的那幾部影片，潤滑液瓶蓋開開關關發出響亮的喀嚓聲，接著他調高手機音量，開始播放錄音。就在那個洞旁邊。

He promptly presses his ear to the wall and listens for sounds of life. And lo and behold, he can hear soft, ragged breathing on the other side. Perfect . 
他立刻將耳朵貼在牆上，聆聽生命的跡象。果然，他聽見牆的另一側傳來微弱而急促的呼吸聲。完美。

Soobin tiptoes out the door, unlocking it as silently as possible and hoping that the recording drowns out the sound of his walking. 
秀彬踮著腳尖溜出門外，盡可能無聲地解開門鎖，希望錄音能蓋過他的腳步聲。

He makes it to the front of Beomgyu’s door and gently turns the doorknob, which gives him no resistance. Then he swings the door open as quickly as possible, and he’s greeted with the scene of Beomgyu pathetically holding his cock while wearing his fucking hoodie.
他來到范奎的門前，輕輕轉動門把，門毫無阻力地開了。接著他迅速將門推開，映入眼簾的是范奎可憐兮兮地握著自己的老二，身上還穿著那件該死的連帽衫。

Now Beomgyu’s staring face-to-face at Soobin while he’s holding his dick. The sounds of Soobin’s whimpers and moans are still playing, but the only thing he can hear is the rush of blood from the accelerated beating of his heart.
現在範奎正和秀彬面對面，而他的手還握著自己的老二。秀彬的嗚咽和呻吟聲仍在播放，但他唯一能聽到的只有自己加速心跳所帶來的血液奔流聲。

Holy shit Soobin just caught me jerking off…in his hoodie…to his voice . He can’t look away, can’t breathe, can’t blink. Soobin’s gaze glues him to the spot. 
幹…秀彬剛剛抓到我正在打手槍…穿著他的連帽外套…聽著他的聲音。他無法移開視線、無法呼吸、甚至無法眨眼。秀彬的目光將他釘在原地。

It’s an unreadable gaze, one that swirls with arousal and annoyance…no…with anger . 
那是種難以解讀的眼神，混雜著情慾與煩躁…不…是憤怒。

Soobin’s fucking pissed. Which isn’t a good thing since Beomgyu wants to get fucked by Soobin, not ignored by him.
秀彬他媽的氣炸了。這對範奎來說可不是好事，因為他想被秀彬上，而不是被他無視。

Soobin’s taking slow, deliberate steps towards him, like a predator approaches its prey. Silently, but with purpose. With raw hunger . 
秀彬正以緩慢而刻意的步伐向他逼近，宛如掠食者鎖定獵物般。無聲卻充滿目的性，帶著赤裸的飢渴。

At the forefront of Beomgyu’s thoughts lies a mix of I should be scared for my life and I’m so horny please just fuck me Soobin. 
此刻在範奎腦中交織的念頭是「我應該要害怕生命危險」與「我慾火焚身拜託直接上我吧秀彬」。

Really, Beomgyu should be getting on his hands and knees, begging for forgiveness. He shamelessly violated Soobin’s privacy multiple times by listening to him get off. 
說真的，範奎早該跪地求饒了。他厚顏無恥地多次侵犯秀彬的隱私，偷聽對方自慰的聲響。

Soobin’s right next to Beomgyu now. Beomgyu finally moves because he has to crane his neck to look up at Soobin. Some sweat drips down, but he doesn’t know if it’s his own or Soobin’s.
現在秀彬就站在範奎身旁。範奎終於動了動身子，因為他必須仰起脖子才能看向秀彬。有汗水滑落，但他分不清那是自己的還是秀彬的。

On one hand, Soobin should be pissed off. Really, he should be. Beomgyu was fucking eavesdropping on him jerking off . He’s entitled to a little anger, at least. 
一方面，秀彬應該要氣炸才對。真的，他應該要的。范奎那傢伙居然偷聽他打手槍。他至少有資格發點脾氣吧。

But there’s also something so arousing to Soobin about Beomgyu sneaking around trying to get a glimpse of him getting himself off. Beomgyu put in that much effort just for him. 
但對 Soobin 來說，Beomgyu 偷偷摸摸想窺視他自慰的樣子也莫名令人興奮。Beomgyu 為他費了這麼多心思。

His not-so-innocent Beomgyu secretly liked watching his hyung get off and wishing he were there too. 
他這個不那麼單純的 Beomgyu，原來私下喜歡偷看哥哥自慰，還幻想自己也在場。

Beomgyu’s clearly too shocked for words. And Soobin has too many words to say. 
Beomgyu 顯然震驚得說不出話來。而 Soobin 有太多話想說。

“Beomgyu-ya.” His voice is cool and steely. “You’ve been listening to me masturbate?” Soobin’s trying his best to sound miffed. He wants to have the upper hand in this situation. 
「Beomgyu 呀。」他的聲音冷靜而強硬。「你一直在聽我自慰？」Soobin 努力讓自己聽起來不悅。他想在這情況下佔上風。

“I-I-” Beomgyu’s words won’t formulate coherently. Mostly because he’s thoroughly embarrassed, yet there’s still an underlying excitement for what’s to come next. 
「我、我——」範奎的話語支支吾吾地不成句。主要是因為他實在太尷尬了，但心底卻又隱隱期待著接下來要發生的事。

Soobin bends down to crowd over Beomgyu. Soobin’s shadow covers the overhead lights, bathing Beomgyu in a cool darkness. 
秀彬彎下身子湊近範奎。秀彬的影子遮住了頭頂的燈光，讓範奎籠罩在一片涼爽的陰影中。

“You what, Beomgyu-ya? You didn’t mean it?” Soobin sneers before Beomgyu can say anything. “I know you’ve been doing it more than once. I heard you, you know? The day you told me you stubbed your toe. I’m not a fucking idiot Beomgyu. Every time you dance to music, you go to the practice room. And the music you listen to alone is too slow to dance to. You think I don’t know you well enough to know that?” 
「你說什麼，范奎啊？你不是故意的？」秀彬在范奎來得及開口前冷笑。「我知道你不只做過一次。我聽到了，你知道嗎？就是那天你跟我說你踢到腳趾的時候。我他媽又不是白痴，范奎。每次你跟著音樂跳舞，都會跑去練習室。而且你獨自聽的那些音樂慢得根本不能跳舞。你以為我不夠了解你，看不出來嗎？」

Soobin’s speaking in a taunting voice, deep and smug. And holy shit Beomgyu’s a strange mix of turned on and afraid. A shudder runs down his spine as a response to this Soobin. The leader Soobin. The one who’s confident and knows when to take charge. 
秀彬用嘲弄的語氣說著，聲音低沉又自以為是。該死的，范奎此刻既興奮又害怕，這種混雜的感覺詭異極了。他因這樣的秀彬而渾身顫慄——這個隊長秀彬，自信滿滿且知道何時該主導局面。

“You’re a fucking pervert, you know that? Jerking off to your best friend.” Soobin’s tone holds an underlying finality to it that Beomgyu ignores.
「你他媽就是個變態，知道嗎？對著自己最好的朋友打手槍。」秀彬的語氣帶著某種不容置疑的決斷，但范奎選擇忽略。

“What?” Beomgyu is stunned by the hypocrisy of the statement. “ I’m the one jerking off to the thought of my best friend? You’re just as bad as I am!”
「什麼？」范奎被這句話的虛偽震驚了。「我才是那個幻想著最好朋友打手槍的人？你也沒比我好到哪去！」

“How? What did I do?” Soobin’s mocking him now, but the smug look on his face is immediately wiped off when he hears Beomgyu’s next statement. 
「怎麼會？我做了什麼？」秀彬現在正在嘲笑他，但當他聽到範奎接下來的話時，臉上那得意的表情立刻消失了。

“I saw you jerking off to my fancam, hyung. The 0x1 Love Song fancam. I saw my hair and the black outfit.” Now Soobin’s the one scrambling for words to say.
「我看到你對著我的粉絲影片打手槍，哥。那支《0x1=LOVESONG》的粉絲影片。我看到我的頭髮和那套黑色服裝。」現在換秀彬急著想找話說了。

“Well you wouldn’t have seen that if you weren’t fucking spying on me jerking off! You’re still the bigger pervert here!” Soobin knows that’s not necessarily true, but his control is slowly slipping. 
「哼，要不是你他媽的偷看我打手槍，你也不會看到那一幕！你才是這裡最大的變態啦！」秀彬心知肚明這說法未必站得住腳，但他的自制力正逐漸潰堤。

Beomgyu seizes the opening that Soobin has created. Giving him the chance to either take things further or pull away. “Well, what are you going to fucking do about it?” Beomgyu entices him, pulling him in with words alone.
范奎抓住了秀彬創造的機會。給他一個選擇，要嘛更進一步，要嘛就此退開。「所以，你他媽的打算怎麼辦？」范奎用言語引誘著他，僅憑話語就將他拉近。

Soobin doesn’t verbally respond to the question. He grabs Beomgyu by the back of the neck and pulls him in for a searing kiss, eyes squeezed shut and hoping he didn’t misread the signs. 
秀彬沒有用言語回答這個問題。他一把抓住范奎的後頸，將他拉近給予一個熾熱的吻，雙眼緊閉，希望自己沒有會錯意。

Thankfully, he’s right. Beomgyu lets out a satisfied sigh into the kiss and tilts his head to create an easier angle. The kiss is languid and slow, Soobin’s lips moving purposefully against Beomgyu’s. To say that he hadn’t been dreaming of this moment would be a flat out lie.
幸好，他是對的。范奎在吻中滿足地嘆了口氣，微微偏頭調整成更舒適的角度。這個吻慵懶而緩慢，秀彬的唇瓣有意識地摩挲著范奎的。要說他從未幻想過這一刻，那絕對是謊言。

Soobin was always good at knowing how to push all of Beomgyu’s buttons. Tugging on his lower lip and biting gently. Pulling back right when Beomgyu starts to deepen the kiss. It’s the right push and pull that builds a pooling heat at the base of Beomgyu’s stomach. Small noises and groans pour out from Beomgyu’s throat, deep and soft. 
秀彬總是很懂得如何按下范奎的所有開關。輕咬著他的下唇，溫柔地啃噬。就在范奎想要加深這個吻時，他卻突然退開。這種恰到好處的推拉讓范奎下腹竄起一股燥熱。低沉的呻吟從范奎喉間溢出，既深沉又柔軟。

When Beomgyu’s had enough teasing though, he threads his fingers through Soobin’s dark locks and pulls him impossibly closer, immobilizing his head. Where Soobin is gentle and calculated, Beomgyu is aggressive and impulsive, kissing with an open mouth and lots of tongue. Soobin really can’t get enough of it, if the breathy whimpers escaping his lips are any indication.
不過當范奎被逗弄到極限時，他會用手指穿過秀彬深色的髮絲，將對方拉得更近，固定住他的頭部。秀彬的吻總是溫柔而克制，范奎卻充滿侵略性且衝動，張著嘴熱烈地深吻。從秀彬唇間溢出的喘息與嗚咽聲判斷，他顯然對此毫無招架之力。

Beomgyu parts Soobin’s lips with a swipe of his tongue and delves in, exploring the heat of his mouth. Beomgyu’s mouth is hot, minty, and slick. When Soobin pulls back for air, a sticky trail of saliva connects their lips like a tightrope. And Soobin’s walking right along it, teetering to the edge of falling straight off.
範奎用舌尖撬開秀彬的雙唇，深入探索他口腔的熱度。範奎的嘴又熱又滑，帶著薄荷香氣。當秀彬後仰換氣時，黏稠的唾液在兩人唇間拉出細絲，像走鋼索般危險——而秀彬正踩著這條線搖搖欲墜，隨時可能墜落深淵。

Beomgyu surges forward and pulls Soobin in for another kiss, not caring about the saliva that’s leaking out of the corner of his mouth and smearing all over Soobin’s chin. Obscenely wet licks provide the instrumental to the tune of Beomgyu’s groans and Soobin’s whimpers, the deep heaviness of Beomgyu’s voice harmonizing with the pitchy breathiness of Soobin’s. The kiss conveys a sense of urgency and desperation. 
範奎猛然前傾，再度將秀彬拉入親吻，毫不在意唾液從嘴角溢出，沾滿秀彬的下巴。淫靡的水聲伴隨著範奎的低吟與秀彬的嗚咽，前者嗓音的沉厚與後者氣音的尖細竟意外和諧。這個吻充滿迫切與絕望。

Soobin takes the bait like candy, pulling Beomgyu’s red hair and tilting his head backwards so he can lick into his mouth. The mint flavor is everywhere, the heat only grows in intensity, and Soobin can’t help but think about how nice it would feel to have that warmth on his dick instead. 
秀彬像嚐糖果般咬住誘餌，揪著範奎的紅髮讓他仰頭，好讓自己能更深入舔舐他的口腔。薄荷氣息無處不在，熱度持續攀升，秀彬忍不住想像這份溫暖若能包裹自己下身該有多美妙。

Soobin could kiss Beomgyu for hours and not feel unsatisfied in the slightest. But Beomgyu is needy, whining for Soobin to just do something .
秀彬可以親吻范奎好幾個小時，卻絲毫不感到滿足。但范奎總是欲求不滿，哼哼唧唧地要秀彬再多做點什麼。

Soobin wants to drag this out just a bit longer. In reality, he can’t wait to fuck Beomgyu senseless until he’s reduced to incoherent babble. But Beomgyu deserves a little bit of punishment. 
秀彬想再多拖延一會兒。實際上，他已經迫不及待想把範奎操到神智不清、語無倫次。但範奎確實該受點懲罰。

So when Beomgyu starts palming the front of Soobin’s shorts, he stops kissing him and stands up abruptly. One look at Beomgyu’s face tells him that he’s starting to panic. But Beomgyu doesn’t have to wait for long, because he has a brilliant idea. 
所以當範奎開始撫摸秀彬短褲前端時，秀彬突然停止親吻並猛然站起身。只需看一眼範奎的表情，就知道他開始慌了。但範奎不用等太久，因為秀彬有了絕妙的主意。

He goes back to his room and closes the door, then he sticks his head through the hole and calls out, “Beomgyu-ya.”
他回到房間關上門，然後把頭探進那個洞裡喊道：「范奎呀。」

Beomgyu stares at him straight in the eyes with a puzzled expression on his face. Soobin clearly isn’t mad, but he also left him high and dry, so what the hell is going on. 
Beomgyu 一臉困惑地直視著他的眼睛。Soobin 顯然沒有生氣，但他卻把自己晾在一邊，這到底是怎麼回事。

“Beomgyu-ya…I need you to get on all fours and face me.” Still confused, Beomgyu complies, pressing his knees into the firm ground and splaying his hands on the wall for support. 
「Beomgyu 呀...我要你四肢著地面對我。」仍然一頭霧水的 Beomgyu 照做了，膝蓋抵在堅硬的地面上，雙手撐在牆上作為支撐。

Then Soobin drops to his knees, pulls his shorts down, and lets his erect cock meet the hot air. He aims so that his cock is right next to Beomgyu’s face, and Beomgyu’s eyes widen in realization. 
接著 Soobin 跪了下來，拉下自己的短褲，讓勃起的陰莖暴露在熱空氣中。他調整姿勢讓陰莖正好貼近 Beomgyu 的臉，Beomgyu 睜大眼睛終於明白過來。

“Beomie, don’t you think you should make it up to me?” His cock twitches when Beomgyu nods enthusiastically and parts his lips. So pliant and so eager to please. 
「Beomie，你不覺得該補償我嗎？」當 Beomgyu 熱切點頭並張開嘴唇時，他的陰莖抽動了一下。如此順從又急於取悅。

Beomgyu’s staring at his cock for an uncomfortably long amount of time. Normally he’d be a little insecure at the prolonged attention, but he has some newfound confidence and uses it to tease Beomgyu.
范奎盯著自己的老二看了好一段時間，久到讓人覺得不太自在。通常他會因為被這樣長時間注視而感到有點不安，但他最近多了些自信，便藉此來逗弄范奎。

“What’s the matter? Like what you see?” Soobin shakes his hips a little and watches his cock bounce at the movement. Beomgyu’s eyes never leave it, moving side to side at the same time his cock moves. 
「怎麼了？喜歡你看到的嗎？」Soobin 輕輕搖晃臀部，看著自己的陰莖隨之晃動。Beomgyu 的視線始終沒離開過它，隨著那根東西的擺動左右移動。

Beomgyu’s never sucked dick before. He’s taken it up the ass multiple times, but he’s never really wanted to suck anyone off before now. Now, he really wants to take Soobin’s cock as far down his throat as he can.
範奎從來沒幫人吹過。雖然他已經被幹過好幾次，但直到現在他才真正有想替人含的慾望。此刻，他渴望將秀彬的陰莖盡可能深地吞進喉嚨裡。

But his inexperience shows, because Beomgyu can’t even make it halfway before gagging. Soobin braces his hands on the wall so he doesn’t involuntarily jerk his hips forward. Beomgyu gives his cock tentative licks and lightly sucks, relishing in the groan that Soobin lets out at the slightest ministration. 
但生澀的技巧出賣了他——範奎甚至連一半都含不進去就開始乾嘔。秀彬雙手抵著牆壁，避免自己失控地向前頂胯。範奎試探性地舔弄著那根性器，輕輕吸吮，陶醉於秀彬因這微小侍奉而發出的呻吟。

When Beomgyu finally manages to take half the length without gagging, it’s as if a switch had been flipped in his brain. The hesitancy gives way to unashamed confidence, Beomgyu hollowing his cheeks and sucking at the right intensity, swirling his tongue around the shaft and tip and he works his way up and down. 
當範奎終於能含進半根而不作嘔時，他腦中彷彿有某個開關被觸動了。猶豫褪去，取而代之的是毫無羞恥的自信。範奎鼓起腮幫子，以恰到好處的力道吸吮，舌尖纏繞著柱身與頂端，上下吞吐起來。

Soobin can feel his orgasm rapidly approaching, and Beomgyu can feel it to by the way Soobin’s hips stutter against his tongue, the words “ ‘m gonna cum Beomie” pouring from Soobin’s lips like a mantra. His voice grows higher in pitch, becoming a breathless falsetto that sounds prettier than any song Beomgyu’s listened to.
秀彬能感覺到自己的高潮即將來臨，而玟奎也從秀彬臀部在他舌頭上的顫動察覺到了，那句「我要射了玟奎」像咒語般不斷從秀彬唇間溢出。他的音調越來越高，變成氣若游絲的假音，比玟奎聽過的任何歌曲都要美妙。

When he cums, it’s hot and heavy, rushing down Beomgyu’s throat and filling his mouth as some of it spills out. The amount of cum that comes out is obscene , dripping down Beomgyu’s chin onto the hoodie he’s wearing— Soobin’s hoodie. 
當他射精時，那股熱流又濃又急，直衝進范奎的喉嚨，灌滿他的口腔，甚至有些從嘴角溢了出來。精液的量多到淫穢的程度，順著范奎的下巴滴落在他穿著的連帽衫上——是守彬的連帽衫。

His cock twitches a little at the scene as the last spurts of cum sputter out into Beomgyu’s waiting mouth. Not once does Beomgyu pull out during the whole ordeal, even when the bitter taste of cum overwhelms his senses. 
他的陰莖因眼前的景象微微抽動，最後幾股精液噴濺進范奎張開等待的嘴裡。整個過程中范奎一次都沒有退開，即使精液的苦味充斥了他的感官。

Beomgyu sticks his tongue out in an alluring visual, white cum mixed with sticky saliva and dripping onto the hoodie. Some of the cum smeared on his lips and on the edges of his mouth, blending with the swollen pinkness of his lips and the tart redness of his cheeks. 
范奎伸出舌頭構成誘人畫面，混著黏稠唾液的白濁液體滴落在連帽衫上。有些精液沾在他的唇邊與嘴角，與他腫脹的粉嫩唇瓣和泛紅的臉頰融為一體。

Then he makes a show of swallowing it all, spreading the leftover cum onto his lips and licking it up. It’s obscene and whorish, the way Beomgyu scoops up the cum from his hoodie onto his fingers and licks his lips, closing his eyes as if he’s relishing the taste. 
接著他刻意表演般吞下所有精液，把殘留在唇上的白濁抹開再舔乾淨。范奎從連帽衫上刮起精液沾上手指、舔著嘴唇閉眼品味的模樣，簡直淫亂又下賤。

Soobin’s too far gone to speak, his cock weakly twitches at the arousing visual even though he’s oversensitive and spent. 
秀彬已經累到說不出話來，儘管他已經過度敏感且筋疲力盡，但眼前這刺激的景象仍讓他那話兒微微抽動。

After catching his breath, Soobin stands up and makes his way back to Beomgyu’s room with a bottle of lube and a pack of condoms in his hand.
喘過氣後，玟爀站起身，手裡握著一瓶潤滑液和一盒保險套，朝範奎的房間走去。

Beomgyu probably should take Soobin’s hoodie off. It’s hot, it’s sweaty, and the cum will surely leave obvious stains. 
範奎或許該把玟爀的連帽衫脫掉。天氣很熱，渾身是汗，而且精液肯定會留下明顯的污漬。

He grabs the base of the hoodie and attempts to pull it off in one swift motion, but Soobin grabs his wrist and stops him. 
他抓住連帽衫下襬，試圖一鼓作氣脫掉它，但玟爀突然扣住他的手腕制止了動作。

“No, keep the hoodie on. It looks good on you.” Beomgyu’s about to protest when Soobin adds, “I want to fuck you silly while you’re drowning in my hoodie. Only for me.” And Beomgyu can’t argue with that logic. 
「別脫，繼續穿著。」玟爀的嗓音帶著不容反駁的意味，「你穿我的衣服很好看。」正當範奎要抗議時，他又補了句：「我想看你被我的連帽衫淹沒時傻掉的樣子。只屬於我的模樣。」這番話讓範奎頓時啞口無言。

Soobin discards his own shirt, though, leaving him bare for Beomgyu to explore. Beomgyu’s mouth immediately latches onto the smooth expanse of his chest and leaves bruising kisses all over the creamy skin. 
秀彬隨手丟開自己的上衣，赤裸著上身讓範圭探索。範圭的嘴立刻貼上他光滑的胸膛，在如奶油般的肌膚上留下一個個瘀青的吻痕。

Red love bites litter Soobin’s broad chest, which Beomgyu soothes with a lap of his tongue. Soobin’s voice is reduced to a whimpering mess of “Beomgyu-ya” as he lets Beomgyu explore. When Beomgyu’s lips enclose one of his nipples and sucks, Soobin keens , a unique sound Beomgyu’s never heard before, but one he wants to hear again and again. His hand snakes up and fondles the neglected nipple until Soobin is squirming beneath him. 
秀彬寬闊的胸膛上散落著紅色的吻痕，範圭用舌尖輕輕撫過。當範圭開始探索時，秀彬的聲音只剩下斷斷續續的「範圭呀」的嗚咽。當範圭的唇含住其中一顆乳尖吸吮時，秀彬發出一聲高亢的呻吟——這是範圭從未聽過的獨特聲音，卻讓他想要一再回味。他的手悄悄上移，撫弄著另一顆被冷落的乳尖，直到秀彬在他身下難耐地扭動。

Once Soobin’s hard again, he grabs Beomgyu and flips him over with shockingly little effort. That shouldn’t be surprising given how he punched a literal hole in two walls at the same time, but it’s still a turn on, and Beomgyu moans at being handled like he weighs nothing . 
當秀彬再次硬起來時，他一把抓住范奎，輕而易舉地將他翻了個面。考慮到他剛剛同時在兩面牆上打出個洞來，這點力氣本不該讓人驚訝，但這依然令人興奮，范奎被像對待無物般擺弄時發出了呻吟。

Soobin marks up Beomgyu’s body with even more fervor, leaving large, open-mouthed kisses on the skin beneath Soobin’s hoodie. Beomgyu bucks his hips and thrashes, moaning obscenely. It’s a blessing that the dorm is empty; otherwise, everyone would be able to hear the sounds that Soobin wants to keep to himself. 
秀彬更加熱切地在范奎身上留下印記，隔著自己的連帽衫在范奎的肌膚上烙下一個個張嘴的深吻。范奎扭動著腰肢，激烈掙扎，發出淫靡的呻吟。幸好宿舍裡空無一人；否則所有人都會聽見秀彬只想獨佔的那些聲音。

Beomgyu’s body is covered in reddening marks and saliva from Soobin’s tongue, leaving pretty trails up and down the length of Beomgyu’s abdomen. His navel is coated with a mix of precum and sweat. His skin’s glistening from the accumulating sweat from how hot it is under Soobin’s hoodie. Soobin’s hot breath leaves ghosting kisses and elicits a shiver down his spine. 
範奎的身上佈滿了因秀彬的舌頭而泛紅的痕跡和唾液，沿著他的腹部上下留下美麗的軌跡。他的肚臍混合著前液與汗水。在秀彬連帽衫下的高溫中，他因不斷累積的汗水而閃閃發光。秀彬熾熱的氣息留下如幽靈般的親吻，引發他脊椎一陣顫慄。

Beomgyu is so hopelessly turned on. Watching as Soobin pours all his attention to Beomgyu’s body, mumbling undulating praises that make Beomgyu’s stomach swirl. 
范奎已經徹底被撩撥得神魂顛倒。看著秀彬將全部注意力傾注在自己身上，嘴裡喃喃吐出那些讓范奎小腹發顫的綿綿情話。

“Beomgyu-ya, I can’t believe how gorgeous you are. I can’t take my eyes off you. Your body is so soft and tiny.” Soobin splays his hand over Beomgyu’s abdomen and watches it cover his entire waist, then he wraps his hands around his small waistline and stares with rapt fascination as it manages to wrap around most of his waist.
「範奎啊，我簡直不敢相信你有多美。我的視線完全無法從你身上移開。你的身體如此柔軟又嬌小。」秀彬將手攤平覆蓋在範奎的腹部，看著自己的手掌幾乎能包覆他整個腰際，接著雙手環抱住那纖細的腰線，著迷地凝視著自己的手臂幾乎能環繞住他大半個腰身。

“You react to every single touch I give you like you can’t get enough. I can’t get enough of you.” Soobin drums his fingers up and down Beomgyu’s body and relishes the way Beomgyu’s back arches at the slightest of touches.
「我每次碰觸你，你都會有反應，好像永遠都不夠似的。而我對你也永遠都不夠。」秀彬的手指在範奎身上來回輕敲，享受著範奎連最輕微的碰觸都會弓起背脊的反應。

“I love the noises you make when I do this.” He wraps his heart-shaped lips around Beomgyu’s perky nipple, swiping the bud with his tongue back and forth. He can feel the vibrations of his chest from Beomgyu’s deep voice beneath his lips as he presses soft kisses to the sensitive skin. 
「我愛死了當我這樣做時你發出的聲音。」他將心型唇瓣含住範奎挺立的乳尖，用舌頭來回舔弄那小巧的突起。當他輕吻著這片敏感肌膚時，能透過唇瓣感受到範奎低沉嗓音引起的胸膛震動。

Soobin’s hand trails downward, running his fingers up and down Beomgyu’s rim absentmindedly and feeling it twitch at the slightest touch. When Soobin pulls his head back, he’s greeted with the prettiest sight he’s ever seen. Beomgyu’s lips parted, swollen, spit-licked, whispering Soobin’s name in that beautiful voice of his. His chest rises and falls in a hypnotic rhythm. One of Beomgyu’s arms is splayed over his face with the other tucked above his head, simultaneously covering up and exposing himself. Beomgyu’s usual confidence is replaced by a sexy shyness at being ravished so thoroughly. 
秀彬的手向下游移，心不在焉地用指尖在範奎的邊緣上下輕撫，感受那處隨著最輕微的觸碰而顫動。當秀彬抬起頭時，眼前呈現的是他此生見過最美的景象。範奎的雙唇微張、紅腫濕潤，用他那迷人的嗓音輕喚著秀彬的名字。他的胸膛以令人著迷的節奏起伏。範奎一隻手臂橫亙在臉前，另一隻則蜷在頭頂上方，既像遮掩又像暴露自己。平日自信的範奎此刻因被徹底佔有而流露出性感的羞怯。

His neck is exposed, begging to be marked up, but he can’t because then he’ll get the lecture of a lifetime. But the forbidden fruit is tempting him. He noses at his neck and licks gently, resisting the urge to suck. Soft, soft kisses littered along the beautiful curves of Beomgyu’s neck, feeling the tickle of Beomgyu’s breathy gasps on the top of his scalp. He can’t get enough of the feeling of Beomgyu beneath his hands and lips. Beneath him.
他的頸部裸露著，彷彿在乞求被留下印記，但他不能這麼做，否則將會換來一輩子的說教。但禁果的誘惑實在太強。他用鼻尖輕蹭著那頸項，溫柔地舔舐，強忍著吸吮的衝動。輕柔的吻如雨點般落在范奎優美的頸部曲線上，他能感受到范奎急促的喘息拂過自己的頭頂。他永遠無法滿足於范奎在他雙手與唇下的觸感。在他身下的觸感。

It’s not often that Beomgyu offers control to someone else. Outside the bedroom, and even partly in it, there’s a push and pull. But here, Beomgyu’s practically gives himself to Soobin, handing the reins without much of a fuss, and he’s more than happy to oblige him. 
通常，范奎不會輕易將控制權交給別人。在臥室之外，甚至在某種程度上在臥室內，總有一番你來我往的角力。但在這裡，范奎幾乎是將自己完全交給了秀彬，毫不猶豫地交出主導權，而他也樂於順從對方。

Beomgyu’s completely ready for Soobin to just fuck him, but Soobin’s taking his sweet time, half indulging himself and half teasing Beomgyu. He reaches for the lube as slowly as he can, making a show out of letting it sloppily drip onto his large fingers and spreading it meticulously over each finger on his left hand. 
范奎已經完全準備好讓秀彬直接上他，但秀彬卻慢條斯理地享受著，一半在自我放縱，一半在挑逗范奎。他刻意以最緩慢的速度伸手去拿潤滑液，誇張地讓液體滴落在他粗大的手指上，再細緻地塗抹在左手的每根指頭。

When he presses in the first finger, Beomgyu hisses at the cold and welcomed contact. Beomgyu hadn’t fingered himself or fucked himself in ages , so he’s tighter than usual. 
當第一根手指進入時，范奎因冰冷卻又渴望的接觸而倒抽一口氣。他已經很久沒自己擴張或自慰了，所以比平常更緊緻。

The stretch becomes a pleasurable burn within seconds of entering him. Soobin slowly pulls one finger in and out, crooking it as he thrusts in and twisting it as he pulls out. Somehow, Soobin is better at fingering Beomgyu than Beomgyu is at fingering himself. There’s no way he’s ever going to live without Soobin now. 
不過幾秒鐘，撐開的疼痛就轉變成愉悅的灼熱感。秀彬緩緩抽送著手指，插入時彎曲指節，抽出時又扭轉指尖。不知為何，秀彬幫范奎擴張的技巧，竟比范奎自己來得更好。這下他這輩子都離不開秀彬了。

After his finger practically glides in, he slowly pushes in a second, repeating the steady pattern of in and out. Beomgyu’s whines are loud and raspy, begging Soobin to press his sweet spot that’s a little to the left. But Soobin’s precariously avoiding that spot because he doesn’t want Beomgyu to cum before Soobin can fuck him. 
當他的手指幾乎滑入後，他緩緩推進第二根，重複著穩定的抽插節奏。Beomgyu 的嗚咽聲既大又沙啞，哀求著 Soobin 能按壓他稍微偏左的敏感點。但 Soobin 小心翼翼地避開那個位置，因為他不想在能真正進入 Beomgyu 之前就讓他高潮。

He adds a third and fourth finger simultaneously. His patience is wearing thin, and he’s worried that Beomgyu is going to cum any second now. 
他同時加入第三和第四根手指。耐心正逐漸消磨殆盡，他擔心范奎隨時都會射出來。

When the glide is relatively smooth and there’s no more resistance, he abruptly removes his fingers without any warning and strokes his cock, applying a generous amount of lube and spreading it all over. 
當進出變得相對順暢且不再有阻力時，他毫無預警地突然抽出手指，轉而握住自己的陰莖，塗抹大量潤滑液並均勻塗開。

Soobin grabs Beomgyu’s legs and hooks them over his shoulders. Then, he leans forward so that Beomgyu’s practically folded in half. Beomgyu crosses his feet behind Soobin’s head and pulls Soobin down for a final kiss before they fuck. Soobin carefully lines himself with Beomgyu’s entrance and grabs Beomgyu’s waist, giving him leverage to push in. 
秀彬抓住范奎的雙腿架在自己肩上，接著向前傾身讓范奎幾乎對折。范奎將雙腳交叉勾在秀彬腦後，在正式交合前將秀彬拉下來最後一吻。秀彬仔細對準范奎的入口，握住他的腰際作為支點緩緩推進。

“Wait, hyung…” Beomgyu’s a little hesitant, and Soobin immediately stills. Although Beomgyu just sucked him off, from this angle, Soobin’s dick looms menacingly over Beomgyu, and the length seems to have doubled in the short time between then and now. 
「等等，哥...」范奎顯得有些猶豫，秀彬立刻靜止不動。儘管范奎剛才才為他口交過，但從這個角度望去，秀彬的陰莖在范奎上方顯得威嚇十足，而自方才至今的短暫時間內，那長度似乎又增長了一倍。

“Your cock is so big. It’s not going to fit” Beomgyu’s not even exaggerating. If it were any of the other members, there’d be some corniness to the statement because none of them are well endowed the way Soobin is. Some of the other members are above average, sure. But Soobin is huge . The biggest amongst all of them by a long shot. 
「你的老二好大，根本塞不進來啦」范奎這話可沒半點誇張。要是換成其他成員說這種話，聽起來肯定很假，因為沒人有秀彬那種天賦異稟的尺寸。其他成員有些確實比平均值大沒錯，但秀彬根本是巨獸等級——而且還是遙遙領先所有人的那種。

“Don’t worry, Beomie. Hyung’s gonna make sure it fits.” Soobin doesn’t move, not until Beomgyu gives him the green light. 
「別擔心，Beomie。哥會確保它合適的。」Soobin 沒有動作，直到 Beomgyu 給他開綠燈。

“Just…just be gentle, Soobin hyung. I’m not a virgin and I’ve taken it up the ass before but…” Beomgyu vaguely gestures to Soobin’s cock, “I’ve never taken anything this big before.”
「只是...溫柔點，Soobin 哥。我不是處男，也試過後面，但是...」Beomgyu 模糊地比了比 Soobin 的下體，「我從沒試過這麼大的。」

Soobin runs his hands up and down the sides of Beomgyu’s body before pushing in. It’s a tad too fast and Beomgyu scrunches his face in discomfort, but Soobin’s soothing ministrations help him relax enough to make the glide tolerable. 
秀彬的手在範奎的身體兩側上下遊移，然後猛然挺入。動作有些過於急促，範奎因不適而皺起臉，但秀彬溫柔的撫慰讓他逐漸放鬆，使這次的抽送變得可以忍受。

Soon, Soobin’s fully seated inside Beomgyu, and he holds it there until Beomgyu can comfortably adjust. Without moving his cock, Soobin grabs a clean pillow and places it under Beomgyu’s back. A sweet gesture because he’s certain Beomgyu will get friction burn without it. 
很快地，Soobin 完全進入了 Beomgyu 體內，他保持著這個姿勢，直到 Beomgyu 能夠舒適地適應。Soobin 沒有移動他的陰莖，而是抓起一個乾淨的枕頭墊在 Beomgyu 的背部下方。這個貼心的舉動是因為他確信若沒有這個緩衝，Beomgyu 的背部會因摩擦而受傷。

Beomgyu squirms a little, adjusting to the sudden intrusion. He can feel Soobin all the way in his stomach—he can actually see a slight bulge in his lower abdomen. Soobin’s patience is remarkable, because the way Beomgyu squirms and writhes sends jolts of pleasure up his body as Beomgyu’s walls rub against his cock. 
Beomgyu 微微扭動著身體，試圖適應這突如其來的侵入。他能感覺到 Soobin 直抵他的腹部深處——他甚至能看見自己下腹部微微隆起。Soobin 的耐心令人驚嘆，因為當 Beomgyu 扭動掙扎時，內壁摩擦著他的陰莖，陣陣快感如電流般竄遍全身。

Finally, after what feels like an eternity, Beomgyu gives Soobin the green light. Soobin pulls out slowly until only the head is left, and right when Beomgyu’s about to whine about the loss of contact, he pushes back in, slamming his hips into Beomgyu’s thighs. A choked-out moan is ripped out from Beomgyu’s thorat as Soobin sets a brutal, unforgiving pace. 
終於，在彷彿永恆的等待後，范奎給了秀彬許可。秀彬緩緩退出直到只剩頂端，就在范奎即將因失去接觸而抱怨時，他又猛然挺入，將胯部重重撞上范奎的大腿。當秀彬開始殘酷無情的節奏時，一聲壓抑的呻吟從范奎喉嚨深處被硬生生擠出。

Beomgyu’s head is lolled to the side and he’s drooling all over the sheets, saliva coming out of his mouth in obscene amounts. His words are completely slurred, and he sounds like he’s drunk. 
範奎的頭歪向一邊，口水把床單弄得濕漉漉的，嘴裡不斷流出大量唾液。他的話語含糊不清，聽起來就像喝醉了一樣。

“ Hyung hyung hyung faster more please Soobin hyung faster faster faster ” He’s not even speaking coherently, one word mixing with the next. He sounds delirious, and Soobin’s eating it up wholeheartedly. 
「哥...哥...哥...快點...再快點...求你了...秀彬哥...快點...快點...快點...」他連話都說不清楚，字句全都混在一起。聽起來神智不清的樣子，而秀彬卻全盤接受、甘之如飴。

Beomgyu’s hands are scratching Soobin’s muscular back, leaving pretty pink streaks that complement the red marks on the front. Soobin’s head is bent forward in utmost concentration, the only sounds leaving his lips are breathy huffs mixed with soft whines. 
範奎的手抓撓著秀彬結實的背部，留下漂亮的粉紅色抓痕，與胸前的紅印相映成趣。秀彬低著頭全神貫注，從他唇間逸出的只有混雜著輕微嗚咽的急促喘息聲。

Beomgyu clenches around Soobin’s cock as he rapidly approaches his orgasm, Soobin’s orgasm not far behind. 
範奎緊縮著包圍秀彬的陰莖，他正迅速逼近高潮，而秀彬的釋放也緊隨其後。

It’s Soobin who cums first, slowing his thrusts to a shallow stutter as he rides the waves, feeling the cum start to leak out and spread along Beomgyu’s thighs. When he’s done, he pulls out and watches the cum follow, dripping onto the sheets and onto the pillow behind Beomgyu.
卻是秀彬先射了出來，他放緩抽插的節奏轉為淺淺的顫動，讓快感如浪般襲來，感受精液開始流出並沿著範奎的大腿蔓延。結束後，他抽出身來，看著白濁液體隨之滴落，沾濕床單和範奎腦後的枕頭。

Beomgyu takes a deep breath and starts to reach down to finish himself off when Soobin slaps his hand away. 
範奎深吸一口氣，正準備伸手自己解決時，秀彬拍開了他的手。

“No, I’m gonna take care of you now.” Soobin goes on his knees and Beomgyu thinks he’s about to get a blowjob. 
「不行，現在換我來照顧你。」秀彬跪了下來，範奎以為自己即將獲得口交服務。

Instead, he feels a wetness at his entrance and realizes that no, Soobin isn’t giving him head. He’s eating him out . In the obscenest manner possible.
相反地，他感覺到入口處一陣濕潤，這才意識到不，秀彬並不是在幫他口交。他正在用最下流的方式舔弄他。

Soobin is eating his own cum out. 
秀彬正在吃自己的精液。

Beomgyu’s hands latch onto Soobin’s scalp and pull hard. His thighs involuntarily squeeze together, essentially muffling any sounds. Soobin finds himself enjoying the pressure much more than he thought, especially because Beomgyu’s thighs are so muscular and smooth.
範奎的手緊抓住秀彬的頭皮用力拉扯。他的大腿不自覺地夾緊，幾乎壓抑了所有聲音。秀彬發現自己比預期中更享受這種壓迫感，尤其是範奎的大腿如此結實又光滑。

Soobin’s tongue is lapping in a whorish manner, leaving wet streaks all over his ass and his thighs. He can feel the cum pouring onto Soobin’s tongue, and when Soobin lifts his head to look at Beomgyu, all Beomgyu can see is white smeared all over his face. Soobin’s cheeks are a deep tinge of red from being trapped between Beomgyu’s twitching thighs.
秀彬的舌頭淫靡地舔舐著，在他臀部和腿間留下濕漉漉的痕跡。他能感覺到精液正流淌在秀彬的舌頭上，當秀彬抬頭望向範奎時，範奎只看見他臉上滿是濁白的液體。秀彬的臉頰因被夾在範奎顫抖的大腿間而泛起深紅。

It should be gross, Soobin’s cum mixed with his own taste. But he finds it hopelessly erotic, kissing him hard and devouring the flavor. Soobin pokes his finger back in and leans back down to lick around the digit.
這本該令人作嘔——秀彬的精液混著他自己的味道。但他卻覺得該死地性感，用力吻住對方吞噬這股滋味。秀彬將手指再次探入，俯身舔舐著那根手指周圍。

Soobin adds another finger and this time, he prods at the spot Beomgyu so desperately wanted him to touch. Soobin is rewarded with a rich, choked-out moan that’s a mix of “Soobin hyung” and “ feels so good ”.
秀彬又加了一根手指，這次他戳中了范奎拼命想讓他碰觸的那個點。秀彬收穫了一聲濃郁而壓抑的呻吟，混雜著「秀彬哥」和「好舒服」的囈語。

“ O-oh Soobin hyung, right there please don’t stop I’m so close ” Beomgyu’s voice is heavy and thick, unlike anything Soobin has ever heard. Just for him to hear and no one else. 
「噢...秀彬哥，就是那裡...拜託別停...我快到了...」范奎的聲音低沉而濃重，是秀彬從未聽過的模樣。只為他一人綻放，不讓他人窺見。

Beomgyu cums beautifully, back arched, lips open, brows lightly scrunched, wet eyes pressed shut. His cum mostly lands on Soobin’s hoodie, some of it landing on Soobin’s hair (he doesn’t really know how, probably because his hips stuttered through the orgasm).
范奎高潮的模樣美得驚人——背脊弓起、雙唇微張、眉頭輕蹙，濕潤的雙眼緊閉著。他的精液大多濺在秀彬的連帽衫上，有些甚至沾到了秀彬髮間（他其實不太明白怎麼會這樣，或許是因為高潮時腰肢顫抖得太厲害）。

Soobin can feel the rim clenching around his tongue, and he withdraws once Beomgyu’s done cumming. His thighs are still shaking around Soobin’s head from the force of the orgasm that was ripped out of him. 
秀彬能感覺到穴口緊絞著他的舌頭，待范奎射精結束後才緩緩退出。那雙大腿仍因強制高潮的餘韻，在秀彬頭側不住顫抖。

Soobin stands up slowly and takes in the scene below him before retreating to grab a wet towel to wipe them both down. Mostly Beomgyu, who’s covered in a cacophony of saliva, sweat, and cum. A stunning picture that would probably make Soobin hard again if he didn’t cum two times in a row.
秀彬緩緩起身，將身下光景盡收眼底後，才轉身取來濕毛巾為兩人擦拭。主要是清理范奎身上混雜著唾液、汗水與精液的狼藉。這幅驚豔畫面若非秀彬已連續射精兩次，恐怕又會讓他硬得發疼。

Soobin gently peels the sweat-soaked hoodie off of Beomgyu and starts wiping him down. The cool washcloth soothes the heat on Beomgyu’s body and he sighs contentedly. The stickiness that coated his thighs is replaced with the usual soft texture. 
秀彬輕輕地將那件被汗水浸濕的連帽衫從范奎身上剝下，開始替他擦拭身體。冰涼的毛巾舒緩了范奎身上的燥熱，他滿足地嘆了口氣。原本黏膩的大腿肌膚又恢復了往常的柔軟觸感。

Soobin takes his hoodie and smells it. It smells like a heady mix of sweat, Beomgyu’s floral shampoo, Beomgyu’s lavender deodorant, his own fruity shampoo, cum, and an enticing mix of smells that smell distinctly like Beomgyu. He wishes he could make a candle that smells like Beomgyu. 
秀彬拿起他的連帽衫聞了聞。那味道像是汗水、範奎的花香洗髮精、範奎的薰衣草體香劑、他自己水果味的洗髮精、精液，還有各種誘人氣味的混合，聞起來就是範奎的味道。他真希望能做一個聞起來像範奎的蠟燭。

After cleaning Beomgyu thoroughly and quickly wiping himself down, he lays down next to Beomgyu and snuggles against him, not even minding the sticky heat that settles between them. 
徹底幫玟奎清理乾淨並快速擦拭自己後，他躺到玟奎身旁依偎著他，甚至不在意兩人之間黏膩的燥熱。

“So…” comes Beomgyu’s voice. “Can we do that again sometime?”
「所以...」玟奎開口。「我們下次還能再這樣嗎？」

And Soobin laughs. A loud, giddy laugh that only Beomgyu can pull out of him. 
於是秀彬笑了。那種只有玟奎能讓他發出的、響亮而暈眩的笑聲。

“I wouldn’t have it any other way.”
「我求之不得。」